Today was Sailyr's first time at a sitters (besides family)
I had a hair appointment so I took her to my friend Ashley.
To sum it up...
She went there in girl clothes.
and came home in baby boy clothes.
Diaper blow outs are awesome!

And Grandma is coming tomorrow!

It was a good weekend...

Sailyr got really good at reaching (and sometimes grabbing) for toys....

Dev got all google-y eyed while thinking about hunting this summer....

And we keep finding her sucking that thumb...

and again....

and again...

and again...

and here is a little video of sailyr talking, its not very good quality cause dev recorded it with his phone.  And sorry about my annoying baby talk at the begining - I thought he was just taking a picture :)

enjoy...

3 months! wow!

At this very moment I am rocking my 3 month old baby to sleep.  We have been really good at laying her down while she is still awake to teach her to self sooth... but tonight I am holding her. 

ok,
I just had to go lay her down, apparently she fights sleep until I lay her in her crib. Then its thumb in the mouth and off to dream land.

What a little Joy she is!
We like her
a lot.
Tomorrow she will be 3 years old
and then she will be 30.

But tonight she is still my baby,
our baby.

sweet dreams, you little 3 monther!

2 days early...

In 2 days Sailyr will be 3 months old!

I made this dress a few days ago and decided to get some pictures today.

So be excited that you get to see her 3 month pictures 2 days early.

:)

And this last one...
I could not delete it, its not edited or anything, its not even a very good picture...
but I could not delete it because her face in this picture...
IS DEVIN'S FACE.
I swear that is the face he gives me when he is trying not to laugh at me... Ha!

in the tree tops, when the wind blows

Snowing.
Snowing.
Snowing.
outside.
We are stuck inside
today.

Sailyr's first hair do!
Its not much, but at least we can do something with all that fuzz growing on top of her head.
We spent the weekend in sunny St. George, or rather windy st. George.
Sailyr got entertained by her cousins and loved on by her aunts and grandma.
We had kinda a rough day on Friday.  No naps = mad baby.
But we are back to our regular sleep routine today.
We left Sailyr Saturday night with Kami and Devin and I went out to dinner.
Its really weird not having her with us, kinda awkward.
Like - first date awkward.
I told dev I don't kiss on first dates.
And he made a frowny face.

pics for grandmas!

I just finished this dress for Sailyr! I love how it turned out, considering I made up the pattern myself!  Its supposed to be her Easter dress, I hope it still fits by then!

Guess who is now sleeping in her crib, in her very own room, with the lights out and door shut like a big girl?  Guess who also slept from 9-9 last night?  You think I would enjoy her sleeping all night, but the truth is I wake up at our usual feeding time and lay in bed wondering if she is ok.  I lay there until I realize I am not going to be able to go back to sleep, so I get up to go check on her.

Her bedroom door is really creaky and it swings open and hits the wall if you don't hold it.  So I try my best to sneak as quietly as I can into her room just far enough to look in at her.  I make sure her little body is breathing and then sneak back to bed.

That bottom lip,
I cant even handle how cute it is.

Seminary Lesson Today!

President Kimball said: “Is there not wisdom in his giving us trials that we might rise above them, responsibilities that we might achieve, work to harden our muscles, sorrows to try our souls? Are we not exposed to temptation to test our strength, sickness that we might learn patience, death that we might be immortalized and glorified? "


Orson F. Whitney said: "No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It ministers to our education, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable, more worthy to be called the children of God.’ We knew before we were born that we were coming to the earth for bodies and experience and that we would have joys and sorrows, ease and pain, comforts and hardships, health and sickness, successes and disappointments, and we knew also that after a period of life we would die. We accepted all theses eventualities with a glad heart, eager to accept both the favorable and unfavorable. We eagerly accepted the chance to come earthward even though it might be for only a day or a year.”

Being a mom is bad for my health.

I am about to put my foot in my mouth for everything sarcastic I ever said about emotional women.
Because I have become one.
And I really need to learn to relax.

A few weeks after Sailyr was born one of the families in our ward house burned down, because of hot ashes from the fire place.  After seeing the pictures of the interior of their ruined home I was traumatised.  The only word to describe it is black.  There was no house left, nothing left.  Well, the fireplace is how we have kept the house warm 90% of the time this winter.  And because the fireplace is in the living room it is obviously the warmest room in the house.  So that is where we have kept the bassinet and where Sailyr sleeps every night.  So in the middle of the night when I get up to feed Sailyr I also put more wood on the fire.  And I am not so bad anymore but I used to have to get up a few times a night to make sure the living room was not on fire.  I would go back to bed and just plead with God not to let my house burn and if it does to help us get Sailyr out.  Fire is all I could see when I closed my eyes, and it scared me to death.

I have also been watching Oprah since I am at home during the days, and I need to stop.  I swear, every week she has somebody on her show that was either molested or abused when they were little.  And listening to their stories make me want to vomit and cry - I know that is weird to say, but its true. Even thinking about these poor children just make my heart hurt, and I wonder how someone can even live a normal, semi-happy life after experiencing such evil.  I start feeling so possessive over Sailyr and I start not trusting anyone.  I wonder how I am going to protect her from all the evil people in the world. 

So now, in the middle of the night, I am praying that my house does not burn down and that child molesters stay away from my baby.

I cant even begin to think about sad stories, especially those involving children.  I get so sad.
Its little things to, Country Music Videos, American Idol.... I tear up over everything - good or bad. Happy or sad.  I am admiting it...  I am a emotional mother.

Don't judge me if Sailyr is home schooled, my heart may not be able to handle public school.

Need someone to talk to?

Sailyr has decided she loves to talk, especially if your willing to talk back to her.  This last week she has just become so social - its really funny.  I have had to take her to seminary in the mornings while devin has been gone and she just sits in her car seat and jabbers away.  Then last night one of my neighbors was holding her and Sailyr sat and talked to her for a good half hour.  Its really cute and funny because she just sounds so serious, and she adds an occasional sigh as she is talking, which adds to the drama!  I heard my neighbor say to her - "you like to talk, don't you- you must get that from Lucy."  Oops.... sorry neighbor.