new leaps

time: 20.10pm

Swimming hard today felt good. Even if the laps did not count towards anything but a attempt at the record books. First time i actually went for a charity swim and if not for wee, it would have been a challenge to drag my butt out of bed so early. Not that 8am is early, but i felt strangely exhausted from the day before.

Still it was nice, meeting up with my besties and feeling how everything hasnt really changed. Just that we are currently missing a leg. Gweeennnn...misss youuuu!

And today, i signed up for THE run! Yes, it will be done one time only. I feel mad to subject myself to the 42km torture. Thats why, it will only be once.

Cheers to impulse and last day discount.

my tooth fairy

time: 22.20pm

If there is no such thing as a tooth fairy, then thank god for a loving bf. :)

the appointement is booked for the 28th! lets go chicken quek!

so screwed

time: 17.20pm

Sigh. Is it already the third week of July?

Nothing seems to be going as planned for fyp. The hopes we kept high and the fingers we kept crossed are kind of faltering, at least for me. But with monday, hopefully we will be a little clearer.

And the holiday is ending, with still so many people i wan to meet up and so many places i wan to go! Yet the camp lingers at the back of my mind, nagging me of the hundred and one things i have to do. Why do i have to bother so much, being concerned about others, wanting to do a good job, yet getting exhausted with trying.

The other day my mum asked me, "is it worth it?". Honestly the question didnt go down too well with me cause I've stopped wondering. Just do, dun question. It makes life simpler.

and somehow i think that for every bit I give, I do get something back in return. Not in material returns, but the intangible things. Naive maybe, but i've been proven many times in life that what goes around does comes around.

One thing i need to learn though is survival. Being nice makes you a lovely person. Being too nice makes you a step-over, even by people you thought were your friends.

inertia

time:7.11pm

I realise that once you stop blogging, it can be difficult to pick up the energy to do it again.

Work has ended for a good 2 weeks and it feels...liberating. :) The only thing i miss about work would be my colleagues and yet there is so much i want to do with my remaining time. Nothing can bring me back into the workforce for the next one year!

So far, time has passed quickly. Its july already and i've barely spend much time at home. Bad bad i know, its time i spend some time with my family as well as use the time to do things that i keep procrastinating.

tmr i'm heading off for my hall's senior camp. Friends are sometimes quite amazed that im still involved in hall activities and to be honest, hall life has always stayed in this grey area, somewhere around the fringe of my social life. I dont have many close frens from there, but i have had great moments with them too. When i leave this year though, it will be with little regrets. The 3 years had it colourful moments as well as provided me with a quiet haven at the end of a hard day in school. I cannot imagine my uni life without its late night suppers, ever changing roomies, warm afternoon naps and the screeching of 179s. And, best of all, it has given me a great boy.(always expect the unexpected, i would say. :)) Inevitably, i'm a little sad at how things turned out. Not because i think i deserve a hall, but because of how some pple choose to manage things. Oh well...at least i'm out of it.

The last two days have been spend filled with love and its silly moments. Couldnt have asked for more. :)