and its the last day of 2006...
2006 has been a pretty eventful yr i guess...
i suppose thats how we grow up... by accumulating an ever-expanding pool of experiences and emotions and eventually mould them into the shape of our adultselves...
is that wat growing up is all abt? then perhaps its better to delay the process and accumulate more before we trap ourselves in that one fixed shape...
haha i muz admit that's a little too pessimistic a view on the process of adulthood but lets juz say that i'm not totally prepared to take the final step =)
no one ever said jc2 was gonna be a piece of cake... esp with that overbearing a'lvls waiting rite at the end...
but then again, intentionally or unintentionally, it 'll be cherished because of all the effort that we had to put in...
incidentally i was going through my old blog entries these few days...
going through all that old troubles and fun again was well... a most entertaining process haha...
and i guess somehow i really do miss the good old days haha...
2006 has its own share of gd and bad times i suppose...
well somewhere along the line i guess i do miss sch and my cls haha...
juz hanging out together somewhere and even sitting together during tutorials and lectures haha...
we are one amazing mixture of ppl really haha...
yup 05S72 kinda miss the sching days with ur already...
hope u 'll let me off for watever evils i did back then haha
so all the best to all of u...
and see ur during the chalet nxt yr! =)
regretfully that's as much as i wanna say abt my jc2 life in sch =(
personally i think i changed alot this yr and thats really quite regrettable... esp towards the later 1/2 of the yr...
but then i suppose i had tried my best in every circumstances that i was placed in... although sometimes i 've to admit it juz wasn't enough...
oh well... emotionally i came a long long way haha...
well towards the end i was quite drained out i guessed but there's nothing like a gd break to replenish the lost energy haha...
i don't suppose i make many new friends this yr... more like maintaining or continuing friendships i guess since i already met all the new ppl in J1 haha...
haha to everyone out there...
hope i 've been as great a friend to ur as ur 've been to me haha =)
really i cldn't 've make it past this yr without some of ur ard...
u know who u r so thanx!
now i juz wanna spend time with ppl i'm comfortable and perhaps close with before i send myself packing into ns haha... although i'm abit reluctant to organise stuff nowadays haha...
don't think i've much time left though haha...frankly i haven't seen much of 4a or my np squadmates this yr =(
well i dunno... ppl do get tired at times really...
but anyway i really miss ur and the gd times we had together... i really wished that we cld really all meet up together or smth to juz talk abt the old times but i think thats quite hard really...
so i juz hope ur manage to read this and at the very least, remember some gd times in our past haha...
only a little bit of time left to 2007...
hm... i always feel abit sad when the yr ends haha...
there's always this feeling that more cld 've been done and that things cld 've been different somehow...
is this wat they call regrets?
maybe thats wat make the memories more vivid and lasting...
yup time's slipping through our fingers once again...
i guess i gonna stop here...
perhaps the last few moments are best spent on the worthy memories before 2007 brings us to the frest start...
and last of all to everyone out there...
Happy New Year =)
December 31, 2006
December 29, 2006
... ... HUANG JIN JIA ... ...
watched curse of the golden flower (aka man cheng jing dai huang jin jia but i prefer to juz call it huang jin jia haha) on thurs...
heard like all kinds of comments abt the movie ranging from sux to sianz/boring to epic...
but after watching i thought it wasn't as bad as i heard... actually i think its quite nicely done haha...
i guess if u're out watching for action... there's only that bit near the end of the movie...
but personally i think the point of the movie isn't so much abt the action bah... i 'ld like to think its cuts deeper in for a somewhat thoughtful portrayal of human emotions maybe...
its kinda hard to put a face to the fuzzy idea in my head haha...
but well i guess this is my own perspective of the movie and even if its totally out... it doesn't really matter cause anyway its my own experience, as determined by it, cannot be judged in anyway haha =)
yup so i quite enjoyed the movie haha...
suddenly i wish it was a lit text for me to study haha i think there are like many things to think abt haha...
or i may just be making smth out of nth...
i juz love to do that =)
anyway before that we walked ard cine while waiting for the movie to start...
ritz got himself a cap but too bad i didn't really see anything in my interest... maybe not in cine anyway...
went heeren after the movie and i realise i haven't been there for like months maybe haha...
got a few new shops here and there and apparently hmv changed its layout somewhat haha...
oh wait...
i realise i forgot to include smth that make me day an even nicer one than it already was haha...
i 've no more metal in my mouth!
isn't that juz cool haha...
yup before the movie i went to ndc to remove my braces... it wasn't exactly a pleasant process though haha...
but well its sure nice to regain freedom haha...
so i celebrated the event by watching huang jin jia haha well watever...
now i needa find some way to whiten my teeth!
argh... if only i can juz use white paint and go over them that wld save all the trouble...
i wonder if all those whitening toothpaste actually works... i 've always doubted their effectiveness i mean like who has really experienced whiter teeth by usig specific toothpastes...
oh well we shall see how...
yup...
it was a nice way to break the montony of the previous days when i spend all my time at home going through a routine of ps games, keyboard practices and other miscellaneous stuff... not to mention the barrage of bad news that has been dropping down from the sky for the past wk... haha
well and i realise i only 've 2 wks left!
oh well big congrats to me then thats how my hols before "imprisonment" was spent... wonderful...
gotta find someway to make the rest of the days worthwhile then...
okay that's abt all... haven't really blogged such a long entry for a long time haha...
adieos...
heard like all kinds of comments abt the movie ranging from sux to sianz/boring to epic...
but after watching i thought it wasn't as bad as i heard... actually i think its quite nicely done haha...
i guess if u're out watching for action... there's only that bit near the end of the movie...
but personally i think the point of the movie isn't so much abt the action bah... i 'ld like to think its cuts deeper in for a somewhat thoughtful portrayal of human emotions maybe...
its kinda hard to put a face to the fuzzy idea in my head haha...
but well i guess this is my own perspective of the movie and even if its totally out... it doesn't really matter cause anyway its my own experience, as determined by it, cannot be judged in anyway haha =)
yup so i quite enjoyed the movie haha...
suddenly i wish it was a lit text for me to study haha i think there are like many things to think abt haha...
or i may just be making smth out of nth...
i juz love to do that =)
anyway before that we walked ard cine while waiting for the movie to start...
ritz got himself a cap but too bad i didn't really see anything in my interest... maybe not in cine anyway...
went heeren after the movie and i realise i haven't been there for like months maybe haha...
got a few new shops here and there and apparently hmv changed its layout somewhat haha...
oh wait...
i realise i forgot to include smth that make me day an even nicer one than it already was haha...
i 've no more metal in my mouth!
isn't that juz cool haha...
yup before the movie i went to ndc to remove my braces... it wasn't exactly a pleasant process though haha...
but well its sure nice to regain freedom haha...
so i celebrated the event by watching huang jin jia haha well watever...
now i needa find some way to whiten my teeth!
argh... if only i can juz use white paint and go over them that wld save all the trouble...
i wonder if all those whitening toothpaste actually works... i 've always doubted their effectiveness i mean like who has really experienced whiter teeth by usig specific toothpastes...
oh well we shall see how...
yup...
it was a nice way to break the montony of the previous days when i spend all my time at home going through a routine of ps games, keyboard practices and other miscellaneous stuff... not to mention the barrage of bad news that has been dropping down from the sky for the past wk... haha
well and i realise i only 've 2 wks left!
oh well big congrats to me then thats how my hols before "imprisonment" was spent... wonderful...
gotta find someway to make the rest of the days worthwhile then...
okay that's abt all... haven't really blogged such a long entry for a long time haha...
adieos...
December 26, 2006
... ... WO DE JIAO AO ... ...
i don't even know wat to feel...
looks like my np u and all the badges and wat not 've gone missing!
it feels like i've lost a part of myself...
can feel the sense of loss gnawing at me...
crapz...
its not so much the uniform cause i 've a spare one at home but my badges and all that r gone as well!
oh well they maybe juz painted metals but then they mean so much to me...
so much that they symbolise but then i guess that's it...
the feeling is so real now...
bet a false dawn and a dark nite... i guess i'm still hoping for that tiny bit of miracle...
sigh...
looks like my np u and all the badges and wat not 've gone missing!
it feels like i've lost a part of myself...
can feel the sense of loss gnawing at me...
crapz...
its not so much the uniform cause i 've a spare one at home but my badges and all that r gone as well!
oh well they maybe juz painted metals but then they mean so much to me...
so much that they symbolise but then i guess that's it...
the feeling is so real now...
bet a false dawn and a dark nite... i guess i'm still hoping for that tiny bit of miracle...
sigh...
December 18, 2006
.. ... SCANNER ... ...
i think i may be a scanner...
but i don't read barcode labels or tell u the identity and how much something at the supermarket costs...
hm...
but i don't read barcode labels or tell u the identity and how much something at the supermarket costs...
hm...
December 15, 2006
... ... MOON ... ...
hm...
wat i remember most?
sitting at the pavilion waiting for the rest to arrive... and watching the rain falling all ard, relentlessly endlessly...
6 of us starting the fire... for the things they did and the things they didn't under the limited conditions that we were placed in...
the journey home... walking with clement to the bus stop and the mrt ride back with the rest...
really thanx to the ppl that came (in chronological order) :
daryl, ming han, chaoqun, kwong ee, tze, kian, wei da, min hao, clement, gab, chi, di kai... yup 12 in total...
yup i realised i committed 2 big giant mistakes this time rd...
oh well i guess i needa apologise for them... sorry abt that it seems like i wasn't exactly thinking very rationally...
but well that juz goes to prove 1 thing doesn't it...
yup i think i've finally found the answer...
*he saw it imprinted in the night sky...
that faint shimmer hanging high above...
but why was it so dark outside?
wat i remember most?
sitting at the pavilion waiting for the rest to arrive... and watching the rain falling all ard, relentlessly endlessly...
6 of us starting the fire... for the things they did and the things they didn't under the limited conditions that we were placed in...
the journey home... walking with clement to the bus stop and the mrt ride back with the rest...
really thanx to the ppl that came (in chronological order) :
daryl, ming han, chaoqun, kwong ee, tze, kian, wei da, min hao, clement, gab, chi, di kai... yup 12 in total...
yup i realised i committed 2 big giant mistakes this time rd...
oh well i guess i needa apologise for them... sorry abt that it seems like i wasn't exactly thinking very rationally...
but well that juz goes to prove 1 thing doesn't it...
yup i think i've finally found the answer...
*he saw it imprinted in the night sky...
that faint shimmer hanging high above...
but why was it so dark outside?
December 13, 2006
... ... GROSS OVERSIGHT ... ...
i sux at blading haha...
so paiseh gotta make everyone wait for me haha...
oh well...
i guess i need more blading sessions... that is if i ever get down to it hah...
which i think not =)
and u know smth...
i guess i left earlier and went further than i thought i did...
it was so apparent wasn't it...
on hindsight perhaps i shld 've expected it all along haha...
it was practically glaring at me these years... my own oversight indeed...
i guess its a miracle i made it thus far haha...
after thinking it through i decided i 'll throw all that i've previously typed into the other blog...
oh well...
i'm tired and i'm practically in depression!
and i feel so lonely... not juz the physcial sense but in everything else...
there is nothing for me is there...
self pity... an addictive sin of the weak...
so paiseh gotta make everyone wait for me haha...
oh well...
i guess i need more blading sessions... that is if i ever get down to it hah...
which i think not =)
and u know smth...
i guess i left earlier and went further than i thought i did...
it was so apparent wasn't it...
on hindsight perhaps i shld 've expected it all along haha...
it was practically glaring at me these years... my own oversight indeed...
i guess its a miracle i made it thus far haha...
after thinking it through i decided i 'll throw all that i've previously typed into the other blog...
oh well...
i'm tired and i'm practically in depression!
and i feel so lonely... not juz the physcial sense but in everything else...
there is nothing for me is there...
self pity... an addictive sin of the weak...
December 10, 2006
... ... RELATIVE EASE ... ...
a random update...
play games/music...
read books...
pack my rm...
and that's all i 've to do...
=)
play games/music...
read books...
pack my rm...
and that's all i 've to do...
=)
December 05, 2006
... ... PROM ... ...
i don't really know how to go abt blogging this...
there were the shopping trips...
there were the discussions, the planning, the anticipation...
there was the travelling to and from jeffrey's hse...
there was the scouting ard thiong bahru shopping centre...
there was the lagging...
there was supercuts... the waiting the process the first look at our new hairstyles...
there was the wind and our paranoia...
there was the lagging again and the final preparation...
there were taxi trips and stepping rite into the hotel and the ballroom...
there were flowers to be given and then random small talks at the tables...
there were food drinks competitions votings and other performances...
there was the best hairdo (daryl) there was the best acessorised (shiqi)...
there were many old familiar faces and that many photographs and flashes...
there was kbox and pool...
there was the energy and the lack of it...
there was anticipation and then pleasure and then doubt and then nothingness...
there was that moment when things were packed and that air of departure...
there was that long walk when my heart died on me... and that was all that matters suddenly...
there was breakfast at macs and the journey home...
there was that moment when i was alone and everything came haunting back... when i looked back at the fading track and wondered to myself wat has really been...
so many were and was... so many shld and cld...
i guess i wldn't forget for a very long time =)
now that its over...
i guess i'm empty now... maybe i 've nothing more to give...
i guess i need a long break away from everything... to recharge myself maybe...
there's a long way behind and an equally long way ahead...
there were the shopping trips...
there were the discussions, the planning, the anticipation...
there was the travelling to and from jeffrey's hse...
there was the scouting ard thiong bahru shopping centre...
there was the lagging...
there was supercuts... the waiting the process the first look at our new hairstyles...
there was the wind and our paranoia...
there was the lagging again and the final preparation...
there were taxi trips and stepping rite into the hotel and the ballroom...
there were flowers to be given and then random small talks at the tables...
there were food drinks competitions votings and other performances...
there was the best hairdo (daryl) there was the best acessorised (shiqi)...
there were many old familiar faces and that many photographs and flashes...
there was kbox and pool...
there was the energy and the lack of it...
there was anticipation and then pleasure and then doubt and then nothingness...
there was that moment when things were packed and that air of departure...
there was that long walk when my heart died on me... and that was all that matters suddenly...
there was breakfast at macs and the journey home...
there was that moment when i was alone and everything came haunting back... when i looked back at the fading track and wondered to myself wat has really been...
so many were and was... so many shld and cld...
i guess i wldn't forget for a very long time =)
now that its over...
i guess i'm empty now... maybe i 've nothing more to give...
i guess i need a long break away from everything... to recharge myself maybe...
there's a long way behind and an equally long way ahead...
November 24, 2006
... ... WHEW ... ...
rite then...
after a trip to the library and some "intensive" reading i'm springing back...
no point getting all down and out over it...
its time to make things work =)
after a trip to the library and some "intensive" reading i'm springing back...
no point getting all down and out over it...
its time to make things work =)
November 23, 2006
November 10, 2006
... ... THIS IS WAT IT MEANS ... ...
perfection doesn't exist...
when u r tired of it all...
maybe its best to let the imperfections slip through...
persistance won't ever be forever...
find urself a world and dream an only dream...
and then when u finally do wake up...
be it fiery flames or starry skies...
will u leave without looking back...
when u r tired of it all...
maybe its best to let the imperfections slip through...
persistance won't ever be forever...
find urself a world and dream an only dream...
and then when u finally do wake up...
be it fiery flames or starry skies...
will u leave without looking back...
November 09, 2006
... ... 2 WEEKS MORE ... ...
2 wks down... 2 more to go...
feel like i'm dying already... had a headache during maths this afternoon and the extreme cold doesn't make it any easier...
not too comfortable with the maths paper i guess haha... my stats r like so... uncertain =(
oh well thats it for maths then...
nxt wk... ECONS!
somehow this is the one that worries me the most... can't imagine going through all the essays blah blah again so taxing on the brain lah...
sigh...
haven't been slping well and i 've a feeling i gonna fall real sick soon...
woah lah i'll survive for 2 more wks... no longer than that...
bleah...
feel like i'm dying already... had a headache during maths this afternoon and the extreme cold doesn't make it any easier...
not too comfortable with the maths paper i guess haha... my stats r like so... uncertain =(
oh well thats it for maths then...
nxt wk... ECONS!
somehow this is the one that worries me the most... can't imagine going through all the essays blah blah again so taxing on the brain lah...
sigh...
haven't been slping well and i 've a feeling i gonna fall real sick soon...
woah lah i'll survive for 2 more wks... no longer than that...
bleah...
October 24, 2006
... ... SHALLOW WATERS ... ...
hm maybe i don't know why i writting this entry...
i won't even get to see it on my blog loh...
in fact i won't even get to see my blog! stupid IE... sigh...
but i thought i shld juz post smth here cause my blog's been stagnant for soooo long...
maybe its also cause there's nth much to update...
maybe things 've been pretty disappointing thus far...
i suppose i shldn't 've expected too much haha...
lukewarm juz isn't my kind of temp... especially when i'm the idiot testing the waters anyway...
rite rite rite...
we shall delay and delay and delay until alvl has come and gone... then we shall see how...
on another note...
i think my concentration is wanning already!
this is bad... nowadays all i do is like a few qns of maths and another random subject prelim paper per day...
i feel so slack lah... no its not that i'm slack its juz that i'm sianz of studying haha...
aiyah juz get a'lvl over and done with...
suddenly i don't really see it as anything important/significant in my life haha... muz be the NS effect =P
die i think i need to brainwash myself...
alvl is impt alvl is impt alvl is impt alvl is impt...
rite...
A'LEVEL IS THEREFORE IMPT!
i won't even get to see it on my blog loh...
in fact i won't even get to see my blog! stupid IE... sigh...
but i thought i shld juz post smth here cause my blog's been stagnant for soooo long...
maybe its also cause there's nth much to update...
maybe things 've been pretty disappointing thus far...
i suppose i shldn't 've expected too much haha...
lukewarm juz isn't my kind of temp... especially when i'm the idiot testing the waters anyway...
rite rite rite...
we shall delay and delay and delay until alvl has come and gone... then we shall see how...
on another note...
i think my concentration is wanning already!
this is bad... nowadays all i do is like a few qns of maths and another random subject prelim paper per day...
i feel so slack lah... no its not that i'm slack its juz that i'm sianz of studying haha...
aiyah juz get a'lvl over and done with...
suddenly i don't really see it as anything important/significant in my life haha... muz be the NS effect =P
die i think i need to brainwash myself...
alvl is impt alvl is impt alvl is impt alvl is impt...
rite...
A'LEVEL IS THEREFORE IMPT!
October 08, 2006
... ... 7 IN 1... ...
i came up with this new theory...
that my blog is only accesssible on my com after 12midnite each day...
really... whenever i try to go into it before 12 it auto closes...
hm... i need to do some more replicates to check its reliability and then maybe do some hypothesis testing to see whether i shld reject my theory...
and anyway i think its abt time i change my blogskin...
haha i think its abit too colourful as of now... although i still like the cc design haha...
oh well... 'll get down to changing it WHEN I "VE THE TIME =(
not to sum up everything that has happened this wk...
rite there was this kbox outing that got postponed like twice until wednesday haha...
eh only 6 of us went in the end but it was quite alrite lah... we didn't get to finish singing all the songs we wanted anyway...
the staff there were irritatingly punctual and started to chase us out at 7pm sharp...
we persisted and amde them come in like 3 times haha... and they were like glaring at us outside the door or smth so irritating...
and i'm qiute jealous loh... everyone can sing so high one... especially that dawei so freaking high lah... i think i'm like the only few lousy ppl who can only sing the inbetween and nth else...
this is so unfair now i'm depressed hahaha...
went for maf juz now too...
like ritz said was there to "soak in the atmosphere" haha...
somehow it wasn't as exciting as last yr haha... maybe its cause of the stupid haze also...
psi at hc was prob. like 170 loh... i probably inhaled enough stuff to shorten my lifespan by a gd no. of months or even yrs haha...
and nxt wk is the last wk of sch!
i'm planning to carry a camera ard sch the whole of nxt wk to take random stuff of unsuspecting ppl haha... then can blackmail them haha...
oh well... never really take any pics of this cls yet so yeah... gotta make full use of nxt wk =)
that my blog is only accesssible on my com after 12midnite each day...
really... whenever i try to go into it before 12 it auto closes...
hm... i need to do some more replicates to check its reliability and then maybe do some hypothesis testing to see whether i shld reject my theory...
and anyway i think its abt time i change my blogskin...
haha i think its abit too colourful as of now... although i still like the cc design haha...
oh well... 'll get down to changing it WHEN I "VE THE TIME =(
not to sum up everything that has happened this wk...
rite there was this kbox outing that got postponed like twice until wednesday haha...
eh only 6 of us went in the end but it was quite alrite lah... we didn't get to finish singing all the songs we wanted anyway...
the staff there were irritatingly punctual and started to chase us out at 7pm sharp...
we persisted and amde them come in like 3 times haha... and they were like glaring at us outside the door or smth so irritating...
and i'm qiute jealous loh... everyone can sing so high one... especially that dawei so freaking high lah... i think i'm like the only few lousy ppl who can only sing the inbetween and nth else...
this is so unfair now i'm depressed hahaha...
went for maf juz now too...
like ritz said was there to "soak in the atmosphere" haha...
somehow it wasn't as exciting as last yr haha... maybe its cause of the stupid haze also...
psi at hc was prob. like 170 loh... i probably inhaled enough stuff to shorten my lifespan by a gd no. of months or even yrs haha...
and nxt wk is the last wk of sch!
i'm planning to carry a camera ard sch the whole of nxt wk to take random stuff of unsuspecting ppl haha... then can blackmail them haha...
oh well... never really take any pics of this cls yet so yeah... gotta make full use of nxt wk =)
September 26, 2006
... ... TIMECRASH ADVERTED ... ...
OMG!
I"M BACK! =D
haha i mean i can finally visit my own blog again! isn't that cool?! =D
i was like "locked" out from my blog previously cause my ie auto close every time i try to visit my blog... but now its alrite again haha...
reminds me of a certain cc plot haha...
okay nvm point is i'm back hee
i've terrible "plots" up my sleeves which r like destined for failure...
haha wat am i gonna do?!
i'm so like out of ideas as to wat to get for ppl's bday...
darn... eh any help here?
I"M BACK! =D
haha i mean i can finally visit my own blog again! isn't that cool?! =D
i was like "locked" out from my blog previously cause my ie auto close every time i try to visit my blog... but now its alrite again haha...
reminds me of a certain cc plot haha...
okay nvm point is i'm back hee
i've terrible "plots" up my sleeves which r like destined for failure...
haha wat am i gonna do?!
i'm so like out of ideas as to wat to get for ppl's bday...
darn... eh any help here?
September 24, 2006
... ... SYSTEM LOCKDOWN ... ...
crapz...
this is so irritating!
i've been denied access to my own blog!
although i can still log into blogspot and post entries but everytime i try to visit my blog my ie 'll auto close!
and this only happens for my blog url! other websites r perfectly fine loh and i can't even find anything wrong with my com or ie to start fixing it...
if this continues maybe i'll juz timecrash this blog permanently and start a new one =(
oh well we shall see...
Singapore Idol Finals was grest juz now...
all the nice songs and everything... i muz go and find the songs somehow haha...
although jonathan was quite gd also but i thought hady was more "convincing" however u want to define it...
yup so hope hady wins tml =)
this is so irritating!
i've been denied access to my own blog!
although i can still log into blogspot and post entries but everytime i try to visit my blog my ie 'll auto close!
and this only happens for my blog url! other websites r perfectly fine loh and i can't even find anything wrong with my com or ie to start fixing it...
if this continues maybe i'll juz timecrash this blog permanently and start a new one =(
oh well we shall see...
Singapore Idol Finals was grest juz now...
all the nice songs and everything... i muz go and find the songs somehow haha...
although jonathan was quite gd also but i thought hady was more "convincing" however u want to define it...
yup so hope hady wins tml =)
September 20, 2006
... ... 2 OR MORE ... ...
there's at least 2 reasons to blog today!
1) Its Ritz's bday!
Happy Birthday!
Hope u like the special bday song haha =P
2) Its the end of prelims!
Finally its time to do stuff... yeah stuff...
actually... i think there's only 2 reasons to blog today.
1) Its Ritz's bday!
Happy Birthday!
Hope u like the special bday song haha =P
2) Its the end of prelims!
Finally its time to do stuff... yeah stuff...
actually... i think there's only 2 reasons to blog today.
September 08, 2006
... ... YI RAN ... ...
today is friday and we're 2 days away from the 1st paper...
and i'm still struggling to finish up here =(
i juz hate exams... they shld 've papers without time restrictions...
they can then eliminate pressure or stress variable that gives inaccurate data with regards to our intelligence...
bleah...
i was kinda caught off guard today...
i mean i was totally like not expecting anything...
it juz happened so suddenly so unexpectedly that i suppose i didn't really know how to react...
as a result i was giving "unintelligent" and vague responses that doesn't seem to ans the questions...
haha...
its juz one of those memories that has sunk rite to the bottom but a sudden and unexpected current brings it rite up to the surface... and u realise u 've no idea how to deal with it...
its really the wrong timing and wrong place...
nvm...
yi ran fan te xi rocks! =)
and i'm still struggling to finish up here =(
i juz hate exams... they shld 've papers without time restrictions...
they can then eliminate pressure or stress variable that gives inaccurate data with regards to our intelligence...
bleah...
i was kinda caught off guard today...
i mean i was totally like not expecting anything...
it juz happened so suddenly so unexpectedly that i suppose i didn't really know how to react...
as a result i was giving "unintelligent" and vague responses that doesn't seem to ans the questions...
haha...
its juz one of those memories that has sunk rite to the bottom but a sudden and unexpected current brings it rite up to the surface... and u realise u 've no idea how to deal with it...
its really the wrong timing and wrong place...
nvm...
yi ran fan te xi rocks! =)
September 03, 2006
... ... THE REST OF MY LIFE ... ...
i 've decided that i want a green... no i mean tree... no i actually mean a greentreehouse =)
yes and i want an island to myself!
impossible? okay then a forest or a few km squares of it!
still cannot? a park with sufficient private space!
very hard? alrite alrite a small garden with a stream/river running through it... with some giant trees in which i can build a treehouse...
oh yeah... muz 've wireless and capable of supporting high-tech goods...
and 1 more thing... most impt of all NO INSECTS!
yup that's abt it...
thanx! =)
haha...
i don't think i'm weird to want to live in such a place... i think its the perfectly sane thing to do...
to juz while the rest of ur life away on some private peaceful serene place...
of course that's after u finish watever u want to accomplish... then its really time to rest and appreciate watever that's left...
haha for me... i juz want to sit on a tree somewhere... to juz feel the wind and listen to the leaves or watever music i want... and juz think...
and that 'll be like my life until time's up =)
and then its really a heaven already... (barring insects and other nasty creatures of course)
of course it wld be better if i cld 've my loved ones or close friends with me but i doubt they can take this kind of lifestyle haha =P
and i've quite decided how i want to be erm... laid to rest already but i shall not blog it here in case ppl start thinking i'm sucidal...
in which case i can assure u i'm not haha =)
i had a dream involving death a few days ago... but i wasn't the one that died haha...
but yeah somehow i juz started thinking abt it haha...
i think i think too much sometimes...
anyway now its back to prelims =(
yes and i want an island to myself!
impossible? okay then a forest or a few km squares of it!
still cannot? a park with sufficient private space!
very hard? alrite alrite a small garden with a stream/river running through it... with some giant trees in which i can build a treehouse...
oh yeah... muz 've wireless and capable of supporting high-tech goods...
and 1 more thing... most impt of all NO INSECTS!
yup that's abt it...
thanx! =)
haha...
i don't think i'm weird to want to live in such a place... i think its the perfectly sane thing to do...
to juz while the rest of ur life away on some private peaceful serene place...
of course that's after u finish watever u want to accomplish... then its really time to rest and appreciate watever that's left...
haha for me... i juz want to sit on a tree somewhere... to juz feel the wind and listen to the leaves or watever music i want... and juz think...
and that 'll be like my life until time's up =)
and then its really a heaven already... (barring insects and other nasty creatures of course)
of course it wld be better if i cld 've my loved ones or close friends with me but i doubt they can take this kind of lifestyle haha =P
and i've quite decided how i want to be erm... laid to rest already but i shall not blog it here in case ppl start thinking i'm sucidal...
in which case i can assure u i'm not haha =)
i had a dream involving death a few days ago... but i wasn't the one that died haha...
but yeah somehow i juz started thinking abt it haha...
i think i think too much sometimes...
anyway now its back to prelims =(
August 27, 2006
... ... ROOM ... ...
i got a nice cool poster from preordering the new jay chou's album!
but then i' not gonna hang it up haha...
the preivous ones keep dropping when the wind blows so i decided to remove all of them for gd...
safer to keep them rolled up in plsatic tubes yeah...
wat a waste...
if only i got like some hangers with plastic coverings or plastic boards (watever they r caught) like those they use to display posters in the shops... so irritating...
nvm for now they shall be hidden in a corner of my rm...
maybe after A's then i'll figure out a way to deal with them...
speaking of which i really want to like give my rm a total makeover...
now its like a warehse storing all kinds of rubbish...
and to make it worse... like 40% of the stuff in my rm r not even mine or my brother's...
yup so i want to throw out all these stuff... then change the cupboards (some of them happens to be erm... u know unsuitable colours)
then get some cool looking furnitures and stuff to furnish the rm again... i always wanted some kind of comfy couch or sofa in my rm haha...
then can relax and all that...
i gonna design my own hse in the future... make sure its a cool and relaxing place
i cannot take stressful surroudings haha...
but then i' not gonna hang it up haha...
the preivous ones keep dropping when the wind blows so i decided to remove all of them for gd...
safer to keep them rolled up in plsatic tubes yeah...
wat a waste...
if only i got like some hangers with plastic coverings or plastic boards (watever they r caught) like those they use to display posters in the shops... so irritating...
nvm for now they shall be hidden in a corner of my rm...
maybe after A's then i'll figure out a way to deal with them...
speaking of which i really want to like give my rm a total makeover...
now its like a warehse storing all kinds of rubbish...
and to make it worse... like 40% of the stuff in my rm r not even mine or my brother's...
yup so i want to throw out all these stuff... then change the cupboards (some of them happens to be erm... u know unsuitable colours)
then get some cool looking furnitures and stuff to furnish the rm again... i always wanted some kind of comfy couch or sofa in my rm haha...
then can relax and all that...
i gonna design my own hse in the future... make sure its a cool and relaxing place
i cannot take stressful surroudings haha...
August 21, 2006
... ... HAIX ... ...
haix...
sometimes i juz feel like sighing through the entire day...
perhaps then i can get myself back onto the way...
i suppose this is wat happens when i grow weary of it all...
when i realise there is nothing to hold me in that depthless fall...
i spot my glaring shadow in the light...
but somehow it could never blend in with the night...
yet i never did hesitate or perhaps i should...
for nowhere can i found one/those who would...
haix...
sometimes i juz feel like sighing through the entire day...
perhaps then i can get myself back onto the way...
i suppose this is wat happens when i grow weary of it all...
when i realise there is nothing to hold me in that depthless fall...
i spot my glaring shadow in the light...
but somehow it could never blend in with the night...
yet i never did hesitate or perhaps i should...
for nowhere can i found one/those who would...
haix...
August 17, 2006
... ... ALL THE WRONG ONES ... ...
and here i am to mourn for all the wrong ones...
here's the 1st wrong one...
and i wonder how i'm sulking now... when i was fully aware of the consequences all along...
oh well there's not much i can do abt it anyway so might as well get myself comfortable with it...
well that's that... insignificance juz abt sums it all up =(
here's the 2nd wrong one...
this time its not abt rite or wrong i guess...
its juz the loneliness that comes about when u walk a different path from the rest...
i guess there's always a time when u wish everyone was walking the same path as u... so that at least there 'll be some company as u continue to move on into ur future...
i guess i can sympathise with that...
maybe i'm over-reacting but then i'm kinda sorry none of us can be there now...
here's the 3rd wrong one...
for wishing that everyone 'll make u happy everytime...
this world juz isn't mine or urs alone...
here's the 4th wrong one...
for the all talk no action...
here's the 5th wrong one...
for i'm feeling pressure... more from other ppl than work...
and frankly i feel really stupid at times...
here's the 6th wrong one...
for the inherent faults for which i assume i've been wronged...
and for feeling this way too...
here's the last and most impt one...
for all ur troubles all ur stress...
i really believe u can do it if u try...
here's the 1st wrong one...
and i wonder how i'm sulking now... when i was fully aware of the consequences all along...
oh well there's not much i can do abt it anyway so might as well get myself comfortable with it...
well that's that... insignificance juz abt sums it all up =(
here's the 2nd wrong one...
this time its not abt rite or wrong i guess...
its juz the loneliness that comes about when u walk a different path from the rest...
i guess there's always a time when u wish everyone was walking the same path as u... so that at least there 'll be some company as u continue to move on into ur future...
i guess i can sympathise with that...
maybe i'm over-reacting but then i'm kinda sorry none of us can be there now...
here's the 3rd wrong one...
for wishing that everyone 'll make u happy everytime...
this world juz isn't mine or urs alone...
here's the 4th wrong one...
for the all talk no action...
here's the 5th wrong one...
for i'm feeling pressure... more from other ppl than work...
and frankly i feel really stupid at times...
here's the 6th wrong one...
for the inherent faults for which i assume i've been wronged...
and for feeling this way too...
here's the last and most impt one...
for all ur troubles all ur stress...
i really believe u can do it if u try...
August 12, 2006
... ... STRESSING ... ...
according to some test we did during ct on friday...
i'm a high-Ser... means i'm steady like erm... a rock?
cldn't think of anything else so yeah *shrugs*
rite... i'm sincere and loyal and small grps of close friends... cool =)
and to relieve stress i'm supposed to slp!
but the thing is i can't figure out how it can possibly work for me haha
let's see...
so when i'm stressed out by all the studying, i'm supposed to slp...
but then if i slp... i'll be wasting time...
the opp. cost forgone wld be the amt of studying i cld 've done if i did not slp...
thus i wld 've less time for studying...
then i wld be more stressed out wat...
but then incidentally i realised i've been slping more and more often these days...
i slp in the afternoon/evening after getting back from sch...
i slp a few times in 1 day during the wkends... like i study for a while then lie on bed slp/doze for a while then i study again then i slp/doze again... and the cycle repeats for the entire afternoon =X
so i dunno... maybe its a reflex action by my body haha...
this entry seems to be quite bo liao...
yeah haha i got nth else to say already...
adieos and keep the stress in control =)
i'm a high-Ser... means i'm steady like erm... a rock?
cldn't think of anything else so yeah *shrugs*
rite... i'm sincere and loyal and small grps of close friends... cool =)
and to relieve stress i'm supposed to slp!
but the thing is i can't figure out how it can possibly work for me haha
let's see...
so when i'm stressed out by all the studying, i'm supposed to slp...
but then if i slp... i'll be wasting time...
the opp. cost forgone wld be the amt of studying i cld 've done if i did not slp...
thus i wld 've less time for studying...
then i wld be more stressed out wat...
but then incidentally i realised i've been slping more and more often these days...
i slp in the afternoon/evening after getting back from sch...
i slp a few times in 1 day during the wkends... like i study for a while then lie on bed slp/doze for a while then i study again then i slp/doze again... and the cycle repeats for the entire afternoon =X
so i dunno... maybe its a reflex action by my body haha...
this entry seems to be quite bo liao...
yeah haha i got nth else to say already...
adieos and keep the stress in control =)
August 06, 2006
... ... MY CLASS OF 4A ... ...
had my 4a gathering cum farewell dinner for cyc last nite before he flies for hk!
wad down at orcahrd at abt 2 to get some stuff for cyc first...
then went to far east to meet the rest... by the time we got down to playing pool it was actually like 4+ already... end up only like 12 of us playing pool (me, philip, ke, yy, cyc, chao hsiang, melvin, wei jian, min hao, ming han, brent and ying tang)...
cause the rest suddenly msg/call saying they 'll only be meeting us for dinner...
anyway yeah there were like lots of "1st timers" who produce pseudo-miracle shots out of nowhere... and there was this beeping massage chair that starts beeping if u sit on it for more than 10s without paying haha...
for some stpuid reason... yiyang got to sit on it for like 30-40s without anything happening... so unfair lah...
only played abit in the end cause i was busy trying to sort out where everyone was and who's coming who's not... and then i make some stupid blunder oh well... more on that later...
anyway after that we hopped over to the fish n co glshse to meet up with the rest...
suppose to meet at 6 but when we arrive only daryl was there haha... (shan't reveal wat he was doing before we arrive =P)
hang ard outside the love sign talking here and there while waiting for the rest...
tze, clement, yong liang, wei da and liang cheng turned up soon and we went in at 630 like that...
di kai, sebas, jkwek, mong, chris, nicholas and they kinda filled up the rest of the seats!
yes! the rest of the seats! here's where i made a stupid mistake!
somehow and i don't know how... i only counted 25 ppl coming for dinner then we didn't 've enough seats in the end when the rest started turning up...
ahhh!
so sorry to chi, jirong, jteh, kian, wei en and nigel who turned up later then had to stand ard while waiting for seats...
then me and some others had to pia finish our food to let them sit at the main table...
and sorry to those who has to give up their seats at the main table also(wei da, daryl, melvin, philip, wei jian and chao hsiang)...
even though got a table for the few of us subsequently but it was like quite far from the main table then cannot sit with the rest...
paiseh paiseh =(
dinner was like crapping and talking rubbish and catching up with one another... esp those who r not in hc now haha...
and of course the photos!... went ard with my cam taking random photos...
actually its quite fun to take photos haha... i shall bring my cam out more often and take random stuff to fill up my collection =)
towards the end... we embarked on a lasrge scale project to settle the bill! spearheaded by yong liang and sebas if i'm not wrong haha... its was like... well... ridiculously fun erm u get the idea...
here's one thing i learn : juz multiply the cost of ur food by 1.1 and 1.05 to pay for all the xtra charges also haha =)
after that migrated out to the "very weird statue" (quoted from nigel) for a class photo...
for some reason the statue phrase juz stuck in my head and i found it quite amusing for some unknown reason... eh i muz be going wild haha...
after much delay thats typical of a very large grp of ppl... somehow we started moving to paradisz centre for lan...
oh yes! muz mention this we actually cld see parts of the fireworks while walking there... so cool! but it ended before i cld take out my cam haha... but well it was an unexpected surprise...
anyway abt 1/2way some diverted to eat ice-cream at thje new cathay before joining us again later on...
so after another long delay and drag the rest of us finally arrived at some lan center and got down to playing a 5v5 dota...
omg i'm totally wasted after like months of inactivation... cldn't use my hotkeys properly and then keep dying... haha i think i was one of the most useless one in the game =)
nvm my team got pro ppl like kian and wei en so yeah we manage to win haha...
decided to go home after that cause it was like 10+ already haha...
met the rest who were in arcade outside and we all went home together...
there happy ending at last =)
phew... i'm so glad almost everything went through smoothly...
4a has always been quite unpredictable haha...
i was so surprised and abit touched by the turnout haha...
in this whole entry i actually bolded 30 names! =)
oh well i might as well include the rest then -> koon, cq, u-glen, gab, ming seng and pak
so yup 30/36... woah haha...
hope all of ur enjoyed urself there... really happy to see all of u there having fun with one another haha... this is really the thing u 'll want to see if u're organising smth =)
all the best to cyc for his future!
and to everyone else thanx! =)
wad down at orcahrd at abt 2 to get some stuff for cyc first...
then went to far east to meet the rest... by the time we got down to playing pool it was actually like 4+ already... end up only like 12 of us playing pool (me, philip, ke, yy, cyc, chao hsiang, melvin, wei jian, min hao, ming han, brent and ying tang)...
cause the rest suddenly msg/call saying they 'll only be meeting us for dinner...
anyway yeah there were like lots of "1st timers" who produce pseudo-miracle shots out of nowhere... and there was this beeping massage chair that starts beeping if u sit on it for more than 10s without paying haha...
for some stpuid reason... yiyang got to sit on it for like 30-40s without anything happening... so unfair lah...
only played abit in the end cause i was busy trying to sort out where everyone was and who's coming who's not... and then i make some stupid blunder oh well... more on that later...
anyway after that we hopped over to the fish n co glshse to meet up with the rest...
suppose to meet at 6 but when we arrive only daryl was there haha... (shan't reveal wat he was doing before we arrive =P)
hang ard outside the love sign talking here and there while waiting for the rest...
tze, clement, yong liang, wei da and liang cheng turned up soon and we went in at 630 like that...
di kai, sebas, jkwek, mong, chris, nicholas and they kinda filled up the rest of the seats!
yes! the rest of the seats! here's where i made a stupid mistake!
somehow and i don't know how... i only counted 25 ppl coming for dinner then we didn't 've enough seats in the end when the rest started turning up...
ahhh!
so sorry to chi, jirong, jteh, kian, wei en and nigel who turned up later then had to stand ard while waiting for seats...
then me and some others had to pia finish our food to let them sit at the main table...
and sorry to those who has to give up their seats at the main table also(wei da, daryl, melvin, philip, wei jian and chao hsiang)...
even though got a table for the few of us subsequently but it was like quite far from the main table then cannot sit with the rest...
paiseh paiseh =(
dinner was like crapping and talking rubbish and catching up with one another... esp those who r not in hc now haha...
and of course the photos!... went ard with my cam taking random photos...
actually its quite fun to take photos haha... i shall bring my cam out more often and take random stuff to fill up my collection =)
towards the end... we embarked on a lasrge scale project to settle the bill! spearheaded by yong liang and sebas if i'm not wrong haha... its was like... well... ridiculously fun erm u get the idea...
here's one thing i learn : juz multiply the cost of ur food by 1.1 and 1.05 to pay for all the xtra charges also haha =)
after that migrated out to the "very weird statue" (quoted from nigel) for a class photo...
for some reason the statue phrase juz stuck in my head and i found it quite amusing for some unknown reason... eh i muz be going wild haha...
after much delay thats typical of a very large grp of ppl... somehow we started moving to paradisz centre for lan...
oh yes! muz mention this we actually cld see parts of the fireworks while walking there... so cool! but it ended before i cld take out my cam haha... but well it was an unexpected surprise...
anyway abt 1/2way some diverted to eat ice-cream at thje new cathay before joining us again later on...
so after another long delay and drag the rest of us finally arrived at some lan center and got down to playing a 5v5 dota...
omg i'm totally wasted after like months of inactivation... cldn't use my hotkeys properly and then keep dying... haha i think i was one of the most useless one in the game =)
nvm my team got pro ppl like kian and wei en so yeah we manage to win haha...
decided to go home after that cause it was like 10+ already haha...
met the rest who were in arcade outside and we all went home together...
there happy ending at last =)
phew... i'm so glad almost everything went through smoothly...
4a has always been quite unpredictable haha...
i was so surprised and abit touched by the turnout haha...
in this whole entry i actually bolded 30 names! =)
oh well i might as well include the rest then -> koon, cq, u-glen, gab, ming seng and pak
so yup 30/36... woah haha...
hope all of ur enjoyed urself there... really happy to see all of u there having fun with one another haha... this is really the thing u 'll want to see if u're organising smth =)
all the best to cyc for his future!
and to everyone else thanx! =)
July 31, 2006
... ... EXPECTATION ... ...
expectation is a scarey word...
one that i 've learnt not to take it for granted...
afterall i shld know much better than anyone else rite haha...
kinda looking forward to sat i guess...
haven't seen everyone for so long shld be fun to meet up again rite haha...
yup juz need to settle a few more stuff brrr... needa get smth for cyc also... and i've absolutely no idea wat to get!!
can we juz get a plush d*****? it makes things so much easier and cheaper too... haha i'm sounding so insincere here...
oh wait juz in case cyc reads my blog i shall go back and erm... mask the word...
there done now its less obvious...
as of now theoretical attendence is like (5/6 X 100%) watever that is...
and yup i'm pretty amazed too haha... but then again its a theoretical value so yeah...
and if i can juz find MIA ppl like koon and fish a confirmation out from the few remaining ppl...
(and of course there's that erm... well... that one person left) hm?
and i shall keep my fingers crossed...
one that i 've learnt not to take it for granted...
afterall i shld know much better than anyone else rite haha...
kinda looking forward to sat i guess...
haven't seen everyone for so long shld be fun to meet up again rite haha...
yup juz need to settle a few more stuff brrr... needa get smth for cyc also... and i've absolutely no idea wat to get!!
can we juz get a plush d*****? it makes things so much easier and cheaper too... haha i'm sounding so insincere here...
oh wait juz in case cyc reads my blog i shall go back and erm... mask the word...
there done now its less obvious...
as of now theoretical attendence is like (5/6 X 100%) watever that is...
and yup i'm pretty amazed too haha... but then again its a theoretical value so yeah...
and if i can juz find MIA ppl like koon and fish a confirmation out from the few remaining ppl...
(and of course there's that erm... well... that one person left) hm?
and i shall keep my fingers crossed...
July 24, 2006
July 17, 2006
... ... DISSECTION ... ...
had rat dissection today...
was okay with cutting up and all that juz that the stupid stench gave me a headache by the end of bio prac...
can't imagine doing a human autopsy yucks... and so i'm not gonna be a doctor =)
was never planning to be one anyway...
i need to get my ideas in line!
can't seem to decide anything this few days... everything running ard in my head without the essential linkages...
i don't feel competent suddenly...
i guess i wldn't know how to react if everything goes the wrong way...
i 've too many things on my "muz succeed" list and it makes the future so "scarey" now...
and wat wld happen if i shld fail?
was okay with cutting up and all that juz that the stupid stench gave me a headache by the end of bio prac...
can't imagine doing a human autopsy yucks... and so i'm not gonna be a doctor =)
was never planning to be one anyway...
i need to get my ideas in line!
can't seem to decide anything this few days... everything running ard in my head without the essential linkages...
i don't feel competent suddenly...
i guess i wldn't know how to react if everything goes the wrong way...
i 've too many things on my "muz succeed" list and it makes the future so "scarey" now...
and wat wld happen if i shld fail?
July 13, 2006
... ... JULY 13 ... ...
today is my special day!
juz wanna say thanx to all those who wished my happy bday and also for the nice presents i received haha...
got a wallet/pencilcase from the guys and some others but i'm not very sure who shared it haha oops...
my current ones r really like anicent already but then normally i can't bear to throw away or change all the old but not yet broken stuff...
so i tend to stick to the same stuff for a long time until they like totally break down haha...
thats so me haha...
received some erm... very erm... innovative bday cards too haha...
there was one erm... poem? that actually rhymes from shiqi and company... and another one from emilia with many beans on it... i don't mean real beans btw...
there was also this surprise bday treat by rachel, meiyi and huiwen also... was really taken aback haha...
they treated me to this "bean da can" from the canteen! (actually i still don't get the "bean" thingy loh its so... unimaginable?!)
there was this plate of bean related stuff from the cai fan stall + hei nuo mi and dou hua from the hot drinks stall + vitasoy from the drinks stall...
haha in the end i eat abit of everything yi si yi si abit then let other ppl finish the rest =)
after that went coro to eat lunch instead haha...
gp essay was a pleasant surprise for me too...
abt time i get compensated for all my other lousy grades loh...
i guess i'm lucky in certain unexpected aspects haha...
anyway in case u don't know yet...
i accept late presents so feel free to keep them coming in... the more the more better haha...
haha joking lah...
but of course the act of giving is better than the act of receiving rite? so why not take some time off to do others and more imptly, urself a favour? you 'll definitely be rewarded with a great sense of satisfaction at the end yeah =)
i'm spewing gp rubbish here but i'm sure u get my drift =P
alrite...
there was only 1 eh... setback today i guess...
sigh... so irritating...
nvm...
i shall enjoy this last 20 min of my special day =)
juz wanna say thanx to all those who wished my happy bday and also for the nice presents i received haha...
got a wallet/pencilcase from the guys and some others but i'm not very sure who shared it haha oops...
my current ones r really like anicent already but then normally i can't bear to throw away or change all the old but not yet broken stuff...
so i tend to stick to the same stuff for a long time until they like totally break down haha...
thats so me haha...
received some erm... very erm... innovative bday cards too haha...
there was one erm... poem? that actually rhymes from shiqi and company... and another one from emilia with many beans on it... i don't mean real beans btw...
there was also this surprise bday treat by rachel, meiyi and huiwen also... was really taken aback haha...
they treated me to this "bean da can" from the canteen! (actually i still don't get the "bean" thingy loh its so... unimaginable?!)
there was this plate of bean related stuff from the cai fan stall + hei nuo mi and dou hua from the hot drinks stall + vitasoy from the drinks stall...
haha in the end i eat abit of everything yi si yi si abit then let other ppl finish the rest =)
after that went coro to eat lunch instead haha...
gp essay was a pleasant surprise for me too...
abt time i get compensated for all my other lousy grades loh...
i guess i'm lucky in certain unexpected aspects haha...
anyway in case u don't know yet...
i accept late presents so feel free to keep them coming in... the more the more better haha...
haha joking lah...
but of course the act of giving is better than the act of receiving rite? so why not take some time off to do others and more imptly, urself a favour? you 'll definitely be rewarded with a great sense of satisfaction at the end yeah =)
i'm spewing gp rubbish here but i'm sure u get my drift =P
alrite...
there was only 1 eh... setback today i guess...
sigh... so irritating...
nvm...
i shall enjoy this last 20 min of my special day =)
July 11, 2006
... ... THURSDAY ... ...
Italy won world cup! yay!
i'm getting hopeless grades...
and its not like i never study loh... i muz be stupid...
i am hungry now... i feel like eating nice food but there's none in sight...
i predict i'm gonna start mugging games like dynasty warriors soon... its such a chore to unlock stuff and train everyone but i 'll persevere...
i refuse to hold any expectations for thursday...
after thursday i'll get to work...
nope i'm not talking abt sch work... in fact i'm already doing tutorials now =(
i was talking abt an overdue outing haha...
but then again i won't be getting too optimistic abt it juz yet...
in the 1st place i've absolutely no idea wat to do for it loh...
at least i kinda narrowed it down to 4 dates: 29/7 or 30/7 or 5/8 or 6/8
and its all wkends so options r so limited due to cost considerations...
well... we 'll work out smth from there afterwards...
wait a min... "we"?
today is tuesday... thursday is 1 day away =)
i'm getting hopeless grades...
and its not like i never study loh... i muz be stupid...
i am hungry now... i feel like eating nice food but there's none in sight...
i predict i'm gonna start mugging games like dynasty warriors soon... its such a chore to unlock stuff and train everyone but i 'll persevere...
i refuse to hold any expectations for thursday...
after thursday i'll get to work...
nope i'm not talking abt sch work... in fact i'm already doing tutorials now =(
i was talking abt an overdue outing haha...
but then again i won't be getting too optimistic abt it juz yet...
in the 1st place i've absolutely no idea wat to do for it loh...
at least i kinda narrowed it down to 4 dates: 29/7 or 30/7 or 5/8 or 6/8
and its all wkends so options r so limited due to cost considerations...
well... we 'll work out smth from there afterwards...
wait a min... "we"?
today is tuesday... thursday is 1 day away =)
July 07, 2006
... ... do ... ...
wat 've i done?
wat am i doing?
wat am i not doing?
wat am i going to do?
why do i do wat i do?
why do i do wat i need or need not do?
why do i not do wat i need to do?
why do i?
give me leave to leave...
wat am i doing?
wat am i not doing?
wat am i going to do?
why do i do wat i do?
why do i do wat i need or need not do?
why do i not do wat i need to do?
why do i?
give me leave to leave...
June 29, 2006
... ... BLKS TEST 2 ... ...
i realised i 've been very stressed lately...
with all kinds of things bugging me... so depressing lah...
i discovered i 've quite abit of white hair...
at the rate i'm going... i think i'll be 5o by the end of this yr...
at the same time...
parts of my hair seem to turning brown...
i plucked out 1 strand of hair the other day which was totally brown...
muz be all the stress... my hormonal lvls r spiralling out of control or it may be due to spontaneous mutations in my genes that results in this "evolution"...
maybe i'll be joining the x-men soon... the mutant with absurd and random hair colours to confuse enemies and sneak an attack in the time being or simply sneak away while they're erm... preoccupied with the hair...
i absolutely can't believe i'm so useful...
blk test 2 ended today.
with all kinds of things bugging me... so depressing lah...
i discovered i 've quite abit of white hair...
at the rate i'm going... i think i'll be 5o by the end of this yr...
at the same time...
parts of my hair seem to turning brown...
i plucked out 1 strand of hair the other day which was totally brown...
muz be all the stress... my hormonal lvls r spiralling out of control or it may be due to spontaneous mutations in my genes that results in this "evolution"...
maybe i'll be joining the x-men soon... the mutant with absurd and random hair colours to confuse enemies and sneak an attack in the time being or simply sneak away while they're erm... preoccupied with the hair...
i absolutely can't believe i'm so useful...
blk test 2 ended today.
June 25, 2006
... ... NPCC CELEBRATION DINNER ... ...
back from npcc celebration dinner tonite or rather yesterday nite...
it was held to celebrate the 10th consecutive gold which also won us the special unit excellence award - a golden drillcane haha... although i thought the silver one still looks better =P
too bad newtown for it also... or else we 'll be like the only npcc unit to get the special award haha...
in all kinds of way... i suppose we did contribute a little here and there for 4 yrs to help get the award so shld go and erm... "celebrate" haha... watever lah...
anyway...
only me cr klo yizhi and tanwen were there to represent out batch quite sad loh... only 5/33 came...
aiyah... but then i wasn't expecting much anyway...
not with blk tests coming up in 1 day's time and well... other long-standing factors...
i suppose it was really abit strange to go dinner while everyone else is mugging at home *shrugs* but anyway i still went haha =)
paid $40 for the furama riverfront hotel dinner... but i think the high cost was due more to the hotel then the food there which was like really quite average...
after spending like ages getting past the reception and into the room we went to inspect the display of awards and photos of the past 10 yrs... took photos of tbem... i mean they were like the whole point of the dinnner loh of course cannot miss them out...
then came all the speeches and presentation of awards and so on before dinner offically starts at like 8+?
i was like totally starving already loh... kinda skipped lunch earlier also and waited so long for them to start dinner...
salad wasn't very gd except maybe for the sushi haha... but it was like softshell crab seafood stuff whihc i cldn't really touch so unfair loh...
main course was a WEIRD mixture of food lah... and as usual they had stuff like prawns which was like totally out of bounds for me and it was like the most expensive food ard already... bleah...
desserts was mainly cakes but i got sick of them after 1 slice... the taste was like super sweet and thick... didn't dare to take another 1 after that haha...
rite... enough abt food...
anyway they presented this "unit star award" to kala and lokelf haha... the award was like a hong xing da jiang those kind loh... 1 stem then got 1 star at the top haha quite cool...
there were intervals of lucky draws here and there + squad performances too...
lots of spoof of the bird commercial as well as the mr brown version altough i thought they cld be more well done to make it more funny haha...
the sec1s were also like go up there and gan gan sing song one... not bad loh reminds me of the time when my squad went up on stage to sing song also... i shall not comment on the standard of our performance on that faithful nite like 4 yrs ago haha...
haha okay... guess it juz isn't our year or time anymore...
2 yrs is a long time...
lots of things and ppl 've changed i suppose...
but then well... sometimes we juz wish things were still the same... that change isn't the only permanent thing in our lives...
naive? perhaps bah but sometimes we juz need to kid oursleves into believing... haha...
okay this has been quite a long entry...
shall stop here for now...
afterall blks is still coming in like 1 day's time... =(
but then on a higher note...
it ends in 5 days! =)
jiayou and all the best everyone!
it was held to celebrate the 10th consecutive gold which also won us the special unit excellence award - a golden drillcane haha... although i thought the silver one still looks better =P
too bad newtown for it also... or else we 'll be like the only npcc unit to get the special award haha...
in all kinds of way... i suppose we did contribute a little here and there for 4 yrs to help get the award so shld go and erm... "celebrate" haha... watever lah...
anyway...
only me cr klo yizhi and tanwen were there to represent out batch quite sad loh... only 5/33 came...
aiyah... but then i wasn't expecting much anyway...
not with blk tests coming up in 1 day's time and well... other long-standing factors...
i suppose it was really abit strange to go dinner while everyone else is mugging at home *shrugs* but anyway i still went haha =)
paid $40 for the furama riverfront hotel dinner... but i think the high cost was due more to the hotel then the food there which was like really quite average...
after spending like ages getting past the reception and into the room we went to inspect the display of awards and photos of the past 10 yrs... took photos of tbem... i mean they were like the whole point of the dinnner loh of course cannot miss them out...
then came all the speeches and presentation of awards and so on before dinner offically starts at like 8+?
i was like totally starving already loh... kinda skipped lunch earlier also and waited so long for them to start dinner...
salad wasn't very gd except maybe for the sushi haha... but it was like softshell crab seafood stuff whihc i cldn't really touch so unfair loh...
main course was a WEIRD mixture of food lah... and as usual they had stuff like prawns which was like totally out of bounds for me and it was like the most expensive food ard already... bleah...
desserts was mainly cakes but i got sick of them after 1 slice... the taste was like super sweet and thick... didn't dare to take another 1 after that haha...
rite... enough abt food...
anyway they presented this "unit star award" to kala and lokelf haha... the award was like a hong xing da jiang those kind loh... 1 stem then got 1 star at the top haha quite cool...
there were intervals of lucky draws here and there + squad performances too...
lots of spoof of the bird commercial as well as the mr brown version altough i thought they cld be more well done to make it more funny haha...
the sec1s were also like go up there and gan gan sing song one... not bad loh reminds me of the time when my squad went up on stage to sing song also... i shall not comment on the standard of our performance on that faithful nite like 4 yrs ago haha...
haha okay... guess it juz isn't our year or time anymore...
2 yrs is a long time...
lots of things and ppl 've changed i suppose...
but then well... sometimes we juz wish things were still the same... that change isn't the only permanent thing in our lives...
naive? perhaps bah but sometimes we juz need to kid oursleves into believing... haha...
okay this has been quite a long entry...
shall stop here for now...
afterall blks is still coming in like 1 day's time... =(
but then on a higher note...
it ends in 5 days! =)
jiayou and all the best everyone!
June 15, 2006
... ... FOR TRYING ... ...
tonite is my slack nite!
not that i factored it into my timetable but juz that i didn't feel like doing much today haha...
basically finished up on probability, watched SI results + Lost and switched off after that =)
anyway i was juz stoning online as usual and pondering over random stuff that pop into my head...
i kinda realise that i 've detoriated in some aspects ever since i entered JC haha...
for one matter i can't seem to express my thoughts into words properly!
quite irritating when i wanna say smth but don't know how to put it across... then i'll juz get stuck there for a long time trying to figure out how i shld phrase my sentences...
not that i was like super fluent eloquent and pro back in the "good old days" but i guess i was certainly better then...
oh i juz thought of smth haha...
maybe i wld do better in chinese instead!!! haha that wld be cool!!!
but then no one 'll chat in chinese on msn so yeah haha...
somehow i always 've this impression that english may be more complicated and so on but chinese seems to be better at expressing ideas and emotions... or maybe its juz me pseudo-1-sided preferrence for chinese songs haha...
or this might be an effect of a prolonged absence of elit in my life haha...
haven't touched much lit stuff ever since o'lvl... missing it quite badly for some reason...
compare it to wat i'm mugging through nowadays and i'm sure u can see why haha...
hey i was never a maths/science person all along loh...
muz be all these subjects making my brain rigid and frozen solid...
i'm losing all my creativity and imagination!!!
i need to do stuff that has no restictions no absolutes and allows personal expression of thoughts and ideas... basically free and wild!
hm... and i 've no idea wat that might be...
on another note...
life's absurd the way it is...
somethings require a blind faith but we r unable to shut out the light that comes with thoughts and emotions...
how do we dispel all doubts and find the faith in all that we need to believe in?
there isn't an ans is there...
but i guess wat we all know is that life is all abt trying...
we always say "u'll never know until u try" but not "u'll never try until u know"...
a future unknown is wat we r trying for...
because the future is unknown we r trying...
because we believe we can make a difference we r trying...
because we r scared we r trying...
because we r trying we r scared...
because we r trying we believe we r making a difference...
because we r trying the future is unknown...
forgive me if i can't remove ur fear...
but if it helps i'm equally scared too...
let us try together for our own futures...
not that i factored it into my timetable but juz that i didn't feel like doing much today haha...
basically finished up on probability, watched SI results + Lost and switched off after that =)
anyway i was juz stoning online as usual and pondering over random stuff that pop into my head...
i kinda realise that i 've detoriated in some aspects ever since i entered JC haha...
for one matter i can't seem to express my thoughts into words properly!
quite irritating when i wanna say smth but don't know how to put it across... then i'll juz get stuck there for a long time trying to figure out how i shld phrase my sentences...
not that i was like super fluent eloquent and pro back in the "good old days" but i guess i was certainly better then...
oh i juz thought of smth haha...
maybe i wld do better in chinese instead!!! haha that wld be cool!!!
but then no one 'll chat in chinese on msn so yeah haha...
somehow i always 've this impression that english may be more complicated and so on but chinese seems to be better at expressing ideas and emotions... or maybe its juz me pseudo-1-sided preferrence for chinese songs haha...
or this might be an effect of a prolonged absence of elit in my life haha...
haven't touched much lit stuff ever since o'lvl... missing it quite badly for some reason...
compare it to wat i'm mugging through nowadays and i'm sure u can see why haha...
hey i was never a maths/science person all along loh...
muz be all these subjects making my brain rigid and frozen solid...
i'm losing all my creativity and imagination!!!
i need to do stuff that has no restictions no absolutes and allows personal expression of thoughts and ideas... basically free and wild!
hm... and i 've no idea wat that might be...
on another note...
life's absurd the way it is...
somethings require a blind faith but we r unable to shut out the light that comes with thoughts and emotions...
how do we dispel all doubts and find the faith in all that we need to believe in?
there isn't an ans is there...
but i guess wat we all know is that life is all abt trying...
we always say "u'll never know until u try" but not "u'll never try until u know"...
a future unknown is wat we r trying for...
because the future is unknown we r trying...
because we believe we can make a difference we r trying...
because we r scared we r trying...
because we r trying we r scared...
because we r trying we believe we r making a difference...
because we r trying the future is unknown...
forgive me if i can't remove ur fear...
but if it helps i'm equally scared too...
let us try together for our own futures...
June 12, 2006
... ... UPDATE ... ...
okay here i am again...
was too lazy to blog the last few days haha...
rite lets get on with it then =)
went for kbox on tuesday with np...
haha not bad lah...
all the male singers cannot reach their pitch but it was much better for the female singers haha...
played ard with the key also but it didn't really help much i guess haha...
forgot to sing some songs actually but nvm cause i don't think i can make it anyway haha...
anyway...
after that it was back to mugging and thats wat i've been doing for the pas few days...
except maybe for sat and sun when i played abit in the afternoon =)
and i committed a sin this morning/afternoon!!
i woke up at 12+ today!!! thats like so time wasting lah!
and today is the 1st of my "heavy studying" days loh... haha...
now i'm like quite behind time already... and rite now my chem notes happen to be stagnant infront of me for the last hour...
therefore from now on i'm gonna set alarm!
but i haven't quite decided wat time to set it at yet haha... shall see abt it later =)
okay nvm its time to go back to chem... muz jian chi dao di... ah guat 'll be so proud of me haha...
even if i don't produce the grades at least i 've the spirit loh!
yeah rite... i'm sure...
sianz...
was too lazy to blog the last few days haha...
rite lets get on with it then =)
went for kbox on tuesday with np...
haha not bad lah...
all the male singers cannot reach their pitch but it was much better for the female singers haha...
played ard with the key also but it didn't really help much i guess haha...
forgot to sing some songs actually but nvm cause i don't think i can make it anyway haha...
anyway...
after that it was back to mugging and thats wat i've been doing for the pas few days...
except maybe for sat and sun when i played abit in the afternoon =)
and i committed a sin this morning/afternoon!!
i woke up at 12+ today!!! thats like so time wasting lah!
and today is the 1st of my "heavy studying" days loh... haha...
now i'm like quite behind time already... and rite now my chem notes happen to be stagnant infront of me for the last hour...
therefore from now on i'm gonna set alarm!
but i haven't quite decided wat time to set it at yet haha... shall see abt it later =)
okay nvm its time to go back to chem... muz jian chi dao di... ah guat 'll be so proud of me haha...
even if i don't produce the grades at least i 've the spirit loh!
yeah rite... i'm sure...
sianz...
June 06, 2006
... ... Sakae Sushi
went to sch to study with dawei today...
finished up my enzyme notes and went on to maths (trigo)...
eee...
was dead after like 1h+ of it...
maths is totally idiotic and trigo makes u convert here convert there for no apparent reasons lah... like why in the world wld i make things so difficult for myself in the future...
watever lah... never understand wat maths is abt...
after starving and freezing inside the reading rm for the whole morning... we went off at abt 2+ for sakae sushi at heeren!
haha first to arrive there and waited for the rest...
in the end turn out there were 10 guys and 2 girls... haha kinda not balanced eh...
1st thing we did when we went in was to zham orders rite away then started grabbing plates off the conveyor belt...
the other table started bio session with Dr Zhou's lecture on cell structure of cholroplast with the grana and the intergrana lamella (made up of plates and chopsticks!)...
too bad the attempt to video it down failed when the waiter came to remove the plates for replenishing purposes... awww juz imagine the countless ppl who wld be a step closer to understanding biology after watching the video... so sad sobz...
oh well anyway...
we went on to zham orders which came really really slow...
maybe thats how they cut their losses during buffet period, 've slow service so the customers can't order too much... so jian loh haha...
and i pity the staff there... imagine running all over the place taking the same orders again and again nonstop... like when the same table orders the same stuff for 3 separate times haha...
anyway went off for pool afterwards before going home...
yup so thats it for tuesday...
needa finish up my bio cell structure now... and i'm suppose to do abit of econs tys today also =(
and its back to sch to study tml... before going out again on thurs haha...
i think i'm going out abit too often but then again i'm not into the studying mood yet haha...
sigh... so sianz its back to mugging now...
cya...
finished up my enzyme notes and went on to maths (trigo)...
eee...
was dead after like 1h+ of it...
maths is totally idiotic and trigo makes u convert here convert there for no apparent reasons lah... like why in the world wld i make things so difficult for myself in the future...
watever lah... never understand wat maths is abt...
after starving and freezing inside the reading rm for the whole morning... we went off at abt 2+ for sakae sushi at heeren!
haha first to arrive there and waited for the rest...
in the end turn out there were 10 guys and 2 girls... haha kinda not balanced eh...
1st thing we did when we went in was to zham orders rite away then started grabbing plates off the conveyor belt...
the other table started bio session with Dr Zhou's lecture on cell structure of cholroplast with the grana and the intergrana lamella (made up of plates and chopsticks!)...
too bad the attempt to video it down failed when the waiter came to remove the plates for replenishing purposes... awww juz imagine the countless ppl who wld be a step closer to understanding biology after watching the video... so sad sobz...
oh well anyway...
we went on to zham orders which came really really slow...
maybe thats how they cut their losses during buffet period, 've slow service so the customers can't order too much... so jian loh haha...
and i pity the staff there... imagine running all over the place taking the same orders again and again nonstop... like when the same table orders the same stuff for 3 separate times haha...
anyway went off for pool afterwards before going home...
yup so thats it for tuesday...
needa finish up my bio cell structure now... and i'm suppose to do abit of econs tys today also =(
and its back to sch to study tml... before going out again on thurs haha...
i think i'm going out abit too often but then again i'm not into the studying mood yet haha...
sigh... so sianz its back to mugging now...
cya...
June 01, 2006
... ... CHALET ... ...
had class chalet from wed to thurs...
wasn't all that bad haha...
was the standard fare... with ps mahjong cards vb frisbee and the new "hai ni zai xin kou nan kai" game...
stayed inside the chalet mostly except going to the seaside at ard 5am in the morning...
liked the feeling there alot... juz sitting there watching the waves and stars and feeling the wind on u cool =)
checked out ard 10+ and went home straight cause everyone was too tired to do anything else haha...
hm... dunno if i'll be going out again nxt wk...
lots of tentative stuff... wonder how i'm gonna concentrate on my studying...
in the 1st place... my timetable's not even done yet...
dunno where to start fitting everything into it so its still blank infront of me rite now haha...
don't think i'll be doing much heavy work this wk...
juz abit of tidying up of my notes w/s everything then the main studying 'll start nxt wk...
maybe i'll go back to sch and study like wat i did for blks haha...
my hse not conducive for studying one loh...
there's no comfortable place for me to relax ard and study at all... not that sch is very comfortable but at least its better haha...
wasn't all that bad haha...
was the standard fare... with ps mahjong cards vb frisbee and the new "hai ni zai xin kou nan kai" game...
stayed inside the chalet mostly except going to the seaside at ard 5am in the morning...
liked the feeling there alot... juz sitting there watching the waves and stars and feeling the wind on u cool =)
checked out ard 10+ and went home straight cause everyone was too tired to do anything else haha...
hm... dunno if i'll be going out again nxt wk...
lots of tentative stuff... wonder how i'm gonna concentrate on my studying...
in the 1st place... my timetable's not even done yet...
dunno where to start fitting everything into it so its still blank infront of me rite now haha...
don't think i'll be doing much heavy work this wk...
juz abit of tidying up of my notes w/s everything then the main studying 'll start nxt wk...
maybe i'll go back to sch and study like wat i did for blks haha...
my hse not conducive for studying one loh...
there's no comfortable place for me to relax ard and study at all... not that sch is very comfortable but at least its better haha...
May 29, 2006
... ... X-Men III ... ...
went to watch X III at lido today!
but it wasn't really that exciting really...
all the hype and speculations 've kinda raised the expectations i suppose...
the movie was really quite short with juz 1.5h (not to mention there were some draggy parts here and there)
they cld 've expanded on the characters abit more and possibly make the fight scenes more intensive...
ah well...
guess X II is still the best of the 3 episodes... lady deathstrike vs wolverine still rules at the end of the day haha...
okay so that takes care of another "muz-watch" movie of the hols...
and i still haven't watch over the hedge!!! (ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
not to mention there's silent hill too... looks quite exciting haha =)
going for a p4 camp tml...
hm... 've no idea wat to do for it haha...
we shall see how it goes tml...
but it wasn't really that exciting really...
all the hype and speculations 've kinda raised the expectations i suppose...
the movie was really quite short with juz 1.5h (not to mention there were some draggy parts here and there)
they cld 've expanded on the characters abit more and possibly make the fight scenes more intensive...
ah well...
guess X II is still the best of the 3 episodes... lady deathstrike vs wolverine still rules at the end of the day haha...
okay so that takes care of another "muz-watch" movie of the hols...
and i still haven't watch over the hedge!!! (ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
not to mention there's silent hill too... looks quite exciting haha =)
going for a p4 camp tml...
hm... 've no idea wat to do for it haha...
we shall see how it goes tml...
May 26, 2006
... ... IRRATIONAL ... ...
this entry is like 1 day late haha...
cause there was either smth wrong with my internet or with blogger and it was super laggy... so gave up blogging yesterday nite...
but juz as well...
then i no need to do another entry for today's stuff...
CCA officially ended for me yesterday haha...
had a last unofficial session yesterday but some unexpected ppl still turned up for the session... was seriously quite irritated cause i was hoping for some "private" time to ourselves...
argh but nvm at least everyone got to play abit i guess...
unlike other ccas there wasn't any hype or depression in light of this last session haha...
its juz "oh its the end? cool... okay thats it then"
a fitting end i wld say...
was asked if i 'll miss anything abt it...
haha... for once i actually had a definite ans...
i'll leave the rest unspoken here =)
i am clearly irrational...
i tend to not think properly alot of times... and even if i did think properly i may still stick to irrational ideas and beliefs...
oh well thats juz a part of me i can't change...
maybe thats why i never 've a thing for maths haha...
okay i shall stop before i go on to bitch abt the wonders of maths...
okay back to my point...
so if u don't understand wat ideas i've in my head... it may help if u think irrationally =)
unless of course i happen to be thinking rationally (sometimes) then maybe it won't work...
meaning the way i think doesn't follow a fixed pattern of being irrational all the time also...
see...
i told u i was irrational...
now u get my point...
and of course being irrational has another implied meaning...
cause there was either smth wrong with my internet or with blogger and it was super laggy... so gave up blogging yesterday nite...
but juz as well...
then i no need to do another entry for today's stuff...
CCA officially ended for me yesterday haha...
had a last unofficial session yesterday but some unexpected ppl still turned up for the session... was seriously quite irritated cause i was hoping for some "private" time to ourselves...
argh but nvm at least everyone got to play abit i guess...
unlike other ccas there wasn't any hype or depression in light of this last session haha...
its juz "oh its the end? cool... okay thats it then"
a fitting end i wld say...
was asked if i 'll miss anything abt it...
haha... for once i actually had a definite ans...
i'll leave the rest unspoken here =)
i am clearly irrational...
i tend to not think properly alot of times... and even if i did think properly i may still stick to irrational ideas and beliefs...
oh well thats juz a part of me i can't change...
maybe thats why i never 've a thing for maths haha...
okay i shall stop before i go on to bitch abt the wonders of maths...
okay back to my point...
so if u don't understand wat ideas i've in my head... it may help if u think irrationally =)
unless of course i happen to be thinking rationally (sometimes) then maybe it won't work...
meaning the way i think doesn't follow a fixed pattern of being irrational all the time also...
see...
i told u i was irrational...
now u get my point...
and of course being irrational has another implied meaning...
May 19, 2006
... ... !!! ... ...
vb girls got champ!
netball got champ!
bball guys got champ!
thats 3 in a row in a wk!
how cool is that haha =)
hm...
and i'm left to wonder...
did i do the right thing?
sometimes i think there's really only so much i can do...
beyond that i'm juz as helpless as anyone else isn't it...
isn't it only fair for me to get some help...
but i realised it wld never be for i've been alone all along haven't i...
but i guess it doesn't matter anymore rite...
it ends soon =)
putting other stuff aside...
there's only 1 wk left to hols!
i can't wait for it to come!
chalet! outings! (hmm...) movies!
movies to watch: X-Men 3! Over The Hedge!
i wanna go out and play!
netball got champ!
bball guys got champ!
thats 3 in a row in a wk!
how cool is that haha =)
hm...
and i'm left to wonder...
did i do the right thing?
sometimes i think there's really only so much i can do...
beyond that i'm juz as helpless as anyone else isn't it...
isn't it only fair for me to get some help...
but i realised it wld never be for i've been alone all along haven't i...
but i guess it doesn't matter anymore rite...
it ends soon =)
putting other stuff aside...
there's only 1 wk left to hols!
i can't wait for it to come!
chalet! outings! (hmm...) movies!
movies to watch: X-Men 3! Over The Hedge!
i wanna go out and play!
May 17, 2006
... ... "R" ... ...
ahhh...
so many things happening nowadays...
makes me wonder and wonder and wonder and wonder...
abt all that i've missed and wat my conclusion wld be...
aiyah...
getting closer and closer to the end makes me jumpy...
interviews coming right up on thursday! and then 1 last wk and "poof" that's it...
bah... its probably nth to the rest of the world out there...
i mean its not really as if its a very big and significant thing like sports cca with the end of season and post-season etc.
but maybe for me in particular... the end juz means i gonna make my own conclusion abt watever that has happened for the past year...
its not of any real significance to others but more for me myself cause i always value this kind of final decision...
rite...
actually its all abt the "r" word which i'm trying to avoid like crazy here...
typing it out here juz doesn't feel gd...
see how it goes loh...
maybe i've already decided haha...
and i've absolutely no idea...
so many things happening nowadays...
makes me wonder and wonder and wonder and wonder...
abt all that i've missed and wat my conclusion wld be...
aiyah...
getting closer and closer to the end makes me jumpy...
interviews coming right up on thursday! and then 1 last wk and "poof" that's it...
bah... its probably nth to the rest of the world out there...
i mean its not really as if its a very big and significant thing like sports cca with the end of season and post-season etc.
but maybe for me in particular... the end juz means i gonna make my own conclusion abt watever that has happened for the past year...
its not of any real significance to others but more for me myself cause i always value this kind of final decision...
rite...
actually its all abt the "r" word which i'm trying to avoid like crazy here...
typing it out here juz doesn't feel gd...
see how it goes loh...
maybe i've already decided haha...
and i've absolutely no idea...
May 10, 2006
... ... Chrno Crusade ... ...
phew...
finished watching chrno crusade today...
piaed finish all 24 episodes in like 4 days or so... so proud of myself haha...
but the final fight scene was like nothing much... was expecting much more after everything that had happened...
the ending was so sad... like 3/4 of the main characters died and the way they die really make u heartache for them loh...
the last scene is still stuck in my head... so sad to see the 2 of them there as they waited for the end to arrive...
how 'll i be at the end?
oh well...
although i'm still quite confused abt the storyline here and there but i suppose it was quite a nice anime overall... =)
sports day tml...
and i juz realised smth...
hm... this is bad...
nvm we shall take it 1 step at a time =)
finished watching chrno crusade today...
piaed finish all 24 episodes in like 4 days or so... so proud of myself haha...
but the final fight scene was like nothing much... was expecting much more after everything that had happened...
the ending was so sad... like 3/4 of the main characters died and the way they die really make u heartache for them loh...
the last scene is still stuck in my head... so sad to see the 2 of them there as they waited for the end to arrive...
how 'll i be at the end?
oh well...
although i'm still quite confused abt the storyline here and there but i suppose it was quite a nice anime overall... =)
sports day tml...
and i juz realised smth...
hm... this is bad...
nvm we shall take it 1 step at a time =)
May 06, 2006
... ... REST ... ...
juz 1 word really...
TIRED!!!
so sick now that i really too tired to do anything...
down with fever, flu, cough and sore throat! this is so unfair lah!
and nxt wk has lots of hols!!! i better recover by then or else i'll be missing out lots...
already thinking of ponning sch on mon... i mean excusing myself from sch... sick yeah =D
watching anime suddenly...
don't know why but suddenly got interest in chrono crusade anime haha (sounds suspiciously like chrono trigger/chrono cross but its not... so sad)
stumbled upon it accidentally and thought it sounds quite interesting so decided to JUZ watch...
but i'm not dling okay... so its not illegal =)
at ep 4 liao...
so far still not bad i guess haha... shall carry on and watch ep4 after i blogged...
after that then i'll consider slping and hopfully get rid of this sickness...
i'm weary... i think i need a long break now...
but i think it is not my time yet...
如果可以... 能否让我休息一下?
我想我需要走到最后的觉悟...
TIRED!!!
so sick now that i really too tired to do anything...
down with fever, flu, cough and sore throat! this is so unfair lah!
and nxt wk has lots of hols!!! i better recover by then or else i'll be missing out lots...
already thinking of ponning sch on mon... i mean excusing myself from sch... sick yeah =D
watching anime suddenly...
don't know why but suddenly got interest in chrono crusade anime haha (sounds suspiciously like chrono trigger/chrono cross but its not... so sad)
stumbled upon it accidentally and thought it sounds quite interesting so decided to JUZ watch...
but i'm not dling okay... so its not illegal =)
at ep 4 liao...
so far still not bad i guess haha... shall carry on and watch ep4 after i blogged...
after that then i'll consider slping and hopfully get rid of this sickness...
i'm weary... i think i need a long break now...
but i think it is not my time yet...
如果可以... 能否让我休息一下?
我想我需要走到最后的觉悟...
May 03, 2006
... ... CARRYING ON ... ...
and so my com is back...
timely? maybe not...
i don't really know wat to think...
went to watch vb comp today...
quite an exciting match today with close scores bet the 2 sides... nearly had heart attack a few times during the match...
was seriously quite sad and disappointed at the end...
so gek lah... it was that close...
sigh...
no matter wat other ppl do or say or think or feel...
jiayou! u r worthy!
timely? maybe not...
i don't really know wat to think...
went to watch vb comp today...
quite an exciting match today with close scores bet the 2 sides... nearly had heart attack a few times during the match...
was seriously quite sad and disappointed at the end...
so gek lah... it was that close...
sigh...
no matter wat other ppl do or say or think or feel...
jiayou! u r worthy!
April 27, 2006
... ... UNCONTROLLABLES ... ...
oh man...
i'm actually reduced to blogging from the sch lib. all thanx to my stupid desktop that refuse to allow me to acess the net...
in fact... i think the whole network system is missing lah... so irritating...
i'm quite amazed i actually manage to survive the past few days without internet...
not that i 've much to do online but then its still better than nothing...
suddenly i seem to be very busy for these 2 days...
lots of stuff to settle in sch...
but i wld guess that its gd... considering the state i am in now
but then again perhaps i already knew all along...
wat constitues luck?
while i believe we r responsible for our own choices and outcomes... how do we go abt justifying the uncontrollables? r they then classified under the catergory of luck?
wat shld i feel?
i'm actually reduced to blogging from the sch lib. all thanx to my stupid desktop that refuse to allow me to acess the net...
in fact... i think the whole network system is missing lah... so irritating...
i'm quite amazed i actually manage to survive the past few days without internet...
not that i 've much to do online but then its still better than nothing...
suddenly i seem to be very busy for these 2 days...
lots of stuff to settle in sch...
but i wld guess that its gd... considering the state i am in now
but then again perhaps i already knew all along...
wat constitues luck?
while i believe we r responsible for our own choices and outcomes... how do we go abt justifying the uncontrollables? r they then classified under the catergory of luck?
wat shld i feel?
April 14, 2006
... ... WORDS ... ...
to everyone fighting out there...
u can fly so high...
keep ur gaze upon the sky...
to myself...
i'm so sorry...
forgive me but i guess this is all i can do...
u can fly so high...
keep ur gaze upon the sky...
to myself...
i'm so sorry...
forgive me but i guess this is all i can do...
April 11, 2006
... ... UNCERTAINTY ... ...
today is juz the kind of day when i feel like giving in totally...
to give up on all the struggles and efforts i've been TRYING to sustain for too long...
letting go juz seem to be such an easy option...
to sink into oblivion and sit in dispair... a total indifference to everything that matters in the most practical sense...
it becomes so easy to hate everything in that state...
when u're feeling the raw taste of emotions without the xtra seasoning of conscience, logic and tact...
the irk has always been there and sometimes it juz get amplified by certain ignorant arrogance and perhaps an utter lack of shame...
arh well...
things wldn't happen without a cause i guess...
who can fully comprehend the contradictions (using the term loosely here) within...
for some unknown reason some ppl r actually so "out-of'this-world" that they can't comprehend the concept of diff. ppl having diff viewpoints and ideas...
i feel like hurling some words of abuse here but i shall refrain from it due to a lack of vocab here...
all that hatred aside...
i'm currently in love!!!
with a song lah... "Di Yi Ge Qing Chen" is so nice!!!
i'm totally head over heels in love with the feeling of the song...
its like i feel this sense of trepidation with a hint of uncertainty and fear and at the same time, contentment with a sense of hope and happiness mixed within the song...
kinda reflects wat i'm feeling nowadays although in varying proportions...
like when i realise the future's coming right towards me... that perhaps i'm not prepared to face it yet and conclude that i've not achieved watever i wanted...
in uncertainty there exist both hope and dispair...
to give up on all the struggles and efforts i've been TRYING to sustain for too long...
letting go juz seem to be such an easy option...
to sink into oblivion and sit in dispair... a total indifference to everything that matters in the most practical sense...
it becomes so easy to hate everything in that state...
when u're feeling the raw taste of emotions without the xtra seasoning of conscience, logic and tact...
the irk has always been there and sometimes it juz get amplified by certain ignorant arrogance and perhaps an utter lack of shame...
arh well...
things wldn't happen without a cause i guess...
who can fully comprehend the contradictions (using the term loosely here) within...
for some unknown reason some ppl r actually so "out-of'this-world" that they can't comprehend the concept of diff. ppl having diff viewpoints and ideas...
i feel like hurling some words of abuse here but i shall refrain from it due to a lack of vocab here...
all that hatred aside...
i'm currently in love!!!
with a song lah... "Di Yi Ge Qing Chen" is so nice!!!
i'm totally head over heels in love with the feeling of the song...
its like i feel this sense of trepidation with a hint of uncertainty and fear and at the same time, contentment with a sense of hope and happiness mixed within the song...
kinda reflects wat i'm feeling nowadays although in varying proportions...
like when i realise the future's coming right towards me... that perhaps i'm not prepared to face it yet and conclude that i've not achieved watever i wanted...
《第一个清晨》
光透进来
把梦刷白
舍不得你会醒过来
舍不得你会醒过来
不要现在
昨夜走太快
说不上来
隐隐藏在胸口一块
吻你脸颊
证明此刻真的存在
证明此刻真的存在
是你让我相信爱
对我慷慨
是爱 我们是注定不是意外
这是爱
我们的爱
还不确定却好实在
把你贴在胸怀
静静的代替表白
才不愿放开
这是爱
给你的爱
没名字却停不下来
在忐忑里期待
在忐忑里期待
雀跃中想到未来是你我才明白
这就是爱
但梦还在
小心不让你醒过来
也许现在
就是永恒的未来
第一个我们的清晨
迷人和默契都是你的
无限可能
言语都显得太肤浅
April 07, 2006
... ... EVENTUALLY ... ...
happy birthday to dawei!
even though u're like super busy today but still hope u enjoyed ur special day...
ps: wait for ur belated present okay? 'll take some time for it to be ready =)
anyway...
had organ donation talks during ct today...
i guess i wldn't really mind donating my organs to those ppl who need them after i'm gone...
wat's left behind is juz an empty shell isn't it...
u either burn it to asjes or bury it in the ground...
either way... the shell 'll eventually be reduced to nothingness anyway... so may as well do 1 last gd deed and help others in need...
but that's juz my point of view haha...
had international friendship day celebration after that...
watched some simpson show and then had songs by diff ppl...
urm... okay 2 of the songs were still okay while the rest were like "so so"...
but i guess the whole thing wasn't that bad... guess i always 've a thing for this kind of concert like thingy haha...
and sometimes u juz wonder when and how everything 'll work out eventually...
even though u're like super busy today but still hope u enjoyed ur special day...
ps: wait for ur belated present okay? 'll take some time for it to be ready =)
anyway...
had organ donation talks during ct today...
i guess i wldn't really mind donating my organs to those ppl who need them after i'm gone...
wat's left behind is juz an empty shell isn't it...
u either burn it to asjes or bury it in the ground...
either way... the shell 'll eventually be reduced to nothingness anyway... so may as well do 1 last gd deed and help others in need...
but that's juz my point of view haha...
had international friendship day celebration after that...
watched some simpson show and then had songs by diff ppl...
urm... okay 2 of the songs were still okay while the rest were like "so so"...
but i guess the whole thing wasn't that bad... guess i always 've a thing for this kind of concert like thingy haha...
and sometimes u juz wonder when and how everything 'll work out eventually...
April 02, 2006
... ... CAMPUS SUPER STAR ... ...
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...
Chee Yang won the campus superstar contest!!!
i'm so excited!!!!!
wanted to go sch and support initially but like no one else going loh except maybe weijin... so sad lah...
but nvm chee yang still won in the end haha...
caught glimpses of dawei quite a few times though haha...
that few seconds of fame on tv haha...
was damn worried for him at first when he kept losing to renfred in terms of phone calls...
quickly pumped in 3 smses haha...
but lucky he won and became the male champion in the end... or else the grand final wldn't be so exciting liao haha...
pumped in another 2 smses subsequently haha...
saved up all my smses for the previous rounds for finals mah haha...
anyway he sang so well lah!! how cld i not support him man
i'm in this hyper energy state now... quite high now haha...
i feel like going kbox and sing all the nice songs!!! =)
css aside...
reading blogs can be a eventful process sometimes...
u read and think abt so many things even if they r not urs to experience...
quite emotional lately... going from extremes to extremes and oscillating inbet...
sometimes i juz wish to indulge myself... giving myself some time to cycle through the emotions to feel wat they mean and wat they can give...
such that i can allow myself to feel the events ard me and tie them back to my beliefs and ideas...
yup such is life...
perhaps chee yang winning is a confirmation of possibillities... a representation of the idle hopes and dreams... the sole and inadequate comfort in the absence of so many experiences and futures...
Chee Yang won the campus superstar contest!!!
i'm so excited!!!!!
wanted to go sch and support initially but like no one else going loh except maybe weijin... so sad lah...
but nvm chee yang still won in the end haha...
caught glimpses of dawei quite a few times though haha...
that few seconds of fame on tv haha...
was damn worried for him at first when he kept losing to renfred in terms of phone calls...
quickly pumped in 3 smses haha...
but lucky he won and became the male champion in the end... or else the grand final wldn't be so exciting liao haha...
pumped in another 2 smses subsequently haha...
saved up all my smses for the previous rounds for finals mah haha...
anyway he sang so well lah!! how cld i not support him man
i'm in this hyper energy state now... quite high now haha...
i feel like going kbox and sing all the nice songs!!! =)
css aside...
reading blogs can be a eventful process sometimes...
u read and think abt so many things even if they r not urs to experience...
quite emotional lately... going from extremes to extremes and oscillating inbet...
sometimes i juz wish to indulge myself... giving myself some time to cycle through the emotions to feel wat they mean and wat they can give...
such that i can allow myself to feel the events ard me and tie them back to my beliefs and ideas...
yup such is life...
perhaps chee yang winning is a confirmation of possibillities... a representation of the idle hopes and dreams... the sole and inadequate comfort in the absence of so many experiences and futures...
March 24, 2006
... ... V ... ...
finally a break from blks!!
woah i'm seriously drained out after mugging for these 2 wks... although result ain't gonna be proportionate to my efforts but then that's all i can do abt it for now...
so after bio today i'm gonna take a long break until sunday before i start studying for spa (eeks)
=)
went town today to watch v for vendetta...
hm... didn't know wat it was abt at first so didn't had much of an expectation for it...
turn out it was quite a nice movie haha...
its been so long since i watched a flim with some literary sense to it haha... in fact i thought it cld 've been a lit text haha...
there were snippets of it here and there where u're left to make some sense of all that's going on in the show...
and the main actor never showed his true face once for the entire movie...
cool eh? but really thats like the main point of the whole story loh...
unmasking the main character wld 've spoilt the entire meaning of the show and spoil its beauty haha...
and can u believe it? there was a 12th night quote in the movie!!!
arhhhhh... so cool lah!!!!!
"Conceal me what i am, and be my aid
For such diguise as haply shall become
The form of my intent"
i was quite excited by it 1/2way through the movie =)
ah... i guess i kinda missed lit... the gd old days
woah i'm seriously drained out after mugging for these 2 wks... although result ain't gonna be proportionate to my efforts but then that's all i can do abt it for now...
so after bio today i'm gonna take a long break until sunday before i start studying for spa (eeks)
=)
went town today to watch v for vendetta...
hm... didn't know wat it was abt at first so didn't had much of an expectation for it...
turn out it was quite a nice movie haha...
its been so long since i watched a flim with some literary sense to it haha... in fact i thought it cld 've been a lit text haha...
there were snippets of it here and there where u're left to make some sense of all that's going on in the show...
and the main actor never showed his true face once for the entire movie...
cool eh? but really thats like the main point of the whole story loh...
unmasking the main character wld 've spoilt the entire meaning of the show and spoil its beauty haha...
and can u believe it? there was a 12th night quote in the movie!!!
arhhhhh... so cool lah!!!!!
"Conceal me what i am, and be my aid
For such diguise as haply shall become
The form of my intent"
i was quite excited by it 1/2way through the movie =)
ah... i guess i kinda missed lit... the gd old days
March 19, 2006
... ... BLKS ... ...
start of blk tests tml!!! (ignore the fact that gp started last term)
ready or not here it comes!
gd luck and all the best!
juz 1 last wk to go!
ready or not here it comes!
gd luck and all the best!
juz 1 last wk to go!
March 10, 2006
.. ... CHEEMELOGY ... ...
my blog has been on a wkly update basis for quite some time now...
and i think this 'll continue for at least 2 more wks until blk test is over but then doesn't necessary mean i'll blog more often after blk test haha...
cause nowadays nothing much to blog abt...
always the plain old routines in sch SOOOOO sianz... =(
took the GP blk test today and it was okayly bad...
essay was okay i guess... juz that i was writing a SS essay more than a GP essay...
and i didn't really elaborate much on my points also haha...
compre was cheem... so cheem that i cldn't paraphrase anything at all...
in fact i felt like i was coming up with my own points and ideas while trying to paraphrase some of the sentences haha...
so there goes my compre haha too bad then... its over anyway can't do much abt it =)
anyway...
i had a hard time trying to fall aslp last nite!
maybe it was partially cause i was mulling over some complex issue in my brain haha...
and the complex issue had nothing to do with GP at all!
i 've no idea why i was killing my brain cells over it when i've like GP blk test coming up nxt morning... i muz be mad loh...
i guess its juz the GP effect -> make u think deep abt stuff especially when u 've social dilemnas and u muz make informed choices using knowledge of science mathematics and the arts mindset that deals with the grey area and is comfortable with uncertainties and erm... smth
rite... i was actually pondering over the concept of time! (so relevant to my blog haha)
"CHEEMELOGY" AHEAD!
DO NOT PROCEED UNLESS U R MENTALLY-PREPARED TO WASTE SOME PRECIOUS TIME!!!
assume time to be linear and person A moves along with his life until one day he somehow went back in time to time T(0) in his past... (call him A1 from now on)
so at time T(0) there 'll be 2 person As, A and A1!
so wat's gonna happen nxt?
IF person A moves on with his life but do not travel back in time to T(0), then is it logical for A1 to not exist and fade away?
after thinking it through... i thought that A1 will not simply fade away like that cause from the moment that A1 reappeared at T(0)... the future of him going back in time to T(0) has ceased to exist already! => new start at T(0) => the "PRESENT T(0)" has been restarted...
no matter wat he do... his "new" presence at T(0) and onwards is bound to cause some changes, subtle or not, to the environment the circumstances and all that... this will then result in a future that is different from the original one!
SO reappearing back at T(0) means a new start for A1 and theoretically, all his links to the future, from which he came from, shld be cut off from him already
SO it is possible for A1 to exist even though A do not go back in time to T(0)
however, wat wld happen if A or A1 goes back in time to T(0) again?
so now at T(0) there 'll be 3 person As! [since in this timeline there's already A and A1 at T(0) already)]
so if u carry on this train of thought... it is possible for N no. of person As to exist at T(0) at any 1 time!
this means that (N-1) futures 've been destroyed by N no. of person As going back in time...
and there has been (N-1) no. of restarts of "PRESENT"!
if u can see it already... this ends up in infinity!
if u think a bit deeper...
everytime a person A goes back in time to T(0), the "PRESENT" is restarted and the original future is destroyed due to an alteration in the past...
this translates to the idea that it is impossible to go forward in time! since the original future no longer exist...
meaning these is no definite future ahead! that our future is actually based on the decisions we make presently!
cool rite? haha...
atcually there is abit more but i shall skip those haha...
RITE... thats the end of it for now...
if u r still reading this i muz congratulate u for making it this far without going nuts haha... like why in the world 'll ppl go and think abt such stuff?!?!
haha but of course i muz remind u that all that above only makes sense if time travel backwards in time is possible... if not then i'm sorry i wasted like 10min+ of ur time reading all that crap haha...
and of course all these came from someone who has a score of 10/10 for imagination in the 16pf so yeah u get the idea =)
and i think this 'll continue for at least 2 more wks until blk test is over but then doesn't necessary mean i'll blog more often after blk test haha...
cause nowadays nothing much to blog abt...
always the plain old routines in sch SOOOOO sianz... =(
took the GP blk test today and it was okayly bad...
essay was okay i guess... juz that i was writing a SS essay more than a GP essay...
and i didn't really elaborate much on my points also haha...
compre was cheem... so cheem that i cldn't paraphrase anything at all...
in fact i felt like i was coming up with my own points and ideas while trying to paraphrase some of the sentences haha...
so there goes my compre haha too bad then... its over anyway can't do much abt it =)
anyway...
i had a hard time trying to fall aslp last nite!
maybe it was partially cause i was mulling over some complex issue in my brain haha...
and the complex issue had nothing to do with GP at all!
i 've no idea why i was killing my brain cells over it when i've like GP blk test coming up nxt morning... i muz be mad loh...
i guess its juz the GP effect -> make u think deep abt stuff especially when u 've social dilemnas and u muz make informed choices using knowledge of science mathematics and the arts mindset that deals with the grey area and is comfortable with uncertainties and erm... smth
rite... i was actually pondering over the concept of time! (so relevant to my blog haha)
"CHEEMELOGY" AHEAD!
DO NOT PROCEED UNLESS U R MENTALLY-PREPARED TO WASTE SOME PRECIOUS TIME!!!
assume time to be linear and person A moves along with his life until one day he somehow went back in time to time T(0) in his past... (call him A1 from now on)
so at time T(0) there 'll be 2 person As, A and A1!
so wat's gonna happen nxt?
IF person A moves on with his life but do not travel back in time to T(0), then is it logical for A1 to not exist and fade away?
after thinking it through... i thought that A1 will not simply fade away like that cause from the moment that A1 reappeared at T(0)... the future of him going back in time to T(0) has ceased to exist already! => new start at T(0) => the "PRESENT T(0)" has been restarted...
no matter wat he do... his "new" presence at T(0) and onwards is bound to cause some changes, subtle or not, to the environment the circumstances and all that... this will then result in a future that is different from the original one!
SO reappearing back at T(0) means a new start for A1 and theoretically, all his links to the future, from which he came from, shld be cut off from him already
SO it is possible for A1 to exist even though A do not go back in time to T(0)
however, wat wld happen if A or A1 goes back in time to T(0) again?
so now at T(0) there 'll be 3 person As! [since in this timeline there's already A and A1 at T(0) already)]
so if u carry on this train of thought... it is possible for N no. of person As to exist at T(0) at any 1 time!
this means that (N-1) futures 've been destroyed by N no. of person As going back in time...
and there has been (N-1) no. of restarts of "PRESENT"!
if u can see it already... this ends up in infinity!
if u think a bit deeper...
everytime a person A goes back in time to T(0), the "PRESENT" is restarted and the original future is destroyed due to an alteration in the past...
this translates to the idea that it is impossible to go forward in time! since the original future no longer exist...
meaning these is no definite future ahead! that our future is actually based on the decisions we make presently!
cool rite? haha...
atcually there is abit more but i shall skip those haha...
RITE... thats the end of it for now...
if u r still reading this i muz congratulate u for making it this far without going nuts haha... like why in the world 'll ppl go and think abt such stuff?!?!
haha but of course i muz remind u that all that above only makes sense if time travel backwards in time is possible... if not then i'm sorry i wasted like 10min+ of ur time reading all that crap haha...
and of course all these came from someone who has a score of 10/10 for imagination in the 16pf so yeah u get the idea =)
February 28, 2006
... ... RUNNING AWAY ... ...
first of all...
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to Wei Jin!
hope u'll enjoy watever's left of ur special day! =)
thought i sounded like a duck for the past few days haha...
my nose was always blked and darn phlegm keep appearing in my throat although i wasn't really coughing anymore...
so everytime i rush to the toilet i'll be clearing my throat and blowing my nose to clear all the disgusting stuff...
at this moment in time tonite... i'm perfectly okay -> means i've cleared everything and my nose and throat r perfectly clear... this means MY VOICE IS BACK TO NORMAL! for now that is haha =)
hopefully it'll last though haha... 'll be quite irritated if i wake up tml morning with a blked nose and bad throat again...
seems like i got cheated!
woah lao... quite pissed abt it...
i mean like where got such thing one lah... my huo yuan jia cd like don't 've the hk concert highlights!
cldn't find it anywhere in the 2 cds loh...
pissed...
anyway i was thinking abt certain stuff today...
when we fear things we tend to try and avoid them altogether...
but i guess we also try to avoid stuff that we can't make up our mind abt...
there r certain wrong stuff in life that we r guilty of and perhaps we know it ourselves too... but somehow we juz cannot come to terms with it...
so we keep on running away to avoid the need to face it and make an absolute decision...
and the simplest way 'll be to ignore its existence totally and move on with our lives reminding ourselves that no such issue existed and 'll never do...
maybe its cause we r also unsure of which decision to make...
great as our achievements r... humans muz be the only living organism on earth who can be so indecisive...
oh well that's that...
gtg adieos...
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to Wei Jin!
hope u'll enjoy watever's left of ur special day! =)
thought i sounded like a duck for the past few days haha...
my nose was always blked and darn phlegm keep appearing in my throat although i wasn't really coughing anymore...
so everytime i rush to the toilet i'll be clearing my throat and blowing my nose to clear all the disgusting stuff...
at this moment in time tonite... i'm perfectly okay -> means i've cleared everything and my nose and throat r perfectly clear... this means MY VOICE IS BACK TO NORMAL! for now that is haha =)
hopefully it'll last though haha... 'll be quite irritated if i wake up tml morning with a blked nose and bad throat again...
seems like i got cheated!
woah lao... quite pissed abt it...
i mean like where got such thing one lah... my huo yuan jia cd like don't 've the hk concert highlights!
cldn't find it anywhere in the 2 cds loh...
pissed...
anyway i was thinking abt certain stuff today...
when we fear things we tend to try and avoid them altogether...
but i guess we also try to avoid stuff that we can't make up our mind abt...
there r certain wrong stuff in life that we r guilty of and perhaps we know it ourselves too... but somehow we juz cannot come to terms with it...
so we keep on running away to avoid the need to face it and make an absolute decision...
and the simplest way 'll be to ignore its existence totally and move on with our lives reminding ourselves that no such issue existed and 'll never do...
maybe its cause we r also unsure of which decision to make...
great as our achievements r... humans muz be the only living organism on earth who can be so indecisive...
oh well that's that...
gtg adieos...
February 23, 2006
*COUGH COUGH*
another random entry!
juz to describe my day in sch today... quite out of the norm really haha...
morning wake up...
cough cough cough cough COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH...
board the bus...
COUGH COUGH cough cough cough cough COUGH COUGH...
arrive in sch...
cough cough COUGH COUGH cough cough COUGH COUGH...
go for lecture...
cough cough cough COUGH COUGH COUGH cough COUGH...
sit in tutorial...
cough COUGH cough COUGH cough COUGH cough COUGH...
reach home...
COUGH cough COUGH cough cough cough COUGH COUGH...
wat a cough *COUGH* i mean tough... day it has been...
to tough *COUGH* i mean cough... the whole day has really been quite tiring...
at least i'm feeling better now...
hopefully tml i'll recover fully! and JTS coming up this sat gotta recover in time for that too! haha
juz to describe my day in sch today... quite out of the norm really haha...
morning wake up...
cough cough cough cough COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH...
board the bus...
COUGH COUGH cough cough cough cough COUGH COUGH...
arrive in sch...
cough cough COUGH COUGH cough cough COUGH COUGH...
go for lecture...
cough cough cough COUGH COUGH COUGH cough COUGH...
sit in tutorial...
cough COUGH cough COUGH cough COUGH cough COUGH...
reach home...
COUGH cough COUGH cough cough cough COUGH COUGH...
wat a cough *COUGH* i mean tough... day it has been...
to tough *COUGH* i mean cough... the whole day has really been quite tiring...
at least i'm feeling better now...
hopefully tml i'll recover fully! and JTS coming up this sat gotta recover in time for that too! haha
February 18, 2006
... ... Band Audition + Drama Feste ... ...
yesterday was a fun day! =)
partly caused its a friday and it means that there is nothing for me to worry abt for the nxt day...
but the main reason was bcause there were band audition and Drama Feste!
got quite a no. of surprises at the band auditions in the afternoon...
was sitting on the canteen table at first but realised i cldn't see much so wandered to the 2nd lvl of the canteen and found kevin there... was jonied by wei jin a while later...
anyway after a few bands i was like falling aslp already for some unknown reason... wasn't the band or the music maybe its cause we cldn't really hear the singer haha..
finally daryl's band went up!
haha chong peng aka monkey was scarey... haven't seen him for very long but he was super pro... even had a solo somemore haha...
daryl was at the side but he like play quite "effortlessly" =)
the overall effect was quite gd although we cldn't hear the singer again haha...
went down after that and waited for 79 band... wanted to see philip and pak cause never really see them perform before...
their band was qiang loh... the music was like ultra-forceful can feel it bearing down on u haha... and pak was the singer!
he gave me the ultimate shock haha... didn't realise he so pro at singing until now... he was like gekking through some of the high parts but he pulled it off successfully in the end... woah really impressed =)
hopefully both bands can get in then we'll be in for some nice treats when they perform the nxt time haha
anyway...
nxt up was drama feste...
packed from coro and sneaked th food inside cause we didn't 've time to eat...
so was eating all the way throughout the 1st play...
athena and artemis' plays were quite erm... average
apollo's one was more intersting but there was an endless influx of sexual referrences, connotions and puns which i tought was abit too excessive by the end of the play...
ares' play was super nice! the way everything flows together and the use of lights and some special effects were quite well done =)
there was this last scene at the end of the play when trump was being stabbed... the shadow effect was super cool!
the foolery in the play was quite funny also haha...
only thing was that the emotions part wasn't strong enough i guess... apollo's play last yr was better at creating the necessary emotions in the audience haha... but otherwise ares' play still rocks!
ares swept like 4/8 awards! how cool is that! the production crew really did a great job there haha =)
okay thats abt it...
gtg adieos...
partly caused its a friday and it means that there is nothing for me to worry abt for the nxt day...
but the main reason was bcause there were band audition and Drama Feste!
got quite a no. of surprises at the band auditions in the afternoon...
was sitting on the canteen table at first but realised i cldn't see much so wandered to the 2nd lvl of the canteen and found kevin there... was jonied by wei jin a while later...
anyway after a few bands i was like falling aslp already for some unknown reason... wasn't the band or the music maybe its cause we cldn't really hear the singer haha..
finally daryl's band went up!
haha chong peng aka monkey was scarey... haven't seen him for very long but he was super pro... even had a solo somemore haha...
daryl was at the side but he like play quite "effortlessly" =)
the overall effect was quite gd although we cldn't hear the singer again haha...
went down after that and waited for 79 band... wanted to see philip and pak cause never really see them perform before...
their band was qiang loh... the music was like ultra-forceful can feel it bearing down on u haha... and pak was the singer!
he gave me the ultimate shock haha... didn't realise he so pro at singing until now... he was like gekking through some of the high parts but he pulled it off successfully in the end... woah really impressed =)
hopefully both bands can get in then we'll be in for some nice treats when they perform the nxt time haha
anyway...
nxt up was drama feste...
packed from coro and sneaked th food inside cause we didn't 've time to eat...
so was eating all the way throughout the 1st play...
athena and artemis' plays were quite erm... average
apollo's one was more intersting but there was an endless influx of sexual referrences, connotions and puns which i tought was abit too excessive by the end of the play...
ares' play was super nice! the way everything flows together and the use of lights and some special effects were quite well done =)
there was this last scene at the end of the play when trump was being stabbed... the shadow effect was super cool!
the foolery in the play was quite funny also haha...
only thing was that the emotions part wasn't strong enough i guess... apollo's play last yr was better at creating the necessary emotions in the audience haha... but otherwise ares' play still rocks!
ares swept like 4/8 awards! how cool is that! the production crew really did a great job there haha =)
okay thats abt it...
gtg adieos...
February 16, 2006
... ... THERE ... ...
bcause i cldn't 've and bcause i didn't get so i hope for others to 've to get...
sounds like its directly translated from chinese haha... and pardon the broken english there okay? =)
rite...
so the story goes like this:
bcause i made certain decisions and reacted in a certain manner in the past... i got here! (here as in the present)
and bcause of those decisions and reactions i cldn't and didn't go there! (there as in a possible future)
and bcause i'm not there... i don't 've wat i 'll 've if i had gotten there...
and bcause i'm not there... i don't know if its possible to go there in the 1st place and 've things the way they 'll be there...
therefore, being here, i 'ld like to know if its really possible to get there!
therefore, i am hoping that others 'll be able to get there and show me that it is really possible to get there and maybe show me how things 'll be like there if i had gotten there...
therefore it is not surprising that i'm quite concerned abt how things r going... (argh rite maybe i'm juz a teeny weeny bit jealous but definitely not jealous of them but abt the idea that they may be able to get there)
haha we shall see how things go =)
why do i wanna know if it is possible to get there?
hm... this is a 25m essay qn loh... haha
sounds like its directly translated from chinese haha... and pardon the broken english there okay? =)
rite...
so the story goes like this:
bcause i made certain decisions and reacted in a certain manner in the past... i got here! (here as in the present)
and bcause of those decisions and reactions i cldn't and didn't go there! (there as in a possible future)
and bcause i'm not there... i don't 've wat i 'll 've if i had gotten there...
and bcause i'm not there... i don't know if its possible to go there in the 1st place and 've things the way they 'll be there...
therefore, being here, i 'ld like to know if its really possible to get there!
therefore, i am hoping that others 'll be able to get there and show me that it is really possible to get there and maybe show me how things 'll be like there if i had gotten there...
therefore it is not surprising that i'm quite concerned abt how things r going... (argh rite maybe i'm juz a teeny weeny bit jealous but definitely not jealous of them but abt the idea that they may be able to get there)
haha we shall see how things go =)
why do i wanna know if it is possible to get there?
hm... this is a 25m essay qn loh... haha
February 14, 2006
... ... Valentine ... ...
Happy Valentine's Day!
finally smth special to break the monotony of sch... ah well but it wasn't that special for me as usual haha...
anyway went to sch give presents to angel/mortal and get food and presents from ppl... haha
the bell went off at 8 but almost everyone in sch daoed it haha... only a few pathetic ppl going in for chem lec haha... was quite late for lecture haha but since everyone was late together i guess it doesn't really matter...
got the jay chou huo yuan jia ep for V'day from my angel and mortal!
haha... initially dawei got the cd as present today also and i was bugging him to lend it to me... then i opened my present and discovered i got the cd too! haha so cool lah...
anyway thanx to my angel and mortal! i watched it already! =D
the photoframe from huiwen and rachel was super cool! haha almost everyone got like individualised pic... i looked quite retarded in mine haha but it doesn't really matter i guess haha...
kevin got the coolest pic loh... the ultimate limited edition KFC promotional pic!!
haha...
anyway juz wanna say thanx to everyone who gave me stuff! THANX A LOT!
okay after that i went home immediately... such an exciting Valentine activity haha...
i realise i got nothing much to say liao =(
okay so shall stop here haha...
adieos...
finally smth special to break the monotony of sch... ah well but it wasn't that special for me as usual haha...
anyway went to sch give presents to angel/mortal and get food and presents from ppl... haha
the bell went off at 8 but almost everyone in sch daoed it haha... only a few pathetic ppl going in for chem lec haha... was quite late for lecture haha but since everyone was late together i guess it doesn't really matter...
got the jay chou huo yuan jia ep for V'day from my angel and mortal!
haha... initially dawei got the cd as present today also and i was bugging him to lend it to me... then i opened my present and discovered i got the cd too! haha so cool lah...
anyway thanx to my angel and mortal! i watched it already! =D
the photoframe from huiwen and rachel was super cool! haha almost everyone got like individualised pic... i looked quite retarded in mine haha but it doesn't really matter i guess haha...
kevin got the coolest pic loh... the ultimate limited edition KFC promotional pic!!
haha...
anyway juz wanna say thanx to everyone who gave me stuff! THANX A LOT!
okay after that i went home immediately... such an exciting Valentine activity haha...
i realise i got nothing much to say liao =(
okay so shall stop here haha...
adieos...
February 09, 2006
... ... RANDOM ... ...
juz feel like blogging a random entry...
i've no stamina! as proven by my X-country trial run today!
i didn't walk the X-country as p lanned! oh wat the heck... running wasn't all that bad anyway =)
i'm turning stupid! thats definitely bad haha =P
my juniors r nice ppl to help me keep stuff after bad rec! thanx lots! =)
started reflecting on random stuff on my way home on 171! (thats 3 "on" at 1 go!) listening to music and thinking abt stuff make me deep! =)
anyway i remembered impt ppl and events to me! and i realised i've been quite lucky all these years! =)
i guess i'm satisfied! =D
random happiness! =)
i've no stamina! as proven by my X-country trial run today!
i didn't walk the X-country as p lanned! oh wat the heck... running wasn't all that bad anyway =)
i'm turning stupid! thats definitely bad haha =P
my juniors r nice ppl to help me keep stuff after bad rec! thanx lots! =)
started reflecting on random stuff on my way home on 171! (thats 3 "on" at 1 go!) listening to music and thinking abt stuff make me deep! =)
anyway i remembered impt ppl and events to me! and i realised i've been quite lucky all these years! =)
i guess i'm satisfied! =D
random happiness! =)
February 05, 2006
... ... STJ ... ...
had our 1st STJ tonite at marche...
but before that went to watch fearless with daryl, zh and kevin haha... not bad lah although the plot was like guessable and quite corny but the fight scenes made up for it i guess... anyway it was supposed to be an action flick wat...
oh yeah there was 2min+ of jay chou huo yuan jia mtv too! so wasn't all that bad for me haha...
huo huo huo huo huo huo huo huo! wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo! i'm obsessed with the chorus! haha!
was struck by a phrase jet li said in the movie... smth like 人虽然不能选择出生的时间 但却要勇敢地走完最后... haha doesn't sound so impressive here leh i muz 've gotten the phrasing wrong but the main idea is there =)
all wushu ppl shld watch this to attain enlightenment and find out the one and only all impt truth --> "What Is Wushu?!"
haha yeah juz ask kevin abt it =P
okay proceeded to marche at heeren after that...
went to request to reserve like 50 seats and the girl there stunned diao, "50?! one five or five ..." she cldn't continue 1/2way and immediately called for the manager haha...
so we got the seats and went in for dinner!
shared food with kevin and ate quite a bit seriously... crepe, rosti and waffle! waffle is muz for me whenever i visit marche its super nice lah!
1/2way through we had budding actors zh and daryl posing as huo yuan jia and the jap fighter in the movie to act out the story for dawei haha...
the fearless duo were really into it mah... the rest of us juz ke chuan as xtras in the show go there shout "zhi qiang bu xi!" and "Huo Yuan Jia!" only haha... super funny there
after that played abit of truth and truth among ourselves and then took some time to settle the payment haha...
hope the juniors had enough to eat though only gave them like $15 per person but actually we expected them to overshoot that budget so yeah haha dunno if they r all so guai...
anyway after that we took a long time to walk to istana park but the pavilion was like closed for renovations!!
crap lah then we had to sit by the side but by then everyone was quite sianz liao haha...
played abit of shoot shag and marry and truth or dare then went back...
oh well i guess thats that...
anyway looking forward to JTS!
okay after saying all these i better get back to my bio tpt in plants tutotial haha...
stupid structed qn so irritating lah... cldn't find the 1st one and the 2nd one like muz write quite abit sianz...
and monday is a long sch day for econs ppl...
and vday coming up soon... gotta go spend money and hopefully we can 've a happening vday...
okay thats all...
adieos...
but before that went to watch fearless with daryl, zh and kevin haha... not bad lah although the plot was like guessable and quite corny but the fight scenes made up for it i guess... anyway it was supposed to be an action flick wat...
oh yeah there was 2min+ of jay chou huo yuan jia mtv too! so wasn't all that bad for me haha...
huo huo huo huo huo huo huo huo! wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo! i'm obsessed with the chorus! haha!
was struck by a phrase jet li said in the movie... smth like 人虽然不能选择出生的时间 但却要勇敢地走完最后... haha doesn't sound so impressive here leh i muz 've gotten the phrasing wrong but the main idea is there =)
all wushu ppl shld watch this to attain enlightenment and find out the one and only all impt truth --> "What Is Wushu?!"
haha yeah juz ask kevin abt it =P
okay proceeded to marche at heeren after that...
went to request to reserve like 50 seats and the girl there stunned diao, "50?! one five or five ..." she cldn't continue 1/2way and immediately called for the manager haha...
so we got the seats and went in for dinner!
shared food with kevin and ate quite a bit seriously... crepe, rosti and waffle! waffle is muz for me whenever i visit marche its super nice lah!
1/2way through we had budding actors zh and daryl posing as huo yuan jia and the jap fighter in the movie to act out the story for dawei haha...
the fearless duo were really into it mah... the rest of us juz ke chuan as xtras in the show go there shout "zhi qiang bu xi!" and "Huo Yuan Jia!" only haha... super funny there
after that played abit of truth and truth among ourselves and then took some time to settle the payment haha...
hope the juniors had enough to eat though only gave them like $15 per person but actually we expected them to overshoot that budget so yeah haha dunno if they r all so guai...
anyway after that we took a long time to walk to istana park but the pavilion was like closed for renovations!!
crap lah then we had to sit by the side but by then everyone was quite sianz liao haha...
played abit of shoot shag and marry and truth or dare then went back...
oh well i guess thats that...
anyway looking forward to JTS!
okay after saying all these i better get back to my bio tpt in plants tutotial haha...
stupid structed qn so irritating lah... cldn't find the 1st one and the 2nd one like muz write quite abit sianz...
and monday is a long sch day for econs ppl...
and vday coming up soon... gotta go spend money and hopefully we can 've a happening vday...
okay thats all...
adieos...
February 02, 2006
... ... CNY 2006 ... ...
i realised i'm kinda late to be posting abt CNY but i was really abit too lazy and too tired to do blog anything for the past few days haha...
so here goes an extremely outdated entry...
spent the 1st day at my grandma's hse collecting angbaos as per our tradition...
yup so everyone from my mother's side was there and so there was an intense exchange of angbaos...
during which i kinda suspect i was missing 1 angbao actually but haven't verify it yet cause i 've been too lazy to count my angbao money =P
rite... anyway things got even worse when other relatively unknown relatives made their way here to visit my grandma... so we youngsters cousins all that banished ourselves to my grandma's room and proceeded to stone/do work on laptop/slp/secretly eat and drink on the bed/gamble/talk rubbish while the relatively uknown relatives made their presence felt in the living room...
while all there were happening... the adults (as in those on my mother's side) decided to move out and visit some other ppl somewhere and more chaos happened as ppl run in/run out of the rm/hse and ppl disappeared and appeared and ppl looking for disappeared ppl blah blah...
this lasted for a while before the relatively unknown relatives (i'm getting abit tired of typing this) went off and we went back to the living room to attack the food there...
after dinner ppl migrated to my hse where we started a 2nd round of dinner with steamboat... was stuffing ourselves full the entire day for no gd reason... we all juz wanna get fat or maybe it applies more to me =)
rite... so that ended my 1st day
2nd day walked here walked there get angbaos...
ended up at my cousin's hse to stay overnight and gambled until like ard 5+ then went to play ps2 until 6+ before i slept for like 2-3 hours... went back ard 4+ the nxt day...
afterwhich i bathed changed and rushed out again to daryl's hse to meet up with other "west-side" ppl haha...
(pls x-refer to kevin's and daryl's blog for the west side ppl bai nian experience)
rite... basically reached daryl's hse get angbao and walked out after that... wasn't my fault okay i juz arrive at the wrong time when everyone is leaving... I AM NOT JIAN!
migrate to jia shee's hse after that and started talking crap there... kit yeng was devastated by the lack of channel 56 in jia shee's hse... kevin became obsessed with bu pa zhang lang... everyone started going into retro mood and started showing how cool we r owning all those "retro" albums like a1, westlife and erm... can't remember that cd title that zhou hao got for his bday present -> that one with boom boom boom etc. songs...
kevin's hse was tv mania with pizzas for dinner! not to mention there's double serving of angbaos cause we insisted that kevin tops up the angbao money... haha we're so jian and evil but nice kind "muz be guai" kevin was so nice to us =)
after that we all went home! nice happy ending!
thats' abt it for CNY...
hm... the entry's abit long eh maybe i shld juz stop here...
yup STJ coming along this sunday... hope it 'll be fun haha =)
so here goes an extremely outdated entry...
spent the 1st day at my grandma's hse collecting angbaos as per our tradition...
yup so everyone from my mother's side was there and so there was an intense exchange of angbaos...
during which i kinda suspect i was missing 1 angbao actually but haven't verify it yet cause i 've been too lazy to count my angbao money =P
rite... anyway things got even worse when other relatively unknown relatives made their way here to visit my grandma... so we youngsters cousins all that banished ourselves to my grandma's room and proceeded to stone/do work on laptop/slp/secretly eat and drink on the bed/gamble/talk rubbish while the relatively uknown relatives made their presence felt in the living room...
while all there were happening... the adults (as in those on my mother's side) decided to move out and visit some other ppl somewhere and more chaos happened as ppl run in/run out of the rm/hse and ppl disappeared and appeared and ppl looking for disappeared ppl blah blah...
this lasted for a while before the relatively unknown relatives (i'm getting abit tired of typing this) went off and we went back to the living room to attack the food there...
after dinner ppl migrated to my hse where we started a 2nd round of dinner with steamboat... was stuffing ourselves full the entire day for no gd reason... we all juz wanna get fat or maybe it applies more to me =)
rite... so that ended my 1st day
2nd day walked here walked there get angbaos...
ended up at my cousin's hse to stay overnight and gambled until like ard 5+ then went to play ps2 until 6+ before i slept for like 2-3 hours... went back ard 4+ the nxt day...
afterwhich i bathed changed and rushed out again to daryl's hse to meet up with other "west-side" ppl haha...
(pls x-refer to kevin's and daryl's blog for the west side ppl bai nian experience)
rite... basically reached daryl's hse get angbao and walked out after that... wasn't my fault okay i juz arrive at the wrong time when everyone is leaving... I AM NOT JIAN!
migrate to jia shee's hse after that and started talking crap there... kit yeng was devastated by the lack of channel 56 in jia shee's hse... kevin became obsessed with bu pa zhang lang... everyone started going into retro mood and started showing how cool we r owning all those "retro" albums like a1, westlife and erm... can't remember that cd title that zhou hao got for his bday present -> that one with boom boom boom etc. songs...
kevin's hse was tv mania with pizzas for dinner! not to mention there's double serving of angbaos cause we insisted that kevin tops up the angbao money... haha we're so jian and evil but nice kind "muz be guai" kevin was so nice to us =)
after that we all went home! nice happy ending!
thats' abt it for CNY...
hm... the entry's abit long eh maybe i shld juz stop here...
yup STJ coming along this sunday... hope it 'll be fun haha =)
January 27, 2006
... ... DO U GET IT? ... ...
Below is a fact.
Do u see the shaded grey that shrouds around us?
and in the shaded grey we seek for the darkness and the light that never did exist...
in the colours of our imaginations we painted our answers...
a line here a curve there to shape the world...
a tone here a hue there to colour the blank...
frame within frame we painted the air...
frame within frame we painted the empty space...
and i realise all said and done r but nameless shades subjected to the meaningless flow...
cause shades within shroud r but transient mirages to decorate the desolate.
Do u get it?
if u understand everything u're most likely on the same wavelength as me! =)
Do u see the shaded grey that shrouds around us?
and in the shaded grey we seek for the darkness and the light that never did exist...
in the colours of our imaginations we painted our answers...
a line here a curve there to shape the world...
a tone here a hue there to colour the blank...
frame within frame we painted the air...
frame within frame we painted the empty space...
and i realise all said and done r but nameless shades subjected to the meaningless flow...
cause shades within shroud r but transient mirages to decorate the desolate.
Do u get it?
if u understand everything u're most likely on the same wavelength as me! =)
January 22, 2006
... ... B.S.H.L ... ...
the past 1 wk was quite "stressful"
thursday was particularly irritating cause it was the 1st session for badminton and got lots of stuff to take care of... and there were other XTRA stuff to irritate me also...
so i was feeling quite gd and refreshed on friday...
turn out i still got things to worry abt over the wkend haha...
but nvm nxt wkend is CNY liao... then can enjoy a long break haha...
went up to my grandma's hse to celebrate her bday today...
arrived aed 11+ and the food's there already but then got no one ard haha...
spent my time watching mtv channel while waiting for the rest to arrive... hm saw some intersting mtvs there... including the sequel to "Feng" mtv pity they didn't show the whole mtv...
anyway the rest arrived ard 12+ and we started lunch! buffet as usual but the food was a little more interesting than usual... had some shrimp fruit salad thing and mixed fruit honeydew sago haha... cool
after that juz stoned ard and talked with ppl yup...
started project B.S.H.L...
progress is approximately 2~5%...
've to work harder from now on haha...
thursday was particularly irritating cause it was the 1st session for badminton and got lots of stuff to take care of... and there were other XTRA stuff to irritate me also...
so i was feeling quite gd and refreshed on friday...
turn out i still got things to worry abt over the wkend haha...
but nvm nxt wkend is CNY liao... then can enjoy a long break haha...
went up to my grandma's hse to celebrate her bday today...
arrived aed 11+ and the food's there already but then got no one ard haha...
spent my time watching mtv channel while waiting for the rest to arrive... hm saw some intersting mtvs there... including the sequel to "Feng" mtv pity they didn't show the whole mtv...
anyway the rest arrived ard 12+ and we started lunch! buffet as usual but the food was a little more interesting than usual... had some shrimp fruit salad thing and mixed fruit honeydew sago haha... cool
after that juz stoned ard and talked with ppl yup...
started project B.S.H.L...
progress is approximately 2~5%...
've to work harder from now on haha...
January 14, 2006
... ... ORIENTATION CAMPFIRE ... ...
juz go back from 06 01 campfire haha...
was quite high this yr for some unknown reason... maybe its juz cause we seniors haha 've to set examples for juniors =)
watched the war games in the morning...
kinda imba everyone ganged ares and there were like 2 facs who were totally inactive... watever loh...
was hoping someone 'll try and kope the flags from other fac but no one did... so unexciting haha... 'ld be so cool lah running off with their flags...
fac session was super funny as usual... mr teh is like so cool lah...
crashed the fac judging at lt3 for a while then proceeded for a quick dinner before coming back for the campfire...
haha changed into my chinese high u... the shirt was like super short lah quite hard to tuck it in and had to borrow the shorts form daryl also... i think i looked quite weird in it haha...
the campfire was mainly presentation of flag and preformance by each fac followed by the fac dance...
ares fac's flag, performance and dance were super cool lah!!!
they shld 've won everything loh... except that some ppl 've weird and stupid tastes... okay nvm i shan't say more... u get the idea...
rite...
got high on songs and dances as per the situation every yr... haha...
only knew like 2/5 dances properly and forgot 1/3 of the songs we sang...
arh well nvm...
when in doubt juz jump and go "ahhh lahhh woooo waaa"... u'll be forgiven for not knowing the songs/dances immediately... it works everytime =)
rushed to kap afterwards and made a mad-dash in a bid to overtake 79 infront of us... haha
lucky zhou hao was smart and detour ard to the back entrance of mac and we managed to get there 1st before the other class...
sat ard for a while telling scandals and some of our exploits before playing a really quick game of polar bear... the polar bears were all killed within the 1st 4 or 5 turns i think... all thanx to the sounds of depressions made by the gamemaster when he chose the polar bears...
went off at 1130 to avoid missing the last bus or else i'm gonna be stranded in kap overnight...
thats the end of the orientation saga for now... but now there's JTS to look forward to haha =P
anyway its time for me to start on a few "projects" liao...
but then most likely i'll give up 1/2way haha...
see how it goes then...
adieos...
was quite high this yr for some unknown reason... maybe its juz cause we seniors haha 've to set examples for juniors =)
watched the war games in the morning...
kinda imba everyone ganged ares and there were like 2 facs who were totally inactive... watever loh...
was hoping someone 'll try and kope the flags from other fac but no one did... so unexciting haha... 'ld be so cool lah running off with their flags...
fac session was super funny as usual... mr teh is like so cool lah...
crashed the fac judging at lt3 for a while then proceeded for a quick dinner before coming back for the campfire...
haha changed into my chinese high u... the shirt was like super short lah quite hard to tuck it in and had to borrow the shorts form daryl also... i think i looked quite weird in it haha...
the campfire was mainly presentation of flag and preformance by each fac followed by the fac dance...
ares fac's flag, performance and dance were super cool lah!!!
they shld 've won everything loh... except that some ppl 've weird and stupid tastes... okay nvm i shan't say more... u get the idea...
rite...
got high on songs and dances as per the situation every yr... haha...
only knew like 2/5 dances properly and forgot 1/3 of the songs we sang...
arh well nvm...
when in doubt juz jump and go "ahhh lahhh woooo waaa"... u'll be forgiven for not knowing the songs/dances immediately... it works everytime =)
rushed to kap afterwards and made a mad-dash in a bid to overtake 79 infront of us... haha
lucky zhou hao was smart and detour ard to the back entrance of mac and we managed to get there 1st before the other class...
sat ard for a while telling scandals and some of our exploits before playing a really quick game of polar bear... the polar bears were all killed within the 1st 4 or 5 turns i think... all thanx to the sounds of depressions made by the gamemaster when he chose the polar bears...
went off at 1130 to avoid missing the last bus or else i'm gonna be stranded in kap overnight...
thats the end of the orientation saga for now... but now there's JTS to look forward to haha =P
anyway its time for me to start on a few "projects" liao...
but then most likely i'll give up 1/2way haha...
see how it goes then...
adieos...
January 10, 2006
... ... JUNIOR 72ERS ... ...
had a kind of outing with the juniors today...
juz played stress in the afternoon then went function rm which was like super big... can fit 2 cts inside there comfortably...
anyway taught the juniors how to play polar bear and then had dinner before playing some more games... though there were quite a lot of breaks between everything... pauses and all that...
didn't do any forfeits afterall... juniors lost charades and had to drink bittergourd juice... other than that there wasn't much haha...
got quite tired 1/2way through suddenly then didn't really want to do anything haha so juz slack ard...
i played some eat as many marshmellow as u can then hum song for ppl to guess game... wasn't all that hard...
the marshmellow juz melts into ur mouth gross...
after that they played pepsi cola together and then it was home time and everyone left haha...
interacted a little with some of the juniors today...
well guess they were quite nice and fun... but i still can't remember the names... they juz look so alike to me haha...
in a way i thought this outing was quite okay... cause to me this was suppose to be more for them than for us... to let them 've some common experiences together haha...
for seniors its back to hmwk and tests liao... so sianz...
juz played stress in the afternoon then went function rm which was like super big... can fit 2 cts inside there comfortably...
anyway taught the juniors how to play polar bear and then had dinner before playing some more games... though there were quite a lot of breaks between everything... pauses and all that...
didn't do any forfeits afterall... juniors lost charades and had to drink bittergourd juice... other than that there wasn't much haha...
got quite tired 1/2way through suddenly then didn't really want to do anything haha so juz slack ard...
i played some eat as many marshmellow as u can then hum song for ppl to guess game... wasn't all that hard...
the marshmellow juz melts into ur mouth gross...
after that they played pepsi cola together and then it was home time and everyone left haha...
interacted a little with some of the juniors today...
well guess they were quite nice and fun... but i still can't remember the names... they juz look so alike to me haha...
in a way i thought this outing was quite okay... cause to me this was suppose to be more for them than for us... to let them 've some common experiences together haha...
for seniors its back to hmwk and tests liao... so sianz...
January 08, 2006
... ... FUNERAL ... ...
whew...
've been busy since friday... haven't had the time to do anything so far...
started on friday afternoon during bio lec...
received msg from my sis telling my my father's brother has passed away in the morning so i'm suppose to like rush home and go attend the wake (is that wat i'm suppose to call it?)
don't really know wat to feel... wasn't close to him and we hardly met each other other than during chinese new yr...
anyway stayed to meet my juniors first before going home for a quick dinner and rushing down to somewhere near jp for the wake...
didn't do much there on the 1st nite... juz sat there and stoned and occassionally serve some drinks to guests and all that...
went down again today... though we kinda slacked abit and only left hse ard late afternoon...
pretty much the same stuff again expect there were some monks there to chant and all that... and i'm like suppose to join in with the rest of the direct family members...
shan't describe the process here... it feels kinda impolite to do so...
got 1 more day to go tml... wonder how much of studying/work i can finish over this wkend...
rite...
sitting there with nothing to do the whole nite until the nxt day(like 12am each nite)... i managed to discover some intersting stuff...
1) i'm not only the youngest in my family, i'm also the youngest among all from cousins at father's side
2) my oldest cousin is apparently 50 yrs... 32 yrs older than me...
3) according to the ingredients list, HSC or isit HSF (forgot the actual name) wheat grass drink, known as "grass power) contains chlorophyll and i drank 1 packet of it juz now... cool
4) some ppl offer horrible greetings like "gosh... eat until so thin!" or "aiyoh... so much pimples on ur face!" (although A FEW bits of it is true doesn't mean u shld voice it out the minute u see someone)
heard abt a possible junior-senior party nxt wk also...
i really hope they 'll like us as their seniors =)
've been busy since friday... haven't had the time to do anything so far...
started on friday afternoon during bio lec...
received msg from my sis telling my my father's brother has passed away in the morning so i'm suppose to like rush home and go attend the wake (is that wat i'm suppose to call it?)
don't really know wat to feel... wasn't close to him and we hardly met each other other than during chinese new yr...
anyway stayed to meet my juniors first before going home for a quick dinner and rushing down to somewhere near jp for the wake...
didn't do much there on the 1st nite... juz sat there and stoned and occassionally serve some drinks to guests and all that...
went down again today... though we kinda slacked abit and only left hse ard late afternoon...
pretty much the same stuff again expect there were some monks there to chant and all that... and i'm like suppose to join in with the rest of the direct family members...
shan't describe the process here... it feels kinda impolite to do so...
got 1 more day to go tml... wonder how much of studying/work i can finish over this wkend...
rite...
sitting there with nothing to do the whole nite until the nxt day(like 12am each nite)... i managed to discover some intersting stuff...
1) i'm not only the youngest in my family, i'm also the youngest among all from cousins at father's side
2) my oldest cousin is apparently 50 yrs... 32 yrs older than me...
3) according to the ingredients list, HSC or isit HSF (forgot the actual name) wheat grass drink, known as "grass power) contains chlorophyll and i drank 1 packet of it juz now... cool
4) some ppl offer horrible greetings like "gosh... eat until so thin!" or "aiyoh... so much pimples on ur face!" (although A FEW bits of it is true doesn't mean u shld voice it out the minute u see someone)
heard abt a possible junior-senior party nxt wk also...
i really hope they 'll like us as their seniors =)
January 03, 2006
... ... FIRSTS ... ...
had my 1st bbq for 2006 on 1/1/2006...
supposed to countdown to the new yr with my family on 31/1/2005 but we cldn't get the pit so had to postpone to 1st day of 2006 instead...
wasn't too bad... had like 25 ppl there if i'm not wrong...
nice to 've a family bbq once in a while with all my cousins haha...
too bad the rain kinda spoilt it all...
rained at 5+ when we were abt to start fire then stopped after a while... rained again 1/2way through the bbq then we had to go to the void deck and bbq using aluminum tray haha...
lots of leftovers after that so each family took abit home haha...
the nxt day i slept the morning and 1/2 the afternoon away... did abit of work slept and then wake up to the 1st day of sch...
1st day of sch was super tiring...
slept immediately when i got home until abt 7 like that then wake up to pia econs work and study bio... sianz
saw my juniors ard among the j1s today...
eh heard like the whole squad is here... how scarey...
arh well... shall talk more after i see my junior class...
rite... better go study bio now i'm way behind time still 've like 2.5 sets of notes to go...
j2 is starting to get boring already...
supposed to countdown to the new yr with my family on 31/1/2005 but we cldn't get the pit so had to postpone to 1st day of 2006 instead...
wasn't too bad... had like 25 ppl there if i'm not wrong...
nice to 've a family bbq once in a while with all my cousins haha...
too bad the rain kinda spoilt it all...
rained at 5+ when we were abt to start fire then stopped after a while... rained again 1/2way through the bbq then we had to go to the void deck and bbq using aluminum tray haha...
lots of leftovers after that so each family took abit home haha...
the nxt day i slept the morning and 1/2 the afternoon away... did abit of work slept and then wake up to the 1st day of sch...
1st day of sch was super tiring...
slept immediately when i got home until abt 7 like that then wake up to pia econs work and study bio... sianz
saw my juniors ard among the j1s today...
eh heard like the whole squad is here... how scarey...
arh well... shall talk more after i see my junior class...
rite... better go study bio now i'm way behind time still 've like 2.5 sets of notes to go...
j2 is starting to get boring already...
January 01, 2006
... .. 2005 ~ 2006 ... ...
normally i wld 've a concluding blog entry on the last day of each yr but was too busy this yr to sit down and write a proper conclusion...
so i decided to skip it this yr and juz make do with a short entry on the 1st day of 2006...
before anything starts let me get on with the usual event recount on 31/12/2005...
went out in the morning to buy stuff and prepare for our family bbq later on tonite...
so was "busy" all the way until late afternoon afterwhich i rushed home changed and all that before getting to city hall mrt in the rain to meet up with the class...
went with daryl, gav, emilia, anna, kityeng, dranice, rachel, meiyi to eat at some place called Changing Appetite... the food wasn't too bad there i loved their chessy fish & chips though haha...
after that we popped into arcade for a short while... wat i did there was to watch other ppl play haha...
walked to the esplanade after that and not surprising... got frightened by the huge crowd...
rite... so in the end we decided to go rachel's hse to countdown instead... abit of no atmosphere there but it wasn't so bad actually haha...
had a hard time deciding how to do the countdown cause we 've like no accurate timing to go with except our own watches haha...
but we managed to see the fireworks!!!!
okay... fine it was part of the fireworks... due to some irritating trees and temple and buildings that juz had to stand at that particular spot and blk stuff out... so wasted lah...
anyway the fireworks was super cool!!! juz look at the designs they come up with!!!
there was this sparkling type, one that can disintegrate to give 4 smaller flares in the air... the usual exploding one and some others haha...
rite... this is getting abit long so shall end with i rushed home and managed to catch the lrt home!!
now on to some reflections...
let's see... 2005 hasn't exactly been my yr i muz admit...
not that i wasn't happy but alot of things didn't go exactly to wat i had hoped...
from the start to the end its wasn't a smooth journey... wasted lots of time sorting out things with myself and some of them was quite unfounded in the 1st place haha...
as usual.. my grades continue to deprove... its has been on the decline like since sec3 haha...
i miss sec 1 and sec 2!!!
oh well...
bad things aside... i made more friends in 2005!!! (like duh)
a surprising mixture of friends in terms of interests attitudes and such...
arh well mixture has its pros and cons...
not gonna elaborate much on it but things always get better when u 've friends ard =)
thanx everyone =)
2005's present to u is a yr of memories...
2006's present to u is a yr of possiblities...
ur present to urself is a yr of untold futures u can create with every choice and decision u'll make...
so Happy New Year everyone...
u 've a yr waiting for u don't let it come to waste yeah =)
adieos...
so i decided to skip it this yr and juz make do with a short entry on the 1st day of 2006...
before anything starts let me get on with the usual event recount on 31/12/2005...
went out in the morning to buy stuff and prepare for our family bbq later on tonite...
so was "busy" all the way until late afternoon afterwhich i rushed home changed and all that before getting to city hall mrt in the rain to meet up with the class...
went with daryl, gav, emilia, anna, kityeng, dranice, rachel, meiyi to eat at some place called Changing Appetite... the food wasn't too bad there i loved their chessy fish & chips though haha...
after that we popped into arcade for a short while... wat i did there was to watch other ppl play haha...
walked to the esplanade after that and not surprising... got frightened by the huge crowd...
rite... so in the end we decided to go rachel's hse to countdown instead... abit of no atmosphere there but it wasn't so bad actually haha...
had a hard time deciding how to do the countdown cause we 've like no accurate timing to go with except our own watches haha...
but we managed to see the fireworks!!!!
okay... fine it was part of the fireworks... due to some irritating trees and temple and buildings that juz had to stand at that particular spot and blk stuff out... so wasted lah...
anyway the fireworks was super cool!!! juz look at the designs they come up with!!!
there was this sparkling type, one that can disintegrate to give 4 smaller flares in the air... the usual exploding one and some others haha...
rite... this is getting abit long so shall end with i rushed home and managed to catch the lrt home!!
now on to some reflections...
let's see... 2005 hasn't exactly been my yr i muz admit...
not that i wasn't happy but alot of things didn't go exactly to wat i had hoped...
from the start to the end its wasn't a smooth journey... wasted lots of time sorting out things with myself and some of them was quite unfounded in the 1st place haha...
as usual.. my grades continue to deprove... its has been on the decline like since sec3 haha...
i miss sec 1 and sec 2!!!
oh well...
bad things aside... i made more friends in 2005!!! (like duh)
a surprising mixture of friends in terms of interests attitudes and such...
arh well mixture has its pros and cons...
not gonna elaborate much on it but things always get better when u 've friends ard =)
thanx everyone =)
2005's present to u is a yr of memories...
2006's present to u is a yr of possiblities...
ur present to urself is a yr of untold futures u can create with every choice and decision u'll make...
so Happy New Year everyone...
u 've a yr waiting for u don't let it come to waste yeah =)
adieos...
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)