♥♥ Friday, 25 December 2009♥♥

SHE IS NOT FEELING VERY WELL ):

BUT SHE DO ALL SMILES ON TIMES :D

aversionLADY

♥♥ Sunday, 8 November 2009♥♥

aversionLADY

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my daughter , Jerxanne arrived on 3 Nov . (:

I shall post my daughter's pic when I feel again .

I'm been fcuking tired ever since 2 Nov . I got less then 4 hours sleep everyday ! ):

leg is damn swollen . body and hair is damn smelly ! Lucky I going to bring my precious for check up this coming Tue , I can grab this chance to bathe ! wahaahaas

Thanks for accompany me in to the labour room tht day .

We will never appreciate each other good .

(: I have do all my best . Have you do your best ? Insistent is what you needs .

(: If giving up is the best for Jerxanne and my future , I will do it

(: TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT . I WILL LEARN TO LEAVE IT RATHER THEN TAKE IT .

I won't wants to let myself have tht chance to cries infront of her .

I LOVES YOU TO MY EXTENT YET YOU THINK IT NOT ENOUGH/NOTHING .

aversionLADY

♥♥ Friday, 30 October 2009♥♥

15 days more

today isn't a great day for me . my bladder seems so weird . urine slip out of my bladder very very easy . maybe is my lil monster getting bigger make my bladder smaller and smaller . ahahahs

I don't think I going out to get any meals or gathering today lerhhs . ):

Suddenly I craving for HOTCAKES ~! lols . I WANT TO EAT HOTCAKE NOW ! CAN YOU IMAGINE ? I BLOG HALF WAY WANT EAT HOTCAKES .

hahaahas , whatever it is . todays is a BAD DAY .! later then i go cook hotcake now . let me get a small nap 1st ! PLEASE lil monster ! (:

going off bed . if not all my panties also no enffu me change . :S

aversionLADY

♥♥ Thursday, 29 October 2009♥♥

16 more days .

today I don't feel really happy with what I have today . Maybe due to tht quarrel I had with Justin . I been wondering why I can't be surviving myself . I question myself for very long and I can't get any answer from myself . I'm been tired of this draggy relationship and hearing loves one calling me crazy , slut or rather cheapo . maybe i'm tht why I ended with a BIG TUMMY . I have never regret until today and never blame anyone except myself . Cos I'm the one who have unprotected sex .

I learning hard to live alone and to encounter all joys and tears alone .

I'm here today is because of my old classmate saw me at petrol station weeks ago and have commented I looked wreck ever since he saw me at there . It reflected me how joyful and crazy I'm when i was in secondary with him and another friends sitting and chit chatting together most of our days. and as other said I once a cheerful and happy-go-lucky girl . Now I can only smiles and tell others nothing .

People might be thinking I'm foolish and childish due to my decision . but no one actually knows that pain making such miserable decision . I no who to kill someone due to my fault. My partner can only shout at me today won't be like this if you aborted her . ABORT don't seems easy for the victim no one actually know .

EVERYTHING TODAY IS I CREATED MYSELF AND I HAVE START TO PAY FOR MY MISTAKE .

Ohhs yas , readers please do not discussed my entries infront of me to you friends or whoever thanks . it make me feel weird when i overheard it .

aversionLADY

♥♥ Friday, 23 October 2009♥♥

22 more days i gonna be a mummy . hahahs . been a mum to be for past 9 months over seems good and excited . every lil things i bought for her seems nice to me . i prepare everythings by myself . and i smiles to say i'm proud of myself .

Until now i might be complaining on times but I never feel tired about doing all this . I believe this type of strength will continues next 21 years .

I'm counting down for my precious girl to comes all the ways to my arms .

EVERYONE !! GUESS HOW HEAVY THIS LIL MONSTER IS ?!?!!?!?!?
YES , SHE IS HEAVY ! AS HEAVY AS HER MUMMY AND DADDY . LOLS .
She is currently 3xxxgrams (3+kg) ! wahahahas .

if i can really natural birth this lil noti monster I will definitely proud of myself ! hahahas

aversionLADY

♥♥ Friday, 9 October 2009♥♥

STORY ENDED .

he left yesterday . going oversea for whole year . 1 years sound short but it isn't tht short as we think .

yes , i promised to wait for tht 1 year return but i guess i gonna break it . no one can ensure inside this 1 yr can happen what kinds of shit .

i expected to miss him damn lots like 1 yrs ago he went for his 1 week holiday .
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(: whatever it is ... this time round everything stated clear enfu . He left for his 1 yr oversea job . and i gotta carry on my life without him . he can't make any diff in my life anymore . maybe without each other we won't be feeling so stress .

She coming out in 1 month times yet he left for himself and not welcoming her arriving .

ohhs gosh ! why do i sound so weak !! ): wake up !!!! without Justin , Exanne and Jerxanne is still alive .

8 month ago i put this promise if till the day Jerxanne out nothing is done by Justin then make this facts that we can't have him . when she 21 yrs old decided to find her own father i will let her find . (:

i wishing he can really learn to grow up and do something for sake of this poor lil girl .

I been waited for a empty shot 9 months . I don't wish to wait until 1 years anymore .

aversionLADY