no roads lead to me

time: 2.36am.

Its been a long time i know, and this place feels kind of neglected. Time to change template again.

I feel so much better after a bath. Its a late shower, but it has been a crazy day. I think i had my longest chat with daph today, from 1.45pm to 7.30pm. Then it was a nap, a dinner break and back to an online meeting at 11 with her and char. Even lunch was taken camped in front of the computer.

Fyp is no joke. When seniors used to go crazy about it, i use to wonder where the madness came from. Well...wonder no more miss quek. The slow pace which we enjoyed in December has been replaced with endless emails, meetings, drafts and media engagement. Working with people is not as easy as we would like it to be. Conflict of interest, communication breakdown, unnecessary delays. Sigh, makes you wonder if FYP is worth more than the 10 AUs its given.

So most of us are eating, breathing and living FYP now. I wish i could drop it all to soak in the chinatown atmosphere, have a good dinner at home or even do some valentine's day shopping. But yes, all i can do is wish. In the next two weeks, we are going to get even busier and already, my exhaustion has peaked. With assignments undone, readings untouched, jobs not looked for, i really hope this is worth all our hard work.

But as we suffer with the woes of work, today, i'm praying for a friend, that the worries burdened on her will come to a an end. And i take a delight at another who is one step closer to his career dream. Conversations were all so short,(thanks to my utter lack of time), but i have my thoughts with both of them. And i have my fyp group too to thank, because no one knows the experience like we do. All the bitching and support carries us through each day, no matter how frustrating it might have been.

Time passes too quickly. Already its in the second month of 2010. And tonight, was another one of those nights where silly arguments led to stone walls and cold silence. I would admit i'm struggling a little harder than i want to, but i'll continue walking cause my heart tells me that this is what i want.

Its 2.54am now. Time to start on assignment one for 459. I guess it will be some time more before i can snuggle into bed.