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    Date: Saturday, January 16, 2010
    Time: 10:04 PM
Last goodbye.

    Hey people .

    I'm sorry for not updating for so long .

    And I'm sorry t say that I ain't gonna blog on this anymore .

    I'm moving on from this blog , just like I'm moving on . but it'll stay like this cause it's part of my memories anyway , i'm not deleting it:) Many things has happened in '10 , but I'll stay strong .

    Initially I didn't want to blog anymore , but somehow I feel like bloggin all of a sudden , don't know why:)

    I've just created my new blog , as in , blogskins and stuff all done up . If you want my url , you can msn me or sth . I'm keeping it low profile . Probably only my close friends will know , and don't link me , but don't bother unlink-ing me from this blog either . :) Hahaha .

    Bye blog , Ill miss you and all th times we shared<3 xoxo.
    E.


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    Date: Sunday, December 27, 2009
    Time: 11:01 PM
Christmas .

    Sorry people , but I just don't feel like blogging anymore . Merry and Blessed Christmas , and a Happy New Year .

    I'm going on Haitus , if you wanna know the reason , can ask me personally at ******** , or **********@hotmail.com .

    I might be back , idk , maybe weeks later , months later ..? Or maybe won't even come back . It all depends . Or perhaps i'll come back with private posts . I don't know . Let's just see how thing go yep:) I'll come back to read th tags , and get back to you guys asap:) Don't worry . (:

    -/E.



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    Date: Sunday, December 20, 2009
    Time: 10:59 PM
AMAZINGRACE `09 !

    Camp just ended , so many things happened , so far , pretty much glad that ______ didn't happen again , I think some of my closer friends would know what I'm talking about . Hahaha .

    Thanks Keryn and Shen for being there:) For talking till like late late at night >
    Made like super lot of friends during camppppp , Happy happy happy ! ^^ Camp was superb superb superb ! :D:D:D Photos are on facebook anyway:)

    Thanks Camp Comm and everyone else who made camp super duper memorable:):) Love you all! :) Especially amazinGrace Camp `o9 NIGERIA:D

    Anyway , today I just cut bangs . And my hair's kinda shorter now . LOL . :D I think I still look okay lah ><>
    IMISSCHURCHHHHHHHHHHHHH :( Cause I had something on :( Then my daddy didn't let me go church :( And I feel very sad :( :( :( Tomorrow cell outing , I don't know if I can go ;/ Let's hope I can , cause I really want to :)

    Means missing a chance of tying Mark's hair . D: AHAHAHAHA JIEJIEEEEEEEEE:D

    Tomorrow need go back school , then after that having cell outing .

    (L).
    xoxo.

    -/E.

    Even if I'm feeling weak , I'll stay strong for those I love ;



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    Date: Monday, December 14, 2009
    Time: 6:15 PM
:D CAMPCAMPCAMP! :D:D

    Okay hello people .

    I'm terribly excited about {Amazin(G)race} camp . :D

    And I know that many many people will miss me leyy , cause no crappy Esther !

    This is probably the last post that I'm typing out for this week , or at least until around Friday ..? It kinda depends , since I'll be home from camp on Fri , very very late ;/ like , 12+ ? Probably , cause i need to train home from Tampines D: Anyone , ride me home ? O.O . Joking joking .:D

    Kenzi just left for Malacca like oh-so-early-in-the-morning , and WeeTiong just came back from Genting ._. with broken ribs and blood loss . Don't get the wrong idea , he didn't lost blood to ________ . He just , well , fell down . (I told him i'd sue him for attempted suicide:D But i've to sue like 11 other people ! D; So , forget it -.-!)

    I went to school this morning , and before going to school , went around (Sadly , all on my own): ) looking for toiletries that I was going to need for camp . And guess what . I didn't exceed my budget . :D (L) Went to Watsons , saw some Silkygirl "Sporty" EDT , like omgggg , the smell's great leh , someone get it for me please ? Limited edition leh . Hahaha . Joking joking . But it's like omg damn chio . :D

    Tomorrow camp , and I haven't packed , -.="

    Today having Band Dinner , hope they won't have cock-ups :D Band camp tomorrow , all the best to everyone whose going for it :D

    Muahahahaha :D I'm overly overly excited about tomorrow ^^

    xoxo.
    gtg pack bag :D

    -/E.


    Falling Inevitably , just like autumn leaves .


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    Date: Saturday, December 12, 2009
    Time: 2:26 PM
CADET OFFICER COURSE PASSING OUT PARADEEEEEEEEE :D

    [typed out last night at approximately 1230++]

    MORNING PEOPLE :D:D

    Had CADET OFFICER COURSE PASSING OUT PARADE TODAY . :D

    I miss Mrs Chew ): Cause it's the first time in which I'm taking the video without her guidance ! ):

    Had normal Band Prac in the morning , and went off to NCC HQ when it was around noon (:

    Unloaded , then went to eat lunch (: Shan't elaborate on the food :D
    After lunch , formed up , and tada , max impact ^^ Tried to choreograph how I was going to take the video during the rehearsals (: With some help from Kenneth (: thanks Kenneth !

    The sun was really shining down really brightly on us , and quite a number of people were actually PALE (due to dehydration? O.o) . Had to water them . (Sorry , I don't know what other words to use :X) Actually I really pity the Cadet Officer Cadets , cause I don't think anyone watered them . But still , our dear band was in the Sun for the longest time ;/

    During the rehearsals i used the chance to take a lot of shots . And Zheng Yong says I like Jerome cause i took a lot of pictures of Jerome . It just so happened to be Jerome cause i was standing there luhsxz , zzz !ZhengYong is such a bully ):

    After rehearsing like a lot of times , settled on where I was going to stand and how i was going to move .

    Something something happened -.- , and it made me really angry lah . Shan't elaborate . Oh , so , you're th only one whose dehydrating ? Just shut up for once and stop being so self-centred . Get a life . [/typed out last night at approximately 1230++]

    [edited] The rehearsals all went pretty much okay , the slow march was terrific ! (: (L)(L) While the rehearsals' Slow March was pretty good , the actual's was actually the best . Glad not to have any cock-ups ! {Or so none that i know of!}

    Sheena with Tiq , came at around 5+ ! Started walking walking around , heh ! Took pictures here and there , :D Soon the Parade started , walked around like nobody's business , didn't go near the stage or anything though(:

    (L)

    Sheena helped me too , thanks sist ^^!

    Went to th hall there to take the vid of them playing the tentera . (Izzit?) hahaha . Then ended up (openly) stalking MinJiang cause he wanted me to take a photo of him and the other majors plus the GOH and other VIPs :D

    After the whole thing , saw KELVIN , lol ! (; nice ley , so long hadn't seen him alrdy ^^

    Hehhs . :D

    Soon we got onto the bus , then set off for school . Went into Brasses Bus , :D Sat with my dear laopo (L) Talked a lotsxz hehsxz . :D (L)

    And the whole Trombone section was bullying poor Jewel ! Hahaha . Especially that super guai lan Winston . Jewel laugh until cannot angry ley ! HAHAHAHAHA:D (L) .

    Went to Mac's with ZheXi , ended up not eating . he was my bodyguard leyy ! Thanks senior ! Cause he say he bu fang xin let me go eat and go home on my own ._. We were supposed to have supper at Alifs . Hahahas . But it was full house , so many people ! D; So in the end we were crapping about a lot of things leyy! :D:D

    Reached home at about 2330 , showered till about 12plus . Went online . And guess what .
    Some Teo Kenzi claims to have waited for me till 12+ to talk to me when i went online ^^ LOL ! But he's always online lorh . Hahaha . Thankslah !(:

    MSN-ed with Kelvin Low as well , he told me ______________ , make me so paiseh ! D; HAHAHAHA .

    Went to sleep at around 1 . After dad's persistant nagging .

    Slept really well , only waking up at 10 this morning , with my body aching . Owwwch . D;

    This morning , ate breakfast , then came online . With almost no one online ): (I mean the people i usually talk to online!) Nevermind , shall go online later at night . Off to study , or try to get my homework done . Or at least some . Hahas .

    CAMPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:

    I'm looking forward to everything that has to do with CHURCH CAMP!:D:D

    Next week , off for Camp . Will be MIA for a week or so , sorry peepohs .

    xoxo's.
    -/E.

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    Date: Thursday, December 10, 2009
    Time: 2:23 PM
Marsiling > Orchard > Jurong Lib > Jurong Point > Home .

    Woohoo yesterday , went out early in the morning , at like 10 .

    Met up with Miss Szeto and Andrea at MRT at around 1030 . Train-ed off to Orchard :D Was supposed to go do *something* but the shop wasn't opened yet): LEE HWA JEWELLERYYY . So we went around to walk (:

    Ion Orchard Toilet , FTW . Damn high-class! :D

    Went to Popular in Ion . Miss Szeto bought Chinese Assesment books for us . Ended up in Mos Burger , eating , while she's teaching . She treated us (: Thanks laoshi ! (or mama!)

    Then we trained down to Jurong East Lib , borrowed a book , then went off to Jurong Point >< Jurong Point .

    :D Then , "mama" left us ):

    Camwhored like abcdefg with Andrea , 70plus plus pictures ,lazy to upload . Maybe a few nice onesxz :D:D

    Eating the New York Cheese Cake at Starbucks . Me again . Starbucks . At starbucks .

    Went to Starbucks to chill , then went to Pepper Lunch to eat :D HEH . At one of the shops which we bought the hairbands .Then bought hairbands , walk walk around . MRT . Trained home at nine , Andrea came over my house . I was scaring her , then she kept on screaming , she's so funny cansxz ! :D HEH .:D

    Then returned her something , then i walked her to the mrt . And purposely walked through the field , :D She's so cute cansxz ! :D

    Showered , online-d , then slept .

    My oh-so-great walllet . Spoilt . Can see the fault ? O.o

    xoxo's .
    -/E.

    I just can't mention every detail in life . Too many upsetting memories ? I guess so .

    Sigh . How long more can i live , Idk . There are times I feel like just dying , cause sometimes everything seems just so hopeless .. I feel like dying now cansxz . Trying to be strong , keeping everything to myself , really can't stand it anymore , you know ... Should I go out and work ..? I might need to , soon , like after school or something , then go out and work . Maybe the money that I earn may amount to something that can help keep my family going . There have been so many times , I've thought about "what if i died " , cause i feel like as if no one cares . But I know , that I still have many friends around me , even though I know , true friends , are lesser in percentage . So maybe I guess , I'll continue with smiles on my face . I'll be okay , really , I would .

     Thanks ShiHan korkor:D (L)
     for being there


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    Date: Tuesday, December 8, 2009
    Time: 12:17 AM
Shopping . I (L) Orchard .

    Yesterday , had tractinggggg ! :D:D

    It was funn :)

    Started off the day at 10 . Showered , ate , and left home at about 1040 . (: Talked to Gladys and Serene:D Then LiLin came:D

    Had service , then after lunch , went to tract:D

    Then after tracting , went to Woodlands Mart Mac to wait for Justin and Shimin ! :D Then we went back to office to take Leo's guitar , :D:D And , i (L) Leonard !

    P.S. It's not my cellmate Leonard . It's Shimin's puppet which we named Leonard .:D

    Trained home , showered , ate , then watched teevee for a while before online-ing .

    Today

    Ended up going to Grandaunt's at Chinatown:D

    Took pictures of many toys . Too bored ? I guess so . Nice . (Y)

    Decided to eat Ajisen Ramen after considering all other kinds of food , gosh , it was all so tempting ! D: But it was tasty though :D heh .

    Someone , buy me rocher for Christmas , please ? :D HAHAHA . Joking joking . I kinda got tempted by it when i was grocery shopping with my grandaunt for foooooood . I bought sweeeeeets:D Then after lunch , went to Colds Storage:D

    After shopping , went back to Chinatown , used comp , ka chaiu Kenzi !:D:D

    Trained home , reached home at about 1030 . Showered till about 1130 , then came online . Currently talking to mama Kenzi . (L) !

    P.S. I Love Bestie lah !:D:D

    Shall end off here.

    xoxo's
    -/E.

    P.S. I want go Orchard , who want go with me ? (L) Each time i feel like i'm falling , i stop myself , no , not cause I don't believe in it anymore , but rather because I don't want to be hurt by it again . I know I'm not giving myself the chance to love again , but still , I think it's the best solution , simply cause , I don't want to end up telling the person i'm supposedly in love with that I've never loved him before ;

     But if I do , one day , fall in love again , if I can't stop myself , maybe I should just go with the flow . Maybe things don't have such unhappy endings all the time , yeah ? I guess there's no point hiding , and lying to myself . I'm trying to tell myself that , it's as easy to get hurt , and the only way to stop it , is not to be in love , at all . I'm trying really hard . I think I'm not in love with anyone . At least , that's what my brains are telling me . As for my heart ... I don't really want to know , yeah ..?

     Yet I'm worried that history would repeat itself , I don't want 091208 to be a repeat , this year . I'm afraid , okays ? I'm looking forward to _______ But at the same time , I'm dreading it ): Sigh .. Not think so much ? I guess so ;



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