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Sunday, October 30, 2011

the sun setting
i hear hooves from downstairs
its something new
from this side of town
the wind is blowing
the door rattling
the clouds falling
slowly like dark curtains
blacking out the lighted clouds

i want to help people
the poor, the sick, the helpless
but
whats wrong with me
whats wrong with me

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

legendary moment

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

the fakeness of this world. how can people be that way.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Life Got Cold - Girls Aloud

Friday, June 10, 2011

Good For Nothing

June 8, 2011 — by Joe Stowell

My wife, Martie, is a great cook. Sitting down after a busy day to enjoy her culinary delights is a real treat. Sometimes after dinner she runs errands, leaving me alone with the choice of grabbing the remote or cleaning up the kitchen. When I’m on my good behavior, I roll up my sleeves, load the dishwasher, and scrub the pots and pans—all for the joy of hearing Martie’s grateful response, which is usually something like, “Wow, Joe! You didn’t have to clean up the kitchen!” Which gives me a chance to say, “I wanted to show you how much I love you!”

When Jesus reproved the church at Ephesus for abandoning their “first love” (Rev. 2:4), it was because they were doing a lot of good things, but not out of love for Him. Although they were praised for their perseverance and patience, from Christ’s point of view, they were being “good” for nothing.

Good behavior should always be an act of worship. Resisting temptation, forgiving, serving, and loving each other are all opportunities to tangibly express our love for Jesus—not to get a star next to our name or a pat on the back.

When was the last time you did something “good” out of love for Jesus?


For many, love is just a word,
A passing phase, a brief emotion;
But love that honors Christ our Lord
Responds to Him with deep devotion. —Hess

Love in deed is love indeed

Love. All religion teach us to love. I am Khan. must watch.

Thursday, June 09, 2011

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

God provides :)

I have been up and down for a few weeks now, but, when i thought that i just want to just disappear into some dark corner. God shows me and shares, and teaches. I love to help people, i feel that

Psalm 55:22
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Simplify

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May 24, 2011 — by Bill Crowder
Our Daily Bread Radio is hosted by Les Lamborn
Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. —Matthew 6:34

In a radio interview, a basketball superstar was asked about his knack for making the game-winning shot in crucial situations. The reporter asked how he was able to be so calm in such pressure-packed moments. His answer was that he tried to simplify the situation. “You only have to make one shot,” the player replied. One shot. That is the essence of simplifying a difficult situation. Focus only on what is in front of you right now. Don’t worry about the expectations of your coach or teammates. Simplify.

Recognizing that the challenges of life can be both overwhelming and suffocating, Jesus urged us to take matters in hand by simplifying. He said, “Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble” (Matt. 6:34). This was His wise conclusion to His teaching on the debilitating power of worry. Worry doesn’t accomplish anything positive; it just adds to the sense that we are drowning in the troubles we are facing. We must take things as they come —one day at a time —and trust Him for the wisdom to respond properly.

If you feel overwhelmed by life, do what you can today and then entrust the rest to Him. As Jesus said, “Each day has enough trouble of its own” (niv).


Don’t worry for your future needs,
It will only bring you sorrow;
But give them to the Lord instead—
He’ll take care of your tomorrow. —Sper

We lose the joy of living in the present
when we worry about the future.


Thursday, May 12, 2011


Songwriters: Scharf, Walter; Black, Don;

Ben, the two of us need look no more
We both found what we were looking for
With my friend to call my own I'll never be alone
And you my friend will see, you've got a friend in me

Ben, you're always running here and there
You feel you're not wanted anywhere
If you ever look behind and don't like what you find
There's something you should know, you've got a place to go

I used to say, "I", And "Me"
Now it's "Us", Now it's "We"

Ben, most people would turn you away
I don't listen to a word they say
They don't see you as I do I wish they would try to
I'm sure they'd think again if they had a friend like Ben
Like Ben, like Ben



proud of me godbrother mr aaron =p

Monday, May 09, 2011

James morrison - Love is hard


I see lovers in the streets walking,
without a care.
They're wearing out loud
like there's something in the air
Oooooh, and i don't care

They're treading lightly
No they, don't sink in
There's no tracks to follow
they don't care where they going
hmm

And if they're lucky and they'll,
they'll get to see and if they're
really really lucky they'll
get to feel..

And it kicks so hard,
it breaks your bones.
Cuts so deep
it hits your soul.
Tears your skin and
makes your blood flow.
It's better that you know,
That love is hard.

Love takes hostages,
gives them pain.
gives someone the power to
hurt you again and again
oooh, but they don't care

And if they're lucky and they'll,
they'll get to see and if they're
really really lucky they'll
they'll get to feel.
And if they're, they're truly blessed
and they're get to believe
and if you're dammed, you'll never
let yourself be diseased.

And it kicks so hard,
it breaks your bones.
Cuts so deep
it hits your soul.
Tears your skin and
makes your blood flow.
It's better that you know,
That love is hard.

Hmmmmmmm...

Kicks so hard,
it breaks your bones.
Cuts so deep
it hits your soul.
Tears your skin and
makes your blood flow.
It's better that we know..

And it kicks so hard,
it breaks your bones.
Cuts so deep
it hits your soul.
Tears your skin and
And makes your blood flow.
It's better that you know,
That love is hard..

love is hard, love is hard.

If it was easy,
it wouldn't mean nothing tough.


Friday, May 06, 2011

i'm sorry i don't like fighting with you.

random rants

this are a few reasons why i protect my heart, and put up my walls. because anything can happen in a blink of an eye. the person you love with all your heart, can be a stranger the very next second.

i love how some boyfriends just go all out to pamper and please their girls just because they want to and they love doing it. i like how the boyfriends would sacrifice guy time and make time just to spend a little more time with their girls because they want to.

i just want to starve and be skin and bones.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Run4Kids

5.2km 43.50 minutes

Monday, April 11, 2011

please world don't get any smaller. please please please.
faith keeps one strong.
love makes life worth living.
trust maintains relationships.

be it between friends, family or your partner.

(TLJ 2010)

Wednesday, April 06, 2011


i felt for this song,
there was someone i use to measure
every other guy to.

but
i shall let him go
now.

thanks for everything
but
it seems that after so many years
i finally
want to move forward.

loves.

Monday, April 04, 2011

you.you.you

you
always do this to me
take me on a ride
let me trust you
like a sister

you
make me believe
that friendships
last forever
letting me feel
safe for awhile

i share with you secrets
we make memories
and suddenly
you walk away

you
you
and you

do i deserve it?
should i just move on?
well
maybe i should
but i won't ever
do to you
what you have done to me

so, no
i will always be here
for you
you
and you.

Friday, April 01, 2011

I promise.

I promise

that I will be there when you feel like you are alone

and that no one cares,


I promise

that you are never alone

and I will always care.


This is my promise I make to all my friends.


I will not allow the people I love and care for so much to feel emptiness alone.


I do not wish it on anyone.


To friends I have known for my whole life

whom I barely speak to

I still remember our times


To friends I have known for more than a decade

We may walk our own paths now

but, I just want you to know

I love you like family


To friends I met in college

Where we had to make difficult choices in life

I feel privileged to have crossed paths with all of you


To new friends

Let is build more memories together

and may our friendships last as long as forever.


I remembered, when we were in primary school, we wrote 'friends forever' and over the years, we see people walking in and out of our lives, we begin to doubt.


But, dear friends, just remember, your friends will never walk out of your live completely unless you shut them out. How far they are, or how many years would have passed; you have played a role in their lives, and they have played a role in your life.


Cherish and remember each other. Good times and bad times. They all made you a stronger person despite everything.


I end with a thank you. You all have taken a piece of my heart and with that I hope you remember you are never alone.


XOXO


by Ti Le-June on Thursday, March 31, 2011 at 2:13pm

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

those that make you cry never deserve your tears, those that deserve them will never make them fall.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Strength leaking into thin air.
Life detaching itself from solidity.
Time is not enough.
Breathes slowing to a halt.
Space spiralling into infinite darkness.
Fresh air but a faded memory.

perfumes in my life


My first:

Johnson's baby cologne 'Playful Tickle'



Mom came back from London one day with this as my gift:

Britney Spears 'Fantasy'


On my 20th birthday 2010,
I got my absolute favourite perfume from
my darling friend Mr ARS:

Issey Miyake 'Wood Flower'

While perfume shopping with Mr Reed,
I fell in love with:

Calvin Klein 'IN2U for Her'


and
my next purchase would be:

Issey Miyake 'Florale'

Thursday, March 24, 2011

politicians are there for the people, but if the people they serve keep blaming politicians for everything, and not say thank you, politicians will eventually lose their faith and trust in humanity.

dear friends, politicians have families too, they also are ordinary people but with a responsibility not only to their own family, but to the community.

don't go pointing fingers all the time, why not you become a politician if you think you are righteous and would bring the community more good. seriously, it takes a lot of will power and strength to hold such a huge responsibility.

if you keep thinking that politicians are corrupt and heartless and don't care about anyone but themselves. then why not you become a politician and take their place. see if you like being accused for things you have no control of.

it is always easier to blame others. but remember, if you really cared so much, you would not play the blame-game. its a waste of time. go do something about it.

you know, when you trash talk people, you are just as much a bad person as the people you are trash talking about. get your facts right! politicians can't do much alone, and sometimes if you look at it, you are the selfish ones for hurting their families along with them.

you are talking about someones son, someones daughter, someones father, someones mother. be matured and make a difference instead of just all talk and no action!

get proof before you point fingers. unless you have concrete evidence, do not hurt others in the process.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

A Matter Of Perspective - Joe Stowell

The poorest person is he whose only wealth is money.


Free Compliments, by David C. McCasland

During a time of economic crisis and depressing news, two students at Purdue University decided to lift the spirits of people on campus with some encouraging words. For two hours every Wednesday afternoon, Cameron Brown and Brett Westcott stood along a busy walkway holding a large “Free Compliments” sign and saying nice things to everyone who passed by. “I like your red coat.” “Cool snow boots.” “Very nice smile.” Some students said they deliberately walked past “the compliment guys” every Wednesday just to hear a kind word.

I was struck by these two young men who looked at people with the goal of commending them, rather than finding fault or being critical. Is that how I, as a follower of Christ, view others each day?

Instead of being like the person who is focused on evil and whose speech is “like a burning fire” (Prov. 16:27), we can take a different approach, knowing that what we say begins deep inside us. “The heart of the wise teaches his mouth, and adds learning to his lips. Pleasant words are like a honeycomb, sweetness to the soul and health to the bones” (vv.23-24).

Kind words may be free, but they give a priceless lift of spirit. Why not encourage someone today?


The power in words can build up or tear down—
Create a big smile or produce a sad frown;
So in all your contacts with people each day,
Be sure to encourage in all that you say. —Fitzhugh

A gentle word of compliment falls lightly
but it carries great weight.


Source: http://odb.org/


Monday, March 21, 2011

when it all hurts, i run, when it doesn't hurt, i make excuses to avoid being hurt. i feel again, will i be able to push through the barriers? will you be able to be patient at help me through without pushing me? will i be able to do this? i hope so, i must! be kind to me. i can do this.
last night i twist and turn, i think i did, i didn't sleep very well. last week was a horrible week despite having a lift some days from running, and reading msges over and over again. i don't want to fall again.

last week, i heard these verses over and over again:

Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Hebrew 11:1
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

And, I have developed a habit of reading Ps Rob's 'From the Heart'. and the very first line answered one of my doubts last week:

"We're doing out best setting things right." (2 Co 6:&, The Message)

A passage from Ps Rob that also touched me was:

"Your life can honour God greatly, and benefit some many others in positive and lasting ways. Everything you need for this has already been provided by Jesus. Believe it, take hold of it, press on with it, and give it your best shot. Surely you can do no less. seeing how much He has done already."

I hope my heart finds the peace that He sacrificed His life for us. To be able to move and not be haunted by death and sin.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

thank you God for helping Ness just now. and giving us the strength and wisdom to open the lift. God, i pray that there is nothing wrong with lights in our house. we have had a rough time already with the plumber and the carpets and all. I hope it wasn't a mistake.
God save me

Friday, March 18, 2011

our spot in 2008

i sent it out awhile ago. *cross fingers* but you know what, i leave it in Your hands dear Lord.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

When things aren't working out as you wish, be patient. Stop trying to move ahead of God. His timing is perfect. Trust Him.
- Gabby :)

Tuesday, March 15, 2011


spongebob has arrived in 812A


Mr 'blur' Buddy


My darlings in Malaysia..


and

me family..


Noel Gallagher - Emotional version of Dont Look Back in Anger - Live



Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find

A better place to play
You said that you've never been
But all the things that you've seen

They slowly fade away
So I'll start a revolution from my bed

'Cuz you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, summertime's in bloom

Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face

You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away
But don't look back in anger

I heard you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows

Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a rock and roll band

Who'll throw it all away
I'm gonna start a revolution from my bed

'Cuz you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, 'cuz summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace

Take that look from off your face
'Cuz you ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
I heard you say

(guitar solo)

So, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
I heard you say

So, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away
But don't look back in anger

Don't look back in anger
I heard you say
At least not today.

Monday, March 14, 2011

"Someone To Watch Over Me" (feat. Chris Botti)



There's a somebody I'm longin' to see
I hope that he, turns out to be
Someone who'll watch over me

I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood
I know I could, always be good
To one who'll watch over me

He may not be the man some
Girls think of as handsome
To my heart he carries the key

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

[bridge]

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

Someone to watch over me
Someone to watch over me
'Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart, then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man. Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked, for the LORD will be at your side and will keep your foot from being snared.' ~ Proverb 3:3-4, 25-26

Aria

its hard, but nothing is ever easy. like a good friend says, 'shit happens' .

Sunday, March 13, 2011

There are three types of people in this world: those who make things happen, those who watch things happen and those who wonder what happened.

I want to be the person who makes things happen! wish me luck people and dear God, my I go through my life, step by step with you as my guide.

love
june =)

Friday, March 11, 2011

this is me

yesterday, a good friend of mine ask me, why do I like volunteering? a few friends have asked me, why do I like helping other people? some ask, if I have time for myself and is helping people taking a toll in my life?

God answered me by allowing me to stumble open this quote by the person my beloved university is named after:

'Adopt as your fundamental creed that you will equip yourself for life, not solely for your own benefit but for the benefit of the whole community' - Sir John Monash (1923)

Personally, dear friends, I love helping, I love being there for you all, I can't stress how much joy I feel when I see my friends and people happy. Yes I might be tired, and I might be upset, I might not have my own time, but if you love me, you know that I do enjoy helping and being there for everyone if I can.

Another thing I learn, actually, I have known this for a long time, yesterday he made a valid point:

if I am worried about what my 'friend' thinks about me, that 'friend' is not a real friend because if he/she is a real friend, he/she accepts me for who I am.

Also, he pointed out, the simplest structure to how I can believe in a relationship: that I'll share another time, because I got to go SHOPPING with SLJ and II, ikea and grocery shopping here I come.

Thursday, March 10, 2011


[V1:] Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

[C:] If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[V2:] Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

[C:] If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[V3:] It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

[C:] If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

OoOoOOo

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

*this song is for when i truly give back all the pain and hurt, wholly take it back, as someone might just be around to put every tiny bit back together til there isn't a single crack left in-sight

the day will come, i believe so: in the words i quote my dear friend, CL:

"in time you'll find the right person, not just to fill your empty heart, but to fix you up right and be your reasin to believe in fairytales and true love again. that's the person you're looking for'

unknowingly she made me stronger, knowingly, my dear friends support, every single one who made the effort to meet me this summer, thank you.

"Don't rely on someone else for your happiness and self worth. Only you can be responsible for that. If you can't love and respect yourself - no one else will be able to make that happen. Accept who you are - completely; the good and the bad - and make changes as YOU see fit - not because you think someone else wants you to be different"

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for." -Bob Marley

Monday, March 07, 2011

Why - Avril Lavigne

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

LAST week of SUMMER

Well, lets see, I have been busy but not so busy.

First week that I was back I think I cried and felt the loneliest. It was Chinese New Year, and for some reason I knew I did the right thing by coming back early, but my heart was back home in Malaysia. It didn't help that I felt the person hated me so much instead of the other way around.

My second week was when everything started to happen and also the big hurdle that I had to pass and I did! Thank you Father for the second chance.

Third week, busy busy busy, and got to meet my darling CT.. weekend was spent in church, oh, and the bad thing of the week was my CC! sobs.. However, I had many pleasant surprises that week. Thank you, you know who you are.

AND this week, the last week before the holidays officially end, I am happy to say it revolves around LMSW and ISM Welcome Night, which happens to both fall on the 5th of March, next Saturday.

May God bless us a smooth day and night!


Sunday, February 20, 2011

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love.never.fails.
-1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Monday, February 14, 2011

From the Heart - Ps Rob

Healthy Things Grow
As newborn babies, desire the pure milk of the word, that you may grow thereby. (Peter 2:2)

SEVEN simple facts on measuring spiritual growth
however, i think the same steps can be utilise on a daily basis using the same concept.

Fact 1# healthy things GROW
this is true of many things; whether it be people, plants, businesses, marriages, churches, investments, or so on - if it is healthy, it will grow.

Fact 2# growing things CHANGE
this is how we know they are growing. they are different than when we last saw them.

Fact 3# changing things CHALLENGE us
basically, we like things to stay the way we like them. we are creatures of habit and comfort, and so we enjoy things to be left the alone when we have them just the way we think they ought to be. When change happens, it presents us with a challenge. the greater the change, the greater the challenge.

Fact 4# challenging things lead us to TRUST God
challenges leads us to trust God, especially when we are faced with something that seems to be more than we can handle. God knows your limits. He knows exactly where to apply the pressure to cause you to turn to Him in faith. It is not a test until it leads you to turn to God in simple trust.

Fact 5# trust leads to OBEDIENCE
if we trust in the Lord, He will reveal His will to us; He will show us what to do. Thus, trust leads to obedience.

Fact 6# obedience makes us HEALTHY
Jesus said, Take My yoke upon you, and learn of Me. For My yoke is easy, and My burden light; and you shall find rest for your souls. (Matthew 11:29-30) When we obey, His joy floods our souls and His peace fills our lives. There is no rest for the wicked; but those who do God's will find their lives filled with blessings.

Fact 7# healthy things GROW
now we are back to where we started. that is how it works; it is a cycle every child of God experiences. even now you are somewhere in this cycle.



I believe it is true, everyone of us, we are in this cycle, because we all change, and the next step is are we going to take up the challenges in our lives or just go on living in and out with the same routine ignoring the challenges that come along as we change as a person and the changes in our lives.

* this post is not copied word by word.


Sunday, February 13, 2011

Heart

will one day people feel with their heart instead of their head? i wonder.. will one stop to think for awhile about what he is doing, and let go of the ego that he has.

i for one am thankful for my second chance and i am learning to accept them. it is time, to see that maybe my own garden can be greener if i don't keep taking care of my neighbours gardens.

i love my neighbours, i love them so much i never want to see them sad or what more, angry. i am so fearful of anger, of hatred, that fear has taken over my heart for so long.

may this second chance teach me not to fear, to accept everything that i have and make the best out of it, and start opening the doors.

looking back may not be a good idea anymore, counting the mistakes, and trying to make up for things, may not be healthy anymore.

maybe, just maybe, moving on in life is my next step. the biggest step i am going to take and maybe i should care less since some of the people i love think that i am a bad person anyways.

but yes, i have a heart, and i know my heart is not bad. so if i trust in myself a little more, i won't let hurt and words make me weak. i just have to believe and have a little faith in myself.

thank you Father, for you have not left my side in my journey to breath again. my life i put in Your hands as for all things i have done wrong, i know for sure of one thing, You died on the cross for me and my sins, You love me even though You don't know me. and i want to be just like You, people put You down and called You names, but You never judged and You kept on helping and being there for everyone.

Father, I love you. I love my parents, i know they want the best for me, i love the people around me and i never want to lose them to selfishness and pride. All the bad people around me, i shall just ignore the bad things they say or do but i will always be there for them when they need me.

God bless.

June