Waiting

Today I washed all the baby clothes, towels, washcloths, bibs, and bedsheets. I finally rearranged the drawers, lined the old dresser and set up the mobile over the crib. I'm 38wks today, 1cm dilated, 60% effaced, and I lost my plug right in the Dr.s office. And I feel good. A little uncomfortable when I sit in the same chair for a while. I also wake up often in bed. However, I wouldn't trade this time for anything in the world. There were too many tears, prayers and meds for me to want this to be over. I want my baby, I want to find out if it's a boy or a girl and hold them in my arms. I want to begin the adventure of parenting more than anything. But when this baby comes it will mean that all that time i spent trying to get pregnant and then enjoying being pregnant will be over. And the anticipation will be done. So when baby is ready, I'll be ready. But there is no way I am going to rush him/her. I'm enjoying every part of this, particularly because I don't know when and if I'll be able to do this again.