fact of the day: yak's milk is pink in colour.

haha. iza suddenly told me that fact. aper aje la that one. hehe. so anyways. i have to do PW till the results come out in april. hopefully its out soon. yeah. and tmr i have to go for the PEARLS briefing. cos i skipped on sat. thinking i dun hafta go. like damn it lah. i attended the fucking briefing last yr. wat changes u talking abt? plus saturday morning i was helping out the cca carnival wat fucktards.. hmm. there. feel better now. hehe.

i'm in love. with her. duh. cherio~

ps: her is iza la. duh. cherio~

song list for socks.25's upcoming jamming. time? unknown. place? unknown. date? unknown. why? because we cant seem to get a time down. or some of us have money problems. aaaaaaargh. this sucks. me azfar and ihsan gian like fuck already sial. sigh. anypoops here it is.

1)sum 41 - grab the devil
2)rufio - above me
3)rufio - countdown
4)saosin - seven years
5)static lullaby - radio flyer
6)socks.25 - die ditch die
7)socks.25 - instrumental (the indo sounding one. i donoe wats the title)

and dats it. our song list hasnt changed in ages!! goodness. 2 months already i think. like fuck. cherio~

arghhh. go away!

stalkers are crazee. they haf nothing to do. just go away!
go find something to do la. move on. and leave me alone.
stalkers are one thing. pranksters are another.
but they are all psychos.

some idiot called twice this aftn. i thot it was my aunt's no. but when i picked up the idiot hung up. urgh. pissing off.
then he had the cheek to msg me aft dat.
i am jack from china come here 4 study. can i make friend wif u. if u don want also can. i will stop 2 disturb u any more. my english quite poor.

watever la. dun expect me to buy dat crap. dunno how u get my no. and do all these stupid pranks.

just go get a life. and u too stalker.

well. we beat SP on saturday's fmsa quiz shindig. well done guys. and gal. haha. whopee.. the other teams were like sooo far away from us. haha. so anypops. we got into the semis. yeap.

havent been blogging much. cos all i'll be doing is drone abt my mundane life. i havent been able to spend time with my new class cos we havent had tutorials yet. just lectures. well i hope they're nice ppl la. quite a few ppl from my 15/04 are there. luckily the ones im close with. haha. not the ones i dun wanna be with. hehe.

feeling rather scared. abt wat i shant say. just hope everything's alrite in the time to come. pray for me that everything will be fine. cherio~

didnt go to sch today. had diarrhea. kept on waking up in the middle of the night to berak. didnt haf enuf sleep to go thru sch. so yeah.

but i went out in the afternoon. hehe. went to watch The Eye 2 wif rizal. wanted to watch Butterfly Effect but it was too late. it wasnt dat scary actually. but yea pregnant women shudnt watch. there is this especially disturbing scene where the ghost kinda float down the ceiling and goes in head first into the woman's birth canal. like waaad? they cud at least do it in a better way. it was like. erm suggestive? haha.

oooh. and i had my haagen daz strawberry icecream today! yeays! it was sooo yummy. and we actually went to buy a metal spoon. hehe. coz i insisted dat gd icecream shudnt be eaten wif plastic spoons. it juz loses its taste. so yeah only metal spoons for icecream. haha. okies it juz me.

damn. my tummy's feeling funny again.

uploaded the fotos of the ncc camp. click the pic for more. or the "shots" link on the right menubar. cherio~

yeays. im getting dat soon. haagen daz strawberry. either dat or macadamia brittle. *drools*

i like
1) how her lips look like when she smiles. or when she pouts.

2) her nose too. especially when it crinkles up in disgust. or when she's feeling hot. or sticky.

3) the way she teases me by brushing her arm against me in a crowded train. that i like alot.

4) or how she'll tease me by coming close and letting the smell of her perfume fill me.

oh speaking of which she lost her perfume bottle. damn. no more smelling like iza. what if i got blind? then i wouldnt be able to sniff her out sey. oh well. what else do i like? oh-oh yeah!! i know. haha. most importantly of all. i like how she loves me! cherio~

senses fail. my all time favourite band.

i feel sick. not sakit. but sick. yeah.
i dun feel like doing anything.
but i haf overdued datelines to meet. bleugh.
i dun wana do this anymore.
i wana do wad i wana do.

dat is:
1) go to spain/maldives/cancun/turkey.
2) go to some poor country wif malnutritioned kids.
3) teach my granny how to read.
4) build a house by the beach.
5) tell some pple in the train to bathe.
6) go shopping. sleep. eat. dream. play.

*dun waste ur time reading on*

1. i wana go spain coz i've always wanted to. probably meet raul and tell him how gorgeous he is. and his wife too. i wana tell her to continue to be a bitch to posh spice. oh and i got a letter from st. louise uni. in madrid. how did they get my address? i live in khatib! ooh maybe its a sign. and the brocher attached shows pretty pictures of madrid. ahhh i liiike!

maldives/cancun. looove dat place. so beautiful. i wana die there. oh and before dat. maybe have my honeymoon there. wah.

turkey. i dun mind being a carpet weaver there. and having to eat kebabs everyday. pretty place wif pretty people. i can live there selling carpets i weaved and probably marry a fisherman there. rite rizal? hehe.

2. i wana go africa or wherever it is that is filled with malnutritioned kids. so kesian noe? i'll bring them big macs, haagen daaz, lollies, m&ms, hersheys bar, lotsa chocolates, nasi ayam...anything they wana eat. really i do wana do this. okay i do waste food sometimes. but i do think of these kids who dun have food to eat. and i wana bring them all the food i have.

3. yea. its amazing how she can get through life not knowing how to read. can u imagine that? but she's one hippie granny. she asks me to buy her coffee bean. she cooks me lasagne. and me and my sis brings her to town once a month to chill. haha. she's not any granny. my granny rocks. but pls dun imagine her to be 'dah tua tak sadar diri'. she's like any conventional granny. and i love her to bits. but we converted her in some ways. hehe. and oh yeah. i wana teach her how to read. its so cute and yet saddening sometimes when i see her open the papers, put on her glasses and 'reads' the paper. yeah.

4. a house by the beach. with lotsa daisies. the interior is constantly changing in my head. yet to finalise this.

5. people should know that they wont die if they bathe in the morning. i swear one day im gona tell some people dat. they go to work/school/wherever with their bed-messed hair and that smell. i cant describe it. something like 'bau bantal'. yea. dddisgusting. *gags*

6.i need more time to do all this. i wana eat, sleep, dream all the time. i hafta learn to maximise my time. wasted too much time on thinking and stoning.

i wana do all dat.

haha. this pic is funny. a mascot promoting safe sex in hong kong. cherio~

aww so cute rite? hehe gosh. just feel like squeezing those kitties. cherio~

courtesy of www.zwartekat.nl

aww so cute eh? hehe. found it on the net. cherio~

school tmr. bleugh. but at least i get to see him. yays. the only thing to look forward to. cant stand thinking abt sch. 8 months left. n my As better be good. im sacrificing my aussie trip to mug during the june hols.

i hate school.

today was crap. reached republic poly at 9 and had to wait for more than an hour for the rest of the pple to come. janji melayu as usual. and this guy saiful was trying to explain to grace what janji melayu was all abt. quite funny. but yeah saiful was supposed to 'entertain' us. weird guy who started talking about everythg n anythg. he was blabbering crap the whole hour and explaing stuff from grace's bio book to us as if he's some smart ass. i wanted to tell him to just shut up but grace kept on asking him questions.

everythg else was total crap. it was supposed to end at 7. but i cabut at 5+. i cudnt stand it there any longer. too many weird pple. the only thg dat was interesting was the lateral thinking workshop. dats the only useful thg i learnt frm thr. thr's another workshop tmr. at tampines. gosh. mgt consider going. it all depends on how i wake up tmr. it ends at 6 for goodness sake. i'll probably cabut agn.

ooh. republic poly was quite nice. they had like colourful container classes. soo fun. and pink buildings and orange chairs. hehe. i sound so childish. but yeah nice colourful sch. it seems so hi-5.

hey ppl. using my friend's laptop from school. haha. sempat siol. its now 2344 and day two of the camp. tmr last day. like finally sey. this camp damn nightmare. tiring siol. and also damn freakin humid. and i miss her!! haha. as usual la rizal. :p so anyways im too sleepy now to blog ah. haha. too lazy and hungry and sleepy. cherio~

ooh. stumbled upon this show 'the residents' on tv2 when i channel surfed. its like a reality tv show only that its about real life patients and residents in some hospital. its reali touching and sad to watch it.

the doctors carried out this operation called domino transplant. they took half a liver of a healthy living donor(doug) and transplanted it into jeff whose liver is failing coz of some enzyme that is infecting his heart too. they later took jeff's failing liver and transplanted it to lily who has liver cancer. lily can survive on jeff's liver for at least 29 years before she starts suffering the same symptoms as jeff. so yeah. it was another 29 years for her. the whole transplant although complicated was reali amazing actually. doug's liver saved 2 lives indirectly. it was touching reali coz jeff could not haf survived for long if he hadnt had the transplant. and after the transplant he planned to marry his fiancee. aww. so touching i almost cried.

and there was this resident in the hospital whose brain got infected with something even the doctors didnt know what it was. she was reali determined to finish her residency in the hospital and go finish up her medicine practice there. but it was reali sad when she had a epileptic seizure while having dinner and fell to a coma. gosh. sooo sad.

wah. sedih ah. cannot take it. but yeah it was a good show. hafta watch it next wk.

the cat's pajamas. the bee's knees.

overslept today. supposed to be in sch by 8am. history field trip to ISD. bah. i was still sleeping at 8.30! felt like at idiot when they called me up and told me the bus was waiting for me! gosh. talked to mr tan over the fone. explained i overslept. he was fine wif it. just told me to get updates from the class what they saw. so yeah. such a bumming idiot i am.

so yeah. felt so dumb like an idiot when i hang up. but i felt good after that. i filed up all my work from last term and last year! woohoo! haha. sounded like such a mugger. but yeah. finally got my stuff organised. easier to revise. dat is if i ever do. hehe. and and i did my history and math tutorials. haha. im proud of myself for being a mugger today. hehe. there's still loads of hw to do. bleugh. but its okie i guess. it keeps me occupied while rizal's away for camp. missing u loads bebs. shall hafta finish up my hw by tmr. hafta attend some crap workshop on sat & sun. urgh.

ooh. had a yummy lunch. made it myself. haha. easy job la. just made pan fried salmon. but it was soo yummy. i tink i can eat salmon everyday of my life. erm maybe not. hmm. i haf a craving for brownies topped wif icecream. *drools* ah crap. shud haf asked mum to buy me those betty crocker's mix. damn. anyone care to make me one? hehe. ooh and mum's getting me kenny roger's from jb. hehe. yummyness. hehe. okie okie. shall stop talking abt food already.

im getting fat. shit.

gosh. im so bored at home today. didnt do anything except watch the telly and eat. pigging out. haha. but yeah. there's nothing to do. i even cleaned the house today. haha. no one's home so yeah im dead bored. bleugh.

but yday was reali fun. went to suntec. gosh there were loads of pple la. like there's nowhere else to go. haha. but the cheesecake was sinfully yummy. hehe. gosh im eating soo much. ooh i had timeout icecream just now. gosh. soo yummy and sweet. im gona be so fat. gosh.

anyways, parents are off to tioman. wif diana. haha. at last there's peace at home. but its so quiet at home its driving me nuts. granny's in jb now. and so is rizal. hmm. there's nothing to do. okies okies i'll stop complaining. i'll find something to entertain myself. hopefully.

had such a great time today. met up with her. went to the IT fair lah. walked around aimlessly like we used too. hehe. then walk2 ard suntec. met up nora and sarah. ate blueberry cheesecake (sori kel had to make u jealous) and mocha ice blended. then sent her home. hehe. well lazy to tell u the details. just that i had LOADS of fun today. yeap. cherio~

hey guys. my pc is "fixed" or so i thought. its still fucked up. eargh wadahell. looks like its time for a new PC. and my dad agrees. he says if its that problematic then might as well change. haha yipee. new pc here i come. he wants to change to a pentium though. i dun reali care lah. haha. but seriously i dun mind the stuff i have now. just a new processor and motherboard. reali need the change.

life has been great. reali great. love life. school life. social life. haha. photographic life. been taking fotos. but they were lost when my pc got reformatted. bah humbug.

well yeah. i miss blogging here. welcome back rizal!!! cherio~

oooh. its been so looong. hehe. havent been blogging lately. why ah? haha. okies nvm. hmm im in sch rite now. last day of term. supposed to end at 230 but they just had to make us go for crap leadership training course. like wad?! leadership cant be trained in one stupid course! its either u haf it or u dont. ergh. its a friday for goodneess sake!

hehe. got a tag from farhanah. how did she get here? its been soo long since i last saw her. how ya doing in pj eh? missed u so much. hols are here again. parents going away for holiday. yeays! hehe.

gosh this room im in is scary. the lights suddenly dimmed for no reason. they are those lights which u turn the knob to adjust the brightness. and im like alone in the dark here. *looks around* hehe. scary ah. but it isnt my first time in this room but i dunno today it just feels funny. haha. i just turned on all the lights. takut ah! alrite nvm lets not scare myself. anyways, i watched a bit of gothika the other day. it wasnt reali dat scary la. well i watched just a bit and got bored. so yeah. i dunno if its reali scary. but penelope cruz did look psychotic. hehe.

okies. my break is up. econs next. eeeeew. last lesson for the day. before the "leadership" course. bleugh.

finally got this $%%^# pc fixed. gotta update a whole load of shit. update this blog later. cherio~

its been a long time since i updated this thing. well my pc has been down of sorts la. the same problems got worst and new problems have cropped up. so yeah. i havent sent it for repair tho. haha. dont have the time yet. maybe sending it for repairs later today. well so what has happened recently eh?

well first up talentime. oh well. to quote fazlin "u may not have won, but u're now the sweetest guy in ajc" haha. oh well i guess so. hehe. how not to when i mentioned her name in the song. rite dear? hehe. so actuali dats abt all that's happened so far. hehe. cherio~

lost in this reverie
the waves crashes over.
the stars begin to descent
as i dropped to my knees.

surrender to such sweet sorrow
shadows engulfs the being
leaving only footprints and
teardrops soiled in the sand.


my first piece in ages. gosh.
i've totally lost touch in writing.

okies. somehow the pill did work. it did make me drowsy. and i fell asleep. 2 hours i think. now im wide awake. its okie coz i'll juz watch the encore of oscar later or something. oh charlize theron won best actress. well, she ought to. did u see how she looked like in Monster? gosh. and she looks exactly like the real lesbian serial killer. i sooo wana watch dat movie. but its bloody RA. crap. anyways, gona see how good she looks later. she's such a pretty lady.

irma and rahman's birthday tmr. happy birthday guys!! may all ur wishes come true.
geez 3 more months to go before I turn 18. sooo slow. bleugh. but but there's still things i havent done dat i wana do before i turn 18. like, erm... like wad eh? gosh. my brain's not functioning now. not dat it does anyways. haha. okies shall put up the list soon when my brain's back in its mode.

boredom leads to....

I WANT: right now? sleep.
I REGRET: too many things
I WISH: to be in spain/maldives rite now
I LOVE: rizal, me frens & family
I HATE: mosquitos, being lonely
I MISS: some pple
I FEAR: losing pple i love
I SEE: too shortsightedly
I HEAR: buzzing
I SEARCH: for solitude
I WONDER: when im gona be successful..haha...yes laugh at me.
I KNOW: bollocks!

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...
SMILED? on my way home.. rejab was telling crappy jokes...
DANCED? ages ago!
GOT HAMMERED? eh?
KISSED SOMEONE? hmmm he knows when.. hehe
HUGGED SOMEONE? saturday..yeays!
HAD A NIGHTMARE? last week i tink...
LAST THING YOU READ: my pill prescription. I'M SUPPOSED TO BE DROWSY!
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW ON THE BIG SCREEN: raising victor vargas
LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED: home
LAST SHOW YOU WATCHED ON TV: gilmore girls
LAST SONG YOU HEARD: so i need u -3DD
LAST THING YOU HAD TO DRINK: some cordial nenek made
LAST THING YOU ATE: my uncle's bday cake

DO YOU...
SMOKE? nopes.
SLEEP WITH STUFFED ANIMALS? no way! they're satanic!
HAVE A CRUSH? not now
HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? yeaps
HAVE A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK? i tink so
REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE? sort of
STILL LOVE HIM/HER? nopes
READ THE NEWSPAPER? yeah. life section everyday.
HAVE ANY GAY OR LESBIAN FRIENDS? a few back in ij
BELIEVE IN MIRACLES? not at the moment
BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER? i know i can. dunno abt the rest of u..
CONSIDER YOURSELF TOLERANT OF OTHERS? yes definitely.
LIKE THE TASTE OF ALCOHOL? dunno how it tastes
BELIEVE IN GOD? yups.
HAVE ANY SECRETS? loads
HAVE ANY PETS? they all died on me.
GO TO OR PLAN TO GO TO UNIVERSITY? duh
WEAR HATS? nopes
HAVE ANY PIERCING? yes
HAVE ANY TATTOOS? nopes
HATE YOURSELF? eh?
HAVE A BEST FRIEND? yeaps
HAVE ANY BAD HABITS? being secretive & forgiving
CARE ABOUT LOOKS? dont everyone?
TRUST OTHERS EASILY? sadly, yes.
LIKE SARCASM? not when used on me
TAKE WALKS IN THE RAIN? it depends. there are 2 types of walks in the rain. happy walks & sad walks.
KISS WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED? yups
SING IN THE SHOWER? nah
HAVE ANY SCARS? not only physically

im sick. sigh. went home early from school today. too sick to live on. the mucus has started its attempt to drown me again. urgh. i hate this. and the stupid fedac pill aint working. im supposed to be drowsy! it says there on the sticker thingy! hello?! it aint working! maybe later i shud take another one. or two. hehe.

bluegh. life's really sad nowadays. i have no life really. loads of homework to do. how am i gona start mugging when i cant even finish my hw. crap. hmmm. its like im stuck here living this shit life. going thru the motion every day again and again. everyday is a routine! gosh. i even haf a specific time to berak every morning! its 6.50am by the way. gosh. my life's dat sad.

hmm. and i cant freaking change the date on my watch. its 1st march not 2nd!! sheesh. its pissing me off. okies. im getting a bit off here. yeah even the watch gets me on my nerves.

gee wads wrong wif me.