morning.

Early in the morning. Not feeling happy.

Can i don't stand all these?

I'm sick of it.

I hate my life like this.

happy birthday...

today's my 19th birthday..

Still.. i have to say i'm feeling any excited..
not even a little..


Well.. I know the reason i guess. Don't ask me why.
I miss my busy life..
I don't want to be free that i'd think too much.


Will try to plan smth for my holiday.
i'm 19th.. happy birthday? Not really. But its my own problem.

But i do really feel grateful for having nice people beside me all the times. Thank god.

:(

I'm not happy...

Sometimes you just wish that someone could understand you. When there's a wish, there's a disappointment.

Totally lost my excitement on birthday. I'm not sure with the reason. Whatever it is.
Its my last teenage birthday.

ugh. Hate this feeling. Can't i just welcome my birthday with a smile? I couldn't make it. Such a simple thing.

Anyway I'll try my best to make my birthday happy, blessed and memorable.

Emotional :x

Well, logos left. I missed it like crazy. I miss the times spent on the ship. All are sweet memories :')

I'm missing everyone who entered my life. :')

Ugh the feeling.. dislike!!. Missing someone really made me feel bad.

However I have made my decision. Never try never know.

I've lost myself.. once again. grr. Time to find my way back.

Why am i so emotional. Is it because i'm artistic? lols

aww :)

Met new friends on the ship, both international and sabah friends.
Its my friend's last day today, and she purposely ask me to get uniform for her, so that she could stick a lovely card on my locker. I'm touched !!

Thank god for the special experience. I really appreciate it and will treasure it.

Yesterday was memorable because I was forced to tell a story to strangers. Yeah was forced cz i was being dragged there. hahaha. Did paintings on children's hands, seeing their satisfied smiles, i myself got satisfied as well. :) kids are inocent. hehe. Love them. Though some are like evil, cz they feel like they knows everything where they dont XD

I love photography

I love to take pictures. It helps me to remember everything that is memorable.

A piece of cake, sunsets, as well as friends.

I believe a person who loves photography is a person who appreciates everything in his/her life.

When i'm in logos hope, i love to face the sea when i'm having my meals, just to ppreciate the beauty of the sea - God's creation.

During dinner time, i can see sunsets. Deeply in my heart i exclaimed "how great is our god". Thank you lord for what i have. Thank you for forgiving my sins.

A very touching scene

Recently working as a volunteer on Logos Hope. Had learnt to get out of my comfort zone.

Well, saw a very touching scene today which i could not hide my feelings. During a hot afternoon, there was an old man, with his wife, together with his son and daughter-in-law came to Logos Hope.

The old man could not walk without a walking stick but it is impossible to use a walking stick when going up to the ship using the gangway, as well as passing the stairs. The son carried his father. And when they passed the stairs, the father tapped his son's shoulder, saying thank you.

What a sweet and touching scene! :')

p/s: updating this post because someone asked me so X)

happy holidayyy?

The busy weeks had just past. Had been living like a machine... wake up, brush up, breakfast, library, assignments, lunch, assignments, dinner.. assignments again @.@

Time flies, half a semester is gone. Again, Felt like everything changes. New group of friends.. new study mode, hmm.. sometimes do feel forgotten or being left out. Just hope that i won't think too much.

I'm really happy that this semester i experienced God's love. Whenever i'm facing trouble, there will always be angels beside me, assisting me in studies, listening to me when i'm in despair, playing and laughing with me, sharing my joy. Even having transport when i need it.

What else can i expect from life? :)

Life is short. Will just try to switch my focus on the happiness.

Just felt that university isn't just about studying, experienced lots of things. Dealing with people, getting involved in church activities, getting along with friends, learning to talk in a proper manner and with humor, planning my own time. Learnt a lot :) Thanks god.

I'm touched :')

Straight to the point, I was sick for one month since i got back to Miri. Ah well i'm not sure if this is because of homesickness LOL. Most probably not.


Recently I'm quite busy with assignments, and this drive me crazy. Was stressed to the max and sometimes i'd just hope to cry, as all these had been kept in my heart for quite a long time. I've decided not to show my stress in front of everyone. Besides, i'd try to cheer people up. This might sounds fake but somehow i might help myself? hehe


I felt glad that God loves me so much, that He placed angels beside me. When i was sick, there's someone to bring me to the doctor. Everyone was just like my parents, calling me to drink water, rest, or even go and see the doctor again.


When i was feeling stressful for my assignments, there must be a few quality friends who's always beside me, be there to listen to me. And deeply in my heart i could feel the warmth of friendship. :')


I felt great, should not complain anymore. I'm grateful for what God gave me. Thank you Lord. <3



Now i know, friends, doesn't matter with quantity, but quality. However when you have a quantity of quality friends, you'd be in the heaven ;)

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yes, this is an untitled post. Have not been updating my blog for centuries.

I need to say i do feel happy because i've gotten the chance to serve in church.

Being a pianist, i believe that music can bring the congregation closer to God through the music played. Thus, i often encourage myself to feel the lyrics of the song, especially the hymns. Come on, hymns are not boring. Its just depends on how we sing it and play it. Different lyric brings different meaning, different style. This is the challenge for all the church pianists :)


Reminiscence the first time i played in church, woah, such a huge difference. I had stage freight. Lack of confident, with lost keys in every single song i played.


However, i love music, i wanted to be good in it. I tried hard to change. I'm not a music student. Being a pianist, I'm just using music to express myself. Ah well. When we're put into a song, only we can touch people's heart, and then brings life to a dead piece of paper containing chords and notes.


I accepted the request of my choir conductor to be one of the pianists in my secondary choir. Still i wasn't good, but slowly improving, and at last, overcame my stage freight. Praise be to the Lord. Now, i've gotten the chnce to serve in the church, its all because of God. I'm not pretending to be HOly but i really feel great for having the chance to learn and play in church.


So... my point is.. i want to apply this kind of mindset in my studies as well. I got the chance to study in uni, so i must do well in it in order to glorify God's name, and also grant myself a brighter future. Wish me luck, assignments stacking up. I do feel stress but u MUST overcome it. With God's help, i believe i can do so. Wish me luck.. :)

2nd day, 2nd sem

Its only the second day and i got to know that there's 3 assignments stacking up, waving at me with the evil grin. Sighhhhhs.


I had minor homesickness since i reached here. Well i just covered it up with my cheerful laughs and acted like i'm a grown up girl. I wish i could still be a young girl, being taken care and need not worry so much...


I felt little like crying but well i know that do not help..


arghh. wo hen fan ahhh.

Who can help me? :(


Good luck to me..

Second semester

Gotten my result, and it has become the past.


Time flies, its now second semester of the first year.

New semester, represents a new beginning.

New targets, new lifestyles, new group of friends, new habits.

Hopefully, my life would maintain like this. I don't want those POKER FACES in my friend list :)

Get loss man.. you find me again just because you do not have anyone to accompany you. What a pity.

I'll just sacrifice one of the seats beside me for you since you're so LONELY. hmmm.


Woah. so mean oh me. Sorry i used to treat fake people like this. Its a part of me. :p

Tomorrow. Tuesday. 2 tutorials 1 lecture. Fully packed schedule. Hope that could do well in the semester. Wish me luck! Thanks God for giving me more friends after losing the few fake ones :)

result...CHEER UP

Been waiting for my result and was so worried about it.. this continued for about one week and more.
Well whatever it is. It was released in the midnight.


I felt great at the moment i see that i passed all subjects, 1 with distinction, 2 with credit, another, with PASSING MARK.

PASSING MARK !?! please. Business law..well. Okay. I'm not good at it because i can't even remember the case names although i understood the concepts. But this is lower than my expectation. Can't it just be another 5 or 8 marks more? :( sad


Econs, i love econs so much. And yet had been putting lot of efforts. However i only got a CREDIT. Come on, i want a Distinction.. :( Can just say.. i have not yet mastered the answering techniques.. because i don't even know what kind of answers the lecturer demands.. :(


Okay. I Cried for no reason after i looked at my result clearly. Sighs i have never gotten a result that can turn me insane, laughing and crying at the same time @@


Honestly, some of my friends told me that if they got my result they would be like in the seventh heaven, but for me, i'm not satisfied. What to do? The outcome of a POOR TIME MANAGEMENT for the FIRST FEW WEEKS in my uni. Learnt a lesson.


NO PAIN, NO GAIN. I felt the pain, i gained. sigh. Its time for my self-reflection. The result reflects the efforts i put in my studies? Perhaps i'll do better in this coming semester, err... I MUST DO BETTER. This was kind of unfavourable but still, thanks god because i passed, (although one of them is a 50 which is the passing mark). Thank you lord for sending angels beside me or else i'd have failed my business law..



Quoted from my friend. It's not going to rain everyday. The rain will stop one day. Well i'm the one to decide when to stop raining. Cheer me up. CHEER UP, CHEEEEERRRRRR UPPPPP



SMILE

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>.< i'm worried

omygoodness.

The first sem result is going to be released at the 6th of July. >.<
I AM SCARED :/


hmm. The sem break is too long for me, that i think i have to adjust my mood, my life, my everything all over again. Kind of feeling like.. umm.. something similar with previously i did before entering uni.. uncertain, and guess what, it's even more intense because i knew that people are complicated.


Whatever it is in the future, i'd try my best in my studies, plan my time well, do the right thing at the right time. Seriously i need someone to talk to. Easily get emo at home due to loneliness and also.. my worries perhaps? :/


I want sports. I wanna slim down so that i could look better with nice clothes. :)


Well something random, it rained, and ruined my plan to climb the hill early in the morning.. and this ended up with getting up late in the morning for 5 days i think. My slim down plan's halfly gone. However i do succeed and slimmed down. So...God bless me. hmmph.

grr.

These few days weren't good. WHATEVER.

Just.. kind of looking forward to go back to miri..
At the same time, worried about the result, and also whether i could cope well in next semester's subjects.


Suddenly felt lost.. lost my target in life. Sort of like don't know for what i choose the course, and what should i do after graduated. Regretted by little bit for my rush decision. Well just try my best. :/


Holiday, isn't happy at all times, however i'm glad that i no longer need to worry about what to wear :)

Fated?

Sometimes, i just wonder why should i bear all these.


Well its nothing great suffering from family problems.

Everyone has owns problems, so am i.

I wouldn't blame anyone for these, will just bear it silently.

I know, God wants to do things on me.

Though its my hard time, i'll get over it.

Weeping alone in the room. God knows.

Just, sometimes i really hope to get away from home and study hard. Pay off my debts to parents. When they do not have the financial burden, maybe things would get better? hmm.

^^

GUESS WHATTT !!?!!!

COTTON ON IS IN KK !!!


Well i bought 2 casual dresses. Gonna change myself starting next sem :p
More dresses.


Spent quite a lot on my clothes. So... gonna study hard and learn to be a better person. Not just dressing up myself with nice clothes, but also having beautiful personalities :)

My Holiday..

hmm fine, planing to go out with friends more often. However everything costs $$$

Woke up earlier nowadays that i could go for exercise almost everyday :)
Enjoyed hiking a lot, especially when its with an aim to slim down :p

Hopefully my skeleton plan would succeed hahaha. Of course i'm not going to be a skeleton and i'd never be. :p

Visited my old church yesterday, perhaps small churches are more friendly. Less people, but still, the remaining are still friendly :)

Bought my formals, for the first time at MNG. It costs a lot ahhh i really have to budget my expenses now onward.


Well, I have no idea on what to write here. haha. My holiday, its just simple. Living as the way i like.

Shopping is fun, with money in your pocket and wallet. If not, just window shop, which is a good way to waste time for me though. :p Wondering why i'm not the fashion designer huh. I'd like to improve my dress sense as well.


Finally, my skin condition is under control, but still, not as nice as previous condition. :(
Just believe everything would be fine then. hmm.


I'm over with it, finally. Now i'm looking at my friends, who are worrying about the courses and uni. Have to admit that further studies costs a lot. So i MUST study well. hmm. Grew up, with views widened, mind opened. That's one of the outcomes? :)


HAPPY HOLIDAYYY~ :)

Happy sleeping holidayyyy

As expected after my exam, I caught fever. Well felt so dead in the morning, could not even move myself. Had been sleeping for the whole day. Even when i'm facing japanese meals i have no appetite. LOL


Hmmmm... think this was because of the exam stress for 3 weeks, and also the weird weather in kk.
The world is changing. KK is so cold. Raining every single day.



Whatever it is, i MUST exercise tomorrow. TOMORROW !! :)
Tomorrow would be a better dayyyy :)

Semester ended

Time flies, my first semester of uni life ended.


I'm grateful that God took care of me, assigning angels beside me to offer help whenever i'm in difficulties with my studies.

Besides, i also experienced how God leaded me over the months. Had all the spices within the months. Had sweet memories with friends, which brought me laughter. However this had no longer exist in the group of friends, which turned my life sour once.


Hmmm... recently could not thought of any "spicy" life, but for "bitter", yeah i felt bitter when i was preparing for my exam and assignments. Was stressed to the max until burst into tears at times. oops i don't ctually like to cry in front of people :')


Sometimes, i give a long sigh on all the happenings because i knew that things have changed, and no longer persists. Friends changed, I do changed. Its just all about whether i could tolerate and compromise with the bad sides of my friends, and the same thing apply to my friends, whether they could stand my bad sides. I could feel the distance with my first group of friends in uni.


I also find that i could not easily trust people since "something" happened. Just hope that God will open my eyes and give me wisdom in handling people.


Finally exam ended, a full stop written for the semester. I'll treasure the sweet moments and try to ignore the bitter ones as i know that i could not force myself to forget it.

sighs

there's soooo many things not yet done. ah well i have to get a rest and start study.

Could not lift up my eyelids. However i have to force myself to do it.

Happy weekend <3

whatever.

aih >.< how dare you.

Sometimes we just have to admit that the world would only approach you when you can benefit them. Perhaps, this is the egoism theory of moral huh. @@

Hmm. I AM INSULTED. duh.
I'm so in the mood of studying but was tired already. Gonna go to campus and continue my battle with all the books and papers. hmmmm.


Well, mum's coming over in a couple of days. Great thing is i'm going back to my hometown soon~ <3


Count down 9 days~~ wee ^^

hmmmmmmm

我不爽 :(

人就是这样。

thanks God

Finally considered completed my revision for one unit. hmmm i felt much better now.


Accounts and Mathematics and Business law, a.k.a. 3 things that drive me crazy and depressed.

With God,
I shall overcome it.
I will try my best.
I will work hard.
I will manage my time in a well-planned way.


Ooooooohhhh~ Count down 10 days. Going back to hometown. Home sweeeeet home <3

ahh. I'm not emo. :)

i have to say, i'm not feeling emo now, just.. i'm really tired.


Have been studying for days. Err. Its going to be 2 weeks including the current week.

Seriously i need God. I mean, yeah, I need extra strength. I feel weak now. Great thing is God assigned angels beside me whenever i'm at my bottleneck.


Well, being considering whether to join the disciple class at church, I asked confirmation from God. I think its God's will that he answered my request. So.. i'll just have peace in mind and go ahead.


Although i didn't show it out, deep in my heart i'm sooooo worry about the coming exam. I felt helpless, err not, i mean, exhausted. Wish to study but could not get myself in the best condition. Will try my best in it, and get good result :) Aim high, work hard, study smart.

:(

stressed out. hmmm. maybe have been giving myself too much pressure.

well sometimes i just felt like things changed a lot. Friends changing, i myself am changing as well. The world is dynamic.


Had a really tiring day studying at campus. Not going to spend much time on FB for the week. So.. all the best in my exam...

An enjoyable and tiring day

Well, early in the morning, i broke my mirror, and for the first time in my life, going out without looking at the mirror. Woah i'm so brave and felt proud of myself because i combed my hair without a mirror :p


After church, went to have "brunch" with church members which i also enjoyed myself quite a lot in the fellowship of God's family. Watched a movie as well, washed my eyes with tears. :') I'm going to find the movie and share it with my parents. Hopefully this could make closer the relationship among my family members :) Its so true.


Recovered from car sickness and its Time for studies. Though i had studied. To be precise, time to memorize the theories~ hmm.
Wish me luck :)

:)

hmmmm well i have to say its better to be frank :)

Things are gonna be solved easier by communicating well.

SIGHHHHS i'm sooo reluctant to study for moral exam but i have to, for i don't wanna fail the subject.


So, well, wish me luck. >.<


Somehow i'm tired. hahaha :) nothing is bothering me right now. I have to say. hahaha

压力 :'(

突然觉得很无助


考试的压力， 一度把我压得喘不过气来。


睡眠， 在考试逼近的时候， 是一种奢侈品，
想要拥有，却不能拥有。

莫名的想大哭一场，却欲哭无泪。

无论如何，
我相信，
我姑且相信，
我会没事的。

Another boring day

ahh. facing the monotonous books full of theories and concpets for me to digest. Having indigestion and Malnutrition.


I'm sick of studies. But i knew that it is my responsibility to do well in it as my parents have invested. :p


Well, the world is dynamic. -Management. haha. Its all about managing in a turbulent world by using planning, organising, leading and controlling. XD


err.. went to praise and worship night and also prayer meeting, again. Woah. Never been so devoted that i attended 2 prayer meetings in a week. Maybe, i should spend some time with God.


After that, had a loooooooong chat with my friend. Time flies. Just pray that i could concentrate in my studies and absorb what i've studied... goodnight~ :)

Err.. Feeling bad? :x

Well, have been studying for few days, and were not really productive. >.<

Sigh. hmmm.

I witnessed the power of gossips. Whatever it is, i'll not give any comment.


I can feel the exam stress now. How how i feel helpless. Only then i realized that i have abandoned God. I do believe in God, but i think i need to lay all my burden on Him. Lets try.
After some rest its gonna be my study time. Wish me luck. I don't wanna be distracted.

i'm sentimental :p

Had minor homesickness these few days. Hmmmmph. I wanna go homeeee i cant stand miri's kampung style boring life as there's only limited choices of food. Sick of it. duhhh but i'm too exhausted for a cooking. How how how. oh no~


by the way.. i suddenly thought of what my senior 3 form teacher used to say.. stay calm, be humble. Yes exam's around the corner and there's no point of being nervous. Should stay calm and try my best in the exam :)


ahh i could not absorb busines law, but i know that i should strive for it, i want good results.
Glad that there's a friend who's always beside me and guide me. At least, when i saw all my friends starting to study, i got the motivation. This is what we called 'peer pressure'? Positive peer pressure i think :)



have a nice day~ :)

exam exam exam

time flies, its almost te end of one semester.
hmm..learnt a lot of things within the months.



Knew that the world is dynamic.
Nothing is stationery.
People changes, thing changes, so am i.


Got to experience God's love in the church. They are so friendly and caring.
Somehow, i'm surprised that church members can befriend with pastor, it was like.. hmmph LOW POWER DISTANCE lol. :DD


Enjoyed sports a lot, especially badminton and frisbee, got to meet new friends, narrow the distance between new friends, and also forget about the monotonous studies :DD


Gonna try hiking soon. :) i <3 badminton


I'm sick of chicken rice argh. Count down going back to my hometown haha :p minor homesickness. XD


wee~ hmm. Study time, gonna stop here for my day.

life - 22052011

i write, for i feel like writing.
Think i have to write constantly so that i won't lost touch with english writing and struggle when doing assignment. hahaha.


Yesterday had a luxurious and enjoyable nap for 2 hours, resulting in an energetic me until i could not fall asleep until 2.30am.
Had video call with my dear friend for 4.30hours.Enjoyed myself a lot chatting with her <3
Woahh. Proud of myself that i could still manage to wake up at 7am. :D


Final is approaching, argh. And i'm so not having the mood for study. Wherever my mind is, i shall pull it back and start my study from now on. hmmmph.


Nothing special, met new friends at church after being an active member, which is a good thing, after finding out something about my friends here. I mean, i'd only keep what i heard, and be careful, not to get myself manipulated by others. Besides, expanding my friend list.

Honestly i enjoy meeting new friends. To be precise, quality friends. :) hahaha. well i know everyone does.


Actually i don't quite understand how quality friends should be, but i'll just follow my instinct :) If i feel that you're nice, then most probably you're a nice person, unless you're pretending in front of me. That's up to you. hmmmph. Just that i'm not going to tell everyone about my worries, even my parents. Big girl huh.. have to handle things by my own :)



Got sick for the past few days, vomitted and slimmed down, YAYY HAHHAHAA.
Well, i always get sick when the assignment due date's approaching.LOL.
Knowing that i should take good care of myself, i decided to go for badminton with church member later :D

Another thing to say is.. i usually appear to be cheerful in facebook. However, in blog, this is how a person i actually was. Sometimes you'd see the exactly opposite from my FB. hahaha. If you got to know that i have a blog, you're lucky because i trust you and i'm willing to let you know the actual me ;)


have a nice day~ for both of you and me :D

I'm not impressed

I don't mind if you dislike me.

Tell me, if you have the guts.

I thank you for your help these few months,
Thank you for driving me home,
Thank you for teaching me econs and accounts.
NICE to meet you since primary school.

I complimented you in front of others, what i got in return?

Never mind, you'll regret.

I won't do things as you did, as God want me to forgive.

Just pray that i have the strength to overcome all these, together with my stresses from my studies.

I have to say, people nowadays are pretty good at make ups. Covering your face perfectly that people could not see you properly.


Great huh. I hate you, today. Tomorrow onwards don't dare to ask me anything. I won't give you even a glance.

My day

Was sooo depressed few days ago. Think it was because of the continuous strikes of my marks and also feeling tired for the fund raising event.


I had nearly lost myself.
However, i felt much better now, after going to church, and had cell group, then had supper and chatting, sharing at KFC together with few of the cell group members until 12.10am. HAHAHA.
God heals me.I felt much better after hearing to other's situation and knew that i should be grateful.
Things are not that bad, perhaps? :)

One of the member in cell group told me that church friends are always willing to share and care each other. This made me felt better as well because i've been wondering whom to trust in this new environment. To be honest, I still don't quite understand my new friends well.


Hmm. Some clarification here.
What i meant is, at least, i knew that i could seek for God's help, and there's someone to listen to me. I shall still learn to grow stronger. Not to depend on others always.
Duhhhh its not easy to stay cheerful and optimistic when the situations are not desirable.


So.. i need God's help, as well as quality friends :)
I shall try my best in my studies and also learn to solve my own problems, and also improve my managing skills in both time and money and emotion (without piano) :)



Cheers~ wish me luck :)

Uni life part 2

Sometimes, I felt like uni life's sooo interesting, however sometimes i felt the opposite.

I felt like i'm a weirdo. hahah :p

Hmmmph. Gotta start blogging again. Perhaps this could improve my english writing skills? :)


Met a number of friends in uni, however, i'm not sure whether they are quality friends. It might be my problem but i still felt that its better to be careful with my words and actions as we will never know what's in other people's mind, which their thoughts or impression on us might silently kills? Sounds simple while complicated. hah. These were just some advices from my friends. I'll keep it, while accept everything with an opened mind. However the fact is, i do had enjoyable moments cooking, eating,talking, laughing, playing and hanging out with friends.



Finally done with all the assignments and management presentation. Now its time to focus on final.
Sad thing is that i failed my Business law, which was the only subject that i ever failed for the time being. This might not be anything great, but for me, used to be a perfectionist, it is considered as a huge strike on me. Have to study hard for my final, so that i'd not disappoint my parents.

Staying in a village-like place which the infrastructures aren't well constructed, poor wireless signals, no shopping malls and cold storages and boutiques and japanese food etc in walking distance, i've learnt to live life simple. HAHAHA. Kampung senadin.What we need to do is to learn to make our life fun and interesting in such a jungle.


here are the things which i hope to cultivate :)


i HAVE TO
~ be aware of my words and actions
~ be hardworking
~ get rid of my laziness
~ have more self control
~ be optimistic
~ learn not to be a perfectionist, but to make imperfections perfect. :)
~ smile often
~ talk more
~ learn to express myself



sighhh talked about expressing myself. I desperately need a piano. Music is the best way expressing myself.ahhhh.


Could not think of anything else to write. I wantttt a camera to capture every pleasurable moments :)


Experienced so much things within the 3 months here. Ahh. Its almost 1am now, good morning~

Uni life

Its a sudden decision for me to enrol for this uni.
It takes less than 2 weeks from getting information and enrol for the course.


Well at first i wasn't any prepared and cried for one week for no reason. Maybe its just because of the uncertainty of my future.


When i came here, i met my roommate nd she's quite a nice person. I met new friends. I was happy with the life.

We went to beach and had lot of fun there, taken nice pictures, we ate,, we talked, we laughed. These would be part of the precious memories i've ever had.



Now, it normal to have crests and troughs.
There's happy times, there's also stressful times.
Its almost the time to pass up my very first uni assignment, which is a personal report for about 1500 words. OMG.


Just.. wish me luck.
I miss my doggie, i miss my friends at the hometown.
Hopefully they will know that i miss them lots. <3



I hve grew up through the process.
Life, there's a lot more for me to learn.
Its a lifelong lesson.
Lets make it as happy as possible and live it to the best.

$$$ money $$$

 

Its time to prepare for further studies.

At first, my dream was to study at European countries, after that, i changed my mind to cheaper countries because cant afford..

Lastly, it changed to local universities. ALL THESE IS BECAUSE OF THE CRUEL REALITY.

i know that it was a luxurious dream, so i gave it up.

Now, i just hope that i can enter some universities with good reputations, in the other word, (local branded universities).

That’s the main aim that i studied hard at all times. If i could get an offer, I’ll try my very best even cracking my head towards the wall to think over the ways to solve the financial problems.

Anyone can tell me how to apply for a study loan or scholarships as well?

Both scholarships in malaysia or western countries will do..

this is kind of annoying.

I’m not that genius to get a scholarship, and those who are genius are RICH.

I’m neither GENIUS nor RICH.

I’m ordinary.

but then i want to try my best to change it.