I can't say that its a nice one. Instead i felt stress for it.
had never been joyful.
Feeling lonely and depressed most of the times.
Hoping that someone would understand me;
However, i know that mankind are not dependable. Only god does.
Will stand firm on God's words.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
bored - Happy new year 2012
waking up without purpose everyday.
since when i lost the passion in doing things.
no longer good at piano, no longer good at writing, no longer good at making cards, perhaps?
the only thing i can say is.. i've changed.
became quiet.
perhaps i lost my confidence.
lost my joyfulness.
ugh, i dont know.
i think 4 months holiday is too long for me.
I dont feel like hanging out with friends as that costs a lot..
maybe i've started to know how difficult my parents earn money.
I need exercises but i could not wakt up as early as i did in secondary.
growing old or matured or lazy? grr.
Sometimes i really feel that my life is meaningless...for the meantime.
as i dont find any satisfaction in everything i've done.
Its pointless to say what i'm doing everyday because its just the same, wake up, day dream, tv, piano, fb, house chores.
Just simply lost the passion in doing everything. I HATE IT.=.=
Even going out with friends, i don't know what can i talk about. Maybe its because of the fear of revealing certain secrets.
whatever it is. Its a new year and i need to get back to my study life in another 2 months.
Just hope that everything would be fine, and i must stand firm on God's words.
Hopefully i could find my joyfulness and target in life.
Sometimes i really feel like sharing my actual feelings but who cares?
people will only think that i'm emo.
i rather keep everything just for myself..until the point that i couldn't bear further.
just list down my wishes for the year..
* improve my piano
* be self dependent in my studies
* be happy
* get rid of unnecessary fats
* improve my skin condition
* stand firm in god's words
* be confident
* have wisdom
happy new year..though i dont really feel the excitement. argh.
since when i lost the passion in doing things.
no longer good at piano, no longer good at writing, no longer good at making cards, perhaps?
the only thing i can say is.. i've changed.
became quiet.
perhaps i lost my confidence.
lost my joyfulness.
ugh, i dont know.
i think 4 months holiday is too long for me.
I dont feel like hanging out with friends as that costs a lot..
maybe i've started to know how difficult my parents earn money.
I need exercises but i could not wakt up as early as i did in secondary.
growing old or matured or lazy? grr.
Sometimes i really feel that my life is meaningless...for the meantime.
as i dont find any satisfaction in everything i've done.
Its pointless to say what i'm doing everyday because its just the same, wake up, day dream, tv, piano, fb, house chores.
Just simply lost the passion in doing everything. I HATE IT.=.=
Even going out with friends, i don't know what can i talk about. Maybe its because of the fear of revealing certain secrets.
whatever it is. Its a new year and i need to get back to my study life in another 2 months.
Just hope that everything would be fine, and i must stand firm on God's words.
Hopefully i could find my joyfulness and target in life.
Sometimes i really feel like sharing my actual feelings but who cares?
people will only think that i'm emo.
i rather keep everything just for myself..until the point that i couldn't bear further.
just list down my wishes for the year..
* improve my piano
* be self dependent in my studies
* be happy
* get rid of unnecessary fats
* improve my skin condition
* stand firm in god's words
* be confident
* have wisdom
happy new year..though i dont really feel the excitement. argh.
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