Typing this otw to morning shift again.. Looks like I like to pen my thoughts down when I travel ;) 2016 will be an exciting year filled with a big project that involves a lot of people :p nt feeling the real jitters yet but I definitely is not alone in this big project.
I just did a journal club presentation in ward.. Had few days of preparation cos I rly dislike presentations. & whew its over! This month itself is filled with work stuff like courses n ppt.. & in march, my focus will be shifted..
Will drop by to share more thoughts and xperiences. Yesterday was a plug setting n bloods day.. N I counted like 6 patients just in a general ward shift. Felt a sense of accomplishment w team work. Work brings new n good learning xperiences each day.. N Im enjoying it (so far), before a massive number of ppl leave the ward to seek what they truly want to do.
Then for me I will be stucked in e ward cos I still dk what exactly I want to do next :p thou no harm being in my multidisplinary ward cos I cn learn new things. N Im nt a career ambitious person to begin with. Thou I have the vision of being a specialty clinician in e future when I started out my career.. To be honest thats actually a non compulsory goal.. Haha. Shall see how..
Tts all for nw! Reaching hospital! ;)
Her dreamy reality
Tuesday, January 12, 2016
Monday, September 29, 2014
Milestone @ 24yo
Good morning World!
Typing this on my way to morning shift~ missing my blog a lil. Life's so far so good :) Being proposed to few weeks ago.. it was sth rly dreamy and sincerely sweet from my husband-to-be. Decorated picnic mat.. a song that he has been practising on a guitar for months w no music background.. handmade Carousel artpiece w the ring inside.. an audience w random professional photographers around who shared the photos tt they captured.. my fav foos cooked in a spread by him & his frens.. that very day was an initial mindblank, heart thumping moment, filled w sweetness & feeling rly rly touched by all that he had planned & did. The whole proposal scene could be re-enacted over and over again.. sth unforgettable as a milestone in life :)
The ward managers at work were asking if I wanna further studies. But well.. the stagnant me dont feel like moving :p many training leaves are coming up for me. ICA, research, an expo healthcare seminar.. lots more to learn! Cant wait! :p
Typing this on my way to morning shift~ missing my blog a lil. Life's so far so good :) Being proposed to few weeks ago.. it was sth rly dreamy and sincerely sweet from my husband-to-be. Decorated picnic mat.. a song that he has been practising on a guitar for months w no music background.. handmade Carousel artpiece w the ring inside.. an audience w random professional photographers around who shared the photos tt they captured.. my fav foos cooked in a spread by him & his frens.. that very day was an initial mindblank, heart thumping moment, filled w sweetness & feeling rly rly touched by all that he had planned & did. The whole proposal scene could be re-enacted over and over again.. sth unforgettable as a milestone in life :)
The ward managers at work were asking if I wanna further studies. But well.. the stagnant me dont feel like moving :p many training leaves are coming up for me. ICA, research, an expo healthcare seminar.. lots more to learn! Cant wait! :p
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
At unearthly hours..
Hello World.
Yesterday I had a really occupied morning shift. Got back home, bathe, swift eat, and zonk out at 7pm till 2am this morning. As I woke up, I instantly said to myself: please let it be healthy morning hours! But dang.. 2am seriously?? Then I counted the number of hours that I slept.. 7 :O 7hours.. But I still feel.. Tired. Prolly because the unhealthy hour of waking up disappoints my body. Or maybe 'cause it's a monthly girls thing..
& so I watched drama & music videos from 2-5am, as well as chat with my friend who was on night shift. Tried to fall back to sleep thereafter which took a bit of effort. Woke up at abt 11am and even took a nap in the afternoon. Like woah.. Why so tired.
Work has been occupied. Always on the ground, mind always sequencing the amount of tasks that I need to complete. I feel really thankful and relieved when I get to knock off on time. Maybe some days without going for break. Felt sorry for my stomach, but always replenish it back before I sleep. I'm not sure how long I will stay in this line of nursing. But all these while I have survived working in a hectic environment, and enjoyed picking up new knowledge each time. Maybe my future path will be clearer when my bond is ending next August..
Yesterday I had a really occupied morning shift. Got back home, bathe, swift eat, and zonk out at 7pm till 2am this morning. As I woke up, I instantly said to myself: please let it be healthy morning hours! But dang.. 2am seriously?? Then I counted the number of hours that I slept.. 7 :O 7hours.. But I still feel.. Tired. Prolly because the unhealthy hour of waking up disappoints my body. Or maybe 'cause it's a monthly girls thing..
& so I watched drama & music videos from 2-5am, as well as chat with my friend who was on night shift. Tried to fall back to sleep thereafter which took a bit of effort. Woke up at abt 11am and even took a nap in the afternoon. Like woah.. Why so tired.
Work has been occupied. Always on the ground, mind always sequencing the amount of tasks that I need to complete. I feel really thankful and relieved when I get to knock off on time. Maybe some days without going for break. Felt sorry for my stomach, but always replenish it back before I sleep. I'm not sure how long I will stay in this line of nursing. But all these while I have survived working in a hectic environment, and enjoyed picking up new knowledge each time. Maybe my future path will be clearer when my bond is ending next August..
Monday, February 24, 2014
A Date with my tired soul
I ended work with a tired soul, returning home via walking and public transport. In daze, in the recuperating state of the mind.. My brain suddenly snapped as it registered a familiar face at the mrt seats. I went up to have a small chat with my fellow ex-school mate. & left,at my stop. I passed by KFC. Craving for popcorn chicken suddenly appeared as I salivate at the thought that my soul will be brighten up with a reward (as popcorn chicken was one of my all-time fave in the past). So I went to join the reasonably long queue to purchase it, not caring whether how many buses hav I missed from queuing of my comfort food. My legs were sore, I felt giddy. My work was havoc in the morning shift and that left me still very hungry after I gulped down my milo drink which a colleague bought for me. I guess my soul was v hungry, way more than hypoglycemic state, with the only thought of 'don't u faint on me. I'm buying u ur comfort food so that u will feel better (happier)'
Through all these inner thoughts, I comfort myself.. For surviving a havoc shift. For scraping through it like a robot who was numb to feel things. Why am Im feeling this way.. I asked myself. I can now clearly answer it after finishing my comfort food: cos I was so pissed at situations, particular persons, and at myself. For having a sucky junior (3yrs~ experience)at work who fail to understand my situation. For telling me 'huh, Why u didn't put it up.' When she is supposed to (& can) do it. And failing to know that I myself is really very busy with countless of unfinished follow ups and changes to do. The shift was busy until I just kept doing one thing after another, non stop. While my very helpful overall in charge rly alleviate my workload well by settling almost all my IV infusions (electrolyte replacements, blood transfusion, antibiotics...
*SNAP* bring me out of the hectic shift bubble memory! I feel tired observing ugly inner personalities around.. I feel tired watching facades.. I feel tired watching how ppl can bite u on ur tail without u knowing. I feel like hiding away from this working society, to avoid being 'harmed, eaten, making use of..' Well, not exactly eaten, but being a bystander to witness such undesirable characters existing in real life. I see it in my nursing career. Yes, don't be shocked at how nurses can bite. Bite colleagues, that is. & it makes me want to protect myself even more. By withdrawing myself.
I need strength. Strength to bring me back to my own world, my comfort zone after a tiring day at work. To be able to remember what I usually do to slack (like surfing my usual websites..) to remember that I have a life of my own after work. to replenish my energy and get back on life, and chuck thoughts of work aside. Nursing is not easy to begin with. We make sacrifices to our life and health, cos we don't pee, drink, eat, until we remember to (after we settled our never ending work/until bladder calls for help).
I often ask myself after each hectic shift: why make yourself so tired? And my answer to that is: cos I have the interest to nurse patients, to link their diagnosis to their signs and symptoms and watch them get well under my care. But I know, deep down in my heart, that I will choose another path in the near future to do some justice to myself. Although I have not find a definite route yet, I know I eventually will.. With time.
Through all these inner thoughts, I comfort myself.. For surviving a havoc shift. For scraping through it like a robot who was numb to feel things. Why am Im feeling this way.. I asked myself. I can now clearly answer it after finishing my comfort food: cos I was so pissed at situations, particular persons, and at myself. For having a sucky junior (3yrs~ experience)at work who fail to understand my situation. For telling me 'huh, Why u didn't put it up.' When she is supposed to (& can) do it. And failing to know that I myself is really very busy with countless of unfinished follow ups and changes to do. The shift was busy until I just kept doing one thing after another, non stop. While my very helpful overall in charge rly alleviate my workload well by settling almost all my IV infusions (electrolyte replacements, blood transfusion, antibiotics...
*SNAP* bring me out of the hectic shift bubble memory! I feel tired observing ugly inner personalities around.. I feel tired watching facades.. I feel tired watching how ppl can bite u on ur tail without u knowing. I feel like hiding away from this working society, to avoid being 'harmed, eaten, making use of..' Well, not exactly eaten, but being a bystander to witness such undesirable characters existing in real life. I see it in my nursing career. Yes, don't be shocked at how nurses can bite. Bite colleagues, that is. & it makes me want to protect myself even more. By withdrawing myself.
I need strength. Strength to bring me back to my own world, my comfort zone after a tiring day at work. To be able to remember what I usually do to slack (like surfing my usual websites..) to remember that I have a life of my own after work. to replenish my energy and get back on life, and chuck thoughts of work aside. Nursing is not easy to begin with. We make sacrifices to our life and health, cos we don't pee, drink, eat, until we remember to (after we settled our never ending work/until bladder calls for help).
I often ask myself after each hectic shift: why make yourself so tired? And my answer to that is: cos I have the interest to nurse patients, to link their diagnosis to their signs and symptoms and watch them get well under my care. But I know, deep down in my heart, that I will choose another path in the near future to do some justice to myself. Although I have not find a definite route yet, I know I eventually will.. With time.
Friday, January 10, 2014
Nice to see u 2014!
Hello hello!
It's my well deserved annual leave right now, with 3 remaining days left to slack and nua :p the start of 2014 is good. 'Cos my bedroom is revamped w nice colours and reshuffling of furnitures. & spring cleaning is done in the meantime. I got a new phone too! Samsung galaxy s3 ^^ and a new haircut to snip off that long side fringe.
Work at ward was crazily hectic before I left for annual leave. Call bells every 5mins, patients are on the downward trend of ill condition. I think they prolly still around as long stayers after I come back from leave. Oh well, like what my colleague told me, stop thinking abt work during my leave. Hahahaha!
Hello to 2014! First half of 2013 was more concentrated on how to function 'properly' at work. And had a nice getaway to Batam & Hong Kong as my very firsts time. And for the second half of last year.. I worked towards being better each time at work.
Perhaps the Current stage of my life now is to focus on career and saving $, as well as spending whatever remaining time I have with my closed ones. & also go to countries that I wish to visit! (Like Korea, Thailand and US!). More to come in 2014!
It's my well deserved annual leave right now, with 3 remaining days left to slack and nua :p the start of 2014 is good. 'Cos my bedroom is revamped w nice colours and reshuffling of furnitures. & spring cleaning is done in the meantime. I got a new phone too! Samsung galaxy s3 ^^ and a new haircut to snip off that long side fringe.
Work at ward was crazily hectic before I left for annual leave. Call bells every 5mins, patients are on the downward trend of ill condition. I think they prolly still around as long stayers after I come back from leave. Oh well, like what my colleague told me, stop thinking abt work during my leave. Hahahaha!
Hello to 2014! First half of 2013 was more concentrated on how to function 'properly' at work. And had a nice getaway to Batam & Hong Kong as my very firsts time. And for the second half of last year.. I worked towards being better each time at work.
Perhaps the Current stage of my life now is to focus on career and saving $, as well as spending whatever remaining time I have with my closed ones. & also go to countries that I wish to visit! (Like Korea, Thailand and US!). More to come in 2014!
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)