bus and running noses

time: 4.09pm

i'm blogging now cause i'm sooooo sleepy. omg...i blame it on my running nose( that is torturing me btw). Waiting for my clothes to wash so that i can take them out, hang them and just fall asleep. Why not just sleep, wake up, then keep my clothes?

well..i dun like the tot of people taking out my clothes and then leaving them on top of the machine. haha call me anal, i will accept it. :P

Today as i was waiting for the shuttle bus to come, a 179 went by. I noticed the trail of liquid that it left dripping behind as it chugged down the road. What-on-earth-is-that? Have you ever noticed how the bus will always be leaking water from it's rear end? When i was a little girl, i used to think that it was petrol that was leaking thanks to the lousy construction of the bus or something. Then i would wonder "If i were to light up one end of the trail, would it catch fire, rush along the trail and end with a big bang?" hee.

SO what is it? I'm concluded that it's the water from the aircon. And i think i'm right. haha sorry if i appear ignorant, but well...i cant know EVERYTHING right? :P tell me if i'm wrong, anybody!

oh btw, watch phantom! Its the best musical ever! The sets are so elaborate, so colourful, so full of beautiful surprises. I do not know how talk about abt it without sounding like a rumbling fool. haha, but yar...go watch it. Words simply cannot justify the splendor and music.

I wish i could watch it again! :D :D :D

finally end of week x

I cant remember this is week what anymore.

haha..but i've survived yet another week. Pretty amazed that i'm standing after only a 1 hour nap last night. Didn't get to sleep cause of 816, but now that its over, lets just pray that it wouldn't turn out so bad.

hmm..i really should be going home. Meeting wee and xiu at chomp chomp later in the evening. But the air con in the LT feels so good..sitting at the last row, alone in silence, i just feel like sleeping. *ywans* confirm will fall asleep later in the bus/train. I hope i dun end up leaning on someone..so malu. -_-''

I remember once there was this lady who sat next to me in the bus. She kept leaning towards me as she nodded off into slumber. Not that i really mind, but her hair. OMG. it was so long and it just kept tickling my arm and leg. shit lar, all i could do was giggle through my whole bus ride. I also dun know what to do! ( though having a scissors at that point of time would be interesting...) I tried to nudge her discreetly, but when a girl needs her sleep, she has got to get it.

the time now is 352pm. i will leave this place when it hits 4pm. Then it will be home sweet home. It was a tough week, disturbing at times and if i needed an image to fit the overall mood of this week, it would be butterflies.

mid week crisis

time: 12.07pm

This week has been proving to be a challenge in so many way. Its wednesday and already i'm losing track of time.

going to make it through this week. come what may. and thanks daph for the sandwich this morning. though i couldn't finish it( you see, usually i eat only ONE slice of bread with ONE piece of ham and cheese.) :P somehow i dun think i would have been able to make it through this fews weeks without you, knowing that in those wee hours of the hours i'm not the only awake. Even if it means we have to work really hard, we will make it through in one piece k? :) sorry for all the ranting and raving you've been getting from me these few days. they have just been badddd....*hugs*

btw, i love this huggies ad. it rocks my world. plus, it puts the smile on my face. erm..though i think my window is to small to capture the clip fully. haha oh well..too bad.

exhausting weekend

Time: 11.13pm

i'm burning up in my room! oh man...if i say its hot, it really is, given that i am not one brought up in the luxary of sleeping in air con( yes, i must be a rare breed in this time and age)

trying to do 103, but the weather is awfully distracting! actually i haven't fully woken up from my nap. Had a exahusting weekend, nite cycling on friday night, poly interview on sat morning and HI in the afternoon. Thank godness HI session was exams for the students so i slept in the student lounge. I really knocked out, sleeping through all the laughter and screaming. Peter was really quite cute, he came all prepared for the test, having all the chinese zao ju written out for the open book portion. And telling me that his sister was the one who came up with all the sentences, he only did the english sentences. hee, kind of glad i'm beginning to catch his signs. :) but next week is the last lesson already. :( thats enough to make me feel sad.

anw i wanted to talk abt nite cycling. It was really a first for me and to say i wasn't exhausted by it would be a HUGE FAT LIE! haha i was so tired that after a while i didnt feel like doing much or saying much. just enjoyed looking around at the scenary. I passed so many familiar parts, places i love or have some form of attachment too.

1) Changi beach club
Somehow i think we ended up there cause of a wrong turn. But i have been there since young. My dad is a member there. yes dun ask me how come he chose such a ulu place. But over the years, the club has improved alot and now it has a fresh modern feel that still brings with it a tinge of nostalgia. It faces the sea and i love the lower deck, sitting at the chairs and just looking out at the sea.I would have really wanted to hold SP night there, but there just wasn't enough space to accomodate so many people. such a waste really!

2)Changi airport
We were along a road ( dun ask me the name, i suck at directions), that was just next to the runway of the airport. I LOVE AIRPORTS! :) It represents all that i love- holidays, new adventures, reunions...i know that it has all the goodbyes and farewells as well, but i dun think too much abt them. I just love the sense of anticipation and excitement that it brings with its air. Makes me feel like going on a holiday! something that i always feel like doing anyway. heehee

3) mountbatten road
I passes by SADeaf! haha as i cycled i thought that it was so ironical that i would be there in less than 9 hours. In the past half year, that place has become very special to me.

4) The highway leading to town
once again, i dun know what the damn highway is called. sighz. only know that that is my favouritest sight whenever i used to take 36 from vj to town. Overlooking the sea with the sky scrapers in the background. Seeing stadium waterfront and its 1 milion dollars apartments and the massive buildings that waits in slience, in awe of the night that craddles it to sleep.
After that we cycled down the river side to reach the esplanade. I had never been there before, but i loved the view!! By the time we reached there, it was already morning, but not yet working hours. The atmosphere was, gentle. and peaceful. now if only i could figure out how to get there again!!

All these thoughts running through my head the whole night, no wonder i was so tired. :) and now if only i can clear my head of some other thoughts as well...

right, nuff said. I so need to get back to my work! cheerio

shoo mosquitos!

time: 7.45pm

Tucked away in a the 4th floor of sci, i'm attempting to study my 105. I like studying in school. It quiet and tonight with the rain, its even better. :) My only issue are the mosquitos that squeeze into my jeans( dun ask me how they do it) and feed on me. >_<" evil things...I've always believed that blood type As are the primary victims of those blood suckers. Somehow i'm seldon proven wrong.

i got rid of my tagboard after all. hee, guess i dun think it will be of much use anyway. but jus, thanks for the first tag. hoho

right... i'm getting ready for my conversion to mugger mode. moo mooooo

blurp blurp

time: 930pm

I realise that it doesn't matter what my post title is for the entry, it doesn't show on the screen! Neither is there a display time. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

This weekend was one of the best this sem. I managed to sleep in, do things at my own time, talk to my family and had the whole sunday undisturbed! :D omg..yes yes yes!!

went swimming this afternoon. finally!!!! It was been ages since i last touch the pool. For all the wrinkly fingers and crowds, i still love the pool. The smell of chlorin even grows on you! i wanted a tan, a light brown one, but that would take more than just one swim. sadly i cant afford the time le. I was kind of afraid of the pool being crowded on a sunday afternoon. But it was fine. :) there were just some random xyz people swimming and a bunch of students having lessons.

I love to watch kids having swimming lessons. cause it makes me remember my own lessons back in hougang stadium. The instructor i saw today...

(boy swimming)
(his head under the water)
instructor: dun touch me, just swim!
(his head surfaces)
instructor: talkative ah
(head goes under again)
instructor: come on! thats it...pull and breathe
(head surfaces)
instructor: you only know how to talk, never swim properly... hai yar you!!

hahahha...the instructor super cute, took the chance of the boy swimming to scold him for talking so much just now. But i guess that how its works. He uses his voice to guide the boy, to assure him of his presence. I used to be like that back in primary school. When learning how to swim, i loved to know that my instructor was just a arm's length away from me. I needed him to eradicate my fears of drowning. To hear his voice, all hollow and airly, underwater. And when i finally reached the ending point, for him to grab my small arms and lift me out. Usually i would grab him, gasping for air, super grateful that its over. I even remember the smell from him, a distinct smell of chlorin and cigarette smoke.

I hate cigarette smoke, but that was part of a scent that a 10 year old me would remember. That would probably be the only time of my life where such a scent comforted me.

Another problem with young swimmers( as i can now say as a 20 year old) is that they dun know how to swim to avoid people! its like the only way they can swim is straight! Today as i was swimming i saw two kids heading my way...and they both refused to give me a little more space between them. In the end, i had to become as still as a log as they swam past me and pray real hard they wouldn't kick me!

must be the lack of exercise, i'm feeling quite tired now. back in hall and pleased at myself for washing the toilet. :) time to bathe.....

816 at 316

that really is the time now, 3.16am. wahaha..dun know if i can wake up on time tmr for classes since i wanted to start on my 104 now.

feebs is trying to fall asleep, but i think she is feeling a little uncomfortable. Hope she falls asleep soon, cause i'm sure she will wake up tmr feeling a little better. :)

i'm feeling kind of grateful right now.
grateful thats i made its through most of this week already.
grateful that its friday and i can go home soon.
grateful that i had a few fantastic moments this week despite all the stress
grateful that i can finally have a sunday to myself after so many months of work.

maybe reading someone's blog has helped to remind me of all those around me. I cannot imagine life without them, but then again, maybe 1 to 3 years ago, i would have never imagined a life with them. :) little blessings that comes when you least expect it. I'm met people within the last year who look set to change my life and i hope they go a long way with me too.

to 3 friends who have known me for a long long time and always see through me yet stick with me, i always miss them.

and of course the people who see me through my life- my family. have never been really good at words at home with them, but i couldn't ask for anything better. a mum who always cares and n worries, a dad who is soft behind a stern exterior( though i wish he could be abit less tense sometimes), and a brother who is like a best friend to me.

this is so mushy i think. :) but i know the few who are actually reading this wun mind. :) dun tell others about this blog k? haha i finally realise that i like it as it is, private.

I guess at 3.16am, i'm entitled to a little of this nonsense

alright, back to 104!

chicks are baby chickens

have i ever said this?

i hate it when guys refer to girls as "chicks"

cause the last time i checked, i didn't have feathers growing out of me.

Neither did any of my female friends.

lorenzo oil

watched this for 803 today. It was....sad. actually i don't really like to watch shows that stir up too much emotions, its so draining to make it through the movie

under normal circumstances i wouldn't pay to watch such a show. Its a story of two parent's struggle to save their son from ALD, a disease that supposedly had no cure( at that time) and would cause his brain to slowly waste away. he will become blind, deaf, mute, spastic and eventally die.

Its bad. To have to watch your child fall into pieces while you, you can do nothing to hold him together. You try to be strong, try to be supportive, try to be optimistic, then eventually you fall apart too. You realise that you arent actually trying to save your son, but trying to save yourself from the injustice served to you. It seems like a dead end, but you dun give up. You just dun believe that life can be that unfair

It was a powerful film. I"m not a parent, but its impact was not lost on me. The cinematic techinique for some scene were really so good too. But what i loved the most, was the ending. As the camera shot up on the renaissance paintings of where i presume to be in a church, a mother shares her hope for a child, before it fades into the voice of a child, the child who is now 14 and still living under the shadow of ALD.

(Michaela ) Papa called from Italy, darling.
He's missing his Lorenzacchiovery, very much. But he wants me to tell you he's making a big dinner tonight, a banquet of brain food for the cleverest doctors in the world who've gathered together to put the myelin back in the shaking puppy dogs.

And if they can achieve that, someday there might be a way to help all the people who've lost their myelin. Not only the boys with ALD, but the people with multiple sclerosis and many other diseases, Lorenzo.

And then think, my brave boy, if they can ever give you back your myelin, you'll be able to tell your brain to tell your toes, your fingers, your anything, to do what you want them to do.

(Lorenzo ) what I want them to do.

(both) And then, one day,...

(Lorenzo )I'll hear my voice...

and all these words I'm thinking will get outside my head.

fight club

Here is a quote i got off erwin's speech from fight club. I like it..

Tyler Durden: Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and i see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting table; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war..our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movi gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very very pissed off.

take a little trip around singapore town

at last! tonight i can finally start some work proper without feeling the drag from the day weighing me down.

Went to school in the morning for 106 meeting and intented to stay in school to study. BUT then...i suddenly saw shannon and caught a lift home from him. :D haha

actually i dun even know why i suggested going to school for project meeting when its mile away from home. then again, i've travelled so bloody much this week already!

on sunday night, i went back to hall since i was having a foc meeting in school the next day. Went for sup with daph but it was so funny! we decided after alot of hmmm-ing and hurr-ing to go to boon lay shopping centre area to eat the famous nasi lemak. so we rushed down to the interchange to catch one of the last few buses(240 i think), reached the place and happily trotted down to the stall and marvel at the growing queue.

then we decided not to eat after all.
cause she was full and i was too sick to be eating nasi lemak.

right. so we took a bus all the way back and ate at city harvest. cant believe we did that, but at least we know where to go the next time we have nasi lemak cravings!

on tues, i went from hall to kranji to collect new water. its the most ulu place really. we had to call for a cab for 30 mins before anyone was willing to pick us up. :( oh..but i saw something really different. see..we were along this long stretch of road that leads to god knows where, when suddenly the cars all halted and gates were lowered across the road. Then from a distance i saw smoke bellowing up into the sky, before a train choo- choo by the crossing. it was so old school! :)

when we finally caught a cab, we took it to serangoon, left the water at my house, then rushed down to east coast for the dry run of sparks. Luckily i went late, so i only had to try out some of the games. :P but i'm sure the guys are going to do a jolly good job on the day itself lar.

finally...after the dry run, some of us went down to paya leba to change the colour of the shirt for hi singapore. the change is drastic! from orange shirt and white words to brown shirt and dirty green words. haha i dun know how the rest of them are going to react to some so radical but i liked it!

then wed....( whew..i'm getting tired of typing already)

i started off my day at bugis for 104 project meeting. wanted to go nat lib. imagine mine excitement at stepping into the lib for the first time...only to find out that they were only to be opened at 2pm. x_x''...so....soo...soooo ....diao

anw we held our meeting at tcc while i satisfied my coffee cravings. guess what! one day after this meeting, i've already received a email from hui foon on her completed portion of the project! *screams* OMG....and i dun intent to hand up mine until next week leh...haha hope she dun mind. :P

after that went to lays house at chua chu kang area to bai fang! her house got so much things to eat! :D haha and she still give me a tub of pinapple tarts..so touched! *sniff* now i can bring them to hall to eat!

last stop of the day was hougang, where i met mins and christine for dinner. Its only during birthdays that we meet, but at least that acts as an excuse for our gatherings. Actually i use that excuse for alot of people. sometimes i wish i had more time for such things.

i wonder how many km i covered the last three days. I've been so shagged out by everything..and well.. a string of unbelievably bad results. but at least there is always one thing in a day to smile about lar.

i'm rambling on and on and i still haven't gotten my tag board up. should i just forget it? i dun think many people know of this anyway since i suck at publicity. but its nice to be able to ramble without having think that i'm saying toopid stuff. :D