delima sweet

p/s: second pic, cam mak nenek hoho~~ :D

manek chantek II

p/s : weekend jobs earn extra money.. :]

endorphins

beat my bad mindset...

badmood today~

beating a bad mood is not an easy feat...

but really the only person that i can you out of the bad mood is myrself!

but there's lots of things i can do to drag..

i out of the dark mood and into a more postive frame of mind..

penat sgt+stress eh..
nakk tidooo jar....

新少林寺 预告

Shaolin..sinopsis,

"tells the story of the famous monastery in China that is plunged into strife as feuding warlords try to expand their power by warring over neighboring lands. Fuelled by his success on the battlefield, young and arrogant warlord Hao Jie (Andy Lau) sneers at the Shaolin masters when he beats one of them in a duel. However, when he lost everything after a betrayal of his former second-in-command Cao Man (Nicholas Tse), Hao is forced to swallow his pride and take refuge with the monks. As the civil unrest spreads and more innocent people suffer, Hao and the Shaolin masters are forced to take a fiery stand against the evil warlords. Together they launch a daring plan of rescue and escape in order for justice to prevail and freedom to be achieved."

musti tonton..
The Shaolin battle begins 27 January 2011!

p/s : khamis neh half day lah hoho~~ :p

dear

it’s been almost...

since her dropped the bomb on me...

the thing is,

it wasn’t even really a mess up to the blog..

at least not to longger...

don’t have to actually have a relationship to be mess up with..

for the most part i had a wonderful day with her i cant' forget..

despite her strange,

withdrawn behavior for most of it after the first meet..

yet, her told me he had just started cried, and it wasn’t serious,

and the reason her acted how her did wasn’t anything i had done...

frankly,

i wasn’t hearing all of it at that point...

i was in the closest thing to a state of shock i had been in my entire life...

to make a long story short,

after sending her an almost-too-long massage..

telling her i wish told..

her also proceeded to theorize this misunderstanding...

was based on our difference in age and experience....

we both said we were fine with being ok,

but after that..

when i was working abroad in kuching and her in peninsular...

i thought this would make getting meet her easier and quicker,

but the only thing it did was take away the ability to see what her was doing..

and who we was conversing with,

which was probably still beneficial for me...

one of the worst things you can do after a studied,

berate yourself for things you realize you could have done differently...

but this is precisely what i did...

i asked myself over and over,

“why weren’t you stronger?

truth be told,

i was that men at first.

i didn’t want to be the stereotypical person who thinks...

but her was the one who seemed to be coming on pretty strong

and acting like we were actually nothing at all..

but,

after it all ended and found out the truth,

i felt like such an idiot,

and a total outcast from the rest of society...

we seem to live in such a casual,

i don’t really understand the movement...

in the end,

i think the focus is more on the benefits than the future..

and to answer the question,

because when it all first happened,

my emotions were definitely in it...

and i gave her way more credit than i deserves..

i apologized for not having been more upfront that..

i thought we were headed towards a relationship,

however,

this not about me not being “strong” or “smart” enough...

think the fact that i cared about what her and i had,

and that i fell ...

is a sign of my gratitude...

it’s clearly more of a risk to let your heart get involved than to remain unattached,

but i rather be like that than close myself off..

and look at a person as only an object of lust..

i think in my situation..

p/s: seeking advice on swimming lessons~~ :]

criminal mind

memang best eh...

tak tau bile orang kite boleh buat cite-cite bagus and berkualiti mcm ni...

cite die agak lain drpd ncis or other cite-cite kepolisian...

coz cite ni mengisahkan pasal 1 team khas dalam fbi,

behavioral analysis unit...

they will look for profiles of this pelaku-pelaku jenayah and match them dengan crimes punya modus..

team ni analyses ‘criminal mind’ and personality psychology...

rindu lak kuliah human behavior...dr sundramorthy..

sangat menarik..

and kite akan diajak berfikir sama...

so bkn utk fun semata-mata tp cite ni cite yang smart...

every plot ade suspens die..

dah bunyik mcm pengkritik filem pulak haha~~

kerana telah terbiasa

this little love not has no image....
it was a text message...
one that woke me up this morning for the dream.....
it is beautiful perhaps....
it should be shared...
sometimes i just love the simplicity of love..
plan for you..
lets spend our lives together and age..
but never get old~~

cool

pulang yuk

udah diomelin sama boss...

disuruh pulang heheheeh...

emang baek2 banget boss disini...

jam 16:56pm aja udah diingetin untuk pulang....

masalahnya,

banyak tim kita yang pada sakit...

hihihih takut pada sakit semua kali yaaa. udah eh~~

cik ketam

musim hujan lak..

pergi pasar malam kat rumah..

nampak ketam teringat nak masak lemak cili padi..

dah lama sangat tak buat....

ma sibuk manjang jer aihh..child abuse ni :D

maklumlah tak berapa makan pedas...

cili padi letak dua je hoho... :p

tapi disebabkan lidah ni lidah soft2 je heee......

sesekali tu jugak asingkan lauk pedas & xpedas ish2.......

ja-rum

long & away

all ways travel from langkawi...
the pain walks down a one way street...
i look above and i know i'll always be blessed..
chocolate...
i'm loving angels instead~~ :]

manek chantek

field visit II

farewell my friend

i donot remember how our friendship developed..

but i am certain it had something to do with...

common passions can bring two people together..

and unite them in a unique, on-line friendship..

saying goodbye to a dear friend is never easy..

but,

sometimes,

it's the only right thing to do for them...

ncis

sebenernya sih lagi males cerita ini itu panjang-panjang di blog...
cuma pengen berbagi kerja aja...
beberapa minggu ini..

as we know,
semua anak sekolah disibukkan sama liburan.
nah kalo malem-malem,
frustasi bingung harus ngapain...
akhirnya mentok-mentok ya nonton tb.
keseringan nonton CSI, Numbers, NCIS sama Bones...
membuat punya fantasi-fantasi yang kemungkinan besar sulit terwujud...

kebetulan waktu itu abis nonton NCIS yang Chimera.
nah waktu malemnya ga bisa tidur..
mimpi jadi bagian dari mereka wahaha..
dikejar-kejar, nembak, ditembak, hah pokoknya heboh :D
sampe ga bisa tidur semaleman...
nah bangun tidur baru berpikir,
ini kayaknya karna kebanyakan nonton film action deh.
sampe-sampe di perjalanan ke field besok paginya ketiduran.
my point is,

it's not good to be addicted to something. :p

lower the burden

2011...

ketika kita melakukan sesuatu...

dengan sepenuh hati maka hasilnya tidak akan mengecewakan..

a new year..

a new beginning...

a fresh start and change..

our things most and many people say...

thing is when it comes around...

it’s just the same old thing,

just a different day in a different year,
it's the holidays...

the pain then was unbearable...

i guess you could say that it has now become bearable. ..

that doesn't mean that i don't think...

and wish that things could have been hmm...

i can no longer handle the 6000 mile difference...

nothing has changed...

after everything that i happened..

i still think about the way it was in the beginning....

and even though it's moving on..

this doesn't mean that i won't still be here...

once the circumstances have changed

and the stars are finally aligned properly...

know that i think about what its happened...

741 miles

saat ada seorang teman yang diberi julukan “perhitungan”,

maka saya pun sedikit terpengaruh...

otak pun mencatatnya “minus”...

atau saat ada orang yang terlihat “garang”,

maka memori pun terpahat tentang orang tersebut...

ketemu seseorang yang terlihat sombong..

membuat saya sedikit menarik diri...

Rasulullah menganjurkan kita untuk memilih teman :

“Bila berteman dengan seorang pandai besi..

maka kita akan ikut terbakar..

bila kita berteman dengan seorang penjual minyak wangi..

maka kita pun akan tertular dengan keharumannya.."

p/s: at kuching airport in the morning,

with cik nad aka chuby wahaha~~ :D

life is a journey

i'm writing...
which may or may not mean anything at all...
but honestly that is beside the point...
writing this is more for my sake,
and pretty much has less to do with receiving it and more about me writing it..
you see i am a not good at not dealing with things...

i'm sure any could see that,
i'm not fooling anyone so i'm not going to fool myself...
i push all the hurts and the scars..
and the less than lovely things into deep recesses in my mind to forget about...
that is until something small and insignificant arises that reminds me..
of whatever it is tucked away into those neat little boxes in my mind..

turning me into a complete mess once again...
i can never move forward because of this...
once said wanted to see me fly...
in order to do that i have to deal with all the damn that's weighing me down..
and keeping my feet from leaving the ground..
i have the chance to be with someone good...

someone who is genuine..
and has the time and patience to deal with a person like me...
someone who i believe i can open up to...
and not use whatever i say against me...
i've realized that i need to learn to love the things that are good for me,
and her might very well be one of those things...

so in order to not mess up this beautiful opportunity for happiness,
i need to deal with us...
here i go...
i do not know why i feel attached to you...
it's not like we were together very long...
and it's not like we were even together....
maybe it was the first meet with you..
perhaps it was riding on a motorcycle for the first time...
or walking through the darkness to the waterfall...
or scooping me up in your arms and that first talked..
or maybe, just maybe..
it was the fact that i did not feel afraid at all with of...
you spent that whole day with me...

and in the weeks to come i would memorize the sound of you breathing...
don’t give a damn bout your foolness and impossible dream..
makes me laugh everytime so much with you...

mainly because i knew that's not what you said...
it was probably just gibberish,
but it made me wonder if perhaps i would want you to tell me those words in the future...
i never thought that we would top that first date...
and for a while we didn't come close...

but that doesn't really matter.
and all i can do is accept that...
is to be able to look back on everything objectively...
and remember the things i learned about myself...
and the things i learned about people...
and life without feeling the pain that goes a long with these kinds of things...

so finally,
this is me moving on..acece.. :p
this is me wishing well in whatever you pursue...
this is me wishing joy and happiness~~