i hope you dance--Lee Ann Womack.
such an inspiring song.
dont you think?
hah. i love it.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)

yah so. anw. today. was my kor's bday.
and we had a not-so-surprising surprise party.
so in other words.
he knew. and it totally ruined the effect.
we had strawberry ice cream cake.
onehundredandfiftysixdollars.
whoo!
so expensive man.
haha. made him a nice card thing.
haha. =) happy bday kor.

i love sappy things.
i also like to be full of shit.
and im totally crazy?
i just cant help it.
shrugs- sorry. oh wells.
heehee.
god made me tt way.
proud of it. -winks-

sighh.
i know. im evil.
kiss my ass! =)
hee. okayy. so im no longer mad.
i cant hold grudges.
what can i say baby?!
heehee. some would say fickle.
i would say... forgiving.
let me be.

scold me lah!
scold me somemore.
no wonder you got vertigo.
hah!

yah so. my mama is like. so totally forbiding me to go on the net can?!
i mean. fuck them
i talk on the phone for awhile. scold.
watch tv for half an hour! scold.
go on net scold.
i dun even go out?!
bloody hell. wanna take away my internet?!
uhh. like. so not fair. ugh.
irritate me only.
i dun go out at al leh?!
and they think tt im such a rebellious kid.
yeah. so rebellious huh?
i mean. its like. if i really become rebellious.
i would sneak out of the house every night and day.
sheesh. yah. like. im so spoilt. uh huh. and i cant be bothered about their feelings.
how about me?!
assholes. rot in hell.

ahh. my parents so irritating.

yah so. today went to ppular to stock up on my stuff?!
uh huh. then it rained heavily. sighh. so depressing.
anw. vanessa-- sowwee i cant go tmr. have fun k?
haha. ness huang asked me to go.
but cant. anw. i got into the team for zonals. unbelievable.
heehee.

yeah. im confused. haha. this whole 'family thing' is so big.
so. gladys is my number one darling.
uh. she is kav's servant. and father to francine.
whos mom is yishiuan. who is also my lover.
and kav is also my lover. and... lydia and sinhui and kiku are my adopted.
thus im also yishiuan's ah ma?!
and frans rival for gladys and mother too?!
uhh.
okayy.
i think?! and uh. leanne is yishiuan's daughter.
and hannah is her husband. haha. tts all i can rmb. =|
oh wells. good friday tmr. can sleep late! yay! =)
oh yah. todays AMI2. sucked. i think carmen should have been out.
cos she sang quite terribly?! oh wells.

woohoo! im blasting bring me to life on my speakers.
haha. no wonder my speakers sound card got burned. =|

okayy. sch's been. well. hectic?!
i have so much blardy hw.
haha. maybe cos i nv do in the first place.
haha. oops?! oh wells. i hate art. act. come to think of it.
i havent seen mrs wong this whole week. hmmm....
i hope she wont come tmr.
please please please. we havent finished our art.
thankyou andrea lorh. its like. you did so much work?! so helpful man.
and me and weiling and fran din do anything at all?! uh huh.

i just realised that emil chau's songs are great for waving your hands.
like what sarah does. =)

my mama so loves emil chau.
so much so tt shes asking me to burn the cd she has for her.
so she wont lose it. wtf?! so kiasu for what?!
sheesh. oohhh. i love my daddy.
i realised how lost i was without my speakers. =)
thankew papa. haha. i wanna play tennis!
yeah! tennis! =)

ness keeps insisting that they look ugly.
please pple! if your ugly then im horrible! so.
refrain from calling yourself ugly.
cos your insulting me too! =|
so depressing.
ohwells. i went back to sch today.
its all. so... you know. gloomy?! cos its like. i dunno.
shittes. theres chinese tmr?! crap.
ah fuck them lah.

yah like. there wasnt any sat night special cos sarahdear was nowhere to be found.
sighh. im like super sad? cos they finished all my chocolate.
anw. did i mention tt i had total jap food yest?
i had ramen for lunch. and tempura for dinner. all homecooked too. haha.
so feeling fat today liaos. wait. act. i feel fat everyday. so no diff.
oh wells. its like. im so super sad. cos theres no more chocolate in the fridge.
we had a party last night see? all my mom and dad's frens. eat all my chocolate.
wth man. =|

heyhey!
eli! rah! its saturday! =) and you know what that means?!
SATURDAY NIGHT SPECIAL!!
hahaha. call me ok?
i need to talk to you guys about church tmr.
stupid pastor lin asked me. wait. no.
its more like begged me. haha.
oh wells. laterr.

yoyoyo. haha. okok.
yesterday was friendship day and we missed it cos we were not in sch.
so happy friendship day pple!! =)
i've added some photos to my msn pics. so i will be linking em soon. yeah.
anw. im like super hungry again. so.
off to pig out!! =)

omg! like. yi shiuan is gonna leave us! i mean!
thats so bloody sad. and its nearly making me cry?!
shes going to shanghai or something!
and... and... thats so sad!! =|
oh man! im like. totally going to miss her.

shiuan: take care ok? we'll all keep in touch yeah? promise k?!

ahaha! piano is finally over. did some stupid theory. heehee=)
ate a curry puff. was sooo hungry. hahaha.
oh. and. tonight. theres survivor. but dont think tt i wanna watch.
tmr morning have tuition. so sian. sighh.
im gonna like. bring my own box to sch.
haha. as in for recess? like.
one muffin and a few biscuits and some fruit. haha
become so health and hygiene conscious i guess.
-shrugs-
oh well. im off to do... something?! i dunno. haha.

oh well.
my piano teacher is here.
but i asked my sister to go first.
hahaha. stupid watson. he asked us to go to church again.
yeah lah. hes like so irritating?!
erbs. haha. hes got a stomachache. serves you right. eat so much.
pig. anw. have to go for piano soon. sighh. tragic.

sighh. so cold. freaking aircon.
brrr. oh wells. i wanna eat something full of potatoes. hahaha. like rosti!
and...potatao cup! yumyum. sighh.
i wanna go back to eat my heart out.
haha.
ohwells.

uhh. yeah. haha. added in my tagboard liao.
haha. so cute. haha. oh wells. must tag it alrights?! haha.
uhh. those pple are cleaning all the freaking aircons in my house. so they switched all of em on.
its like. so cols. they think free of charge ahh! haha. my poor rabbit. my mama says not to let it go. cos its like.
very hard to find it everyday?
oh wells. its staying in my bathtub. haha.
so cute. =)

sch is starting. sheesh. and guess what? i havent done my hw!!
wow! -applause-
haha. oh well. its my typical bo chap attitude i guess.
-shrugs-
i lost the rabbit again! [laugh ness laugh]
tonight... hmm. oh yeah! theres american idol!
haha. i think the ruuben guy is gonna get through to the last round at least.
rather possible. since everyone loves ruuben.
haha. biig teddy bear. =)
oh wells. another pig out day.
what can i say?!
-grins-

my name is jiayi
height 161cm the last time mrs heng took height/weight
in the morning i wake up five minutes before im supposed to leave for sch
all i need is my family,girlfriends, coffee icrecream from haagen daaz and my hp. oh yeah! and my computer. haha. thats all. =)
love is not what i have. and totally what the world needs. -grins-
if i could see one person right now it would be the lord so i can ask him to bring my peppy back to me. and to thank him for being our saviour. and to bless all the pple involved in the damn war.
i'm afraid of losing the ppl i love so much. as well as my hair. hahaha. cant live being bald. =)
i dream about being trampled by a horse. as well as playing tennis matches without my racket. hmmm....


-have you ever-
pictured your crush naked eww! duh no?!
been in love? puppy love? or love love? neither anw. hee=)
cried when someone died my grams. even though we werent very close. i still did. alot. i wet my daddy's shirt.
lied uhh. hello?! duh.


-which is better-
coke or pepsi coke. with lemon! niiice.
flowers or candy flowers. -roses and african daisies! and dont forget lilies!-
tall or short tall.


-with the opposite sex-
what do you notice uhh. i dunno? if he has an act-cool-earring. hahah.
last person you slow danced with my daddy? i dunno. he likes to play around. -shrugs-
worst qn to ask are you a girl or a boy?! =)


-who-
makes you laugh the most well. i dont know? stupid ridiculously funny pple?
makes you smile actually, i think i smile alot so... yeah.
gives you a funny feeling when you see them uh. no comment.
do you have a crush on no one?! sheesh. whats up with crushes anw?!
easiest to talk to ness. eli. andrea. weiling. sheralyn. rah. i dunno?

-do you ever-
stay on aim, waiting for someone special to IM you uh. no?!
save AOL/aim conversations it depends i guess.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex duh no?! being a girl is perfectly perfect with me. haha.
cry because of something someone says to you uhm.. yah. =| sometimes.


-have you ever-
fallen for your bestfriend uhm. well. i cant exactly do tt can i?
been rejected uh. well. no? not really.
rejected someone uhm. well. same answer as above! haha.
used someone nahh. its mean. haha.
been cheated on no...
cheated on someone nope.
done something you regret yeah. alot of things act. too many to count. =)


-who was the last person-
you talked to on the phone andrea
hugged my daddy.
you instant messaged ness.
instant messaged you ness.
you laughed with my sister. =)


-do you.. are you.-
color your hair never! at least until jc. haha.
habla espanol wth?
smoke cigarettes duh no.
obsessive i agree with ness. depends what with.
could you live without the computer no.
how many peeps are on your buddylist too many to count.
whats your favorite foodjap and western and seafood. and... anything my mom cooks. i guess.
whats your favorite fruit green grapes. durian! and mangosteen. haha.
drink alchohol hmmm. lets see. so far... 16 times. haha. not alot lah.
like watching sunrises or sunset -sighh-. so romantic! hahaha. i like!
what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain both i guess.
trust others way too easily i guess so. -shrugs-

finito!

im back. been talking with redface sheralyn. hahaha.
amd well. i think shes nice to talk to.
hahaha. shes practical i guess.
and nice too. =) haha.

i have tennis tmr. erbs. i wanna sleep in!!!!
smallville tonight!! yeah! haha. nice show. =)

sighh. im a pig.
i have been eating and sleeping and eating and sleeping.
what am i going to do?!!
nothing i guess.
hahaha. just let it be lorh.
oh well. my toe still hurts.

arghh!!!! im so pissed off. i added all the links! and then! and then!

i clicked on the thing and it went to this blank page!!


argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wtf is wrong with my computer?
wtf has my sister been doing on MY computer?
wtf did my rabbit run to in the bloody rain?
wtf is going on in my life?!

i dunno know?!
sighh. i went downstairs just now. to watch the new plasma in the basement.
where. btw. i could have SOME privacy. but noo... i went down. and guess what i saw?!
the bother and his gf doin something on the couch that made me stumble and run back up the stairs.
and then. i cut/ kicked/ wdvr my toe on the damn steps. and it was bleeding like hell.
and now. i cant bloody walk!

what a wonderful day.

this is our prayer that we taught nadira to sing. and it still sounds nice. haha

thankyou for the world so sweet humdum.
thankyou for the food we eat yumyum.
thankyou for the birds that sing-a-ling-a-ling
thankyou lord for everything. amen. =)

isnt that the sweetest thing?! hahaha.

yeah so. now. we have come up with nicknames for ourselves.
ness= ess/ass
sarah=rah
eli= eth
jiayi/me= ee

ahahaha. so add together becomes..
raheeesseth. hahaha
wheee!!

yeah so. i feel like i have a fishbone in my throat. ouch?! so anw. had bbq for dinner. chicken lamb beef calamari wdvr. alot of food. and know i have a sorethroat. and im croaking away. haha. having fun chatting with ness and eli and sarah. talking about stuff. and more stuff. and we were supposed to manslaughter a man.. boy. wdvr. but the idea kind of faded. -shrugs-

ok. added some more links. but its like still quite short? and i have gastric and cramps. owwwwwwwwwww. im hurting. in my stomach.
pain pain pain.
hah! now i know what purest of pain is.
woman's cramps.

sighh. moodswinging my way through this week. its that time of the month. and i get so irritated so easily. and i dont know why. but its pissing me off. sigh. im shoutingat everyone and calling them bitches and bastards. but maybe thats not because of my pms. maybe cos im just plain mean. sighh. yeah. plain mean.

why doesnt she get it?
why the heck doesnt she understand that this is beyond my control?!
im fighting it okay?!
im trying my damned best but i cant do it!
its not what i wanted. and maybe its not what i want at all.
i dont even know whats wrong with me. and i dont want to.

i cant do it alone.
no i cant.

sighh. sch's gonna reopen again soon.so sad!!!!!!!! and i havent done my hw?
heehee =)
been lazing around. playing monopoly, scrabble and watching dvds all week long. so boring. sighh. and im putting on weight? why am i putting on weight?! depressed? yeah. i guess thats it.