I remembered one of your new year's resolutions for this year was to fill a jar with notes of good things that happen. Hope you actually made it through the year and it has already been filled with many many notes by now before 2013 comes to a close =)

At one point or another, we'll come across a point of time where we've said something we shouldn't. I had that moment and i regretted it till today, almost 4 years now. That something i said was simply "I hate you", only 3 words long but has hurt her quite deeply. If i ever have the chance, I wish i could tell her I'm sorry.

Food for thought before the new year.
- Never say something you didn't mean to because you never know how much it'll hurt someone.

What a way to end my last weekend on 2013!

Woke up at 7am for work on Saturday. Went for my friend's open house in Klang. Since i wasn't sure of the location, I decided to park at Sunway Condo and carpool with another friend. Was shock to see Sunway U has changed quite alot cause I've not been there since 2010. It has been almost 4 years.

Got to my friend's house at 930pm and was welcomed with food, lots of it. Ate quite alot of high cholesterol food + some beers and chatted till 1+ am before going to sleep.

Woke up at 7am the next morn as we wanted to eat this really famous BKT on Jalan Chan Ah Choo and we had to be there early to get a table. The BKT + chinese tea combo was holiao. Satisfied!

Since we were done eating rather early, we end up being in Pyramid at 10am. Madness!! Tried our luck to get tix for Jackie Chan's Police Story 2013 and we did. Reaching early does have it's benefits. Movie was good!

Then we headed to SS15 to try out Uncle Seng's handmade noodles. The line was long but it's nothing compared to the Pork Noodle next door. Average wait time for pork noodle = ~1 hour or more while ours were ~30 mins.

With tummies filled, we headed back to Klang to hibernate for the afternoon prior to our seafood dinner feast tonight at Perlama Restaurant. Everything we ordered were either cholesterol filled or deep fried.

To feast at Klang, one must not bring along his/her cholesterol intake chart because by the end of the day, you'll definitely go off chart.

My chart should read roughly 200% by now. Just in time for my new year's resolution of exercising more maybe?

I would wanna spend my Christmas with that one person, and that person is you!
Though she might be far away right now in a country famous for their 小吃, i hope it would be a memorable one for her as she celebrates Christmas at a place she has always dreamt of visiting.

Merry Christmas to you!

Sometimes I wish,

I wish we could start all over
Can we be strangers again?
As i looked back at all the laughters and long conversation we used to have
We know so much about each other and yet i feel so distance from you now
I don't mind to relearn what i already know about you
Just like how it used to be
I'll bring you to places you wish to go
Share the food you love to eat
And lend my ear when you need to rant
And if we could go back till the time when our friendship just started
Will you give each other
A second chance?

A Christmas-y Christmas

I know i would probably get alot of bashing saying this but to me, the Christmas feel i get back in Malaysia is better than the ones i had in the US. Though i get to see white christmas, frosty the snowman dressed in deco lights and also real christmas tree covered in snow. But ironically, nothing beats being in Malaysia during Christmas time standing among fake snow, styrofoam snowman and plastic christmas tree while listening to the "White Christmas" tune.

A white christmas isn't the best thing to have when i think of what i have to go through when it snows. The good and bad come as a package, just so you know =P

Christmas lights on christmas tree. LIKE

Christmas decoration on houses. LIKE

Snow on tree. LIKE


































Snowstorm. DISLIKE

Snow pile. Notice the thickness on my bike's seat? DISLIKE 















Lastly, hailstorm!! DOUBLE DISLIKE












But i have to admit. When it snows, it's darn romantic!!!

Gosh it has been raining for more than 12 hours today. I actually felt cold being inside my house and my room feels like a fridge. Guess i would need to hide in my blanket tonight.

p/s: She's having her exams this week so i hope the best for her and i'll commit her in prayer.

WOAH it's already December!!

Was looking back at some posts I wrote and remembered exactly a year ago at this moment, i was about to arrive at Tokyo Haneda International Airport. The anticipations, excitements and thrills of finally being in Tokyo. Equipped with only 1% Japanese vocabulary and an address, thank God we managed to get to our accommodation.

Credits to Tumblr

Had a few visitors to the lab today and when they were asked by my boss of what they think of the lab, was glad to hear them said it was "Impressive"! One of the visitors then add on to say that "The most important thing to a lab is not about having nice equipment or facility, it's about having people who really knows what they are doing. It's the people that makes all the difference, not the facility nor equipment."

Am glad there are people who will appreciate the efforts my colleague and I had put in. From an empty space to a fully constructed lab and setting up, we had our hands on every tiny bit of everything.

I would say the lab was built, with a personal feel!

Things are gonna be different from tomorrow onwards. It has been almost 2 years since my colleague and I started working that we finally get a new staff. He'll be reporting for work tomorrow and will be working under me, well technically. Hope I'll have the patiences to train him =P

With a load full of cultures to perform plus overseeing the lab's new office extension, hope I'll have time to train.

Fingers crossed!

Seeing stray dogs whenever i drive passed them, i feel heart-broken. Then I would go home and tell my dogs "Do you know how fortunate you are, with food, shelter and most importantly someone to care for you".

Sometimes i'm so sick and tired that i feel like getting on the next flight out of here and go somewhere far away alone

手牵手的朋友

Back in the days when i was still a teenager, young girls would hold hands while walking and no one would bet an eye, but NOT FOR GUYS PERIOD!

Anyway, for girls it was a norm and it's seen as a sign of friendship. I've friends who did just that and i am totally comfortable with it. Not a doubt or whatsoever that they were lesbian. 

But go anywhere now and if you happened to see 2 same sex person holding hands, everyone would be staring. I would be one of them. Not trying to stereotype anyone but somehow it captures my attention that's all. 

Times have changed and so has our mindset. What was once seen as an innocent gesture can now lead to wild misperception.

p/s: It has never ever been ok for guys to hold hands. It's totally gay for guys to do it!

It has been quite sometime since I've been able to sleep pass 8am each time no matter what time i go to sleep the night before. But for today, i was able to sleep pass 9am and it was AWESOME!!
My much awaited rest for this week!

Heard this while watching a TVB drama recently.

你知不知道男人最痛是什么？
It is when he is no longer physically close to his loved one and yet still emotionally bonded to her.

然后女人最痛是什么？
是相反的！

Agreeable, no? I think it's quite true since women are usually more emotionally attached while men are more of the other way round.

我最在乎的她

That one person i cared about the most all these while has always been her. It may seems that i don't care much but deep down i actually do, i really do, if only she knew.

当你找到一个你很在乎的人但你们不再是好朋友，你只能装作你不再理。虽然心很痛但是我会想继续关心她

在我一生中我只真真在乎过两个她

Itsumo Nando Demo

I've been searching for a music box recently and i stumbled upon one of Studio Ghibli's song from their Spirited Away anime called Itsumo Nando Demo, a piano piece by Youmi Kimura.

I love it's nostalgic, relaxing and soothing melody. It was love at first heard =)



Miss the times when i was in Japan!

I just realized you've got to be careful of what you post online and never post anything too private (eg. location or private info). You won't know who will be reading the things you posted!

Hint: Make sure you aren't using the Public option when posting on FB

I saw her today..

Was at my friend's wedding worship practice just now and I totally did not expect her to be there as well. Though I only managed to see her from afar, I couldn't help but steal a glance of you a couple of times in the midst of my busy practice.

You've changed quite a bit since I last saw you on your birthday in April. No longer with the little girly look anymore. Wished I could at least say hi to you but you left before I was even done with practice.

Anyway, I was more than happy enough just to see you in person as the chances of us seeing each other is really rare now.

Ever love the feeling whenever you're at IKEA? Well, I ain't talking about the smell of their Swedish meatballs *slurrpppss* which by the way is ever so tempting!!

Back to IKEA. What I meant was their furniture showroom. Ever loved the feeling when you're in there? I loved their displays especially their bedroom design which makes me wanna just tugged into one and sleep. I've always wanted to design my room like IKEA's but it'll cost me a fortune to get them to design one. Since money doesn't grow on tree, I thought of doing it one by one instead.

So I started on my IKEA furniture hunt last week and finally got myself a black Brimnes Chest of 3 Drawers which I thought was slightly expensive but after comparing with furnitures sold elsewhere, I was glad I bought it. I've been using IKEA's product for a long time so I knew my money was well spent.

Gonna start saving to get my next IKEA items =)

Twitter Bird

Finally got myself a Twitter account.

I've been comtemplating for some time if I should get one as I did not wanna get myself too hook with social networking. But for now, I'll only be using it as my one-stop news update app/website, following users like CNN and Malaysiakini. Hopefully (but very unlikely) I'll be using it to follow some of my friends.

Haven't been posting much lately as I'm too stress up with work. I should probably start writing again!

It doesn't matter if you do not feel the same way or like me. It only matters that I feel the happiest whenever I am with you.

有时候喜欢一个人真的很痛苦

I know now that it's not the closeness that makes me like her more. It is the time apart that you realized how important she means to me, even when we are no longer close.

The Failure to Fail

Do we really need to fail in order to succeed? Are failures a must in life?

With the recent suicide of a UTAR student last week, it really makes me wonder what it means to fail. No one will know why he took his own life, after all he was a straight A's student in SPM & STPM. But i guess it was partly because he failed his UBS accounting test twice and he couldn't accept it since he has done so well all these while.

To me, I think failure is never the end but the start of discovering our weaknesses for self improvement. If we give up when we fail, we'll cease to discover our true potential. But none of this will happen if we weren't exposed to failures in life.

Failures are like chicken pox, it is always better for us to encounter it while we are young, because the older we are, the more danger it gets.

What happened to the world I once knew? The humanly love we had and the willingness to forgive one another.

It's scary nowadays that we would occasionally find news of man beating up helpless dogs or man trying to kill their own child. If man could hurt such innocent beings, what more can they do to another fellow human being?

Disheartened to know that our education has failed to instil basic moral and civic mind-ness in my generation. We were taught to remember the definitions for each nilai-nilai moral but not ways to imply it our lives. Ironically, we cheated our way through a Moral Project where we had to show a moral act. Technically we did passed the project but in actual fact it was a failure because we lied.

I can proudly say I didn't care less to remember any of the definitions for my SPM Moral because I did not see the point of putting it in writing. I've always believed that if that something is an action, we've got to show it, not merely write it.

As for the young chap who decided to hit an old man who caused him the accident, please find someone your own size or age.

You are a disgrace to the people of my generation!!

Every sweat and blood

Working is never easy. Actually, nothing comes easy unless your family is filthy rich but then again that's only because your parents have worked hard for it in the first place.

Working is never easy because we have to wake up early Mon-Fri, jam to work, work from 9-6 and finally jam home. Being constrained in doing something we don't feel like doing but would still have to do. We are willing to do all this just because we want to have ends meet and feed our family. 

It's only when i started working did i know that it was never easy for our parents to have work all their life to feed us. Every cent has sweat and blood in it. People used to say that you wouldn't know the value of money until you start working yourself. 

That is so very true.

Kon'nichiwa? Annyeonghaseyo? I tak faham larr

Don't know why i get this alot but people would ask if i was Korean or Japanese when they meet me for the first time. I simply tell them i am Chinese, Malaysian Chinese but they wouldn't believe. I guess other than my kinda sepet eyes, i don't have the typical chinese look.

Oddly, when i was young i looked very much like my dad and my brother looked like my mum. It's only in recent years that my face started changing and i now look very much like my mum, like "bang yan". My mum kinda have a Japanese look so i guess that's why people would mistaken me as a Japanese, or sometimes Korean. 

But all in all, i am kinda surprised with this 'face switching' happening as i grew up thinking i would look like my dad instead.

I begin to realize my relationship with her have gotten kinda awkward lately. The bond that we used to share is now gone and i've never thought things would end up this bad. If you end up not seeing each other often enough, things will definitely go downhill. That's how relationship works. But i guess most importantly it's because of what i did and i don't blame her for how she's reacting. I've to admit that telling her my feelings was a bad move because i was gambling 7 years of our friendship in something that i knew i wouldn't win. You would ask why was i so dumb?

Well, i doubted if i should tell her for 6 months because i was afraid to ruin our friendship. But because i treasure her as my true friend, i couldn't bear the guilt of lying to her anymore. Our relationship was build on trusting and being open to one another all these while so i knew by not telling, our friendship would be meaningless. I would rather gamble those 7 years away than to have a friendship of lies.

미안해

Ever had a hard time explaining your occupation to others? If you do, count me in!

There were countless times when i had a hard time explaining what i work as. In short, it would be "I work in a lab". But the general stereotype people would have towards lab work are usually the conventional research lab or pathology lab where blood screening is performed eg. BP Lab. It's never like "Hi, I actually work as a Lab Scientist" and people will say "Ohhh i kinda have an idea of what you do". I usually get a blank stare and then i spend the next 5-10 minutes explaining in lay men's term to people about my work.

I guess it's never easy when you work at something so new as what my lab does, unconventional and moreover one of a kind lab in Malaysia. In short, I am a Laboratory Scientist/Cell Culturist in Human Initiated Therapeutic Vaccine (HITV) Lab for Cancer Immunotherapeutics. If you notice, it's HITV as i get 9/10 people mistakenly thinks that i work in HIV Lab. To save you from all the details, what i do is i take your cells, i culture and put it back into you to fight your cancer cells.

A fascinating piece of technology!

Love of My Grandfather

When I was young, I grew up around my grandfather and would follow him wherever he goes. Sadly, I only had the chance to know him till I was 13 that's why I don't have much memory of him. But i do remember some of the moments i had with him.

My grandfather was a really simple man who will always put others before him and he wouldn't mind sacrificing his time doing things that others wouldn't notice. In those days when i was done attending Main Church's sunday school, i would run to the sanctuary to look for him. Every Sunday he would be there collecting used bulletins after the service and would do it without fail. He was almost 80 at that time. I've always wondered why he does it even though he wasn't the usher. It was much later did i understand that serving God does not require appointment, position nor qualification. My grandfather showed me that even though he wasn't highly educated, he could still serve God in a simple way.

I was so close to him that i was afraid of losing him. Whenever i was with him at a church member's funeral, i would fear, fear that he will be gone someday too. I never wanted that day to come. The day when i held his hand for the last time, he was already semi-conscious. As i whispered to him, he held my hands really tight. He knew i was talking to him. But because i was afraid to face the truth of losing him, i ran from his bedside.

I wished he would have lived longer so i could have the chance to take care of him like how he cared for me.

Thank you for being a part of what makes me who i am today. I shall meet you again in heaven.

Are promises meant to be broken? Or are they meant to be show your loved ones that you are true to them?

Are we more disappointed at not getting 10 small promises or just 1 big huge promise instead?

To me, one thing is for sure. Promises are easy to make but hard to keep. You can always promise someone the sky, but bear in mind that the higher you go the harder the fall will be. So unless you own a rocket, never promise the sky!

Never make promises that you can't keep.

有个人我还是放不下。不懂她知不知道，其实她对我真的很重要。她在我心里中是有一个很special 的地位。You're irreplaceable, that is why after all 我还是很想你。

What's life?

Life's about procrastinating..........shall continue on this tomorrow hahaaaa

Well, life is certainly not about procrastinating although i might sometimes tend to slack off abit here and there. To me, life is about learning how to enjoying every single moment, even for the simplest of things. A normal eat out roti canai dinner would make me feeling excited for it in the morning or the thought of my blooming moss rose would simply cheer up my working hours.

It's an easy thing to make oneself happy in life, one just need to know what makes one happy and use it as small small motivations in life.

And i met her

It's amazing how someone can leave us with such deep impression, no matter how old they are.

I remember this 5+ years old really active, talkative bubbly girl which i happened to meet a year ago at CMCCKL's Funfair. Well, instead of busy spending my coupons, i actually decided to help Peay Ying with her SS kids class. It was there that i met Danielle. Getting her to sit down was no easy task, moreover teaching her the 10 Commandments. But i guess she wouldn't be needing to remember any of the commandments as she is up in heaven now. Only had the chance to meet her once in my life and that she would leave me with sauch lasting impression.

God has His reasons for putting that someone or somebody in your life, even if it was for a brief moment.

Grace and Mercy

Is grace better than mercy, vice versa or is it the same thing??

Grace is  "Having what we do not deserve" while Mercy is "Not having what we deserve". Sounds the same isn't it? But if you were to think of it slightly, it's totally different.

Mercy is when you steal, get caught but the owner decided to have mercy on and let you off, hence "not having what you deserve".

While grace is when you steal, get caught but the owner feels that it was ok for you to keep what you took because you deserve it even though you actually don't, now that's grace "having what you don't deserve".

God sent His Son to die for us so that we do not get what we deserve and at the same time having salvation which we do not deserve.

I can't seem to stress it again and again every time. When things can go wrong, it always will. And it usually comes all together.

That's how freaking 'awesome' life is!

我喜欢的她虽然不是什么美女，但是她有一个蛮好的心

我喜欢的她虽然有时候她不会很温和，但是她有一个很甜蜜的笑

我喜欢的她虽然有时候她不赞同一些东西，但是她也不会让你犯错都不理

我喜欢的她虽然她有很多个朋友，但是她很讲友谊随时随地会帮你

我喜欢的她虽然我们现在不再是好朋友，但是我依然很关心她的一切

不管现在还是未来她依然是我曾经最好最好的朋友

Dreamception

There were a couple of times when i woke up from a dream only to realize that i was still in a dream. It freaked the hell out of me. I struggled to wake up to reality but only to find out i was waking up to another dream.

It's freaking not funny!!

In Asia especially for Chinese, it's our social norm or stereotype that girls MUST know how to cook. There are also Chinese quotes that says "Look for a wife that is good in the kitchen and also presentable as a host" or "As a girl if you do not know how to cook, you don't expect someone to marry you".

Well to me those quotes are quote obsolete in today's context. We can no longer assume modern girls to have the "know how to cooking". Thank God I was able to learn to cook while i was in the US and because of my interest, I've also put it to good use since i was back in Malaysia. I believe there is nothing to lose to learn more skills.

I never expect my wife to know how to cook. If she does, it would be a plus but if she doesn't, i don't mind being a chef to her. Right now, i am working on increasing the list of things i can cook.

Current house specialty: Marinated Grilled Lamb Shoulder with Garlic Potato Wedges!

An early Happy Mother's Day wish to all the mothers who have worked so hard especially preparing meals for their family. I know it's never an easy task.

I rarely see you smile because you laugh most of the time. If there is a word to describe what i like most about you, it would be laughter. That was my first impression of you as well.

Most people have the sweetest smile but to me, you have the sweetest laugh. Ironic isn't it. I don't know why but i love seeing you laugh. I think it's because you make me feel really comfortable around you whenever you laugh. It brings out the brighter side of you.

But the reason i like you isn't only of your brighter side. I know behind all the laughter, there is a serious side of you deep down which not many people have seen or know of. I want to know the real you. I want to just spend that one on one time with you, getting to know your likes and dislikes and to gradually develop real feelings for you. I want to know you differently than how you are when hanging out with a group of friends. That's what i want.

Will you give me a chance?

Up with my metabolism

I think my metabolism has been increasing recently =D Eat the same amount of food but i get hungry pretty fast and sweat more easily. I don't know what happened or what i did but it's good news for my weight as it has been decreasing as well =))

Ok. Election fever aside. This thought came to my mind and i think it's pretty true.

Remember the days when keypads on our mobile phones were literally keypads and not the virtual ones? Well, remember T9 English Dictionary?

Sadly, i would have to say most kids born after year 2000 wouldn't even know, moreover use it. T9 English dictionary was a revolutionary spelling tool that enabled us to spell words quickly using keypads on our phone. During the sms craze era, i was able to type 150 characters under a minute. Mind you it was with a keypad, not keyboard!! Some of my friends could even type without looking. There were no such thing as an auto-correct typo cause auto-correct doesn't exist. You got to know your spellings alphabet by alphabet.

Somehow it's still available on some smartphones nowadays but i think we would rather use keyboard instead. Another great invention on it's way to the tech museum.

You'll Will Never Walk Alone

Never have i felt so sad for my country than today, 6th May 2013. It is as though i myself have lost the race and i am sure i am not alone.

We as Malaysians came with a voters turnout of 80% (close to 90 for some constituencies), gave our best to bring a change to our country. Rome wasn't built in a day, so is a new Malaysia.

Maybe we aren't ready for a change or maybe better things are yet to come.

I've lost the race but i am not discouraged when i know 5.4 million more Malaysians are with me.

5th May 2018. I'll meet you there!!

To a special someone whom i care about,

Hope you're doing well with your classes and all. I am sure you've been putting a lot of effort in it because i know you really wanna pass your papers. Sorry as I am not part of those who have been motivating and pushing you to study recently. But i honestly wish you'll make it through because deep down, i can't wait to see you wear that graduation gown with green collar.

I know you can make it this time. I have faith in you. I always do!
May God bless and be with you.

It's All About UBAH!!

Why do we need change?

A friend of mine once told me "What's the difference, change already the new government will also end up the same."

Yes, there is no guarantee if a change in government will give us a better future. But at least it's better than having a government filled with lies about how good things currently are and what the future will be like with them in power.

Of course, most of us are afraid of changes because that leads to uncertainty and fear. We would rather be comfortably oppressed than taking a step of faith.

As parents, we always want the best for our children. Best school, best tuition, best of everything. If the school not good, CHANGE! Tuition teacher not good, CHANGE! Doctor not good, CHANGE! We would never gamble our children's future away, so why then with a corrupt government?

Government not good, WE CHANGE!!

Ok. Another random post.

I'm sure many of us have heard of ghost stories in Genting Highlands. From Ria Apartments to First World Hotel and we all have our own version of stories to share. But i am kinda curious to go have a look at one of the legendary ones. 

Google Amber Court and let it's exterior look say for itself. I am not planning to stay a night, just want to know what will it feels like to see it for myself. Most probably chills down my spine. What intrigues me is that some of the apartments are still open for rent. *Blank*

Who in their right mind would wanna stay there even for a night? 

I've come to understand why people have always said "Do it while you're still young. Enjoy yourself while you still can". It's because when we're older, we wouldn't be able to do things that we wished to do because of commitments and also commitments. We can no longer say "Screw it, i am out of here" and put everything aside to achieve whatever we want. Simply because commitments lead to responsibilities. We can no longer be selfish. And before you even know it, there will be commitments after commitments. So, about our dream or wish? Well, just chuck it aside and see if we have time to do it along the way.

Sadly, it usually only ends up as a dream or wish, never a reality.


Do it when you're young, enjoy it while you still can!

Happy Birthday to ME!!

This has been my loneliest ever birthday..well at least i have the rain to keep me company for a cold night

I wanna go somewhere far away.
I wanna go somewhere where no one knows anything about me.
I wanna go somewhere new.
I wanna go somewhere where i can just work half a day and spent the rest of it doing what i love.
I wanna go somewhere to meet really nice people.
I wanna go somewhere where i am awaken to flowers in full bloom.
I just wanna go somewhere!

p/s: A really random post before my birthday =P

One of the greatest contributions of Facebook is the Birthday Reminders. Nowadays, we thank God for Facebook who would post birthday reminders on timeline for us. Most people would try really hard to remember or even jot down birthday dates of friends and family and yet still forgets about it.

You may find it weird but for me, i would have to try really hard NOT to remember these dates, especially for people that i just got to know. I basically absorb dates like how a sponge would, with water. Whenever someone tells me his/her birth date, BAMM!! it's automatically inscribed in my brain and i would have to tell me brain "No no no, you don't have to remember it, it's not important. Let Facebook do it's job."

I need help in forgetting!!

My lab is about to employ someone new to work in the lab. Fingers crossed that he/she would be someone nice, willing to learn and easy-going as we would have to spend alot alot of time training him/her. Kinda anxious to know who it will be. I guess i'll find out soon.

Thumbs up for lesser work!!

Flower Power of Moss Rose

It was recently that i noticed how pretty Moss Rose was after only having it for half a year. FAIL!! Anyway, I actually find them prettier than the norm Rose which is usually overrated and over-priced.

It comes in different different bright colors, that's why i find them really nice especially purple ones. I am planting some of it now hoping that i can give it to the one i like and make her happy. At least it's better than spending to buy something that was planted for money. 

Moss rose usually blooms in the morning when it's cold, so i usually put it near the door to brighten up my day before i leave for work =)

愛是不保留

Was at a wedding yesterday and i came across this song again. Really really meaningful song.

I've always been told love won't endure.
But I still believe love can last long.
Who died on the cross and took away my curse?
Giving everything to you is all I pray. 

Nowhere can one find love long and true.
The world just thinks love comes and passes through.
"Don't make promise" is the rule...

Your unfailing love has made me strong.
You are the one I can depend upon.
Come what may, you'll love me all along!

Great is your love, I don't think I should deserve.
Your bleeding hands proved your love unreserved.
You're my only joy and treasure on the earth...

Use my life to serve you truly every day.
I'll hold your hands and give you all my praise.
Let the whole world know your love and grace!

常聽說世界愛沒長久，
哪裡會有愛無盡頭？
塵俗的愛只在乎曾擁有，
一刻燦爛便要走！

而我卻確信愛是恆久，
碰到了你已無別求；
無從解釋、不可說明的愛，
千秋過後仍長存不朽！！

誰人受痛苦被懸掛在木頭？
至高的愛盡見於刺穿的手；
看，血在流反映愛沒保留，
持續不死的愛到萬世不休！
惟求奉上生命全歸主所有，
要將一切盡獻於我主的手；
**我已決定今生再沒所求，
惟望得主稱讚已足夠！

For the will of the mind is stronger than the power of medicine

Seasons of Life

A few days back, Dr Philip Yancey came to FGAKL and he was sharing about The Seasons of Life. Basically our lives can be divided into 4 seasons. Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter.


Spring, where everything is new and flowers start to bloom. It represents a new life, new beginning, a refreshed life.

Summer, is when flowers are at their full bloom and everything comes to life. We feel so alive about everything. We see a purpose, a goal in life.

Autumn, a time when trees start to wither and die but this is also when they are at their prettiest. This is when we face uncertainty in our lives. 

Winter, when all signs of life seems to disappear. Trees with no leaves. But it is during this time that the roots are spreading far in search of nutrients and moisture in order to prepare itself to bloom again in spring. Sometimes, things might seems like their dead but it is at this darkest hours of our lives that we must grow not externally, but internally so that we may be able to bloom once again in Spring. 

We must learn to give thanks to God in whatever seasons of our lives. 

p/s: Ate a whole bunch of medication but i've yet to recover. Stupid virus!

Every single time when i think of a topic to blog, it's either i am in the middle of something or not in front of the PC. But when i am, i've already forgotten all about it....my brain needs to work at the right time.

Btw, GE13 is on the way..can't wait for a CHANGE!!

April. A time of cherry blossom and celebration, because it's my birthday month =P

Ever came across a moment when you feel so lost not knowing how to win the heart of that someone you like? Or have you ever repeatedly asked yourself to be certain that you like her? And do you keep reminding yourself the reasons why you actually like her?

I know it would not be easy as we don't talk nor see each other that often anymore. I wish we could but i chose not to because i need time to be certain that i really like her wholeheartedly. Hope you've not forgotten me by the end of it.

I know i don't need to win every girl's heart. I just need to win yours.
You're the only girl in my heart right now.

Doing What I Love

One thing i know for sure is that i love flying. I hope that one day i can fly a plane and go places i've never been.

Where the sky is the limit!

Building A Tall Relationship

This came to my mind, pretty random though but i think it kinda make sense.

I realized that building a relationship is like trying to build a tall building. The higher you want to build, the more you have to put it and the higher it is, the stronger the foundation has to be.

So if we build our relationship around lies, hatred, backstabbing and dishonesty, it is like stuffing a building's foundation with sand and rocks. No matter how strong your building is, it will eventually fall. Same goes to a relationship.

But if that relationship was a genuine and honest one, the building will eventually be able to stand unshaken because of that firm foundation. Likewise to go higher and taller, we would have to put it more time and effort for nothing grows if we don't feed it.

So, be an honest contractor. Not a crooked backstabbing one!

モテキ Moteki

I am usually not a fan of Japanese film but i happened to stumble upon this show as i was going through the channels on Astro today. Somehow this show caught my attention but too bad i wasn't able to finish watching it. I guess i would have a hard time deciding on which girl to stay with if i was him.

But i guess if i had to choose i would pick the cute and special one, Miyuki. They just look adorable together!

I've come to learn that sleep actually does help in coping with a bad day. It works like a reset button for my mood and also a charger for my energy level.

Sleep I Must!!

What Hurts Me

I've recently came across a couple of Facebook shares that says city council will be extending their weekend adoption hours for puppies/dogs that are on death roll.

I mean, what have they done to deserved to die? Isn't it already pitiful that some them were merely abandoned by their owners while some were just stray dogs. It really hurts to know if they weren't adopted, they will be put to sleep. So to say, if they weren't cute or adorable enough, that will be the end of it. If i could, i would really want to adopt some of them as well, but my hands are already full with 4 dogs at home.

Hope these dogs will get adopted by loving owners so they can deserved a better life.

Another recent case was when the Fire and Rescue Department placed eight K9 service dogs to sleep because they were already 10 years old. Well hello is this how we repay these dogs who have served the public all their life. What they deserved was a honorable retirement in a loving home, not dog's heaven. Never could have understand what the authorities were thinking when they ordered such cruel treatment. We should probably suggest the same treatment for them as well by sending them to the gallows, as a retirement gift and gratitude for their services.

Been having love infatuation for a character in a drama lately..If only she was someone real instead then it would have been perfect

A really random post

My crazy week is finally over..it was rougher than i've expected it to be but thank God i managed to pull through..

Made some mistakes during my culture haizzzz..hopefully things will turn out ok! *fingers crossed* Kinda disheartened to know what the patient is going through so i really wanna do my part for it.

Anyway, March is HERE. NOW. When did time started to fly so fast? I thought New Year was only yesterday???? This time really 不懂怎样死了with so many things to do and so little time..

I dreamed of you last night. Guess its because i miss you. Actually, i really miss you!

I Love

I Love writing blogs because i love reading my old old entries to see how much i've changed. It reminds me of things i've gone through and how i felt during that period of my life

Am glad of how much i've written. 191 posts!!

This is it

After a year of anticipation + fear + anxious, it's finally here this week. We are finally culturing it right here in Malaysia for the first time.

As a human, i would be lying if i said i wasn't stress at all. I am actually downright stress up and pressured thinking about it now. But i know God is with me all the way and i can depend on Him to help me sail through it on His wings.

最近你有跟我说过你的梦想。你想去看这个世界为了找自己。你很想去经历，拿到人生更多的经验。如果她真的有这个机会，我会很支持她的思想因为去感受别的文化能够把带出自己最好的一面。

如果有一天你的夢想都實現，當你離我遙遠，不能再和你相約，希望你还会记得我这个好朋友。

我希望你能够达到你的梦想。好好的努力哦！！

新年快乐

For this year's CNY, there wasn't anything exciting in particular apart from the usual 'bai nian'. I realized the 新年气氛 is getting lesser and lesser as time goes by. Maybe because i am older now with more things to worry.

我想回到我小的时候

First Post for 2013

Was planning to write my first blog post for 2013 and realized i was already 10 days late!! It feels like time flies faster when you're older and its really FREAKING me out. We are just a couple of days left till mid-January while New Year seems only like yesterday.

Fun fact: 

How do i usually gauge how old i am? 

- By the number of years since i left high school and its NINEEEEE!!