Then let's talk about the weekend.. Err. I didn't do anything for Christmas k. That's like so sad right. Haha.. But I had to keep my parents happy.. Been going out so much.. Yeah. Just went out at night and had dinner.. Did some shopping then went home.

Sunday was boring too.. Went for church, then after that went buying groceries and stuff too. Then fetched bro back off to Tekong then went grandma's place. Went there to rot. Watch TV. Huh.

Monday.. Nothing in the day. Jack came over in the evening and he slacked around will I was practising.. Then had dinner then we went town with mom and Dad to see the lights!! Yeah. They're so nice really. Probably been taken down by now already.. So sad right. But yah lor. They're nice! Walked around with him and bought a nice Pooh Bear!! Hahaha! ;) If you don't want it I do k!!! =D

Then Jack had to go home and I met Jon and we walked around too. Bought ice cream.. Yeah. Just walk and talk cock lah. Then we met this conman trying to sell us these handphone chain thingys at 2 bucks a piece for "charity". Just waved him off. Then mom and dad called me so we left. Yep.

So I'm busy now, will catch up later, bye!

Heyyyloe evehreebohdee. =D

Really sorry k, to all my dear wonderful readers. Hee hee. But you see I've had quite a time from the last time I made myself sit down and type. Haha..

Funny, RC doesn't seem to be coming out.. Oh bother.

WED

Woke up and mugged (!!!) to make mom happy. Then after that went over to Christy's sister's friend's place. Hahaha!!! Such a distant connection!! And we were laughing about it.

"Hey Christy!!! What the hell am I going to tell my mom?!?! I'm going to my friend's sister's friend's house!!"

"Err.. Yeah."

-_-"

Ok. Haha. So we had a BBQ. And me benjamin, christine, sondra and francesca ( is that how you spell it?) were trying to light the fire against the raging wind. So irritatingg!! So I took out my umbrella and got christine to hold it to block the wind. Hahahaha! So funnae. I think Vanessa got a few shots of her. Hey, Van, if you're reading this can you send me the pics, please? Haha.. Were joking about Sondra's intelligence. =D

So then we got the fire starting. It was real fun actually. Fire's fun. =D Ok, I sound sadistic. But yah lah. To see your work pay off. It's really rewarding.. Hee. Pats chest. First time I did SOMETHING to help during a BBQ. Hee hee, and I'm pretty proud of it. I left the pit cuz I was getting bored. Talked with people and stuff. When the first batch of sausages came I didn't really trust them.. Haha.. So I told Sondra to eat one first and when she didn't die then I knew it'd be ok. =D

Then the fire went out again. And they employed yours truly once more. So ben and I got quite an ok one starting again. And they were calling scout boy. Hmph. What an insult!!! Hahaha! Yes, I got something against scouts. Cuz the scout trainer in my school is this wheezy old man who I really can't stand. Hee. Oh oh oh. You know one trick to get the coal burning is to take a satay stick and skewer a fire starter like a kebab then light it up and poke it under the coal. Cool rite! Ha!! Oh, which reminds me they were joking about the fire starters cuz of its brand. Ahem. Like. Whatever man!!

So I started cooking!! Haha.. For a while. And I think I did ok, okayyy!! Haha! Yep. But I quit the job some time after too. Eyes were pain from all the heat. Ate so much!! Was so full. Someone made a sparkler outta a marshmallow.. Ha.

Then Sondra and Christy had this wave of madness and decided to swim!! And the pool was already closed. But that didn't stop them. Haha.. Then Francesca got pushed in by Lawrence. Hee hee. We were lazing by the pool then the security gaurd came in and cleared us out. Oh man, we lied so bad. Said when we came in the gate was still open and all that. Security gaurds got pissed, some of us got pissed and we got chased out.

George came. So late!!! Haha.. He was wearing double layer. So Francesca coped one of his shirts. They pulled him into the ladies and stripped him lor. Like. Whatever...... "-_-" Security gaurds came again.

So we were about to clear out. And this group of people were hanging around. Ok, we'd been noticing these people all the way from the swimming thing. They were like looking at us, staring at us. And I heard one of them swear at us. I dunno why the hell they'd do that but I didn't wanna find out either. So then they really looked like they wanted a fight. And turned out that they did. We were about to leave when they confronted us and started. You know. The "pre-fights talk". They were talking Hokien so christy's sister's friend went up to them and started explaining.. Telling them not to fight lah, duh. I was really quite surprised they wanted a fight. There were 5 of them? Mostly scrawny people. And we had like. 8,9 guys? Mostly big and strong. Ruggers, track people that kinda thing. So yeah. Was surprised until I heard one of them talking on the phone about back up at a coffee shop nearby. Woah. Freaky.

Yeah, so we apologised and managed to get ourselves outta a reallyyy tight situation. I don't know what to say. I mean. It's something to be thankful about. You know I was quite appalled a few of us actually wanted to stay and fight. And that's like so. You know. Stupid. Fight? For what. So yeah. Vanessa gave me a lift home. On the car Glen and Cheong were talking about gangfights and stuff. Which really makes me wonder if Singapore's such a safe place after all.

THUR

Went out in the afternoon with the 6K people. Went cine. Met at the entrance and waited for latecomers. One of them being me. =D Then we went and bought tickets to kungfu hussle. It was quite a long while till the movie started so we, the guys, managed to lose the girls. Haha. We ran in the opposite direction!! So funny! Ha! We figured we'd have more fun by ourselves. =D Brings back all the memories of primary schooldays. Haha! =) You know, the Boys VS Girls thingy. =D Yep so Yijie and Zhaoying wanted lunch so we went to food court at the basement. They had Kuay Chap. I was full, so I just shared an ice kacang with Sean.

Then we went ezone. I think arcade's a real waste of money so just played one daytona game. Then it was time to go. So we went to the theatre. Bought nachos with cheese.

Movie was nice!! You guys really should go catch it if you haven't already. I felt it wasn't THAT funny. But the fighting parts are really very entertaining. Yep.

Came out of the cinema and found Lincoln and Koon yu. Another round of indecisiveness. Walked round and round orchard until we decided to go seoul garden. Went there and it was full. So we made a reservation. And waited. Then they called YiJie so we went in. Haha. My first time in seoul garden and it was nice!! A little ex though. Bro told me if we wanna eat this kinda thing should go marina bay. Ok. So yeah. Got burned ALOT. The darned oil. I still have one burn mark on my forearm. There was a shortage of spoons. And when we asked for a few, the waiter said, "We're still washing." -_-

So after that we walked out. The gals wanted to meet some friends so we just tagged along lor. In the end they couldn't fine them I think and we all went home. YouXin got lost. She had to go to somewhere near the Mobil at MGS, and she took the bus all the way to my place. Hahaha! So I just walked her back lah. Then in the end her cousins mom came out and gave me a lift from the Mobil. Ha.

Yep. Got home earlier than expected. Ok. Not that early, but still, mom was happy, and I guess I can live with that. ;)

FRI

Bro came back from army. Did nothing I think in the day. Then went to a christmas bash at my grandma's place. Pigged out again. Talked with cousins. Yep. The food was good!! Ha.. Then we went to church for midnight service. There wasn't enough space. So I left mom and bro and went outside to sit with Sarah, her sister, Joyce, her sister and Vanessa. Ok. So I wan't concentrating during the mass. We were just sms-ing and talking cock. Hahaha! So funny! Must have been one of the best masses I ever went to. =D Oh, the choir had a trumpet and that was quite cool lah. But the singing was.. Nvm.

Then after the mass David, Gillian, Nicholas Tan, Glen, Jeremy, Lawrence, Su Lin, Daryl, ShengXiang, Bro and I went to Cheong Chin Nam to have supper. No buses cuz it was like 1plus. So some people took cab and some took shengxiang and our car. So we went there. THEN. Daryl and SX left. So pang-seh. Urgh. Nvm. So then Su Lin felt like left out see. And she left too. Donald came. Ha. Had a murtabak and shared an ice kacang with dave. The kacang sucked. Haha, oh well. So we just sat there and talked cock lah. Then the rest took a cab home. Me bro and Donald walked. We walked Donald home, then went home ourselves. Bro ran cuz he needed the toilet bad. Hee hee. Played tricks on him. Took water and splashed it thru the window. He thought it was freaky until I told him it was me. =D

Reached home at 3. The latest I've ever been I think. Haha.. Crazy right. =D Slept at 5 cuz there were things I had to do. Everyday.

Wah. I've been typing so much!! Kk. I'll come back another time ok. Bye!!

Funny how the world works.

SARS, Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome for short, has claimed, what, two hundred odd lives? Ok, fine, let's make it three hundred. It's a world epidemic and millions of dollars has been pumped into security measures like airport temperature monitoring devices, quarantines, and countless other measures that suck at tax-payers' necks.

Then let's take a look at Aids. It's been one of the world's greatest killers, claiming 21.8 million lives so far, though most of them more or less deserved it, but still, they're.. Lives. And this number is increasing by, not thousands, not tens of thousands, but, brace yourself, MILLIONS. And what are governments around the planet doing? Cow turd, that's what.

And I haven't even brought in Cholera, Typhoid and, guess what folks, Leprosy. Yep people. The old bible killer is back. And I've got statistics to prove it.

Problem is politicians are just doing things to save their own asses. Aids. How's it going to spread to those apes on plush chairs? They're a bunch of impotent losers, what use is a hooker to them. Typhoid? The rosy spots on the unfortunate victim tell it all.

SARS? Ah. It can be waved off as a common attack of the flu. And nobody would ever notice. Until your lungs collapse and you face certain death. Wonderful. To top it off, you can pass it on to the fat, grouchy old boss reeking of cigar smoke without having you getting into bed with him. Now that's the perfect way of getting rid of those hypocritic decision makers isn't it.

Funny how the world works.

Finally its up!!! The song I'm so crazy about. I think it totally rocks. It's from Kermit the Frog in Sesame Street. Hee hee hee. But it really is niccceeeee!!! La la la!!

So today's gonna be boring. Will stay at home and make mom happy. Gonna go crazy tomorrow and Thursay!! Hee hee!

=)

Finally its up!!! The song I'm so crazy about. I think it totally rocks. It's from Kermit the Frog in Sesame Street. Hee hee hee. But it really is niccceeeee!!! La la la!!

So today's gonna be boring. Will stay at home and make mom happy. Gonna go crazy tomorrow and Thursay!! Hee hee!

=)

Another week come and gone.. School draws near.. The only good thing is the abolishment of the stupid gay short shorts that Chinese High is SOOOO famoud about. Gonna wear the HC uniform now. Cool. Too bad I can't use that word literally. The uniform's really quite hot. Oven. Oh wells. Better than shorts though.

Ok. So last week.. Nothing much. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, I more or less stayed at home.. Went out with my reduced family (brother in Tekong, remember?) here and there to eat, buy groceries and stuff. Then on Thursday I went Malaysia with mom. Quite cool.

We left in the afternoon about 1:30pm. Took 170 to the checkpoint. The Singapore one was ok. But the Malaysian one was TERRIBLE. The queue was SO long. Noticed a lotta idiots cutting the line. IDIOTS. If I were the people beside them I'd give them one nice hard kick in the shin. That'll teach them some basic manners.

Anyway after the emigration stuff me and mom went City Square. Ate lunch. Robin's Portugese Chicken. It's really good. Especially the sauce man. Yum! Just thinking bout it makes me hungry!!! Ahhhh!! Then we decided to split. Different interests. So we decided to meet at Popular after we'd been done with our stuff. So I walked around. Saw a lot of nice stuff around.. Nice shirts, nice pants, nice whatevers. But they weren't exactly cheap so I didn't buy anything. Proud of myself! Didn't spend a cent, oh yeah I spent twenty actually. On the toilet. Hahahaha!

So after that I met mom and she told me she'd been waiting for me for one and a half hours.. Hee hee. Pai sei. Really got a lot of things to see ok. And there was the arcade. Haha, over there I saw this yound malay kid thrashing everyone else in the game, and challengers kept coming until the poor boy couldn't take it anymore I think. Hahahaha! But he was like so pro. Haiya. Arcade's a waste of money to me cuz I keep losing... -_- Hee hee. Bought a couple of Christmas cards that I've yet to send out.. Haha..

Then we went to this coffeeshop for dinner. Ate hor fun. The tv was showing this WWE match between Kurt Angle and Eddie something-something. Finished before they'd beaten the pulp out of each other yet. Then we went seven11. I bought an ice cream, even though I was so full. But I really couldn't resist, hahahahaha. =P

So we went home. Emigration in Malaysia still as terrible. The officer was a grouchy toot. This old guy couldn't see the yellow line you're not supposed to step across.. And got sent to another queue.. Stupid lah, really. Waited for what seemed like hours for a bus.

Home.

Friday

Nothing much. Just went out in the late morning and bought my uniform!! Yay! Bought over-sized stuff. Hee hee, that's me man folks. Whee! 3 sets. Size 35 pants and 46 shirts. Call me fat, whatever!! Hee!

Went out for dinner at Beauty World.

Saturday

Woke up, practised then went for violin lesson. Whee. Then went out to buy groceries.. Went to Sim Lim and dad bought another Xdrum for himself.. Haha.. That's THREE players already.. Hahahaha. Was really full from lunch so didn't have dinner. Dad went to this coffee shop, and the tofu they selled had egg in it. I guess this marks the end of us going to that shop. Which is a blessing cuz the food there really sucks.

Sunday

Ah. Yesterday. Was shagged. Slept late, woke early. Went for mass in the morning. Choir was TERRIBLE. As usual lah, so I won't elaborate. Then we went out to buy stuff and flowers for the cemetery. I was carrying these huge bottles of berry juice and suddenly this small girl dashed in front of me and I hit her quite hard with the juice. Aiyo, so paisei!!! Eeks. Said sorry a lotta times.

Went home plopped on the sofa with the Hi-Fi set on and fell asleep.

Woke up, and called some p-school friends. Then had a little snack. Noodles my mom cooked. Then changed and left for the cemetery. Met up with all my maternal relatives. Haha.. It's so nice watching the little kids grow up.. As if I'm not considered a little kid as well, but you know what I mean.

Then after paying our respective respects, (hee hee) we came over to my house. Me and sylvester were made to carry stuff over to the function room. Yep. My best cousin of all time. Haha.. Still remember all the times we had. Woots. It's really great. Seeing him grow up with me.. The relationships and everything.. Yes. Wish I could give him something I had.. But nevermind.

Ate dinner, then me and sylvester came up to the house. We were talking about something private, and he wanted to use the comp. So then we came up.. Then not long later all the kids came up as well to watch Shrek. Hahaha! It's a really really really funny movie! Both movies! Hahahaha! And especially when you watch with the right people. I wish I had.

So then they left. I washed up and practised..

Today.

Woke up, practised. Then I just got back from viola lesson with Judy Tay. Hahaha.. She's a really fun woman man. Haha.. Before I came home I went Toa Payoh Central first.. Walked around the shops. Didn't find anything. Then I went coronation because its along the way home, and I had to change bus. So there I found a nice cute TY dog. Hahaha! So yep. It's wrapped up and beside my bed now.

Yup. So that's it. I'm gonna do other stuff now, tah tah!

Then let's talk bout after the concert..

Friday

Woke up early in the morning to send my brother off to Tekong. Yes, that is so cool. So now I have TWO whole rooms to myself. And that is absolutely fantastic cuz there're many things I can do now without him coming along and distracting me.. Not that I'm against him or anything.. But the presence of any human being would serve the same bane.

So yep. Went to this bus interchange which I can't remember.. All I know is that its off Pasir Ris. We went there to take a bus which would bring us to the ferry terminal which would bring us to Tekong. So at the interchange this officer mistook me for a recruit and told me to tuck in my shirt. Mom explained to him, and saved me from the humiliation. But my brother wasn't spared though.

Bus was crowded. Had to stand.

Watched kiasu Singaporeans rush to get on and off the bus as if there were no tomorrow. So irritating really. "Hellooo, uncle?! What's the bloody rush?!?!"

So we took the ferry. Dad felt sea sick. The exhaust stank. Left my water bottle on the boat and walked back to take it.

Then at camp we were separated. Family members and recruits. Had a tour around Tekong. The bunks, the recreation facilities, the hawker center, the canteen, the parade squares, obstacle courses. Also had a view of the equipment they'd be using, the rations. Then we had a briefing on what would happen to our dear NS men. Yup. They gave us lunch. Army food. It's not bad really. And quite alot too.

Back at mainland, we went buying groceries, and eating lunch again.. Ate jelly and chendol at Bedok Interchange hawker centre. Nice.

Saturday

Nothing much.. Just stayed home during the day.. Then in the evening went out to esplanade library to borrow DVDs. Got pirates of the carribean and The Eye. Nice movies. Finished off POTC on the day itself and TE last night.

Then we went for dinner.. And then went home.

Sunday

Dragged myself to mass in the afternoon. Sad to say but I've been wasting my darn time. Even one second of my life is precious. So please don't waste it. Wait a minute. Maybe it ain't such a waste after all. Nvm.

Then we went Bugis and ate lunch. Then we went Sim Lim. Looked around at MP3 players. Mom would get me one cuz I aced my physics really really badly. Yep. Fantastic. So we got me the same model as my bro. XDrum. Really cool. At first I wanted another model, but changed my mind in the end. Which is a good thing really, cuz XDrum really rocks.

Went home, dumped our groceries and went grandma's place. Whiled my time away there watching this Tiger Cup match. Then had dinner. By that time it was already 8:05. The church concert started at 8. But heck. So what if I'm late right. So what? Haha. So I walked. The whole darn way. Reached at 8:45. FORTY MINUTES. Wee.

Reached during the intermission. Which is a blessing cuz my late-coming was inconspicuous. Dave and the others were surprised. Haha. Haven't been mixing round with them lately. There're other things that draw me away.. Hahaha.

Yep. So I sat with Dave, Jeremy and Lawrence. Dave was sleeping, and me and Jeremy were cracking jokes at the *ahem* performance. Oh well. I was there for other reasons.. Things that may not take fruit now, but definitely will in the future.

Went for the reception. Talked with friends.. The usual lah. Then got a lift home from Jeremy's mom.

So that was last week folks. I needa go use the toilet now, so we'll talk another day.

HTML sucks.

The Rainbow Connection

Okay, so second day of camp started with me waking up late and rushing down to HC and ending up late in the end anyway. But they haven't started sectionals yet, so I guess its ok. Sectionals was.. Ok. Haha, what's there to say anyway?

Went sixth avenue for lunch. Ate the crispy prata! Really nice haha.. Actually I didn't eat at the coffee shop where they were selling. Bought the prata takeaway and went to another shop cuz the others wanted to go there. No space I think. Then when we got there me and Joyce realised to our respective horrors there weren't spoons and forks or any of the sort in our takeaways. So Joyce ate hers with her hands and I begged Bev to get me spoon and fork from one of the stalls. =D

She got me TWO spoons in the end. -_-' "In case I dropped one."

Spilled one nice big puddle of curry on the table which in turn spilled onto the floor near my sandals. So I think the curry stain's still there. Hee.

Oh, I ordered one egg and two kosong, but the uncle gave me one extra kosong! Haha! So I was really full. Then me and some others went to buy a slurpee. Stupid me bought a giant when I was already close to bursting. So I tried to drink as much as I could and passed my cup around for people to help. But by the time I reached HC, there was still about a third of the cup left. Nobody wanted. Even Ernie so I threw it into the bin.

Sigh. =( My poor unfinished slurpee. Hee hee.

Yeap then rehearsal lah. Nothing much to say about that. Just that every rehearsal was just so fun with Ernie's funny funny quips. Became the 'baby' of the orchestra. Come on!!!! I'm not all that young am I!!! Ha!

Went swimming with Teng and RuiLin. It was so funny I tell you. Both of them were squealing about the water being cold. Haha! Then they didn't want to swim but just wanted to slack at the pool. Then I had a cramp in my left leg. Then when it'd become okay, I had a cramp in my RIGHT leg a few minutes after. SO. STUPID. SO VIOLIST!!! Hahahaha! =D

Went for dinner after that at Cheong Chin Nam, Al-Azhar. Pigged out. ;P Teng bought another slurpee.

Day3

Well started off with a lesson so I skipped sectionals. Then ate Yong Chye chicken rice. Ernie told me he'd had that for 3 consecutive days already. Ha!

Then rehearsal. Didn't screw up fake as much anymore cuz I worked at it at home! Ha!

Oh, after rehearsal saw something. Won't say what here, but probably me and some other guy really understood what was truly happening. I'm really thankful to see something like that cuz it really taught me so much. And I'm going to need this knowledge next time. Yay!

9th december

Woke up and did some last minute practising, then went to HC, put my stuff, met Guan Wei and Herbert, then went Adam road for lunch with them, Yihan and Joanna. Wow. Adam road is ex man. Ate this bowl of prawn noodles for four bucks. Oh well. Shared an Ice-Kacang with Herbert and GuanWei. Nice!

Then we had rehearsal.

And then dinner. Yong Chye again! So it was Ernie's 4th consecutive day of YCCR.

Met friends, gave tickets. I think some people still haven't paid me yet cuz I'm missing a few bucks.. Hmm.
Haha!

So then we played the concert. And I think it was really great lah. I mean I don't mean just the sound. The spirit was great. I enjoyed all 3 rehearsals, and that lone sectionals. Really fun with all the people.. And I mean.. I had so much fun! And it's been a really great experience.. Getting to know such great people. Then after the concert, to see everyone just smiling like they haven't got a worry left in the world.. It's just such an amazing thing.

Took pictures. Didn't bring my camera cuz my bro was using it that night. But I'll get them lah. Joyce!! Give me!! Hahaha...

Smart me left the orch-room key in my bag which I'd given to mom and dad to bring home first. So I called them up and tehn dad came. Phew.

Went swensons at crown prince. Ate a giant earthquake with herbert, teng, ruilin and joanna. THREE sticky chewy chocolates!! Hahaha! Yay, niceee!!

Oh along the way me and Joanna were listening to the concert which Joyce recorded on her MD player. It was so nice!! Then at the Tchaikovsky Elegie where the violas break out in a scale passage solo.. It was so nice!!! Hahahaha! Then me and her were walking along to the tempo of the Finale so we were walking so FAST! Hahaha!

Oh, at Swensons.. We gave him his farewell gifts!! SO FUNNY!! Hahahaha! Ok. We bought him these China strings. And we took out the G. And put something ELSE inside. Oh my gosh!! Hahahaha! Me and Teng thought of it! Hahahha!!! So funnie really! Helped Ernie take a few photos of that moment when that THING was dangling from his hand! =D

Yeah, we bought him a fountain pen with his name engraved on it as well.

Went home in a taxi cuz it was twelve. Shaun left me behind!! ='( Hahaha!

Yeah. So that's the concert. I really loved it. And it's going to bring back so many happy memories.

I started watching Sesame Street again. It's from 12:30pm - 1:30pm every weekday on Kids Central. Call me childish, whatever. Just wanted to catch this certain character who I'm going to miss.

His name's Ernie.

Hmm.

China trip.

I dunno what to say, I've forgotten so much already!

Day1
Woke up and did some last minute packing. Then took a cab to Changi, sat around and ate breakfast at the Kopitiam outlet there. Ate prawn noodles! Ah, I actually remember!! Haha!!! And I was listening to Bruch Violin 1 G minor on my CD-player!! Haha!!

Got on the plane and got a window seat, yay! But. It was at the wing.. So half my vision was blocked by this white thing.. =S

Remember the last time I took a plane I was really scared.. I knew I was leaving behind a lotta stuff.. And I was so afraid that if something went wrong I wouldn't be able to do all those things that I wanted to do.. Love all those people I wanted to love..

But it didn't happen this time. =D

Yep, this time I sat on the plane and knew that nothing would happen. Heh. Don't I just rock.

Anyway we arrived in Hanoi. It was quite cool (as in, temperature) and I was quite surprised actually. Took a bus from the runway to the terminal. Then after the immigration, took a bus to China..

You're probably asking why I didn't fly straight to China. Well, all direct S'pore-China flights were cancelled. Why the hell that happened I don't know.

So anyhow. The bus journey was stuffy. The driver didn't turn up the aircon.. Looked out the window most of the time. It was quite cool lah. Seeing all those vast expanses of field. Tour guide told us Viet cars can't go above 60km/h.. Which is like.. SLOW. T_T Sigh!!!

Finally got to China and it was evening already. Went through the checkpoint. Emmigration there is really pathetic.. Took us 45minutes.. WALKED accross the border! It was quite cool, really. You know, and at that line, you can be in two countries at the same time!! Yep. Then took yet another bus to Ping Xiang I think. Dunno. Had dinner and bought some CDs.. Went hotel and slept.

Didn't sleep immediately though.

Day2.

Grrr. Ok look. I really can't remember!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is SOOOOO frustrating argh argh argh.

I think I went to this waterfall. And its the border between China and Vietnam. Think its the only big thing for the day. But the waterfall was really very nice. Then I think bout Singapore's largest "waterfall". -_-

Day3

Haiz its all a blank..

Ok. Let's just skip all the days. And just have absurds ok?

Bro bought this Spalding basketball. The idiot thought it was made of leather and paid 150 yuan for that piece of crap. 150 yuan is S$30 by the way. Yeah. So we found out in the end it's made of rubber. And we saw the same ball in another shop selling it for.. 80 yuan I think. He's pissed. Hee hee. And mom and dad haven't found out yet.. LOL. =D

Hmm there's this cave that we went to. And its really pretty, all the limestone stalactites and stalagmites. (Point to note : these are accurate spellings. I didn't fail my english) Yep. And they used really colourful lights to add to the effect. Really quite interesting. And there's this pool of water that's so still.. It reflects the cavern above so you actually think that its a drop down when its actually water, get me. Pretty.

This is getting boring.

Whatever lah. I don't wanna think bout this anymore.. Just wanna say that there was a lotta time wasted in this trip lah.. Going to some really loserfied tourist attractions that weren't the least bit intriguing and spending so much time on the bus my arse actually hurt.

So there.

Met a fellow Communist High junior. How cool is that! And his sis is in HC.

Whee.

Bought 2 new bags!! And tonnes of cds. Really prouda muhself!!

Ok. So lets jump all the way to camp.

So I came back on the 5th, sunday night. Practised. Can you believe it. I can't either. I think there's something wrong with me I'm turning into a geek!!! Aaaahh!!!

Missed Ernie's chamber concert. And so many other things lah. Bleah, can't be helped.

Heh. But I didn't have much of a choice.

Day1

Went to HC , and had this orientation treasure hunt thing. Got thrown in together with Shaun, Joanna, Renie and someone else I can't seem to remember. Sigh, how evil. But nvm. We managed to collect all the items and I (slaps chest) found Teng!! Hahahaha! So funny. Sneaked up behind him. Yep. We got a box of chocolates. Passed it to Shaun and I never heard of it ever again. Ahem Ahem. HAhahaha. Oh, and we had him do a pole dance with a bamboo pole. Funnae! Played charades and were coming up with really wacky ideas then Lau Wen Jin was complaining about coming out with something more intellectual. So he came out with the phrase "Green Vegetable". I mean. How intellectual is THAT?! Haha.

Oh oh oh. Then David Teng and Rui Ling collaborated this idea then they were like hugging each other and immediately half of us shouted 'Gay!!' Haha!! SO spastic! Turned out that it was "Friends of violists". Like, WHUTever!! Hahahaha!

Went for lunch at KAP. But me RuiLing and David decided to go Cold Storage and buy a whole chicken and share that instead. Much much cheaper. Bought 2litres of fruit juice as well. Haha! We were looking like savages tearing up the poor chicken. Hee!

Was waiting around for joyce and herbert with bev and joanna. Took so long! We were almost late! So we had to run from the bustop to the orch-room that's like all the way at the 4th level, then come back down again.. Pant pant.

Then rehearsal. Pretty much faked through it. Hahaha.. I mean. I haven't seen the pieces before!!! Gave out stuff I bought from China during the break.

When it'd all ended went to the bustop to wait for parents AND collect my violin. Ahaha AKA My Wife. Smiles.

Yeah, then went Bugis for dinner with my family.

K, I gotta go now. Continue next time ok.

I repeat,

I don't know where to start..

Sigh.

Ok, fine.

Takes a really deep breath

Let's see, Strings Camp.

1st day
Arrived in the orch-room and played some Polar Bear while waiting for the Sec4s to come. Wowee. BaoHe became the commando Polar Bear. Wahahaha. That first round was funny. Though I didn't join in. Then in the second game I joined in along with Goh, Lenard and Dun Jie. I was a villager. And so when Kevin, the narrator, told the Polar Bears to get up and kill someone, stupid me didn't catch it. Thought he meant 'everyone wake up'. So I woke up, saw the polar bears and was banished from the game for breaking the rules. Argh! Then in the 3rd round, I was the Witch-doctor!! And the stupid thing was this. I was the FIRST to get voted out. Again! Grrr. This is so pissing.. Hmpf. Nvm. Haha..

Then the sec4s came, we just had free time. They wanted to go bowling but I didn't. Ok. Speaking of bowling. I'll tell you guys this little secret of mine. The last time I bowled I was with my friends and this girl I fancied. So. You can imagine what happened. I never was good at bowling. My maximum score was always, what, 60 plus? Hahaha.. Yes. So you can tell how embarassed I was. And the thing is that she's PRO at it. Argh. Hahaha! Yes I can hear those sniggers!!! =P Tell ya this kinda thing will never happen again k!

So I didn't go. Wanted to play soccer but there was lightning. Goh coped some confiscated basket balls, soccer balls and a volleyball from the staff room! So cool! Haha! Now we have a few.. =D Played ping-pong. Played King. Guess I just suck at this game lah. Kena knocked out 'in-service' so many times! Funnae. Played. Don't laugh. Pokemon cards. Ok. I KNOW you're laughing out there!! Just keep it down will ya. But there was really nothing to do!! Excuses. Haha..

Had chicken rice for dinner. Was it Yong Chye? Don't know didn't ask. So I ate then we went to watch a movie in LT3. We had a choice of 3 movies. Scary Movie 3, Hero and (!!!) Finding Nemo. Naturally I managed to persuade the masses to watch the only movie I hadn't, SM3. Hee. ;) So it was a really great movie!! So funny in a lame way! But I thought there wasn't enough explicit material in it for it to be branded NC-16. Tsk tsk. Singapore censorship. But no I'm not about to launch into politics. It's not safe!! *Peers suspiciously left and right.

Ok so then I moved my stuff to the Tower Block and put my stuff in 3J along with the other sec3s. Sec4s exclusively had 3I all to themselves but it didn't matter in the end. Me and ZhenRong ended up playing King of Fighters on the classroom computer until 3am, then JunJie came and took over and we played Metal Slug and all those arcade games until 5.30. I know it was crazy but I hadn't planned to sleep anyway.

So I slept for 1 hr alongside WaiPeng. Actually I didn't intend to sleep. Wanted to listen to something on my CD-player but I fell asleep. Sigh. =(

Day2
Woke up brushed my teeth. Felt uncomfortable. Knew I was going to get sick.. But anyway we had a rehearsal. And then we had a gig. SO smart. Goh only told us of the gig like a few days before camp when we'd planned everything? But we didn't really have much of a chhoice did we. So after the gig, we went for a treasure hunt. Wasn't keen on it but I still went. And we'd found a few clues before I got sick. Really sick and it was scary. Cos I was under the burning. And it was really scorching I tell you. Everyone was sweating like mad, and I was DRY. No sweat. (no pun intended) Yeah. And I could feel this headache coming. And I felt so cold.. So my team and I decided to quit the game. They weren't keen on it either actually so they used me as an excuse. So I went back and slept. Woke up and drank some water they bought me and slept. Kept sleeping until I woke up at 8. They were having dinner and the headache had blown up. It was just so painful. I couldn't take it. Asked Ivan to help me get Panadol and I went to sleep. Woke up again because of the pain. Then Ivan came. Took 2 pills and went to sleep. Woke up and felt fine. Woah. Wonders of Panadol. Haha..

They were playing water bombs so I joined in after a while when I was sure I was ok. Haha, got 2 frags before I died. It was only a short while then we packed up. Bathed then Lenard, Joseph, Dun Jie and I walked to seven-11 at sixth avenue to eat cup-noodles cos we were hungry. I didn't eat dinner!! There were no buses cos it was mid-night. Oh, there was the 174 I think. But it had crazy charges, like. $2.40?! Crazy! Might as well take a cab. But we decided to walk. And walk we did. Bought and sat outside to eat. Crazy Joseph and Dun Jie bought Big-Gulps. Siao. I vowed never to drink soft-drinks in excess ever again cos I guess it was one of the factors that caused my illness. So we went back. And then played cards. Then just walked around with Dun Jie, Yuan Hao. Walked to the terraces and lay down and looked at stars. Made a bed with 9 tables in 3collumns and rows and slept. Yuan Hao on the left, Dun Jie on the right and me in the center. Who gives a shit about homosexuality.

Day3

Had another rehearsal and gig in the morning. Then went for a talk by John Sharpley in the auditorium. Heard his Zither Concerto and 2nd Symphony. And. Let's just say I don't really like contemporary unless they're really nice, shall we?

Slacked around and gave the sec4s their gifts then we and ZW went for viola lesson.

Shit.

Didn't practice.

Nvm. Its over and I hope I've learnt my lesson.

"But how I've taked you for granted words cannot express."

Then went back to the orchroom and had our first rehearsal with Chan Yoong Han. So cool! Yay, a competent conductor!! =) He really is good. =) =) =) Went through Mendelssohn 3rd symphony and Shostakovich C-minor quartet. He said it was good!!! Yay!

Had a lift home from Goh.

Maybe he's not so bad after all. I don't know. There are things he did well, even though there're many things he should have done better. Still. Maybe he'll be missed. But that's for the futrure to tell.

That's all for camp. I going out now, maybe I'll come back and give you more bout the China trip.

And The concert!!!

Really enjoyed that one. Probably the best I ever had. At least one of. Hmm. Thinking bout it. One the top 2. Yep. But it'll have to wait. Cya!!

Wish me luck in Life.

Oh my gosh.
I just don't know what to say.
The time draws near..
So close..
I can almost smell it.
And my heart beats in anticipation
For the moment I've waited for all my Life.

Thank you.
Nobody knows the great importance of these two words.
The meaning they imply.
Their power.
So I say it
Every chance I get.

Thank you.

You make me feel so special.
I never knew I was one
Of so few.
I never thought it'd be this way.
I never thought you'd permit me
Of all people
To enjoy this happiness.
Thank you.

But how people can just let go..
I just don't know why they let themselves do that.
Be deceived.
They don't know what
They're missing.
So much.

I hope..
That one day..
They'll come back.
Though its so unprobable..
I still hope.
Then we can be
What we should have been.

Hark.

The time draws near.

Thank you.

How do I type this its been so long..
So long..
There ain't no reincarnation.
So how long do you think was it that I last saw the sunset on a plane?
Or the flowers blooming in the winter?
Maybe you'll be a witness as well to the things I hold.
Nothing's impossible.
That's true.
To be pulled from a shit-hole and crowned a prince.
Sounds too good to be true don't it?
Like The Prince and The Pauper.
But it should be this way.

I always believed in love.
But I never knew love until you came along.
Filled my heart with warmth
That I never ever could get enough of.
Have I known you all my life?
Because you came to me all in a sudden.
I never thought I'd love you.
Until.

But how I've taked you for granted words cannot express.
How sorry I feel can't be either.
Language is so shallow.
Look into my heart and see
The willingness.
Because I can't say it.

Grace.
Showed me the things.
Like a star against the clouds that try to cover it.
It will always shine.
Though you may not see it.
It's there.

Wind.
It blows the dust and ashes away
Revealing the truths
Gleaming in the moonlight like gems from the deepest bowels of the earth.
And you covet them and hold them close to your heart.
Because these things matter most.
You cannot see the wind.
Nor do you know where it is going.
But you feel it.
And you know
It's there.

It's been a long time and I don't know where to start.
Hark.
Hades calls.
It draws me away.
I have to obey.
Until the day the firey gates are broken down and the evil released.
Then peace will come.
So shall happiness.
And love.

Love.
Do you know it by name?
Do not speak of it when you know it not.
Do not claim to believe in it when it is not in your heart.

The senseless thoughts of a vagabond.
I go where the wind takes me.
I go where the fire draws me.
And I shall do so with all that I am.

Timeless.

Goodbye.

Haha.. Im at the airport now.. Not much time left to go. Wahahaha.. Came back from camp and going off almost immediately. Hope I don't fall sick again like I did during camp.. But I'll elaborate later when im back. KK. Gtg!!

Heya, nothing much happened today.. Wanted to go out and catch The Incredibles with nick, lenard and deb today but things just cocked-up in the end. Slacked at home.... Camp tomorrow, I'd better go pack now.. Ahahahahaha. Then I wanna watch Passion of Christ!! Dad borrowed the DVD. Will have to go through some VERY important things first before I watch though. Ok. Bye then!!

SSSSSSSOOOOOOOOORRRRRRYYYYYYYYY! I know this is long way over due. But I just can't find the time lah! Sigh. Heart beating faster. Its coming!!!! The killer period.

Some things you just can't get enough of. Even when its so far away. You may try. But you know you'll just end up broken in the gutter in the end anyway, cuz its not meant to be. So why try? Yep. I'm quite clear on what's possible and what's not. Now. And I'm really glad for it.

Doesn't mean there isn't the longing though. Sometimes it just creeps into your head. And its such a wonderful fantasy that you can't bear to make it go away. But in the end, you still do cuz you know that's its not possible. It's quite... Morale deflating. Everytime you think you've got a grip, something just pops into your head. And there's no stopping it turning you into a gibbering lump of turd. But. Everytime that happens its a battle lost. Oh bother. And such real images are formed when I close my eyes. They've got to stop. This is the end. Really. I'm giving in.

To.

Snickers.

No, I don't mean chocolate.

Nvm.

Ahem. Now. Let's see a quick run through.

Tuesday

Ah. Sectionals. Slacked with the sec1s while Goh took the others. Ok. Talked to them about. Stuff. Important stuff. Hopes. Dreams. Aspirations. They've got it all and all that's left is the work.

Went coronation for lunch, and then Orchard to buy gifts for sec4s. Camp's coming. And the gifts thing is a tradition. Haha, brings back some memories. Last year we bought Shaun Ho this soft toy in a shape of a bomb, you know those kind which is this black ball with the fuse sticking out. Yep. And it had the text "Sex-Bomb" on it. Aha. Aha. Funny! Yep. Walkied around lah. Legs felt like breaking after.

Wednesday

First day of my scuba diving course. First part of the day was just a lecture on decompression and stuff like that. Haha. How to burst your lungs! And for some people, their brains, cuz the main composition is air. Haha! But. Anway. Yep. Facts were put forth in a very interesting manner. It had better man cuz I was feeling darn darn sleepy. Then in the late afternoon we dived! Aha! Cool right! So cool! But in the swimming pool though. Come on, its not like we can go dive in the sea or anything yet, cuz we don't have a licence. Yep. My partner was having problems with it. Not comfortable with "breathing underwater" I suppose. Understandable lah. Had a little of that feeling during the first few moments of my plunge.

Thursday

Second day of the course. Went to the hyperbaric centre along Orchard road. Had a look at the hyperbaric machine, or known to us as the "squasher". What it does is we put an unfortunate victim into the chamber, and watch as the machine pump in air, compressing it, and squeezing the life out of the guy. Aha! No, was kidding bout the "squeeze life" part. Yep. Anyway. When the air is compressed, every gulp of air you take contains more molecules of air. And they give you pure oxygen. So. With more oxygen, you get more respiration, which leads to a greater effectiveness in healing damaged cells. Yep. Quite cool isn't it. Like Wolverine. Haha! Oh, Kai Keat was the "victim" btw.

So we went orchard. To. Buy. Some. Ahahahahaha stuff. For. Mr Yap Yeong Keong. What is it and what its for is not for my disclosure. Yep guys I'm bound by oath. Or rather loyalty. Was reminded of things. Nvm. Just take it all and throw it out of the window. Lanned. Aha. Pats chest. Me. Top-frag. Ha!

Then rushed home, bathed ate and went for rehearsal. After rehearsal played a little ping-pong. Played the King. But we called it "Queen". Hahaha! Funny. Screwed up so much. Argh! Ha! =)

Friday

Rehearsal. Then finally went to Coronation to have my hair cut, then nothing much. Went home. To slack, duh.

Saturday

Went TO rehearsal. Then went home, practised and went for violin lesson. The whole day was playing, playing, playing.

Sunday

Went to Farrer market in the morning for breakfast, then went mass. Went home, slacked, went grandma's house, slacked. Watched My Sassy Girl. Its so S.A.D. Really. Sigh. Thinking of it, and it just wiped the smile of my face. Ok, the smile's back. Went Bugis for dinner.

You notice I've been rushing past the past few days. No time, mom naggin!

Today

Tiring day. Went for rehearsal in the morning. We were to have a gig in the evening, and we only started practising the pieces today! Wonderful organization on Goh's part, but no matter. Goh, brought his son, Titus! Haha! MY GOSH, HE IS SO CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE!!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaah! I wanna be a dad too! Aha.. Nvm. Yep. His eyes are so cute, my gosh my gosh my gosh. Can't believe his parentage. Aha..... So we were like, "teaching him new vocabulary". LOL!!!! (inside joke) Nvm. Heehee!

Yep at 12 we went for lunch. Some people went KAP, and another group went coronation. I joined the former. So we went. Ate. Sat. Talked. Laughed. Attempted exothermic reaction. Disgusting concoction. I was unlucky enough to have some of it spill on my hand TWICE! Went immediately both times to the toilet to wash off the disgusting thing.

Went back for another round of rehearsals, then when to set up stuff at the Oei Tiong Ham hall. Ok, the gig is for the art manga competition, and the Guest of Honour being Vivian Balakrishnan. Played while they were eating!!! Grrr. Oh, before us was the Wushu drums people. Noisy. And they've been repeating the rhythm over and over again for performances since goodness knows when.

Then ate the leftover buffet! Haha.. The ushers were so extra, didn't let us take from the VIP section. I mean, come on! It's LEFTOVERS!!!!

Then they were screening the preview of the movie "Casshern". Guys. The movie sucks. DONT WATCH IT. I gave you my warning. The visual effects is probably just some cheapskate flash 5. And everything in the movie just doesn't fit ok. Just. An under-funded production. Wasted my time.

So I guess I gotta go.

Yes. Leave everything behind, even myself. I don't matter anymore.

No, I'm not sad!

You know what? Today was absolutely awesome!!! If not for some things that really tarnished it.. But only for a while.

Ok. So in the morning, got woken up by dad cuz we were going to the Sheng Shiong at little India for breakfast. So I bought that breakfast set. And. I was trying to open this really stubborn half boiled egg when it just split open and flowed all over my tray. Urgh! So embarassing. And its not like I don't know how to open eggs! Looked like some parent-spoiled city kid. Which I think I quite am but not to that extent right?!?!

Then we went to this shop in China Town to buy some trousers for my China trip. Wowee. Bought 2 pairs. So cool. Then went to Clementi and bought another pair of track pants and this nice shirt. So cool! An extension of my wron-out wardrobe. Hee!

Came home and practiced a little then went for lesson.

Lesson was. Great! Haha. Like it has always been. Its such a pity. Such a pity its gonna end so soon.. Sigh. Yeap. Finally took a look at my Bach suite. And a little Sevcik. Then. Talk. Haha! That's what violists do best! Talk! Hahahaha! But not about crap though. Definitely. Yeah. And it was here where the day got tarnished. I mean.. It's quite disturbing, though I know I shouldn't be.. But. All the same. I never thought that things could be so serious. Been looking down on my adversary, and I've learnt my lesson.

But I got over it!

I'm talking bout the crap-feeling, not the lesson I learnt! Ha!

Then. Went. Holland Village, NYDC for dinner! Hahahaha! Yummy!! Ate the baked rice. It was so nice! Haha. And was so full after that. Yeap. Came home. Watched a little TV.. Slacked. =D

Under all that glittery smiles and cheerful laughter. I saw the backstabbing. Disgusting. Maybe it was just a false perception, but whatever it is. My guards are up. Don't ask. It could just be you.

Heyy! Hahaha! Feeling so light now!! Yep. Went crazy after friday. Went for rehearsal first. Ahahaha! Playing that 4th symphony noww.. Aiyo.. Those trills in the 3rd movement are like.. Ugh man. Oh welllll. So just sight-read my way through.. And. Goh. Is. Such. An. Idiot. Expects me to sight-read scores, look at the violin 1s and look at him and follow his wierd bowings at the samt time. Like. I'm not superman ok. Whatever lah.

Then I went out!! Hahaha! Everyone dao-ed me in the end lah.. Sigh. But its ok. Was walking around town most of the time. Doing nothing.. Just talking. Ahahahaha. But one thing I've learnt. From all the experience. It doesn't matter what you're doing, but rather, who you're with. And those people who you can just talk and talk and talk with until you run out of saliva.. Yeah.

And thanks for the ggggggggguuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!! =)

Then yesterday.. Oh, the TO lunch-time piece of cow-dung! Haha. Concert. Yeah. Played that pieces from the last out-reaching concert again. Sian lah. But. It was quite fun lah, cuz at least we weren't playing in some dingy lousy school hall this time. But in Victoria. So yeah. Like the resonance. It's fun. And I guess the concert didn't turn out so bad in the end cuz this time people took it seriously. Mmhmm mmhmm. And was having fun in the dressing room with Alphonsus, Daniel Seet, Zhi Xiang. And Daniel Lim. Stupid bugger. Spammed me. And kicked me in the future too. Ahahaha! (inside joke)

So I went home with Wen Yi cuz both of us couldn't get a lift. Hoiii!! Tag meeeee if you're reading this ok!!!

Had a ACJC combined with ACSI and MGS concert.

Went out again and met Zhao Han at coronation, and horrors! The flower shop wasn't open!!! Aah! I was wracking my brains. Where to find? Where to find? Where to find? Then I remembered!! Cold Storage!!! So took a bus. Thought it was the one at KAP. But then suddenly I remembered its the one at 6th avenue!!! And when I did, 6th ave was the next stop so just pressed the bell in time. PHEW. Went. Bought a nice little bouquet. Hey, it's really nice and really cheap ok. 8 bucks. So then I was examining those nice red things. And I realised there were too many leaves. So I unwrapped the thing, and started plucking them out. Both of us got pricked a couple of times. Those thorns are devilish man. Then we went back into CS and asked the nice kind lady to wrap it up for us again. Yay!! And this time she wrapped it up really nicely. The only down thing was the cotton wool at the bottom that was like, this one big bulge. No worries! I just flipped the bouquet over nad dumped out the water. So then it looked like a handle. So cool ok!! Totally rocked.

Walked to the main road again and just hopped on the 74 just in time. Took to ACJC. And it was pouring at that time. Didn't wanna get those precious delicate things wet. So took a cab. Waste of money, but oh well. Then on the cab. Horrors!! I left my wallet on the bus!!! So dropped mr ZH in ACJC and told the driver to go to Buona Vista bus terminal. Went to the driver's depot and asked them to open the bus for me. And. Wow. Found my dear nice wallet back!!!! Yayyyy! I rock! So walked back to AC. And got there LATE. Missed the Chans' Bach Double Violin Concerto!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!! Crap on my pants man! Sigh.. So sad k. I got there at the 2nd movement. So just watched at the door. Sigh. At least it's better than nothing. They're good man. Sigh.

Got in at the 'intermission'.

You know I left my ticket at home. But they still let me in anyway in the end lah. So yep. The concert was free anyway.

Then watched Claire De Lune and Tchaikovsky Serenade. Ouch man. Wasn't too good.. The harp part on the Debussy was played with a synthesizer. But anyway. They only had 1 and a half days of rehearsal?! So I guess its really good already.

After the concert. Oh wow. So fun ok! To watch. Had to Crack my brains to get around.. But it was a success in the end! YesYesYes. Guys. I. Just. Rock. Hahahaha! Met Zheng Hao!! Haha.. Long time no see.

Wanted to hang out so just followed the AC and MG people to KAP. I was hungry. Didn't have dinner. So ate. And talked lah. Rather. Watched people talk and scream and laugh. Hahaha.. Daniel Seet was muttering something about sanity. =D

Yep. So I came home. And slept early. Tired. Parents are pissed for my bill. Sigh.

Oh well.

I still rock. =D

"Five Colours In Her Hair"

Do do do do do doo [x3]

She's got a lip ring and 5 colours in her hair,
Not into fashion but I love the clothes she wears,
Her tattoo's always hidden by her underwear.
She don't care.

Everybody wants to know her name,
I threw a house party and she came
Everyone asked me
Who the hell is she?
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.

She's just a loner with a sexy attitude,
I'd like to phone her cos she puts me in the mood.
The rumours spreading now that she cooks in the nude.
But she don't care, she don't care.

Everybody wants to know her name,
How does she cope with her new found fame?
Everyone asks me,
Who the hell is she?
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.

She was all I thought about,
The girl I couldn't live without.
But then she went insane,
She couldn't take the fame
She said I was to blame
She'd had enough
And shaved five colours off
And now she's just a weirdo with no name.

Everybody wants to know her name.
How does she cope with her new found fame?
Everyone asks me,
Who the hell is she,
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.

Do do do do do doo [x3]


Judgement has come!!! Yeah, wish me luck everyone!!! Hahahaha... Yeah. Listening to this really really really upbeat song!!! Hahahaha! Yeap. Gonna sleep. Then tomorrow. Gonna cheeeeeeeeeeeeeooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Am I crazy?

I'm a weirdo with five colours in muh hair!!!!

Many people've been asking me.. Who i'm scolding.. Asking me to cheer up.

Well.. How can I say. I can't. Cuz. I don't want to say anything here bout anyone. So why do people so persistently bug me? Well.. Is it because you're afraid I'm referring to you? Only thieves are guilty of stealing. So. If you aren't guilty. Then you don't have to worry.

But if you are.

Haha.

I don't care lah. Once I've said it its over. And it's only a matter of time before things like this get forgotten. I haven't held a grudge for a very long time.

And like I've said. I'm perfectly happy. Every moment where I'm not feeling that.. Is a battle lost for me. But I win this 'battle' most of the time anyway.

Yes. 2 days. Can feel the rush of blood. It's coming. Oh yeah. Wheeeyahahah!!

You know what. I'm feeling a little hungry. Oh wells!

On the day it all began,
My heart leapt high, the church bells rang.
I fell on knees and wept in prayer
To the ruler of the kingdom air.

I lived in chaos, I did not know
The seeds of destruction I tried to sow.
But now its come all cheery wild
I finally have become a child.

Now to you who sob and wail.
Remember that path, the devil’s trail?
Why descend to sorrow and woe,
When salvation you already know?

With this in mind, fear not, heed not
The woes of Earth, the Flood and Drought.
Why let these insignificant things lay bare
Your heart and soul to Satan’s lair?

For what is in you is more than love
That mortals seek and understand.
For it come from the highest place above
Only to men who are in the Plan.

And as for me I have realised
All the things which are my prize.
And nothing else can be compared
To the joy and peace I’ll one day share.

So I let go of all things weak.
The extra coin, staff, tunic.
In favour of the work I’m meant.
It had to end, it had to end..

So if you're lonely,
You know I'm here waiting for you..

Blah blah. Eh, what's the title of that song arh? Artist? Someone tell me pleeeeeeease! It's stuck in my head now and it won't go away.. So I'm singing those 2 lines over and over again.. Ahahaha..

YES. MY (note the caps lock) viola section. I repeat the 'MY'. It belongs to ME! Hahahahaha! Yeah! So.. I miss you guys! Haven't been going to rehearsals and sectionals cuz I'm grounded.. But I'll Come Home Soon! Hahaha!

I think I'm falling down,
Down down down.
With a bad case of love,
Love love love.
I think I'm falling for you,
You you you.
I think
I'm falling in love!

With you guys! Hahaha! Hmm. Actually I think I already have, hahaha! And, no, it's just a figure of speech. I'm definitely, 100% not gay.

I think.

Wahahaha, JUST KIDDING!!

You guys remember that time I started screaming at you to "bloody set up your stands in 30seconds or I'll make you do friggin 50 squats each"? Hahaha! I was just kidding lah. Just needed to get your attention and stop wasting time.. Really need all your cooperation then we can thrash all the other sections again, alright? Yeah, viola power! You guys gotta be proud of your instruments!

Hey, if I really meant what I said you guys would have done the squats cuz you took more than 30 secs! ;) Lalala.

Hmm. Second post in a day, whee!

Lesson today was.. Hmm. No technical stuff lah, just. How you say. Theory? Ha!

Viola..

What? The reception here sucks, I can't hear you. Bye.

Haha, perfect way to end a conversation. Hee! Learnt that from this really nice person. You know who you are. Smiles.

Ok.. That's enough. Hope I haven't done damage.. To.. Myself lah, really. Ok ok. That was the last time you'd see something like that.. For a couple of months? Maybe a year? I don't know. I'll see how I'm led. Have to protect..

Shut my doors.

And.. People have been asking me to cheer up and all that, but I really am ok. Promised a certain Someone I'd say this on my next entry: I'm a perfectly happy person.

There may be glitches here and there. But that's because of the past.. And. Whatever. Because like, I said, I'm not supposed to say anything right? Haha! So whatever I say, whatever I've told to those people I've opened up a little bit to these past few months? Ignore me, cuz I could have been talking pure cock. And I'm sorry bout that.. I was just too eager.

Nevermind. I've really gotta stop. Just wanna let you all know..

Countdown.. 4 days left.

Counting.

Guys.. Don't assume anything.. Bout what I write here? Cuz it'd only mislead you.. And yeah. I've got quite a complicated life. So things that may not be what they seem.

And.

I'm not what I seem anyway.

Impish grin.

;)

Crap!! Tag-board's down AGAIN!! So shitty! Hahaha..

Yes. I have decided not not not to use the word 'damn' anymore. Just realised its severity.. Guys, if I ever use it remind me ok? Haha, thanks!

Hmm.. Can only feel all the insults to injury.. Don't think I can't hear the mockery going on behind my back.. The Gleeful smiles as I fall. I'll be back. I promise you. It's so unfair how God deals some people such a great hand of cards.. So. Totally. Unstoppable. And.. They don't deserve it. But noooo.. I won't give up. I may not hold the trump card.. But I'll just keep on going. You won't win again.

Psalm 70

Hasten, O God, to save me;
O Lord, come quickly to help me.
May those who seek my life
be put to shame and confusion;
may all who desire my ruin
be turned back in disgrace.
May those who say to me, "Aha!
Aha!"
turn back because of their shame.
But may all who seek you;
rejoice and be glad in you;
may those who love your slavation
always say,
"Let God be exalted!"
Yet I am poor and needy;
come quickly to me, O God.
You are my help and my deliverer;
O Lord, do not delay.

I don't want a mere MP3 player. I want one with FM!! Haha! Rocks man. Music rocks.

7 days left then I'll go wild. Haha. Reeeaalllyy wild. Maybe I'll go get a nose-ring. Nonononono. Kidding!

You know what. I got pissed. Real pissed. Last night. When I found out more about things. Got to know who people really are. How they lied and cheated. For what, I don't know. I was friggin played ok. Like another one of those mediacorp studios crap serials.. Totally totally bogus. And I never knew. Never. Never expected. Never. And to think all that effort. Everything I put inside. Physically. Mentally. Darn it. Even spiritually. To think. To think I'm actually the one being blamed? For so-called, committing the exact mistake that you did as well, when I NEVER did. Screw. Have I every right to get pissed? I ask you. And to even think. That I took the blame on my own accord. And perhaps I still do.

So then this morning woke up feeling pissed again. Then I talked to Someone. And.. My goodness. Answers just came flowing in.

"Have I not done enough? Why do things turn out this way after all I've given?"

"Whatever man does is not enough. Philosphies and morals are nothing."

"Why can't I get over it?"

"You lack the faith."

"How do I gain it?"

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

I finally understand. I do I do I do. Not how the world understands.. But the Spirit.

I thank Thee.

Go. Fly away. Please refrain from returning.

Eeeeeeeeeeee! I want an MP3 playerrrrrr!! Ahaha.. Nvm.

Random thoughts.

Raah. Burned. Night escapades with the nice black thing and sheets of paper are killing me. When can I stop hiding. I. Don't. Know. (In a sing-song voice). Ahahaha. At least I know I'm NOT ALONE. Yep. My nice little army.

Mmhmm. Ok. Shall stop. Right.

Here.

Lalala.

Erm.

Do I sound crazy.

Nvm lah.

Haha!

If I claim it doesn’t matter, why do I still feel it? It’s not searing anymore.. Just that dull throbbing. Like when you have a headache. Sometimes I even forget about it. But that doesn’t mean that it’s not there. Bah. Who cares. At least I know I shouldn’t.
Hmm. 4 down, 6 to go. I look forward to it everytime.. Just don’t want such things to end.. And I can just go on and on and on without a sense of time, because nothing else matters as much as this. We’ll grow, all of us. And we’ll pass it on whenever we can. This I promise you.

1. I suck
2. I suck
3. I suck
4. I suck
5. I suck
6. I suck
7. I suck

Take that and multiply by 7(n) where n = infinity, and you've got yours truly.

And that's an understatement.

But I'm not gonna give up. I'm gonna be another Matthew Sng.

The trek yesterday killed my feet man!! From Bukit Timah to Mandai Zoo.. Damn far. In the rain. And my shoes were too small for me, and the soles were way too thin. Feet really hurt a lot.. Was walking into Bukit Timah, from my house!!! Haha! I live so close to it. Yeah, then saw a group of friends pon-ing!!! Won't name who here, though they're probably found out already, but it wouldn't be very nice. Yep, so they told me to pon with them, but I thought against it cuz I'm a good boy!! Haha! =P

So we hiked.. Everybody was taking out umbrellas and raincoats. I took out mine only when we got to an open space for a break. Otherwise I'd get totally drenched. Before that open space right, there was this really really really slippery slope and it claimed a lotta fallen victims. Haha! Wei Xiang was carrying my bag for me cuz I let him have the umbrella then he fell, but managed to save my bag in time.. Just a small patch of mud, so its quite ok. I rock k, no other part of my body except my feet touched the ground. Yeah! Oh, and my hands to pick up fallen stuff sometimes. Was coping fox sweets off Bing Cheng! Then I saw them take the wrapper and try to whistle with it. And I took and blew really loud!! My ears were ringing.. Yeah, then they started asking me how to blow that loud, so I told them. It's quite easy I guess. Just hold the wrapper taught and not too long, so there's a higher frequency.. All the physics. Yep. Then after that we started to blow with our hands!! You know how you cup your hands together, like you're praying, then leave a hole between your thumbs and blow. Haha! Then we started to blow songs.. Heineken advertisement.. School songs.. Haha! So lame! Had another stop under a flyover. There were these holes in the soil and Mr Tan said that it's probably and-lions. Somebody brought Pringles. Guess I don't have to elaborate on this part. =)

Oh. Rui Hong was really sway. Think he and Nigel were scuffling for and umbrella.. Then I think it gashed his temple. Blood. A lot. Ouch. But he's ok. Saw him today.

Reached the zoo and ate at KFC. Was really hungry! We were quite pissed for walking all the way into the zoo from Mandai Road, cuz we'd have to back-track out to take bus. But it was worth it I guess, cuz of the food and the toilet! Haha! After eating, changed, sprayed some cologne cuz I really stank, and went Cine!! Haha! Played pool! Really fun! And they were playing really nice songs like Maroon 5 and I started 'dancing' and looking lame! Haha! Hyper what. Then played some lan. CS. Then came home..

Fell asleep reading the Louis Cha. Haha. Mom told me she had to pry the book from my hands and put my phone on the sideboard. Sorry for not replying!!

Then TWOday. Haha!

Went to school, had assembly.. Cleaned the classroom. Rather. Other people were cleaning, me and Yong Keong ran off to a corner and played chess! Ha! Aiya. I'm SO careless. Sighness. Then when Shieh asked us where we were, I said toilet. Haha! I'm evil! Had to carry some extra tables away the drama centre in the end though. Far! Heavy!

Then slacked around at the 2nd level of KK Hall wiating for rehearsal. Played chapteh and cooled off at the LT4. They were repairing some IT equipment so they left the air con on. Then sat down and started crapping round. Talking cock. Then waited ALL the way to 2pm, then Calvin called Goh, and Goh said that there's NO practice cuz of staff dinner! Whatever!! Idiot!! I'm looking forward to next year man.. Ha..

Had nothing to do so went to play ping pong with orch guys. Played until 6 then Zheng Wei fetched me home again. That's 3 times in a week! Haha! Yayyy! I'm quite surprised my ping-pong's not all that BAD. Still quite ok lah.. Maybe I'm just tyco today. Ha!

Yep. So I gotta go. It's been a long time. About the Ashlee Simpson song.. I put it there cuz I really fell so fast. For the greatest love ever. 15 years of reckless living. Over after 50 minutes. Wish it'd been sooner. Then there're so many things that wouldn't have happened.. So many that would have. But. I'm still lucky. Daarn darn darn lucky lucky lucky. So yep I'm thankful. Cuz nothing, nothing can ever get me down now. NOTHING! Wahahahahha! This rocks! Really.

How people can be so cold after everything.. I don't get it. Why? I mean. There's no need for it, right? There's no need for all the ice.. All the bad words behind my back.. The exaggerations.. I've experienced what you can do.. And I feel it now. Maybe it's just false premonition. But I hear. The slander. The mocking laughter alongside. And I see. Those contemptous looks. I've got nothing to hide behind cuz I never realised that one day I'd have to. Oh yes. I have one thing. And I wanna share it soon.

But not yet.

I'm haven't reached there yet.

Haha. That's over. So. Actually I'm feeling quite hyper!!

ASHLEE SIMPSON - Pieces Of Me

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care
When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy it's a mission
And you won't stop til I'm there
Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

[Chorus:]Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tellOhhhhhI love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

Yeah!! Haha! Stuck in me now. Ok, I taaaaake it aaaaallllllllll back! Everything I said bout Ortus Carnival. Cuz it really. Rawked. Haha! Sigh!! Feel quite bad about it. But. Raaah!!!! It was damn fun!!

(Haha. Yeah. That's another thing. So many things I've said.. That I shouldn't have. Wish I never ever did. So. For those I've hurt, those I'm hurting, and those I'm gonna hurt in the future. Just come up to me and slap me round the face k. I.. Donno what to say, really.)

At first was slacking around.. Then cooked some of the Campbell soup. One batch. That was quite fun. Then I went down to the DJ bench, and became one!! Hell yeah!! Damn fun! Played all the really reallayy niceee songs! Was screwing up with the equipment a little while at first, then got the hang of it, and got Tristan's and Edward's trust, then fun time!! Woohoo! Yuppo. But it's a really busy job. Gotta take care of all the dedications.. Locate the songs.. Line them up.. Find new songs.. Tough! But handled it pretty well I guess. Sweet! I only spent $1!! Haha! Cuz there was the compulsory $2 coupon.. Then got another free extra one from nick, and bought got another $1. So. Actually I spent $5 lah. But paid only 1!! =P Spent all of it on ice-cream and the soup, cuz I cooked ittt!!!

Sigh. But got pissed off today by that damn teacher lah.. Dunno what's his problem. I turned up for games day, had witnesses, and he even TALKED to me on that day. Then because the faggot secretary incompetently failed to mark my attendence, I kena. Fine whatever. I'm not gonna dwell on this. Cuz if I do, I know I can get him screwed upside down cuz of all my alibi. Idiot. One day.. One day I'm gonna come back and take it out man. Maybe.

But I'll tolerate. Tolerate. "REN"

Eh, bloody shit!! I was there for Games Day lor!! Double yoo tee eff!! Screw man. Seriously lah. It’s like so many people can be my ailibi lah. And that son-of-a-bitch Tan bloody saw me there lah. Idiot leh. Just making things hard for me after 2 bloody years.

Bastard.

Anyway. Was pissed with myself yesterday lah!! Really pissed off. I don’t know how sometimes I can be just so ungrateful. I really must try to get rid of the past.. Even today. Somehow. I just let my feelings wash over me.. Felt paralyzed. Had to dig up so much effort to turn, and make it go away.. Sigh. I need the help.. Please.

Ortus Carnival is a bunch of bullshit, really. Ong didn’t even consult us before organizing this crap. And we’re stuck with it. We set up stalls with OUR money, and we GIVE away the income. Totally sick. I have resolved not to spend a single cent except the compulsory 2 bucks on the goddam thing. It’s really lame lah. I mean a sane person would foresee that the whole thing’s gonna be a darn flop. Nobody’s gonna entertain us lah. I’ll bet on that. Haha!

Which reminds me. Sectionals today was a darn flop too. Won’t go into details. But it’s the usual lah. Just all talk cock and no work done. Cracking really ahem jokes and I’m quite appalled.. Bleaurgh. It’s gotta stop, argh. Time to undo what I’ve woven.

I don’t quite get it. So now after all that I’ve done, all the effort I’ve put in, I’m just an idiot lah. Cuz I’m always the one at fault right? I’m not asking noone to share the blame. All I’m saying is that please don’t take it out on me, cuz I’m not doing that to you. I. Have. Never.

Ever.

Leave it, no more.

In the heat of
Summer Sunshine
I miss you, like nobody else
In the heat of
Summer Sunshine
Blah blah blah.

Hahahaha! That's all the lyrics to the song that I remember. It's stuck in my head now!!
So nice! I'm gonna be a Corrs fan!! Hahaha.. Last time I heard it was last last Sunday! Then me and david were trying to sing. Guess it turned out terribly. But oh well. We're not chao akuas ok!! Hee! It's still here.

Hmm hmm hmm. Where do I start? Haha! I don't have much time cuz I wanna sleep! Hmm. Sunday.. Nothing much lah. Went for the first church emsemble rehearsal.. It was crap. Ten times worse than TO.. Bleah.. And its like.. Sigh. I wanna quit. The concert clashes with my other one anyway.. Dunno. This is something I'll have to pray about..

Then came home and finished off 'AK'! Haha! It's not really that fantastic a book. But it sounded interesting. And I didn't wanna leave it half-read so I sped-read through.. Ok lah.. So so. Shallow use of language.

Today.. Bleah. Had this really dumb course on 'Personal Grooming'?!?!! Like whut da hell. I don't need nobody to teach me that buncha crap. And half the time we were talking bout color schemes.. Such mundane stuff. Boring. Slept. Snore.. =)

Then lesson!!! Ok, fine fine. I didn't practise. Been too caught up with violin and I'm not so sure whether I wanna drop it anymore.. I'll see I'll see. Yeah, so anyway Ernie and I just talked through the lesson. Oh my gosh..!! Found out so many things I never knew! Haha. But that's the past, when we were under the spell of the world.. And it's now that matters. And I'm thankful!! God, help me. I pray. Yep. Lessons rockk!!

Yo-yo ma is crazy. CRAZY!! That idiot.. Grr.

Who wanna watch Sibelius and Glazunov with meeeee... Anybody? Haha!

Raah! Got pissed today!! Mom was in a bad mood today.. Cuz of last night. Was on the phone too late. Nvm. It's okaayy.. Really. Then. Went to CCAB and found out there was NO TO!!!! ZhiXiangg!!! Grr!!.. I'm gonna kiillllllll yooouu!! Urgh. Hahaha. Stupid me.

Was at the Yong Siew Toh thingy, with all those violins.. And one viola and one cello. My gaaawwd... They're just so niiice!! Weeeh! I want!!! :'( Sigh! They really sound so good ok.. But the funny thing is I realised Stradivari aren't such wonders anymore.. The one I liked was by some not so famous maker, forgot the name.. Aha.. Or maybe it's cuz that Strad wasn't a good one. I don't know. Haha. It's so amazing k.. Seeing SO SO SOOO many good violins up there.. And it's so kek-sai also.. Take one look at my violin and viola and.. SIGH. Alexander Souptel kept playing the Tzigane over and over again at the demonstration thingy.. Haha.. Then after that some other guy played it again with piano accompaniment. So anti-climax rights. There was one point where Souptel spammed too much and a bow hair popped out, and everybody started laughing. It's quite rude lah I guess.. And I thought there wasn't much to laugh about anyway. Nevermind. Thought the pieces were really well done. Beethoven String Quartet in F, Beethoven violin/piano Sonata No. 9, Tzigane, Carmen Fantasie and this encore piece.. Thought the violist in the quartet was really hamchi!!! Haha! Couldn't really hear her.. Quite sad.. And the cellist was quite out here and there.. But the violins were good. The sonata was quite brutal I think. The spiccatos were too heavy.. More bite than sound. Tzigane was over-played! Thanks Souptel. But only the introduction lah. Then the technical stuff. Thought it was ok.. But I didn't really like the piece anyway. Carmen Fantasie was really good ok! Like, woah! Sounds retarded at times but it was still really good.. Encore piece was ok. Yeah.

Wanted to buy that book they were selling. Sounds interesting. But it's 30 bucks and I'm short of cash cuz of too much Venezia.. So.. Didn't buy.

Went off to Marina Square after that with all the violists! Haha! Viola power! Was trying to pull Ernie along but didn't manage to in the end. He's driving a van!! Haha! Yeah! I think vans are cool ok. They're cheap and they can store things! Vans rockk!! So Yeap. Some of them came to the concert without dinner so they went to eat. Was hungry too so bought a Whopper Meal at BK. Got a lift from Zheng Wei home.

Just wanna go back to my old self.. But I know it's not right.. But.. It seems so right. I dunno. Can't find a direction yet.. But most likely.. I'll go on with my new path lah. Have to pull away.. Shit man. I need so much to do that.. Don't know how to.. When so many people who matter to me are in my way.. Bleah!!

Bugger. Left hand's crap. Can't type.. Ache.. And the world's swirling around in my mind man.. Dizzy! Think I needa go sleep soon. Argh.

Been going out out out these few days. Not a few.. But rather for so long liao. Haha. It's good cuz it keeps me busy and I won't think too much. Can't help but feel depressed sometimes. With such horrendous results.. Like. Ugh Man. *Slaps my face* Shouldn't think too much.

Back Here - BBMak

Baby set me free
From this misery
I can't take this no more
Since you went away
Nothing's been the same
Don't know what I'm living for
Here I am
So alone
And there's nothing in the world I can do

CHORUS:
Until you're back here baby
Miss you, want you , need you so
Until you're back here, baby
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go

So I told you lies
Even made you cry
Baby I was so wrong
Girl, I promise you
Now my love is true
This is what I'm living for
Coz here I am
So alone
And there's nothing in the world I can do

CHORUS

And I wonder
Are you thinking of me
Coz I'm thinking of you
And I wonder
Are you ever coming back in my life

Coz here I am
So alone
And there's nothing in the world I can do

CHORUS

NICEEEE SONG!! Haha! Was out when I was P5, P6? And it came on radio yesterday! After so long! And it brought back all those memories.. With the Grey Group and everything.. I wanna bring back all those times we had man! With WenYi, ZuoJing, Kong Aik, YongLian, Stephanie, Kristen, Su Khine, Alvin!!! And, haha, Kian Hong. Sometimes. Yeah guys! If you're reading this we've got to have a get-together someday ok!! Really miss all of you.. All of you together as one again. Just like we were before..

Memories..

Clocked in about 3 hours today. And most importantly it was productive!! Hahahaha.. Yay! Ermmhmm. Ha.. It's just fun lah k. And my fingers don't hurt that bad anymore. Which is pretty cool. Pretty cool.

So now I'm gonna be the bad guy. I'm gonna be the asshole. I never thought.. Never. Didn't cross my mind a single time until.. Poof. It's in my face. Sigh. Ok, I know it doesn't matter. But. Sometimes I just wished that life wouldn't be so hard on me. You know. Having those CLOSEST things turn on you and you realise that it's all been faked. It's like. Shit man. My life's a lie. And now I'm stuck with it.. Cuz I just can't seem to shake it off. Urgh, and I'm getting thrown around by the bloody Prince of The World. The Fallen Angel. Yeah. And I can't help it but complain a little.. Cuz I've done what I'm supposed to do already. And I'm here to claim my promise.. But I just don't see it coming.. Yet. Maybe. Yeah I gotta trust with all my heart that I'm in safe hands. Cuz I know I am.

I don't understand. Why would someone I don't even know backstab me.. And so hard too.. And. I never knew. Never knew until things are way beyond my control. Slip ups one after another. Why'd you wanna do that to me? I never ever did.. What you said I did. I never. Haha. But. Defending myself won't make a difference anyway. And. It doesn't matter.. I guess. If it's not meant to be then its not meant to be. Cuz I've found greater treasure.

Anyway. Eee... Fingers feel like breaking again.. Was stuck in school for 6 hours plus on monday. So I just played my viola most of the time.. Fooled round with the double-bass and cello also! So.. Yeah.. Will get back again at practising later. No stamina..

Hee. Been pigging out at Venezia's these past two days! Haha! Ice cream just rocks. I got some Creamo in muh freezer but Venezia's soooooooo much better! Hahaha! And fat-free too. But. Sigh. It's burning a hole in muh pocket!! Raaah!

Yeap. My results really really suck!!!! Oh sigh. It's dissapointing.. But. Oh well. I'll shake it off.

Seriously.. I find nothing wrong in putting up complaints on the PSB. It's like, I don't find the complaints there unconstructive. They're there to let the school administration know how screwed it actually is. And some problems have really such obvious solutions to them that we don't really have to put them down for you don't we. Like, for example. We say that there is a deficit of water-dispensing contraptions (otherwise known as water-coolers and/or taps) in the school. The obvious solution is to install more of them isn't it. I mean. Do we have put it down in black and white for you? You have a brain right. You know what we're suggesting right. Funny that these people are the one's educating the future of our nation.

You know what. Our future looks bleak.

And you know what.

I don't care.

Haha. Who gives a shit.

Hello! Just realised something big today.. It's been hanging there in front of me for so long, but I just didn't wish to hold on to it. And now I've realise how much more it brings. More than anything, anyone else can ever give to me.. It's Christ. I've realised nothing else matters. And all I want to do now is let go of everything.. So that I lose my attachment to this world and live in him fully. And everything that I do, everything that happens.. Just everything.. Will turn out ok cuz he's there. And he'll never, ever let me down. And that's where I start to let go.. And that's where I begin to sleep peacefully at night. How can I describe this? I can't..

But I still wish that everyone else could feel this happiness.. It's so sad.. Sigh.

So maybe my results have turned out to be shit. But. You know what. I'm gonna be ok. And I know it. What's a hundred years compared to eternity.

I wanna go home.

Haven’t blogged for long.. Just.. Didn’t feel like it. Funny how God sends people to you.. Even strangers who you have never met before in your life.. They just pop in and make a difference when you’re down. Wow. Pretty cool. I’ve pretty much found my groove. Never realised I had it. Comes naturally! But. That’s pretty not much I want anyway. But, anything goes lah. =P Bet you all dunno what I’m talking about.

Was out. The whole day. Just came back. Lanned. First time after so many months! Just had the craving suddenly. Wanted to go yesterday but things didn’t turn out well.. Watched White Chicks. Tell you, it’s damn damn funny k! Like.. Haha! SOOOOOO FUNNY! Had a really great time. Then went grandma’s place.. Watched tv. Soccer. The Liverpool vs Fulham comeback. Oh my god. Liverpool was 2-0 down after half-time, and when the match ended they won 4-2! So crazy right. Liverpool’s under-performing! It’s so sad! They were like so pro before Houllier came along and screwed things up until this state. Sighness. Real Madrid’s dying now too. Bleah!

So traumatic.. Something that’s been giving strength all my life.. All it brings now is fear.. Uncertainty. And sadness. So hard not to break down in front of everybody!!! Nobody will ever understand. But no-one needs to anyway. I’ve got this source of power. Someone guess what it is.
My 2.5 year old nephew.. He’s not exactly growing well.. I mean. He’s very big-sized for his age.. But he’s still not speaking yet.. Worried.. Tears. Oh, wth.

Sometimes I can get so pissed with mom.. But I know she just needs someone.. Like everyone else.. Sometimes I wish I could talk to her.. But she’s making things so difficult with her ‘im-thy-mother’ attitude.. Nvm.

Thanks guys! Great to know you’re there! No matter what they do, what they say, I know I’m gonna pull through! I know I can!

Urgh. I'm so caught in the middle of everything I hardly have time to breathe. It's so hard to please. I don't wanna take sides, I don't wanna be the betraying asshole. I just wanna be myself. I've sneaked my way through loopholes so many times now.. How long will the luck last?

Was down swimming today.. And saw a cloud towards the East. It was beautiful.. Light orange.. Close to yellow. In the blue sky. It was a cloumbus I think. Swam another two laps and came back.. But the cloud had drifted behind another dark grey one. A columbus cumulus. Or something like that. Can't remember my geog book. But I missed it fading away.. Wished I'd stayed on and watched its passing.

How many more chances do I want to throw away?

Things that I treasure.. They deserve much better treatment.

Gonna stop blogging bout what I ate, what time I shat and how many gulps of air I've had in a day. Huess its boring. Anyway.

There was once a king if a great, magnificent castle. In it, his subjects ate, drank, and made merry all day long. 'Discontentment' was a word of taboo.

Then one day, the king decided to sprite things up a bit. He called upon his messengers to bring an announcement out to his people over his land. He was inviting musicians into his abode.

Not long after, two violinists showed up. The king took a long look at both at them and said to them, "I give you each a month. When that month is up, come back to me. All I require is for you to play something in tune."

The month came and went.

Both musicians presented themselves before the king once more. The king asked, "Who shall be first?"

The first man jumped up, brandishing his ancient violin of a make long lost. No other violin carver that existed could match the skills of the one who had once flexed his scapels on that block of maple wood. He tuned his violin hurriedly. After all, taking a long time to tune was a sign of mediocrity and unprofessionalism. But in his haste, he tuned his G a quarter tone lower. Then he commenced with a self-composed sonata.

His playing was flawless. Ricochets, saltandos. Vibratos, glissandos. Every note melded together to form an entrancing, captivating piece. It was a wonder he had actually composed it within a month. The sound of wondrous music wafted through the palace, and out of it, and every commoner passing-by outside who heard his playing was filled with awe by his talent. Of course, being highly-skilled, he covered his out-of-tune G with deft and nimble fingers. But in the last chord, his finger slipped, and he played a note a quarter tone too low.

"Nevermind, I played well throughout. I'm sure the king won't mind," he thought, "If he can even notice." And and that last idea, he chuckled under his breath, confident of his success.

Then came the second man's turn. He took up his violin. It was a horrible instrument. The strings were close to unravelling, the varnish had either lost its shine, or had been scratched off through years of usage. The bridge was half broken and the bow had lost almost half it's hair. It was quite obvious that this man came from a much more unfortunate background than the former.

Sheepishly putting his violin under his chin, he started to tune. A minute passed. Then two more. The first man started tapping his feet on the marble floor in impatience, and shook his head at the performer's unshowmanship.

Finally, he was ready. He took a deep breath, lifted up his bow up high, then brought it down, and played..

An open G.

And it was in tune.

It is so easy.. Why.. Why can't you open your hearts?

Bring back the past.. Cuz I just can't see a future. Where did it all go? I can only find comfort in those things that are just memories.. And assumptions.. Doubtful promises. I don't understand anything anymore.. Maybe it's my fault. and if it is, I don't even know what's wrong with me.. What happened? I don't know.. Really. None of you know what I'm talking about. No one can understand.

Neither do I.

Bring Me To Life EVANESCENCE

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)s
ave me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become
(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

Been having this low-down stupid feeling for so long already.. And I'm really sick of it. Fills me so much stupid pointless emotions. Maybe I should let it all go right. Would it be better. Don't even have time and energy to think. Bbbb--bbb---bbb. Harley engine. Catalytic converters. I'm going crazy. Think I am already..

Heya.. Nothing to blog about actually.. Just had chinese compo.. It was a killer man. Kk. Better go now. Can't waste anymore time.

Let go some..

I have to care less.

Funny how things are just happening around me and how I’m out of it. I'm just leaving myself out of it all, in a way. I guess it’d be better cuz right now I don’t really have time to care for anything in the world I think. So ciao. For good.

This is waaayy overdue.. Haha.. Just no time darn it. So yeah. Good luck everybody. And wish me darn luck too cuz I'll be bloody needing it.

Haha. Hi!! Yah, so erm. At Lyn's house we were playing ping-pong, and table soccer. Haha, so funny! Even the keeper can score goals. Haha. Yep. Played stupid! Made so many people as stupid as me.. Heh. =P Lyn ordered one whole carton of haagen-dazs! And food from hard rock?! =O ... Gosh. Yeah. And david, sigh! Your 'soon' is very long hor. Took a lift from vicky in the end. Reached home real late. Mom and dad were pretty pissed. Oh well.

Did I mention before we have to stay back almost everyday after school for extra lessons? Haha. Sian ok! Really, I'd rather come home and mug.

Oh yeah, skipped TO yesterday cuz I forgot! Haha! Blur..Think I saboh-ed my friend cuz I told him dun have also.. =P

Ok, better go now.