sometimes it takes someone else to say I like you, I really like you, I love you.. for someone else to see the good qualities in you that you could one day believe that you are a good person and deserve to be a person. Only then will you love yourself and find yourself.

Ask yourself, how did you gain your confidence? How do you pick yourself up? By yourself? No way that would be an outright lie.

sometimes it takes someone else to say I like you, I really like you, I love you.. for someone else to see the good qualities in you that you could one day believe that you are a good person and deserve to be a person. Only then will you love yourself and find yourself.

Merdeka Eve

What is this feeling that i cannot put a word to.. family. what is family? what is love? what are relationships? they are words, words with meanings that are distorted - twisted and turned into whatever feels and goes your way.

Reality? this is reality. Do you know, who loves you the most? who thinks of you and puts you right up there with the stars? If you do.. good on you :) i am glad that you've got it, treasure it and smile.

Its half an hour before Independence Day, but its no big deal is it? except for people to go out and party maybe, celebrate.. do you know what you're celebrating? or is it just another public holiday. i sit here, wondering, if everything is worth it, what is worth it? who is worth it?

feeling alone with people around. i guess its a curse.

for when God made the world

He made everyone and everything

and left it to us to decide what to do with our home

He left behind stories and simple guidelines

Love is the simplest of them all

but today,

it seems the hardest to feel, the hardest to find, the easiest to lose.

an empty shell is what most people are

commodified

from every hair on our head to the tips of our toes

the blesses feeling, the emotions attached to love

jaded, tainted, loose, misused

May there be people who know love

who feel love

and who never need to feel this darkness

For i will never wish it upon even my worst nightmares.

Stone cold with the warmness fading inside

Take it all and I shall let You, my Father, have the last word.

I have done no purposeful wrong

Have given everything I have

Have taken as little as I can

I do not forget that I have unintentionally hurt

I do not forget those who have supported me through this years

Father,

May I join you one day to do earthly good

for the peoples of this world.

Take away all feeling of pain

Leave the memories of the pains

I shall carry them with me as reminders

of the human that I am.

i am a stronger person than you will ever be in your whole life. i know deep down inside of me that i will one day stand up and be the whole me and you will not be able to do anything about it. i will move mountains with or without you. i will make the world a better place.

Katy Perry

Recall Notice

In 2010, auto manufacturers recalled a staggering 20 million cars in the US for various defects. The thought of such a large number of defective cars on the road is startling enough. But what is more disturbing is the apathy of some owners. In one instance, the executive director of the Center for Auto Safety warned owners, “It’s a free repair. Get it done. It may save your life.” Yet, despite the risk to their own lives, 30 percent never responded.

Likewise, many ignore God’s “recall notice” to the entire human race. Unlike a defect found in automobiles, the moral defect of the human race is not the Maker’s fault. He made everything “very good” (Gen. 1:31), but people’s sin ruined it. God’s offer to us is “repent . . . that your sins may be blotted out” (Acts 3:19).

God offers not just a free repair of the human heart but a replacement of it (Ezek. 36:26; 2 Cor. 5:17). Though the offer costs us nothing (Eph. 2:8-9), it cost God the life of His only Son Jesus Christ. “[Jesus] bore our sins in His own body on the tree, that we, having died to sins, might live for righteousness—by whose stripes you were healed” (1 Peter 2:24).

Don’t ignore the Lord’s call. The free and permanent remedy offered by God for your spiritual defect will save your life!

The heart of man is stained by sin,
From Adam’s fall this has been true;
Yet God in Christ can make a change—
Through faith in Him we are made new. —Fitzhugh

For a new start, ask God for a new heart.

2008 ESL :)

Cats in the Cradle - Harry Chapin

My child arrived just the other day
He came to the world in the usual way
But there were planes to catch and bills to pay
He learned to walk while I was away
And he was talkin' 'fore I knew it, and as he grew
He'd say "I'm gonna be like you dad
You know I'm gonna be like you"

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you comin' home dad?
I don't know when, but we'll get together then son
You know we'll have a good time then

My son turned ten just the other day
He said, "Thanks for the ball, Dad, come on let's play
Can you teach me to throw", I said "Not today
I got a lot to do", he said, "That's ok"
And he walked away but his smile never dimmed
And said, "I'm gonna be like him, yeah
You know I'm gonna be like him"

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you comin' home son?
I don't know when, but we'll get together then son
You know we'll have a good time then

Well, he came home from college just the other day
So much like a man I just had to say
"Son, I'm proud of you, can you sit for a while?"
He shook his head and said with a smile
"What I'd really like, Dad, is to borrow the car keys
See you later, can I have them please?"

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you comin' home son?
I don't know when, but we'll get together then son
You know we'll have a good time then

I've long since retired, my son's moved away
I called him up just the other day
I said, "I'd like to see you if you don't mind"
He said, "I'd love to, Dad, if I can find the time
You see my new job's a hassle and kids have the flu
But it's sure nice talking to you, Dad
It's been sure nice talking to you"

And as I hung up the phone it occurred to me
He'd grown up just like me
My boy was just like me

And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you comin' home son?
I don't know when, but we'll get together then son
You know we'll have a good time then

Papa Don't Preach

Papa I know you're going to be upset
'Cause I was always your little girl
But you should know by now
I'm not a baby

You always taught me right from wrong
I need your help, daddy please be strong
I may be young at heart
But I know what I'm saying

The one you warned me all about
The one you said I could do without
We're in an awful mess, and I don't mean maybe - please

[Chorus:]

Papa don't preach, I'm in trouble deep
Papa don't preach, I've been losing sleep
But I made up my mind, I'm keeping my baby, oh
I'm gonna keep my baby, mmm...

He says that he's going to marry me
We can raise a little family
Maybe we'll be all right
It's a sacrifice

But my friends keep telling me to give it up
Saying I'm too young, I ought to live it up
What I need right now is some good advice, please

[chorus]

Daddy, daddy if you could only see
Just how good he's been treating me
You'd give us your blessing right now
'Cause we are in love, we are in love, so please

[chorus]

Papa don't preach, I'm in trouble deep
Papa don't preach, I've been losing sleep
[repeat]

Oh, I'm gonna keep my baby, ooh
Don't you stop loving me daddy
I know, I'm keeping my baby

Butterfly Kisses- Bob Carlisle

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven
And she's daddy's little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life
Oh but most of all

For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk beside the pony daddy it's my first ride
I know the cake looks funny daddy but I sure tried

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every mornin'
And butterfly kisses at night

Sweet 16 today
She's lookin' like her mama a little more every day
One part woman the other part girl
To perfume and make up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world
But I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
You know how much I love you daddy
But if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the check this time

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin'
And butterfly kisses at night

All the precious time
Like the wind the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today
She'll make a promise and I'll give her aways
Standing in the bride room just staring at her
She asked me what I'm thinkin'
And I said I'm not sure
I just feel like I'm loosin' my baby girl
And she leaned over

Gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk me down the isle daddy
It's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?
Daddy's don't cry

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin'
And butterfly kisses

I couldn't ask God for more than this is what love is
I know I've got to let her go but I'll always remember
Every hug in the mornin' and butterfly kisses

Madonna - Material Girl

Marilyn Monroe - Diamonds Are A Girls Best Friend - HD (1953)

On the Good Ship Lollipop - Shirley Temple

HE always answers when you are lost

The Masters Tournament is one of the most prestigious in professional golf. In 2009, Kenny Perry placed second after leading during the final round. Writing in The New York Times, Bill Pennington described Perry as “disappointed but not despondent” after the loss. “I’ll look back on it occasionally and wonder what I might have done differently, but I won’t dwell on it,” Perry said. “If this is the worst thing that happens in my life, I’ve got it pretty good. I won’t let it dog me. There are so many other things in life that matter more . . . . I’ll go home tonight with my family and we’ll have fun.”

The ability to look beyond our disappointments is essential for followers of Christ. Our focus determines how we face the victories and defeats in life. “If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth” (Col. 3:1-2). This way of thinking looks to Christ, rather than our achievements, for significance and validation. We seek Him, not success.

When we strive for excellence and give our best effort, losing hurts, but it doesn’t have to harm us. The key is where we set our minds and hearts.

Lord, thank You that You are the one who measures
how we’ve done in life and determines
whether we’ve been successful. Help us to keep that
focus even in disappointments.

When Christ is the center of your focus, everything else comes into proper perspective.

in life we lose and gain many things as the years go by, however, true friends are the treasures in life that can never be replaced. zagged and torn its the good memories that will be cherished always. it might be time to let go. and unlock the chains that bind me.

Frank Ocean - Thinking About You

NOTE: this song, sinks into the skin, becomes dreamy after repetitively listening to it! haha.. you go into a zone.. SO BEWARE..

OH and an additional read of the meaning of the lyrics: http://www.metrolyrics.com/thinking-about-you-lyrics-frank-ocean.html

A tornado flew around my room before you cameExcuse the mess it made, it usually doesn't rainIn Southern California, much like ArizonaMy eyes don't shed tears, but, boy, they bawl

When I'm thinkin' 'bout you(Ooh, no, no, no)I've been thinkin' 'bout you(You know, know, know)I've been thinkin' 'bout youDo you think about me still?Do ya, do ya?

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

No, I don't like you, I just thought you were coolEnough to kick itGot a beach house I could sell you in IdahoSince you think I don't love you, I just thought you were cuteThat's why I kiss youGot a fighter jet, I don't get fly it, though

I'm lyin' down thinkin' 'bout you[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/thinking-about-you-lyrics-frank-ocean.html ](Ooh, no, no, no)I've been thinkin' 'bout you(You know, know, know)I've been thinkin' 'bout youDo you think about me still?Do ya, do ya?

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Yes, of courseI remember, how could I forget?How you feel?And though you were my first timeA new feelIt won't ever get old, not in my soulNot in my spirit, keep it aliveWe'll go down this road'Til it turns from color to black and white

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (Oooh, oooh)

Florence Colgate

Cod-damn gorgeous! The girl who works in a chip shop who has 'Britain's most beautiful face'

By  PAUL HARRIS

PUBLISHED: 21:23 GMT, 20 April 2012 | UPDATED: 10:23 GMT, 21 April 2012

Leonardo Da Vinci spent a lifetime trying to paint one. Scientists and mathematicians have puzzled for centuries over what makes one, while cosmetic surgeons have amassed fortunes striving to create one.

And Florence Colgate? Well, she simply has one.

The 18-year-old student is blessed with what is described as the perfect face. It matches an international blueprint for the optimum ratio between eyes, mouth, forehead and chin, endowing her with flawless proportions.

Symmetry: Florence Colgate, 18, is blessed with the optimum proportions for beauty

In theory, that needn't necessarily cause her to appear anything more than symmetrical (in which department, incidentally, she is also faultless).

But the blue-eyed blonde's mathematical dimensions have just added up to success in a competition to find Britain's most naturally beautiful face.

Florence, who has a Saturday job in a seaside chip shop in between studying for her A-levels, beat 8,000 entrants to win the title. Contestants were judged without make-up and were barred entry if they had had plastic surgery or chemical enhancement.

Locals wryly suggested it was the sea air in the Dover Grammar schoolgirl's home town of Deal, Kent, which contributed to her success, or possibly a secret ingredient in Middle Street Fish Bar's chips.

But it is the scientific definition of beauty – not to mention a healthy portion of beauty genes from her mother – which gave Florence the crown.

A woman's face is said to be most attractive when the space between her pupils is just under half the width of her face from ear to ear. Florence scores a 44 per cent ratio. Experts also believe the relative distance between eyes and mouth should be just over a third of the measurement from hairline to chin. Florence's ratio is 32.8 per cent.

Singer Shania Twain and actresses Liz Hurley and Jessica Alba are ranked among perfectly formed celebrities. Samantha Brick, who caused an international debate after proclaiming women hate her because she is beautiful, is not.

Face value: The student at her Saturday day job; chip off the old block: as a baby with mum Lisa

And to top it off, Florence's face is almost perfectly symmetrical, which is also scientifically linked with beauty.

The proportional beauty theory has been around ever since Da Vinci applied visionary thinking and mathematical genius to describing the perfect face more than half a millennium ago.

For Florence, it became reality when friends, family and chip shop customers persuaded her to enter a competition run by ITV's Lorraine programme to highlight natural beauty and encourage women to be proud of their natural look. 

Florence, who normally wears light foundation and mascara and admits to using concealer and Vaseline, won a trip to a London model agency and will appear on billboards and posters in Superdrug stores across the country.

She says she would love to have a career in modelling (model Agyness Deyn once worked in a chip shop too) – but is currently studying business, geography and psychology and intends to do business management at university.

'Women should not have to feel that they have to wear make-up,' she said. 'I hope people will look at me and think they don't need to. I'm very happy with the way I look and I would never have any plastic surgery or Botox.'

Carmen Lefèvre, from the University of St Andrews perception laboratory in the School of Psychology, said beauty is strongly linked to symmetry. 'Florence has all the classic signs of beauty,' she added. 'She has large eyes, high cheekbones, full lips and a fair complexion. Symmetry appears to be a very important cue to attractiveness.

'Although we don't realise it in everyday interactions, in most people's faces the right and left half are actually quite different.'

Symmetry alone was not a substitute for beauty, she conceded. On the face of it, however, it seems to work perfectly for Florence.

Weblinks:

http://www.kentonline.co.uk/east_kent_mercury/news/2012/march/1/vote_for_florence.aspx

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2132896/Florence-Colgate-Girl-Britains-beautiful-face.html

Lock and Key forever

I can tell something's not the same
Cause we're both losing at the loving game
We're hanging from words
Your tongue is a fire
And I can't keep putting out the flames

There was a time when you could tell the world
That you, you knew I would fight for you
You knew I would fight for you
But now I know that I can't let you go
Cause I wrote the last song I'll write for you
The last song I'll write for you

I've been waiting just to feel this way
Where my night's not made by every day
That you ever had, the good and the bad cause I
I'm through calling out your name

There was a time when you could tell the world
That you, you knew I would fight for you
You knew I would fight for you
But now I know that I can't let you go
Cause I wrote the last song I'll write for you
The last song I'll write for you

We're just drifting apart
Two beats in two different hearts
Before I say goodnight, I want you to know

There was a time when you could tell the world
That you, you knew I would fight for you
You knew I would fight for you
But now I know that I can't let you go
Cause I wrote the last song I'll write for you
The last song I'll write for you

Now I know that I can't let you go
Cause I wrote the last song I'll write for you
The last song I'll write for you

I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for prosperity and God gave me brawn and brains to work.
I asked for courage and God gave me dangers to overcome.
I asked for patience and God place me in situations where I was forced to wait.
I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities.

I asked for everything so I could enjoy the life. Instead, He gave me life so I could enjoy everything. I received nothing I wanted, but I received everything I needed.

tic toc tic toc tic toc

time is ticking

tic toc tic toc tic toc

do not take the person that has been standing there all this while for granted

that person will leave a hole so big in your life

you may not find another pair of feet to fit those shoes

time is ticking

tic toc tic toc

that special person

you will cherish

when you feel no need to hide

no longer a barrier between you and another

time is ticking

tic toc

whole happiness blossoms from love

true love that makes all downs,

up again

and all ups feel like eternity

time is ticking

Liar Liar

liar liar

i shall accuse you

for the words that spill

from your lips

are enveloped with poison

liar liar

i shall shield against you

for with every word

that pours out of your lips

are like blades that stab through the heart

liar liar

i fear i have fallen

for the sweet words

that befalls from your red rosebud lips

fallen to the depths of my own death

liar liar

take pity on my soul

shattered and tainted

take pity on my soul.

love.faith.trust

LOVE

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, only with what you are expecting to give, which is everything - Katharine Hepburn

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly - Sam Keen

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage - Lao Tzu

Sometimes we come into a person's life not to make them love us but to let them feel that they're so much worth loving for - Anonymous

Tell me I'll forget, Show me I'll remember, Involve me I'll understand - Chinese proverb

FAITH

Luke 1:37 faith it does not make things easy it makes them possible

Hebrew 11:1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Happiness is the key to life

If you always put limits on everything you do, physical or anything else, it will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them.

Failures are a part of life if you don't fail you don't learn, If you don't learn you'll never change

Strength doesn't come from winning. When you go through hardships & decide not to surrender, that’s strength.

A good life is when you assume nothing, do more, smile often, dream big, laugh a lot, & realize how blessed you are for what you have.

Effort is what makes the difference, and that is what makes effort such a substantive and authentic joy.

TRUST

Proverbs 3: 5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight

2 Timothy 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

If you feel overwhelmed by life, do what you can today and then entrust the rest to Him.

When things aren't working out as you wish, be patient. Stop trying to move ahead of God. His timing is perfect. Trust Him. Jesus overcame all worldly odds, so can I.