really wtf.

Some people do really get on my nerves.

Me: Did u receive my sms?
Moron: No, I was charging my phone.
Me: You cant check your phone while its charging?
Moron: I didnt bring out my phone e whole day cos I forget to charge, my phone run out of battery everyday.
Me: Since u know it does run out of battery, why didnt u charge it before it goes low batt?
Moron: Silence.

Seriously I duno what chances he is taking, but there is a elder at home who needs to be taken care of round e clock & he dont give a damn whether he has a mobile phone with him; so that he can be contacted easily? It really goes to show how fucked up some people can be.

Frustrated.

It really does get frustrating at times when there is a possibility to avoid conflict & yet people just choose to do otherwise. Then comes e 'I believe in my way', which each side will take turns to convince e other that his/her way is right; but no solution is ever given. Finally, after e long fucking painful process, one comes out with a solution & solves it.

So.
Why go thru e long painful process when all u should do is just to heed e early warning?

Set in motion.

Is it a blatant lie if one said that he had subconsciously done something without knowing e reason why he did it? However himself know that e contents contain damning stuff? There was an earlier act of concealment which proved that he was guilty of hiding, of course it can be argued that it was for other matters. The strangest part was whatever happened before, portrayed a different story from e current. One was led to believe that e so called perpetrator was e only one creating trouble all along & sorely missed out e fact that ' it always take two hands to clap'. Took a deep breath.

It was taken that all communications are to be ceased, in which failure will end this union. The benefit of doubt has its own limitations & time. While e boundaries of trust are redrawn, one can only pray that it will work out.

If faith is never enough, what else then?

8.

It serves as a constant reminder that e commitment I used to have, was a wrong placement of faith.

Time to set things in motion.

Responsibility.

Sigh.. I can feel e pressure building up, especially with e hopes pinning on me. It really feels damn hard to shoulder a heavy responsibility.

All I got to do is a damn good one.

It never achieves equilibrium.

Ha, I just got a undeserved praise, which seems to dull in comparison with my track record of being a nasty guy. Perhaps, e ways I used to solve conflicts has always been too extreme, or in other words, unacceptable, that truly, I deviated from e real purpose of solving. However, soft approaches, that I have undertaken didnt produce good results either. Which makes me think, should I just leave things to let them be?

1. So, how long do I have to wait?
2. Will it really materialize? Work out by itself?
3. Meanwhile, letting more conflicts spawn out of it.

Which is why, all e time, I didnt leave them be, because I cant? Because they cant? Well, to be honest, if given a choice, I would definitely walk away, if it ever really helps :(

Just a routine self reflection after Yuejuan made me smile :) Anyway, fuck my throat now; inflammation on e throat lining, even swallowing my saliva makes it damn painful.
Argh...

Test test test.

These are indeed testing times.