exams countdown

time: 8.05pm

3 papers, 4 presentation and 1 quiz later, i will finally be ready to start on my exam preparation.

But that would mean i can only begin on the 8th of Nov. Too little time? I seriously think so. I've been struggling so hard this sem already, its quite impossible to squeeze everything into 10 days.

That really is all the time i have. So got to make the best out of it. The exam stress is beginning to kick in and its going to intensify as the weeks close in. I secretly cant wait for the exams to come cause it would simply mean the end is near! But of course, it would also mean one semesters work is going to boil down to those few days. And i will *sniff* be saying goodbye to year 3 study life.

Whoever said JC was the toughest and Uni is easy compared to that should go shoot himself. I feel like im taking the A levels every 6 months. And with my GPA hovering dangerously, I feel like im on a swing, hanging 30 stories high.

gulp.

time to start working hard.
time to start on my written reports.
time to prepare my presentations.
time to stop getting distracted.
and finally, time to stop the little voice in me
and believe in what you say.

Tmr is public holiday. And since im going out to play, im going to forget about work for the moment. For now though...back to my 463 paper!

Interview woes

time: 8.23pm

This week was intense. Interviews on Monday, Wednesday, Friday. I could hardly breathe. And its amazing how challenging Millward Brown's interview could have been. Round one was a maths test and round two was a presentation where we were suppose to recommend whether or not to launch an ad, plus interview.

Today when it all ended, I couldnt stop smiling. I have no idea how I fared, but i seriously dont care for the moment. Let me just relax and enjoy the moment before i go back into the craze of it. Its a long weekend packed with things, weddings, birthdays and dinners. And of course work. I wish i had a little more time though, just a little...

its a long weekend, so for tonight, maybe i wun work so hard. We all need a break sometimes and my shoulders are still stiff from the stress last night. Lousy. Though i cant help but laugh when i think abt the state of hysteria me leigh and daph were in last night during 401 meeting. hahaha :P

to just be with you

time: 11.12am

18.10.08

How long will you let a situation sit until you decide that it has to be settle?

Sometimes the only way to remove uncertainties is to remove the ability to think and simply go with your feelings. Not the irrational impulsive kind of feeling, but the one that has been nudging you along all these days. The one you have grown confident to believe and trust in.

And more often than not, you need someone to reassure you. Cause no matter how brave you want to be, you know you cant do it alone.

Come what may. :)

cati madness

time:11.39pm

Its close to midnight and im hungry but just too lazy to get dinner. Or rather to cook my instant noodles. lol

Cati calling has been insane. 4 hours on the phone and only 5 surveys completed. You know, I swore it off when i did CR prac, and here i am, doing it again. Even more intensely this time. I can totally comprehend why pple will cheat doing this. But at the same time i realise that because pple may cheat, this makes it a very unreliable survey method! Unless of course, you are doing it yourself. Thank god for people doing this tgt with me. I think going thru the same things actually brings the class closer together. :)

Honestly really exhausted. Something is wrong when i start to skip meals. lol School is pretty much in a mess with my stats and projects all looming over my head. I need to stop and breathe....

And get started again.

((::: the week is almost done!

the family movie

time: 8.53pm

Today on my way back to hall, my mum was talking about something she saw on a hk drama series. In it, the actors were talking about how the life of a family is like a movie. And in this movie, the main characters are always the children. From childhood to teenagers and finally adults, it was always about them while the parents took back seat as supporting cast.

While parents seldom think twice about doing things for their children, children are full of complaints when they have to give up their time for their parents. While not all children are like that, I think everyone is in some way guilty of it. Of placing your parents in second place when it fits our interest.

"When you are a parent, you will understand"

That's what my mum told me. And after agreeing with her, I simply fell silent. Because the truth seldom has to be repeated. Even today, coming back to hall with me, my mum could have simply refused cause there was a show on TV she wanted to watch. When my dad reminded her of the show and I started apologising cause it didnt occur to me that she wanted to watch it, she simply said " Its ok, my daughter is more important than the show."

How often have I taken my parents for granted, angered them or shut them out of my life. Though I feel that I'm much better than before, but often I still need to remind myself. I couldn't be more grateful for a family as close as mine. Where there are no secrets and everyone shares. Why I want to go home every weekend is because of who's at home. I look forward to the little time I can spent with my brother, sitting on his bed talking to him, having his disturb me and my stuff toys. Dinners, where everyone sits together to eat, talk or just be in each other's presence. I used to lament the inquisitive nature of my mother, always asking who my friends were, who I went out with, what time I ended classes...but now, its second nature. Instead, I try to share with my mum what I have been up to, what may seem insignificant can still be told, cause its what makes up a conversation.

I try and I may not always succeed. By nature, I'm still someone who draws into my shell at times. But still, im thankful for the family i have. I guess when i see my family, it is exactly how I would want my own to be next time. (:

 

Its the end of another weekend. sigh. And i dont know how i will survive the following week, but i will!!!

Happy Children's Day!

time: 3.20pm

Happy Children's Day!

The only reason why we can stay at home on this day and not go school is because its Hari Raya. Still for a moment, let us pretend that its cause we are 10 year olds.

I remember how children day eve was. Teachers would give us little gifts of sweets, chocolates and pens. Some would give us present in forms of homework while others would write us little notes. Not one particular gift remains a vivid memory in my mind, but I know it was fun, being a kid.

Just the other day I was on the train and I heard this lower sec girl talking to her friend.

" My mum gives me $3 a day lor, then she wouldnt give me any lunch money on sats"

How much were you given when you were sec 1?

I honestly cant remember.  Haha But I know I was given a dollar back in primary school. every morning my mum would give me $1 worth of loose change(yes, that sounds damns little now. Imagine receiving 2 20 cents, 1 10 cent, 1 50 cent, and be asked to survive a day). I would put it into my little black clip coin purse and let it sink right to the bottom of my deep deep pinafore pocket.

Canteen food was cheap. Recess was short. Have you ever wondered why Singaporean tend to eat so quickly? We can finish a meal in under 30 mins. That's cause primary schools train us for it.

Recess time: 20 Mins

Bell rings, everyone runs down,*quick quick*, buy your food, sit down, eat, bring your bowl to the wash counter and put them in metal basins according to the store, recess ends.

Seriously. That's fast eating.

Until I was primary 4, I had to call home every time I wanted to drink a cold drink or eat ice cream. Talk about discipline. While I could have easily just done it behind my mum's back, the little angel(that disappeared with age) in me said otherwise. So I would spend 5 mins queuing for the phone with a 10 cent coin clutch in my hand, always a little nervous that my mum would say no and deprive me of my treat. That theoretically leaves me with 15 mins of recess. lol

I bet kids nowadays will just whip out handphones out of their pockets to call home.

I cant help thinking about primary school on this day. I miss the innocence of youth, but I dont think i will wan to relive it. Some things are meant to be left as memories and I think its always more fun to look forward. (: