mein kampf.

i have been too tactful.
i am unappreciated.
i am jaded.

pms kicks in tonight.

the cardigans - rise & shine

ni semua gara² si rafiee ah ni. now i'm hooked to these kinda songs. female fronted indie bands.

i think i blew my interview. talked too much outta context. gotta learn to keep my mouth shut. oh well.

havent had the time to blog nowadays. cherio~

listening to: the juliana theory - into the dark


a kiwi wearing earphones


my sister's boots








vertigo


not edited. pic was taken this way.


i think it was the aperture setting ah.












we owe the cleanliness of our blocks to this guy.

listening to: none

i am tempted not by the hunger for food. nor the thirst for a drink. but i am tempted by something else more evil.

to dig for treasure in my nose

aah the evilness in me. cherio~

therapy me.

its boring. i've been watching re-runs of oliver's twist on tv almost every day this week and the last. i could tell wad jamie is gona cook next. anyways, i cant wait for raya. yea so there's the As before n aft that. but i need to go collect some m$ney aft that. im so broke now n there's like sooo many things i need to buy.

* super sampler
* more clothes
* lingerie
* dress for prom
* shoes
* loreal exfotonic n perfect slim

argh. got an email invite to loreal sale tmr. but im broke. so i aint gona tell whr it is. mwahaha. coz im eevil. of course they only haf their sale at one place every year. so yea go figure.

im itching to go window shop. havent been to forever 21. but i've seen the catalogue. looks good. more of like topshop. sigh im in dire need of cash.

i dun wana go for prom. i love shopping but i hate shopping for proms. dresses. shoes. hair. make up. bleah. the horrors of not finding a dress in time. ditto. end up looking like crap. ditto. i tink this prom is gona suck. doubt there's even gona be a theme. i want a refund! im juz going for post-prom party.

im still weighing pros n cons of the trip down under. if i go, it means no jalan raya n of course no m$ney. the horrors. n i only haf less than 2 weeks to go frm perth to melbourne to sydney(this flight costs $81 only!) to be back in time for prom. which is a total waste. then again, screw prom. but then i hafta work my ass off when i come back to repay the parents for the trip. if i dun go, it'll be eons before i can travel alone. without the parents. hell, before i can even travel again out of the asia pacific.

anyways,
As in 9.

listening to: some drama on suria that nenek is watching

i hate it when teacher's ask you a student to pass msgs to other teachers. like excuse me u sit in the same staff room a few aisles away. how come i have to run from where i am, to the staff rm, and use the intercom to call that teacher?

and if i cant find that teacher, i'm supposed to keep trying. cudnt you have pasted a post it note on her table? oh please la.

im so pissed. so many last minute changes. pfft. the rain isnt helping too. if it didnt rain, all this fuss wudnt have cropped up anyways. cos everything wud have been done and over with. cherio~

listening to: thrice - silhouette

pics of yesterday finally uploaded. pemalas habis ah niari. anyways the nice pics are all taken by nori pumpkin bebs. she took really nice pics yesterday. i guess nori's right. i cant take pisc when im too hungry or too full. haha.




the skinny kenyan boy

is that a ghost? nah some ppl promoting a halloween party

me proudly holding the invitation card and 1 for 1 drink card.

nori's pic 1.

nori's pic 2. i like this one alot.

food 1.

the ikan pari bakar that looks like steak.

look at all that food left.

even with her eating the food. haha.

i took this. my one and only clear pic. it isnt even that clear.

my other nice pic.

nori's 3rd pic. nice right?

u know what that is. i took it. not bad lah.

thristy lah.

aww. an album isnt complete without our pic.

just some of the pics. click the pics for more. please please click and comment. thanks. cherio~

listening to: senses fail - cute when you scream

i'm not as 1-Dimensional as i seem to be. all people always see is a smile on my face. jokes abound. well im not all about that. try to piss me off and u'll see. but word of advice, dont even try it. cherio~

taken from some survey i did. dont know if its true. haha.

What's Your Kissing Style?

You're a born romantic.

The great thing about being inherently romantic is that you actually enjoy kissing, according to William Cane, the New York City-based author of The Art of Kissing (St. Martin's Press) and the brain behind www.kissing.com. "Romantics are very lucky. For them, kissing provides a tender, wonderful way to stay connected with their partner. They have a natural instinct to kiss as a way to communicate love and affection. By reaching out in that manner, they continually strengthen the bond with their significant other," says Cane. Seeking out opportunities to express their fondness is second-nature to romantics, and their relationships tend to benefit.

One caveat, notes Cane: No matter how lovely, all that sweetness can get a little, well, boring. Even for you, the luckiest of lovers, variety is the spice of life. Surprise your mate with a different MO now and then. Act playfully aggressive, as in, "I want you to kiss me right here, right now!" Or act bashful by averting your gaze and requiring a healthy dose of coaxing.

listening to: glasseater - shortcut for a quick getaway

i learnt an important lesson last night. never eat rice, fish, tom yam, and 15,5,5, satay at one go. it'll make u feel like puking after that. and u wont be able to walk in peace for the next 10 mins or so.

actually i learnt two lessons. the other one is, dont take pics when ur too full. they turn out crappy and shaky. my pics are testament to that. when i finally get around to uploading them, take a look and see what u mean. disgusting pics ah.

anyways i think yesterday cured my fear of the number 3. i used to be afraid of going out in 3s but now, i'm fine with it.

i cant think of anything witty to say. so i guess this is the end of this entry. cherio~

listening to: warna 94.2 on the radio

after only 6 days of fasting, i look like a kid from Kenya. with more hair on his head and without the bloated tummy. i really wonder how some people can gain weight during the fasting month.

and where are the old classics they used to play during sahur time? like the one that goes "mari kita sahur, ayam ayam sahur" that ashri liked so much. haha remember that dude? ayam ayam sahur. and the one that goes "ku cuci mata ku, ku sucikan, penglihatan kuuu" and also "ilahila something something firdaus" no more. now they play shit ass jiwang songs.

cant wait for school later. cherio~

"a moment's only temporary
let too many go
then you'll be history too"

the juliana theory - this is your life

seize the moment. never put off what u want to do for another day. that day may never come. cherio~

lupus.

i was watching smurfs on kids central juz now. all by myself. goodness. the last time i watched that i was like wad..5? i realised that i watched alot of teevee since young. tsktsk. but i missed watching those cartoons of course. no powerpuff or spongebob can replace my strawberry shortcake.

hmm wad else did i watch when i was young eh?

care bears. adventures of the gummi Bears. popeye. captain planet. teenage mutant ninja turtles. transformers. where is carmen sandiego. heman. weird science. art attack. i love lucy. my little genie. cheers. blossom. who's the boss. murphy brown. fresh prince of bel air. saved by the bell. 90210(haha shit!). the flash. boy meets world. picket fences. chicago hope. home improvement.

and these are juz the tv shows. thr's still the movies n music.

back to the future. et. star trek. outsiders. far n away. interview wif the vampire. legends of the fall. forest gump. pretty woman. when harry met sally.
michael jackson. material girl. vanilla ice(wahahha!). oasis. boyzone. indecent obsession. bryan adams. rod steward.

the early 90s. im starting to feel old.

listening to: none

so i took my shower u see. and when i stepped outta the cubicle, i looked into a mirror. and to my horror, i had an army of ants crawling between my nose and above my lip. ooh the horror. after 5 mins with the exterminator, i stepped outta the toilet, with no more ants. it felt good wiping my upper lip. aaaahhhhh. its good to be clean shaven. cherio~

listening to: alexisonfire - 44 calibre love letter

pics of geylang
are up.
also pics of my visit to OCS
yesterday are up too. pls take a look at them okay? your support and comments are greatly appreciated. cherio~

listening to: thrice - the melting point of wax

i've always like walking along gay-lang. all the lights. the food. the clothes. the 2 shops at the intersection trying to beat each other in making us deaf with their "murah murah!"

but i feel let down. cheated. i went to geylang yesterday night. nothing caught my eye. nothing. no nice clothes. no good food. and where was the chanting of "murah murah!"? all i heard was this public service announcement telling us to beware of pickpockets on the sound system. maybe its because baru berapa hari puasa lah. i donoe.

and is it me or are the shop owners chinese? like go away yellow ppl. its our festivities. u dont see us trying to sell suckling pig and what not during your cheena new year. oh wait. we cant sell pig. but nonetheless, we dont menyibuk at ur raya what.

oh and whats up with M&M's baru naik? the older species is worst enuf. but the younger spawns? i've had it up to my skinny neck with it. with tapered pants that are too short, and that springy walk. u noe how they walk and bounce of their heels on the balls of their feet? and their mesh caps. sigh. its ppl like them who make it impossible for kids like me to wear mesh caps and risk being called a mat. too many of them.

makes me sorta agree with that friendster chap who was anti malay. i dont really blame him. but its too biased lah. maybe he should rename his profile to be "anti mat minah". that way, even us malay's can join. cos its the MnMs that spoil the malays. not the malay as the whole.

dah start la tu bebual merepek. haha. ok dah lah. i shall stop my rantings here. a hungry man is a man who spouts nonsense out his mouth. cherio~

listening to: rufio - tears

pic of yesterday

samuel and zhen yun. accidental lovers. everyone was soo tired they didnt care who's head they were leaning on.

listening to: a static lullaby - we go to eleven

dear mum,
when i grow up, i want to be an officer and serve the country. i want to lead the men. i want to be at the forefront of using cutting edge technology for defence. but most importantly, i want to get the rank so that i can be a trophy boyfriend to iza. not that she isnt proud of me now. but "angkat sikit" ah. "up sikit". where she can show me off to her friends. and also a trophy son so u will be proud of me.

love,
me

do u know how hard it is to walk around for 6 hrs watching your friends drinking and eating while ur under the hot sun? its hard i tell u. really takes lots of mental strength.

i regret many things that happened yesterday. actually not many but lets just make it dramatic yeah? i regret taking M for the sweater cos now its a tad too small. i regret uhm, not charging my mp3 player cos the batt ran low. i regret not updating yesterday cos kel had nothing to read when she got bored.

there's something strangely wrong with my virus scanner. the resident scanner at the taskbar beside the clock on the pc doesnt work. it has an error. but the program itself is working. weird. cherio~

listening to: underoath - reinventing your exit

pics of bussorah street bazaar are up. haha. here's the link. you can also find it under the pictures section.

i wont recommend the bazaar to you. its not worth paying $4 for a small kebab with dried up leaves, a small serving of chicken and crusty bread. and $5 for roti kirai? please lah. designer chicken isit?

the bazaar used to be great. for the past years, the food looked yummy, and variety was the word of the day. this year, all the stalls sold either, briyani, kebab, kuih, or water. sheesh. all we had were variations of these. aper je. and i had mentally psyched myself up to go thru the torture of trudging thru stalls of food. but pfft. wasnt even tempted lah.

the food at the new banquet at vista point looked better. i think i'm gonna bug mum to buka there some time soon. sooo wanna eat the japanese food. cherio~

listening to: keepsake - one season too late

finally uploaded a couple of pics. they're pics of sentosa that i took when i went to the beach with iza last monday. not many pics lah. and if u're hoping for bikini babes, well what are u waiting for? click this la! haha.

here's a couple of non- bikini babe pics i took.

light speed








plus

equals

awww

okies. dont forget to click! if u wanna see bikini babes. cherio~

listening to: estrella - the letter

would you be my sunshine? would you be all mine?

for those of you who didnt know, i changed the skin yesterday to mark our 1 year anniversary. hehe yups.

-mushy alert-
to her:
i know i've been a pain in the ass recently. i've done things that made u sad, disappointed and angry at me even. as they always say, it's been a rough ride. but i wouldnt say we didnt have the good times. whatever the case is, i wanna say i really love you noriza. i never want this to change. i never want to leave you. i will always love you. without you i will not be who i am today. without you my days wouldnt be complete. without you there wouldnt be us. happy anniversary my dear noriza.

-end mushy alert-

going to bussorah street food bazaar later. double yayness. well actually one only lah. the other doesnt count as a yay. i get to take peektures there. i hope i can get really nice shots of people, places and of course the food. ah food. that's the other yay. food. dont have to elaborate ah. haha. cherio~

listening to: matchbook romance - stories and alibis

so i changed the layout all by myself. so its more personalised. which is better according to kel and ying ying. its not your run-of-the-mill blogskins kinda skin. and dont ask me who those two love birds canoodling in the picture are. cos i dont know. but i think its a nice pic. cherio~

listening to: bewitched on tv

relief. i'm promoted. right now that's what matters. the actual grades dun really count. yang penting, alhamdulillah i'm promoted.

have lots so say and do. but shall do later. and this blog is gonna be going thru some renovation so yups. stay tuned for it. cherio~

listening to: nothing

so tomorrow's the day. where we wake up before dawn to binge. and to refrain ourselves from eating, drinking, swearing, bitching and doing stuff that will erm, arouse us, from dawn till dusk. i'm real happy ramadan is gonna start.

and tmr's also the day we get our results. hopefully good news awaits me. its too late to pray now and too late to wish me luck. cos what's done is done. hopefully. cherio~

listening to: my chemical romance - demolition lovers

printed below are instructions on how to create your very own mutant buah.

1) identify your personality type using the instruments provided
2) add the correct substituents of fruits into concoctions.

in the case of me, im mutant buah grape melon. so this is how u make a mutant buah grape melon. add 60% grapes and 40% melons. yups. which kinda makes sense. cos i have 2 grapes. i dont think my grapes are the size of melons. so yup. i'm more towards a grape then melon.

so remember, to create your very own mutant buah, follow the 2 steps above. good luck. cherio~

listening to: from first to last - note to self

after only 2+ weeks of not using it, rust has formed. the bond and tightness once apparent in it has gone. what am i talking abt? the band. yup yup. had a jam session in the afternoon. i wouldnt say its good. i also wouldnt say it wasnt fruitful. cos we managed to cover note to self sans the singing. that we have to improve on tremendously. as always.

in the bus ride home me ashri and azfar talked abt quite alot under the sun. cos it was a really loong ride. took us from chompang to sembawang to senoko to admiralty to woodlands. oh and did i mention long?

anyways in the bus, there was this M&M ah. or so we thought. but when we alighted at the interchange, lo and behold it was an M&M alright. but minah and minah! wahseh fuck. butch lesbo alert. so cuddly touchy feely lesbo couple. pfft.

fast forward, me and ashri was sitting under my blk talking. and we saw a cat. and for no apparent reason ashri pointed the middle finger at it. and lo and behold it pointed a middle finger back. like what the fuck?!!! actually no it didnt. but the 2 of us were pondering. maybe the cat was trying really hard to. but since it has paws, like how the hell is it gonna do it? can u imagine? a cat trying so hard to get a finger up. the best it can do is a claw. haha. so the 2 of us were laughing our asses off.

ok so its not as funny when i'm talking abt it. but trust me it was funny just now. u do trust me right? well you wouldnt be reading this if u didnt trust me. who listens to someone who "bebual world" rite?

oh and did u know i'm a grape? not a sour grape but a grape/otter. yup im an otter. people oriented fun loving person. learnt that in school during personality profiling. im a grape melon cocktail. or an otter golden retreiver mutant. fun loving and stable person. people oriented. social.

so what do you think? am i a grape melon? cherio~

click for cherry

am here to try to dispute the illconcieved misconception held by some that subject is leading a life of slacking. but much to own shame it is true; subject has been leading a life of oppressed misery and a lethargy that she just cant seem to throw off lately. indicators are: miserable situation of depressed, unplucked eyebrows, obssessive sleeping disorder, loss of humour and sarcasm and binging of sinful food stuff. utterly and truly indispensable to the preservation of whatever little remains of subject's sanity (presuming sane stateofmind to begin with) has been friends and boyfriend. subject thus much obliged to give thanks to all participating parties and vow to be fully devoted to mission regarding mugging her heavy bottom off for the next seven weeks or so. subject's goal is as follows: return to the life of compulsive hedonism previously indulged in, after the hellish seven weeks. in the mean time, subject will hibernate lock herself with chains to her 45kg worth of notes. till then, pray for her.

listening to: matchbook romance - farewell to friends

havent been updating this little site for quite some time now. but i dont think anybody actually took notice. in any case, i feel like going on a hiatus on the menial reporting of my life.

now i have a tan. i like. some pictures will be up some time soon when i feel like it. i'm currently plotting global domination in the game evil genius. if u dont know what it is, click the website and download the demo. cherio~

hahahha. try this. its soooooo funny. cherio~

listening to: hit the lights - loose lips sink ships

i have a theory. lets call it rizal's theory. and the theory is, "having too many outlets dilutes standards".

case in point: i had dinner at an outlet of this chicken fast food place that shall remain unnamed. with an unnamed motto that involves licking of parts of the anatomy. so back to my theory. so i ordered a 2 piece meal at this unnamed chicken outlet with an anatomy licking motto, hoping to have 2 big pieces of juicy fried chickiiiin, a serving of coleslaw and hot whipped potato.

and what i got was; a tiny chicken wing that looked like it came from a famished chicken from africa, farty smelling coleslaw and cold whipped potato that was sludgey. oh and a cold bun. hmm. i didnt complain cos i didnt collect the food. mum did. but yar. what happened to the standards!!! oh the crime that has been done upon me!! but being the hungry person i am, i ate evertyhing clean.

therefore after licking the said anatomy in the said motto, i got down to thinking. maybe its cos the outlet was some what backwater? ok maybe backwater isnt the right word but uhm, not in town perhaps? thus being considered and deemed less important to standards. cos its just at a housing estate. only ahpeks and families eat there. they dont complain like snobbish high class people living at fifth avenue and bukit timah.

so therefore, from this one incident, i have biasedly come up with a theory that "having too many outlets dilutes standards". i know my argument is over-generalised and its a sweeping statement to base it on one experience but hey! its my blog.

so thats it then for tonight. dont feel like continuing my earlier story abt the interview. its not as if my life is that interesting that someone from across the world has to read it every few hrs. *sniggers* cherio~

listening to: hawthorne heights - niki fm

"my.love.
i'm.outside.of.your.window.
with.my.radio.
you.are.the.only.station.
that.plays.this.song.i.know."
hawthorne heights - niki fm

i like looking smart in my number 3 uniform. what i dont like is the itchy material its made of. makes u all hot and bothered. and what i also dont like is no matter how nice u make ur hair looks, it'll get screwed up beyond repair because u have to wear the beret. bah.

had the interview for my Exercise Wallaby earlier. freaking waste of my freaking time. 4 groups of interviews being conducted on the same day. sheesh. and we were the last grp to go. and they took like half an hr for the other 3 grps that by the time it got to our turn, it was already 5. mind you, i had to wait from 230 to 5 standing up cos there was no more place to seat. in the fucking hot weather. in my scratchy itchy uniform.

then i'll continue later. going out for dinner. haha. cherio~

listening to: estrela - the letter

its over. my last chance. for a new beginning. we'll have to wait for the results next week i guess.

uhm so my dear band mates. when will our next session be? azfar suggests wednesday cos he ends school at 6pm on tuesday. how abt u guys? ashri and ihsan? how? cherio~

listening to: switchfoot - only hope

feeling the burn of exams. tired. brain's almost dead. one more paper to slog thru. you can do it boy. strive on. cherio~

listening to: mengaji competition on tv

i dont like new toothbrushes. they make my gums bleed. cherio~

listening to: voices in my head

i'm being besieged by voices in my head. causing panic and anxiety in me. one side is telling me "u studied in the previous weeks. no worries" and another side is saying "*insert evil laugh here* u still have a lot more to go. and tmr is the big day."

no prizes for guessing who's winning. sigh. i cant afford to screw this up. i cant afford to. dear god give me strength to overcome this obstacle.

voices in my head. pfft. cherio~

listening to: payback on tv

GP paper just now. the comprehension was surpisingly easy. i dont think my answers will go wrong. except the summary. hmm that im not too sure ah.

i hope i did the essay question correctly. not NAQ. oh this show really reminds me of max payne. dark guy seeking revenge. hmm.

dad came home from business already. looks like pictures are gonna be back up on a regular basis again. ok back to my maths. cherio~

listening to: the get up kids - i'm a loner dottie, a rebel

oh and i realised one thing. someone from canada has been reading my blog. like consistently. and if its who i think it is, well then i have one thing to say to u "u're not really welcomed here. so i ask nicely of u, please dun read my blog again yah?"

and i know its the internet. u can do whatever u want. but since im asking nicely, i hope u'd listen and stop reading it. thanks. cherio~

listening to: new found glory - broken sound

do u ever have this feeling? when u wake up and u feel like the day's just gonna turn out alright? that ur gonna have the best things happen to u on that day? hmm. if u have then lucky you. cos i sure as hell didnt feel that way this morning.

have u ever had this feeling? when u wake up and u feel like the day just sucks? well then too bad for u. cos i didnt have that feeling either.

cleaned, clorox-ed and scrubbed the toilet this morning. spanking clean. yup. and as usual i knicked myself. good thing it was a really small one.

realised i didnt mug yesterday. had to take a day off lah. too tired to do anything. so i guess its full steam ahead again today. cherio~

listening to: rufio - she cries

u know the old wives tale. where if u bit ur lip accidently it means someone mengumpat abt u? well i think someone did just now. in the span of 5 minutes, i bit my lip 3 times. goodness. at the same spot. now there's an ulcer. which means i cant kiss anymore. *pouts*

ok that's all for ur daily news report on channel rizal. tune in next time for more reports. cherio~

listening to: saosin - 7 years

so any orders? cherio~

listening to: glasseater - shortcut to a quick getaway



i made that for bfast. hehe. a triple (or isit double?) decker sandwhich. wats in it u ask? well lettuce. onions. cucumber. and 2 thick slices of turkey ham with paprika. yap. and 3 slices of buttered bread. and chilli sauce ah. yum yum.

anybody want some? i'm charging $1 per single deck and $1.50 per double deck. tag me for orders yah. haha. cherio~

channel me.

okies im reali bored this morning. too bored dat i actually started to mug. bleah. math of all subjects. somehow i managed to get it done. amazingly wif the right answers. anyways, prelims results are crap. cant expect much ah since i didnt study until the day before. history - D. mlyA - B. econs - F(or AO). muahaha exactly no change frm CTs. oh well. a month more to go. can i make it?

i need money now. i want a supersampler. i want i want. nora told me there was a lomo exhibition yday somewhere. hmm shud haf gone. haish.

listening to: none

quote of the day (adapted from bebs):
"senteng babi goreng deng deng nana muka boring ah"

oh i hafta solat first. update later. cherio~

-edited at 1958hrs-

listening to: alexisonfire - 44 caliber love letter

so where was i. hmm yar. deng deng nana muka boring. a pigeon flew in front of us today. i wanted to kick it. but it was too high. so bebs said i shud have punched it. yar why not. but i still thought we cant punch it. it'll be too fast. but bebs mantained her stand that the fuckingly slow pigeon can even be caught like that. haha.

bitched about so many ppl in town today. everyone kena ah. haha. from the person sitting innocently to the bitchy looking ones walking down town.

just when i had my confidence level boosted up doing some revision papers, they reached a low again after trying some promo papers. man oh man. i guess i need a lot of luck on my side. hopefully i wont forget the methods for the questions that i attempted.

things left to study:
* bio: i have barely started. i think i'm gonna forego this and score my other subjects
* chem: 3 more topics. energetics and uhm. haha i donoe.
* maths: trigo and applications of differentiation and integration. 3 major topics. sigh.

i guess i'm still behind. have to do many past promo papers i guess. cherio~