谢谢你曾让我们幸福 (:

All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on :]

one of my favourite songs,

One, you're like a dream come true.
i need to yell out loud now.
give me a break please. a few hours out at night. need to feel the night breeze. gotta feel the support and love. or a long bus ride, even silent bus rides. a talk, a chat. something. anything.


Two, just wanna be with you
WHY ARE YOU SO CRUEL. why are you denying me of every single thing that can keep me going.
i know you're sad but so am i. friends, what are friends? we're not friends. we're simply strangers who always end up hurting each other. if you think asking me to forget helps, can i tell you i've tried damn hard but it didnt work. can i ask you for your help. you said you wont ignore me, you said so.

Three, girl it's plain to see, that you're the only one for me
im sorry im sorry im sorry. i didnt want things to turn out this way. im really sorry. i want you to be who you're before you met me. im sorry, and i really wish apologies can do anything to help. sorry.
im screwing up my life, cca screwed, studies screwed promos are coming, spa what else. and im doing nothing but letting tears run dry.


Four, repeats steps one through three
i hate myself for who i was and i am. i hate you. i hate everything that i've done to make you cry. i hate everything i didnt do to make you smile. i hate myself for being so foolish for being so weak for believing in forever. i hat myself for even being here. i hate this world for its cruelty. i hate time for making people forget, for making everyone's memories fade except mine. i hate myself or being so emotional. i hate myself for enterinf your life. i hate myself for not letting you go. i hate myself for letting things start and end. i hate i hate i hate me cos i am me.rjfihshesoijoef0eq
Five, make you fall in love with me





If ever I believe my work is done,
help, please pleaese.




Then I start back at one.



NOW YOU CAN PRETEND THAT I DONT EXIST.

My Wish

If I were given a wish, I would wish for myself to vanish from this place we call Earth, so you wouldnt get hurt at all and your faith and beliefs would be as strong as before.

:)

neolaypeng you're the most useless person on earth i dont understand what you're doing here. you only make ppl tear. you make ppl feel miserable. you suck. now you can even do a single shit to help others. getlost getlost. this sucks.

i hate myself jiapeht3qop9hrkfrqebfuls bok

Be strong, believe :)

:D FOR YOU

sorry.

Better In time, No?

sheets of paper clipped together titled 'demand and supply' are terribly wet with drops of unwanted sodium chloride solution?

sounds weird.
damn me.

Life's a cheap lie anyway

oh yeah why am i blogging everyday omg.

im stressed, i dont want promos. i cannot concentrate. and why are those memories coming back to me once again after so long ): even looking out of the window reminds me of stuff that no one, except me perhaps, wants to remember boo. at this same time last year. i still keep all your smses and tears came to my eyes when i read them yest. the moon and the stars. okay i mean satellite? the tears, the smiles. i havent forgotten what you said about empty hands. mmhmm so. where are you ):

incoherence. like totally random. grr.

i dont know what to say anymore, words aint able to express my feelings.
byebye

'Cause you make me smile

I MISS GHC! ):

and MS CHARMAINE YUE, CHEER UP! :D you can always look for me if you need someone to talk to okay, my ears are here for youuuuuu :) or i can replicate them for you HAHA stupid bio bleah! jiayou for promos okay! <3

LAYPENG IS ALRIGHT :)

All I wanna do is find the way back into love

but I cant.

because even the only one who made me love doesnt love me anymore.

was expecting a productive study session back in sn today, BUT BUT BUT me and monster ended up at amk hub at 2.40 for 4bia, which caused some damage to my eyes because i was covering one and half of my the other eye half the time -__________________-

anyway we were at her hse the other day after BL and i was kind of stuck there due to the heavy rain and i stayed over! we KO-ed at 1am, and then stupid mons and her sis entertained themselves (and me) by translating songs HAHA. then pw the next day, which means i didnt study much these few days!

ohoh and did i mention that we played arcade and had a long bbt session the other day also? :/

someone help me kill promos please! ):

GLO on monday : i think i look cute in this photo HAHA -_______________-

i'lllearntolookuponyouasafriend.

I'll swallow my tears (like Anmei)

totally jlc,
and only monster understands the pun haha.

because you'll be happy, if she is right?

I'll follow you into the dark

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
'cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the No's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

Leave me, alone.

):

Because you live

To that question that came along with the little froggy you gave me at the beginning of this year, my answer is yes yes yes, lots.

I cant thank you enough for everything you've given me or done for me, you've changed me completely. You made me understand how it feels like to give it all for someone you truly care for without expecting any returns.
Your love is enough to last me for a lifetime :)

Though im seriously dreading all the special occasions like midautumn and especially Christmas without you this year, I think I'll be fine just letting those memories replay in my mind right? I just wanna let you know, my sweet sixteen was the sweetest indeed. Thanks for your efforts in giving me those surprises, I'll always remember that special Christmas eve :)

Every 11 May, rain or shine, I'll still be at those places we've been to, for I promised you my life till we're ninety, and I'll keep it.
Sorry, I really love you<3

Take care, love.

Fact or Fats?

GIRL FACTS
When a girl is mean to you after a break-up
she wants you back but she is too
scared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever!
when you catch a girl glancing at you,
she wants you to look back
and smile
When a girl bumps into your arm,
while walking with you
she wants
you to hold her hand
When she wants a hug
she will just stand there
When u break a girls heart
she still feels it when
you run into each other 3 years later
When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her
mind..
When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply,
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of
questions,
she is wondering how long you will be
around
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a
few seconds,
she is not at all fine
When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are playing games
When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a girl says she can't live
without you,
she has made up her mind that you are
her future
When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more
than that.

Guy Facts
When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you
When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...
When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong
When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a few
minutes
he means it
When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and
wonders if you do
When your laying your head on a guy's
chest,
he has the world
When a guy calls/texts/comments/messages you everyday,
he is in love
When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
he means it
When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you till your done
When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else

why am i posting such stuff on my blog, im becoming less like myself -_________- and wow im back to being an avid blogger, actually it's just my mind running wild staying home for a day. i want bbt rarr.

):

'Cause you're everywhere to me

Hello brain, please stop torturing me every single morning.

'cept you

third post of the day like ^$U*%&*$^)(#*%(#*%)*(^)!!

everything's just making me feel worse now.

Held, loved, lost;

I wish you were here with me.

Can't ask you to give what you already gave

SMILE :)

Be my escape,
do you still remember?

The stars are holdin' you tonight

Back to st nicks yest, that feeling was simply :D











And now for some long overdue photos,

xiuxiu and I went to rj to surprise my moooooomy, 300408

met up with 4L peepies, and I think you know who's the noisiest there xD

GEMS! my shepherd's pie, made with bella (:

<3

On a completely different note, I suddenly began thinking about stuff again. Many many many new thoughts and realisations came to me, and the old memories still stayed.

Hey Friend, I know I was wrong for everything more than a year ago. It was me who robbed you of your happiness. I was absolutely wrong. You should have ignored me since then, but now I'll just leave it up to you, whatever you wanna do with me, or what you dont want to do with me. Sorry ):

Remember my old blog url? You told me, dreams do come true. And so I pursued my dream and my dream was all about you. But before I could even let everything run through once again, it ended. There was no everything, no dream, no you. I've lost a friend because of you, and everything's going wrong all over again and this time, there's no you to make things right. I wish I can just have everything back for one day, and just one day. One day is for me to capture every single detail and use this love to keep me going.

But no, I've no right to ask for anything anymore.

In my heart, darling,

Yes you'll always be there/

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you, I can just look up

And know the stars are

Holding you, holding you, holding you

Tonight

I'm sorry, Dear

I really am.

):

If only apologies do wonders.

Watch it burn, Let it die

Yay thyrunaway is backkk (:

& laypeng's also back with a newfound mugger spirit teehee

HELLO to my sweetheart, BYEBYE to you now.

ninety.