keats.

a visit to the pediatric icu ward makes u wana revaluate ur life and think abt how precious it is. those young kids dun deserve to be there. they shud be carefree bt instead they're fighting bravely for their dear lives. it reali breaks ur heart looking at them n seeing the pain in their parents' eyes. it's a real pity n all u could do is to offer ur prayers for them. i hope that everythg will turn out fine eventually for them. insyaAllah.

listening to: nothing

to all those who have helped spread the word abt my cousin's blood donation drive, i extend my thanks. my uncle mr adnan extends his thanks too cos the response has been overwhelming.

i cant say that my cousin is in the clear. he's still hanging on by a thin thread. so please continue praying for him. his name's zikri by the way. cherio~

listening to: story of the year - until the day i die

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does

We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!

i think i might just play this song for talentime. damn it has sweet lyrics. cherio~

rizal's cousin is still in icu experiencing complications. he's in urgent need of blood donors wif blood type A. please contact rizal asap if ur blood type is compatible. ur help is greatly appreciated. please continue to pray for him. thanks.

attica.
smu extravaganza was a blast. it was the place to be last nite. great crowd, great music. but there was no freaking food except free beer. wtf. so we starved. but all was worthed it when the performance began. not to mentioned we got front row seats. okay, not really seats. but yea, front row baby. n we didnt even hafta to queue. the bands were quite gd i must say. esp the indian scholar who cud pull off guns n roses. but he was of course, overshadowed by taufik! heh. for that 20 mins or so of his performance, i was transformed into a groupie. we all were. he could reali sing. im not juz saying that but his performance juz proved it all. n yea he looked hot. i didnt tink i was gona be that much of a groupie. oh wells. im a lil ashamed of myself. heh. oh nathan the prez was thr too.

music by zouk djs. zouk tablaman maniam rock my socks. bt erm yea, we all danced to mostly house n r&b till late n was dying of hunger. too bad nora n sarah n their frens hafta leave. aftwhc i had to dance wif my sis n her bf. i figured they were better off left grinding each other undisturbed. heh. yups. it was a blast of a night. all the time i was wishing bebs was thr.

i wanted to try the bungee thgy but i was wearing skirt. and i juz hafta say that sly was dddisgusting. n i missed desperate hsewives. oh n of course, the cherry on top goes to my darling sister diana, who accidentally deleted all my fotos of yday. so no taufik pics, my pics watsoever. so now i haf to plead n buat muka kesian for my frens to send me pics n vids of last nite.
im royally pissed.

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okies. so i finally got some of last nite's pics. here's a few.


red carpet entrance.


the groupies.


front row seats.


great band.


*swoons*


sexaye.


erm...rockers?


we dun look alike.


nora showing her moves.

julius fatball.

i've downloaded manymany brushes. its so fun. dun reali haf any use of them bt they're juz nice to haf. maybe, juz maybe i'll try do a layout. if im nt too lazy.

anyways, i watched the kid last nite on teevee. and it got me wondering, wad if i get to meet the younger me? wad wud she/me say to me? that i haf a deprived childhood? hah maybe. but then i wana meet an older me. i wana know wad i'll be like 10 years from now. will i screw up my life? sheesh. maybe i dun hafta wait that long to know. results in a mth.

going for smu extravaganza later. wif nora n sarah. i'll get to meet them after so long n taufik too.

listening to: a static lullaby - the shooting star

everyone. pls pray for my 7 yr old cousin. he's in ICU now. he's recovering from open heart surgery. and currently experiencing complications. kidney failure, internal bleeding, and a collapsed lung.

i hope and urge everyone to pray for him, be it christian, muslim or any other religion. thanks.

listening to: litebox on central

no matter how many of these i take, they always never fail to take my breath away. all sunsets are different in their own way. from the way the clouds swirl and the glare frm the sun. and hey, i risk my $500 piece of glass, plastic and metal everytime i stick it outside my window to take a snap.

taken by her.




taken by me.

listening to: cokelat - jauh

i want more indon songs. anybody? SO7, cokelat, padi. send to me yeah?

i thought staying home alone for 4 days was gonna be fun. now i know its just mendak. well day 1 that is. boredom. and it doesnt help when u have no one to go out with. cherio~

scoutfinch.

i love litebox on central. everyone shud too. its half an hour of pure idiotic fun to perk up my weeknights. plain stupidity at its best. but very enjoyable. esp for the retards like me out thr. for those who finds pleasure watching how long it takes for a cockroach to explode n spill its insides in a microwave oven. it takes 6 seconds actually. i witnessed it. haha. i actually love banzai and reno911. so yea, basically, its the channel to watch at 9.30, not the news. not so difficult for retards like me.

anyways, i wana watch alfie n closer. its this jude law thing. sarah&nora infected me with it. i've watched the trailer for both. i need to watch it.

listening to: incubus - follow

school's been draggy. and i realised i really do look like mao zedong in my green jacket. probably because my unniform is grey. yeah. gray and green look ah pek like. hmmm.

i've been pretty up to date with my hw. happy wit that. and yea. the previous post. it was abt shit. didnt mean it to lah. but yeah. iza thought it was because i thought up of the 5 lines in the toilet shitting. cherio~

listening to: underoath - reinventing your exit

so it said.

"embracing gravity,
i fall from this ledge
into a watery grave
the unwanted product
me."

guess what i'm talking about. tag me for the answer. the person who guesses it correctly will get uhm. nothing lah. but u'll be the smartest person here. cherio~

ccclan

alritey. finally had my hair cut at reds today. its okay, better than the last. so yups, met bebs aft dat. a lil late bt i appreciate him going all the way to town aft sch n all. thanks bebs.

nothing interesting happened last wkend. except my uncle's bday n the tiger cup. oh yeahs! i spent my whole saturday embroidering all my panties. yes, i did that. not for vanity sake or watsoever. its bcoz, if i dun, my sister will take them and wear. well, u see, we both use the same lycra type panties. bt still, wtf rite? but i swear she does that. i dunno if its pure ignorance or wat. but i do hope its the former. eeeeeww. grossness.

maybe i shud start selling embroided panties. unused new ones of course. heh. i'll make sure they wont itch. hahah.

listening to: saosin - translating the name

Drowning in Cyanide
here i am alone,
i swallow those words
you said with a cyanide chaser
so they sting less that way

enough of the words u said
they scar so bad it doesnt hurt
dont say that u dun wanna lose me
when i know u really want to

the doves on the windowsill
must be sick of hearing my screams
the scratches on the door
and the dents on my walls

the solace i have is from
the silence my blank thoughts
when i swallow the words
you said with a cyanide chaser
as the world fades away.

wrote this on the spur of the moment when i woke up. funny how it hit me first thing in the morning. *shrugs* cherio~

listening to: asteria - 18 for the rest of our lives

2 new pics of us. taken during the jamming session before mosh05. cherio~

listening to: plain sunset - immature

look at what bebs bought me! a polo tee from topman. we've been searching for it since like donoe when. cos the outlet at city hall and wisma didnt stock it anymore. so we went to bugis today. it wasnt there. and after lunch we came back and there it was!! like wtf. thank my lucky stars.




and the other day. i bought the jacket from kedai thailand. damn kecoh la wanan find that place. pusing punye pusing. even went into this shop that looked like a 2nd hand shop. good grief. it sold leapord print shirts, and super oldy moldy donoe wat the fuck stuff. and then i asked this guy who was wearing the jacket like i wanted la, where he bought. then he said its not at this peninsula but the one with the 7-11. like hek eleh. so yeah. got me $5 mao zedong jacket (according to ying squared). but i still think its cool. and its cold. so presenting to u, the fall/winter season.





and apparently the last pic, bebs said even taufik kalah. mcm cd cover.



actuali i was trying to do a mao ze dong pose.

well that's all folks for my shopping spree. whoopdeedoo.

dirty.


cheeeey.step berg sey orang tu. hehe.

beetlejuice.

rich people are happy pple. its true okay. life will be bliss if we all haf endless supply of money. well, at least in izaism, they believe so. anyways, life haf been somewhat great besides for this certain prob that haf been put to rest. for the time being at least. thr is still one worry but other than that, its esplendido.

i realised my posts are so shallow. tsk. shopping n eating. tsktsk. oh wells. heh. that's wad i live for. i tink bebs is influenced by me. been shopping quite alot lately eh? thailand thrift shop or not. haha. gdness such a fuss finding it in penin. bt yea its an interesting shop. dirt cheap. n i gt a skirt frm evidence. nice nice.

i love mcD's twister fries. whc actually is a rip of anw curly ones. chet! bt i love haagen daz strawberry cheesecake yogurt icecream more. u know u're eating yummy icecream when u start to look ridiculously retarded like us.

i swear its yummy.

watching: asherk's video of me crowd surfing.

hahha damn funny clip. me flailing my hands ard asking ppl to boost me up. 3 secs of crowd surfing before falling and getting kicked by fawwaz. and azi walkg ard like some drunk. although the crowd turnout was miniscule, i dare say that was the funnest gig i ever played. had tonnes of fun moshing ard, and playing for an almost empty room, altho u know the ppl who stayed enjoyed ur music. that's what matters.

cherio~

listening to: asherk's video of me crowd surfing

damn funny 10sec clip of me. crazy ahpek clapping my hands asking ppl to boost me up. and falling down and getting kicked. and azfar looking like a drunk. altho the gig had a miniscule turnout, i hafta say mosh05 was one of the funnest i played for before. whah. cherio~

listening to: matchbook romance - playing for keeps

pictures of orientation are up. lazy to link em here. just clickity click on the snapshots button at the top yah? cherio~

whimsical.

went shopping yday. weee~. zara's empty. further reduction starts yday. haish i've missed out alot. the sale's been on for a week bt i had to wait for wkends to shop coz everyone's gt sch. bt its okies coz i managed to get a tank frm thr and also a shirt frm mng. hehe. yeays for me.

and the highlight of the day was


yea, like finally i got the cheque. bt the bank was already closed yday. so yea no cash yet. whc is good actually coz i've got pests asking for treats. hello, its only 600. oh wells.

i've had enuf of pple telling me that i shudnt haf quit the job. bleah. right now, i dun feel guilty being unemployed. it feels good really except when the boredom creeps in. but hey, i've found a new hobby.




hahas. yes. eating. it gives me great pleasure. bt its getting too expensive. bt i've learn to get my way around that problem. to cook it myself. today i've made spaghetti. and later cheese curry puffs. hehe. bt there's the waistline problem. oh heck.
i am wad i eat.

listening to: trhw - atmosphere

orientation 2005 tribal funka is over. all good things must come to an end. will surely miss spending time with Tanka. thru ups and downs we've been thru a lot. and at the end, an immense sense of satisfaction has taken over me and si qian. we've build bonds between all 25 of u. from sian sian people to enthu people. thanks u guys. its u people that make being an OGL worth it.

will post some pics later. as for now, im getting ready to meet bebs. yay. after so long. cherio~

listening to: rufio - face the truth

havent been updating because i'm tired. orientation zaping the life outta me. being an OGL sure is tough. from un-enthu people to dancing countless repetitions of orientation dances.

loosing my voice. legs are wobbly. eyes are sleepy. and i like the new layout. iza bebs did the pic. nice eh? cherio~

Loamsdown

i have yet to get a supersampler for myself. so much for getting it wif my raya money. but there's still my $200 gd progress cheque. no, i did nt improve on my grades watsoever. i tink the sch gt the wrong person. who cares coz i've gt the cheque. hehe. anyways, juz when i've set my mind on getting it, i found out there's oktomat. just great. now i want both. bt of course i tink oktomat only looks gd when animated. 8 is too much on a photo. sheesh. i cant make up my mind.

Nessa Carnesir

i know i've sworn never to put on any form of henna on me. but boredom got the better of me. i've vandalised myself. im sorry bebs. i wudnt haf done it if i haf someone to vandalise on. bt since there is no one at home except for my mum who tinks henna is disgusting, i broke my promise.


its elvish for star.

listening to: senses fail - buried a lie

tonight i ask myself a question. am i ready for the biggest test of my life? my A level year. am i?

and now i feel, damn i shud haf done it last yr instead of failing. should. i hate that word. cherio~

listening to: rufio - one slow dance

you and me dancing the night away
you can feel my heart beating so hard

listening to: jason mraz - you and i both

so i finally figured out the html codes for this kinda layout. yet to be finalised. but i kinda like the simple format. havent figured out wat to add as the bgrd. the gray is too dark. oh well. nxt time when i have more time then. cherio~