Some may think it'll be a big load off their backs.
Some people think it'll give them a chance to do more productive things like bake, practice or maybe, just maybe, even take up exercise (yeah right).
Obviously, I was wrong.
Because nothing changes the fact that the average Malaysian-Chinese but doesn't speak the language teenager, like myself is unmotivated and lazy and slothlike and pretty much a damn blotch on the face of humanity.
Humanity doesn't have a very good complexion I think.
So the real problem isn't about humanity. It's the fact that I haven't ben able to bring myself to do anything. Anything productive that is. The damn exams ended more than a week ago and all I've done is bloody played bloody megaman.
.No, seriously.
Played bloody megaman and watched bloody tv. Bloody, bloody tv.
And I think that all of this mind draining pig swill has drained my mind and turned it into pig swill.
I'm not blaming tv or megaman or anything. It's just that they're distracting my mind.
Seriously distracting. I mean, I've been playing megaman scenarios in my head before I sleep.
For example, my mind will envision a megaman level, and I'll replay it over and over again till I formulate the best tactic to get past an obstacle without damage. And if I don't, I just keep on the simulation until I do.
And then, I fucking played digimon. Bloody, bloody digimon.
It's a nice, fun game, but when you put it in the hands of an obsessive bastard perfectionist who only wants to get the fucking best digimon, it becomes as bad as damn heroine.
I realised today that I don't really want to play playstation, I play because I can't bring myself to do anything that requires effort, But because of my damn obsessive behaviour, the playstation becomes more stressful than doing actual work.
Fact: I get more stressed over things that don't matter than over things that matter a lot.
Fact: I've bloody proofread (past tense) this post ten times already and if there are spelling
mistakes when I post it, I'm gonna delete it or make up an excuse to reassure myself it wasn't
my fault.
Who am I kidding? No one bloody reads my blog anyway.
No one even fucking knows I have a blog.
And by the way, I aint the most deep person in the world. I just rant to show off fake intelligence.
I don't know if it works though.
Damned hell.
What I need to do is stop playing playstation. yea. that's it. I can quit anytime I want.
Really.
All I need to do is find a new album that is really fucking gold and then lock myself in the room for awhile.
Thanks to Alison for correcting my sentence up there.
Maybe I should get more sleep? No.
I've had more sleep than ever these holidays.
Maybe I just haven't been talking to anyone outside of my family for the past week. Not one person. It's crazy.
I need to find something to do.
Or I should stop acting like a spoiled ass and just get up and do something.
Either's fine.
yea basically that
