lost and helpless
as im unable to comfort you
i cant kiss away ur tears
or hold u tight against me

so u say ur the worst
girlfriend that i ever had
but im still here
always loving you

i'll pick out the brightest stars
out from the sky
and choose the brightest
of them all for u

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well today had ML and NCC at the same time. gosh havent donned on the NCC uniform in a mth. dats effing long man. i mean seeing how i usually go for NCC. guess i feel more responsibility to ML now. seeing how i'm exco. *shrugs* and mebbe its also cos of iza. hehe. if i go mldds can see her. rite?

hehe today mum and dad and adik supposed to sleep over at JB. just for fun lah. so i tot they did. i called and then they said they were going home oreadi. haah. terperanjat sey. lucky dint bring iza over. *phew* so me and iza had lunch at BK. we were starving sey. ate so fast. hehe.

O level results yesteday. wonder if my friends did well. from wat i heard from may, the class did well. dats gd i guess. it doesnt concern me la. haha. cos i got mine last yr. :)

happy anniversary to filza and fad. 9 mths isit? hehe. semoga hubungan kamu berdua diberkati Allah. hehe. cherio~

a static lullaby - nightmares win 6-0

This nightmare ends.
as the cocoon fills with oil.
fossils bocome waste upon cemented wings.
on the rocks father spills memories of mothers eyes.
a kiss turns to brandy.
a dagger learns to cut hair.
lipstick stains her addiction...
watch the cresent moon turn clouds into frowns.
watch to sea swallow and forget...
given up ambiton for and legs...
venom engulfs the most precious fairy tales.
goldilocks fogets the bite for prince charming...
each window breaths smoke, pacement paces while ciggarettes burn.
a tribal affair rises the masses of broken hearts left at her door.

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managed to get into the finals of talentime.. haha.. right there. on top.. no 1 on the band/group category. MY FAVOURITE ACCIDENT.. woohoo. haha. tak sangka siol. me and sharm screwed up like shit. apparently the teacher highly recommended us. haha. gerek dok.

tix are FOC i think. lemme repeat. i THINK. its on the 5th march. evening i think at AJC. i'll post up more details when i get them. haha. good luck to me. cegedebah. haha. cherio~

Odio los mosquitos! arghh.. ellos me mordieron por todas partes. su picar por todas partes ahora. lo maldice.

Yo no se por que yo writing esto en espanol. haha. nora lo empezo la. ella me paso el libro espanol ayer en popular. tan si. ella lo empezo.

Aburria la escuela hoy. el todo parecido tan afloja. pero sastera termino realmente temprano hoy. porque era solo mi y hasan alli. boringness. todo hicimos era se turna para leer. como de costumbre la. entonces cikgu estaba como preguntarme 'noriza, awak ngantuk?' estaba como 'ngantuk la cikgu.' entonces el estaba como 'baiklah awak boleh balik.' haha. cikgu es tan agradable.

La mierda. obtuve 2 pruebas el sabado. gp e historia. he obtenido para estudiar tanto para la historia. mejor comienzo que estudia ahora. ahora. ahora. argh. despues que la prueba el sabado yo tengo que ver la mermelada de cikgu. tan presurizando para hablar con ella. ella habla afloja tambien y suave para mi. ah bien.

Hmm. *Las mordeduras de mozzie de rasgunos* espero realmente su no sey de dengue. dios prohibe. espero. argghhhh..

listening to: barney is a dinosaur from our imagination. lalalla.

haha adik watching barney in my room. hehe. jumping around. so cute. dgn tak pakai baju. just in her pj bottoms. hhee. oh i haf mixed feelings abt my hair. its nice and also not nice in its own way. haha. not making any sense. but yeah.

hafta write script for tmr GP skit. hmm. cherio~

went to watch movie today. raising victor vargas. quite an interesting show actually. well not quite an interesting storyline but interesting how the movie was. okie nvm im not making sense. but there's this funny part where victor was trying to teach his brother to lick his lips. haha. cute. he kept insisting that girls look at guys lips when they are talking. haha. do we? depends on who im talking to i tink. hehe. and after that rizal kept licking his lips like how victor did. haha.

then we went to the barber after that. my first time in a barber. haha sad i know. but yeah it feels weird to be in a barber. i dunno why. it just is. maybe it was bcoz of beckham's pic staring back at me. haha.

okies im tired. school tmr. bleugh.

oh. does anyone has this song?
its 'more today than yesterday' by goldfinger. i want this song.

I don't remember what day it was
I didn't notice what time it was
All I know is that I fell in love with you
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you
Every day's a new day in love with you
With each day comes a new way of loving you
Every time I kiss your lips my mind starts to wonder
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Oh I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
Oh I love you more today than yesterday
But darling not as much as tomorrow

Tommorrow makes each springtime just a day away
Cupid we don't need you now be on your way
I thank the Lord for love like ours that grows ever stronger
And I always will be true
I'll be spending time with you

Oh I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
Oh I love you more today than yesterday
But darling not as much as tomorrow

Every day's a new day, every time I love ya
Every time's a new way, every time I love ya...

hey ppl. changed the bg song again. gotta wait ah to hear it. so just be patient k? cherio~

chill

chill. haha. some term me and my sis use when we just go to town to eat, walk arnd n haf coffee. dat means no shopping involved but lotsa bitching. yups.

we cudnt decide wad to eat when we reached town. even contemplated going to adam road just to eat. but we had big mac coz i was too lazy to go all the way there. haha.
oh and we went to kino. gosh i love this section on design. the photography section especially. sooo nice books on photography. im soo gona buy those coffee table books when i haf a house of my own. ooh and they sell lomo cameras there. im gona get one soon. when i haf the money dat is. im gona get the super sampler. gosh i want it. they sell it there for 99. im gona save up. didnt know dat the action sampler wif flash is more expensive. but i dun care. super samplers pics are nicer.

oh gosh. i saw this really disgusting chinese shemale. disgusting la. he's got such a big body build. but then got rebonded hair and had hair clip on sumore. and and he got boobs. hehe. small perky ones. it was so obviously fake coz it was too high up. hehe. and the train was so crowded and he had to squeezed next to my sis. and apparently his boobs kept on getting pressed onto my sis arms. hahaha. she said it felt chewy! hahaha. gosh i was laughing in the train till i cried. i had to keep the laughter down and my face was soo red. haha. and his voice was so sengau when he talked on the fone. haha. i cudnt stop laughing coz my sis kept on making aroused faces when he brushed against her. i swear pple thot i was crazy laughing so hard.

gosh. im so sorry. but i cudnt help it. its fiza's fault. hehe.

just called sweetie up to wake her. hehe. supposed to wake her up at 5. but when i called. she told me to call 15 mins later. haha. wat onie that one. she's geting ready to meet her sister now i think. going to town to "chill" haha. her own words sey. "chill" wish i cud follow. but nah. let her spend time with fiza.

anyways went to bugis to her after mldds. ate at BK as usual. then she sent me home. haha. then on hte bus saw my parents car driving outta the carpark. so we hung ard and talked ah. yeap. spent time with each other since i wasnt expected to be home. then she went home ard 3+. yar yar i noe a girl sending a guy home? haha. wat la. budden we take turns ah. fair wat. rite?

so tests just now sucked. its like. bio i forgot wateva the teacher went thru in class yesterday. shit lah. cos the questions were exactly what ms mani went thru. eargh. then chem was shit lah. killer paper i think. damn. dissappointed in myself cos i did the blardy topic last yr sey. like wadafish. sigh.

cherio~

PMS

im pms-ing. yes. pms me = bitch
im sorry to those i've offended in any way. its got smthg to do wif menses.

went to seoul garden just now. wif my family. haha. wad an impromtu family lunch. everyone was there. as if it was some weekend. so yea. i ate and ate and ate. was careful not to let my stomach explode this time. coz if it did, it was gona be messy.

hmm.. okies im bored. as usual. the telly's not playing anythg good. oh my sisters quarelling. haha. good.
*listens intently* wait ar. i listen first.

okies dah dengar. hahaha. apparently my sister (fiza) is not gona talk to my younger sis (diana) anymore.
coz coz diana took 3 roses frm fiza's bouquet frm her bf. diana took 2 to do an experiment them. hahaha. and threw away the other one. saje aje. hahaha. my sisters. free entertainment.

haha. this is funny too. just had this convo.

[HyDroBUrn] unable to catch the falling autumn leaf with my open hand. too many lah. [HyDroBUrn] {maghrib} says:
i hope my doa dikabulkan
- fragile as a leaf in autumn, just falling to the ground without a sound - says:
wad did u doa for?
[HyDroBUrn] unable to catch the falling autumn leaf with my open hand. too many lah. [HyDroBUrn] {maghrib} says:
ya Allah. kasilah iza cempat cure dari pms dia
[HyDroBUrn] unable to catch the falling autumn leaf with my open hand. too many lah. [HyDroBUrn] {maghrib} says:
my exact words
[HyDroBUrn] unable to catch the falling autumn leaf with my open hand. too many lah. [HyDroBUrn] {maghrib} says:
dint noe how to phrase it
[HyDroBUrn] unable to catch the falling autumn leaf with my open hand. too many lah. [HyDroBUrn] {maghrib} says:
but i noe Allah understands me
- "ya Allah. kasilah iza cepat cure dari pms dia" - says:
HAHAHAHAAHAHAH
- "ya Allah. kasilah iza cepat cure dari pms dia" - says:
sooooo cute

[hydroburn] = rizal
[fragile..../ ya allah] = me

haha. gosh. my pms dat bad arh?

just came back from shopping~!!! actuali abt an hr ago lah. hehe yeah. she bought me a nice tee shirt from topshop.. eh topshop is the gerl one. haha. topman. yeap its daaaaaaamn nice. i liiiiiike. hehe. yay thanks pumpkin.

so yeah walked ard town as usual. ate at liat towers. then bought my tee. walk somore. then met her sis to help her find something to buy for her guy fren. cos he's going back to aussie for studies. so yeah. talked to fiza for the first time siol. haha. kinda okay. not shy2 like last time. took some fotos. as usual pics will be up soon.

so anypoops before tat had jogathon. twas okay. cheered had fun. not sooo tiring like before. then family day was an utter waste of time. fotos will be up soon too.

so dats my day. had loads of fun. cherio~

2nd row frm left: azi and ashri 1st row frm left:ihsan and me


pic of us playing with some bicycles parked under the void deck. haha. crap.


us at the void deck playground. looks like we're floating rite? flying kick gitu. haha.


anuder shot at the playground.

changed the bg music. kel dint like it. so i changed. heh. coldplay - the scientist. cherio~

pics are up. u noe where they are. or click here lah. cherio~

just came back from jamming. we suck. haha. well not reali. just a bit messy. but we managed to play static lullaby - radio flyer. haha. yay for us lah. just need to practice. 2 mths since we jammed.

then took some pics here and there. they're gonna be uploaded soon. im hungry. havent eaten lunch too. just had 4 pieces of toast bought frm the coffee shop at LKS. haha.

yay going out with her tmr after jogathon. sadly there's gonna be mldds after jogathon. so yeah. date will hafta be later a bit. haha i dun mind. cherio~

school seems to be reali boring these days. its like i just pass thru school without really going thru school. u noe? like just going thru the motion. i wonder.

today was hasan bday. haha. dia kena bantai rabak sey. but i dint get a chance to join. haha. sadness.

jam session tmr. i donoe how it'll go. i hope it'll go well. i hope. gonna try radio flyer. posted up the lyrics in the previous entry in an attempt to memorise it. hha. hopefully.

gave pumpkin a HUUUUUUUGE hug just now. haha. cherio~

a static lullaby - radio flyer's last journey

its cold,its raining
and conneticut is hating me
the snowflakes on gallows
in the fall serenity
(yeah[x6])
[Joe screaming]
lay me down on thorns and nails
splintering the bones
lay me down on thorns and nail
the last one to pass in his bed
[Joe screaming]
again....leave me alone....i'm sorry, sorry
lay me down
Poison nails
Lay me down
in this bed
he's warm hes floating
and the angels wings are carrying
the radio flyer sends for him
and the mother now buries it
lay me down on thorns and nails
splintering the bones
he last one to pass in his bed
[joe screaming]
I'll open this bottle of wine [x4]

please take my hand
and grab it tight
so i can hold u
and whisper in ur ear
that i love u

i am her hunny bunny.
she is my pumpkin.

haha i realise hunny bunny is a girl's name but. wadahell. cherio~

hw hw hw. i love doing hw. i reali do. hehe. mugger spirit coming back to me. shall hit the books again. cherio~

i love u sooooooooooooo much. hehe. nothing will change that dear. saaaaaayang u alot. hehe. *hugs tight* cherio~

"the storm turned into a vertical rain of bullets"
-max payne 2: the fall of max payne.

gosh i love tat game. keep playing it over and over again. no matter how many times i see it the effects never fail to blow me away. and somehow my crap pc can take it at medium setting. cool eh? doesnt chug along at all. very very smooth. hehe. cherio~

just got home ard half hr ago. went to town with nori dear. hehe. pretended it was our first date and all. the polite talking. innocent questions. probing abt each other. haha. padahal we've been together for quite some time now. so walked ard looking for my teeshirt. yeah. she wanted to buy me a teeshirt u see. pink to be exact. when we reachd top shop. i saw quite a few tees i wanted. but the price turned me away. even i dun buy tees dat cost $40 sey. i mean. goodness. dint wanna use her money like dat. dint tell her initially. just told her to look for more designs ah.

so we walked to far east. nothing there. haha. then walked to heeren. saw a couple of nice tees too. cudnt fit some of em. then anuder shop the tees dint haf price tags. i dint want nori to ask how much they were. if too ex mcm tak baik jugak. but the tees were nice. hheeh. reali dint want her t\o spend her cash la. seeing how she has to pay her own bill now and she gets less pocket money. mcm kesian.

had a lil quarrel on the way home. well not quarrel ah. but just keeping quiet. all the way frm somerset to khatib. spoke very lil words. cos she looked pissed. and i dint wanna piss her off more. so yeah. kept my distance ah.

but things were ok when i got to wdls cos i msged her. yeah i gave in. haha. sayang wad. hehe. so yeah. she msged me "i reali had a great time just now. i hope we can have a 2nd date if u want too." hehe. gosh so cute. hehe.

so dats my day. maths test tmr. gotta mug. cherio~

the waves crash against me
as the salty spray mingles
with the drops of tears
streaking down my face

digging my fingers into the sand
the coarse grainy feeling
reminding me that im alive

alive?
or actuali dead?
cos life without love
is not life at all.

okies. im bored. i've got homework to do. but screw it la. too tired. hmm. im bored. so bored i cud.... erm. cut my hair? okies i do dat when im bored. but even cutting hair seems boring and tiresome. something's terribly wrong wif me now. never eat papayas. this is what happens when u eat it. i swear.

bleugh. i hafta go for fmsa quiz on sat afternoon. yucks. of all the days. not as if i can get through the qualifying rounds anyways. double bleugh. oh gosh. i hafta watch so many movies. i wana watch gothika, raising victor vargas, along came polly and honey. gosh sooo many.

okies im bored. i wana watch all these movies now. now. now.
but some of these movies not out yet. hehe.
okie it must be the papayas.

why do my posts keep disappearing? hmm. cherio~

ok guys. new pics linked already. check em out on the right. just scroll down after the tagboard. u shud see something called "--- shots ---" click down ah. alah u all noe wat to do ah. ur not dumb wad. haha. cherio~

lolz. sch was erm. fun today i guess. yeah. but school started reali bad for me cos i had a bad hair day. it reali looked like i never mandi siol. static here and there. like wad onie. then when i was in the toilet trying to fix my hair. siol ah!! 3 guys were shitting in the cubicle. god did it STINK haha. smelly siol. 3 shits are smellier than 1. like wadahell. then i said out loud. "eh sial ah. smelly sial. donoe how to flush ah?" like wat onie. hahah. so anypoops lazy to talk abt school. fast forward to after school.

sat with her for a while and wrapped cookies for the vday orders. then after tat we went to CP where she got me ice cream. ahha. cos cos i had this craving for split ice cream. (yeah i dun ask for expensive stuff la. just cheap stuff) so yeah. she bought me split and i ate it at the fountain with her. hehe. so nice. havent done that in quite some time. so we walked abit then i sent her to the train station. just how we used to do it a few mths back when we just got together. hehe. back to basics as me and her call it now. hehe.

so this sat is valentine's day. mum threw away the stone i was gonna use for her prezzie. and the box too. cos she suddenly ter-rajin and cleared my cabinet. and adik's cabinet. juts threw everything away. like wad onie. so yeah. its ruined ah. sori dear.

she has famsa quiz on sat so we cant go out. like bleahz. nemind la. hehe. mebbe friday. i was acting all "i just got to noe u so im shy" to her just now. hehe. asking her if she wanted to go for a date and stuff. hhee. so cute. she burst out laughing at me sey. saying why i never ask her like tat the first time i asked her out. hheeh. i told her she wud haf said no wad. such a crappy way of doing it. hehe. no confidence at all.

so yeah today was fine except for mum throwing away my stuff. like bummer ah. cherio~

ooh. i liiike the blog. niice. hehe.

back from sch. still too lazy to change the layout properly. cud u guys tag me and tell me wads wrong with it? thanks. cherio~

first post since i renovated the blog. still under construction thought. no time now. during the weekend or thruout the week i'll get to updating this thing. cherio~