The Journey Continues

This morning as I was taking my son to school, I was listening to my favorite Christian radio station and thinking.. I was overcome with emotion and almost brought to tears. As I was driving I began to think about this road that I have been traveling thus far. As you know, about three weeks ago I was diagnosed with cancer and one week ago, I had surgery on my tongue to have the cancer removed. I know that somewhere in all of this, there is a reason for this happening. I got to thinking this morning, one of the things I have learned from all this, is how blessed I am. I am blessed in both a spiritual way as well as a secular way. Since the diagnosis and the surgery, I have never felt "alone". I have been getting E-mails, phone calls, text messages and so on. People have rallied around to help one of their brothers who was struck down and was in need. Then when I think the "newness" has worn off and everything is back to "normal" the feeling or being alone starts to set in.. Then out of the blue.. "Hey, Mike! Just wanted to see how you're doing today... if everything's going better for you this week. You've been in my thoughts and prayers..." Then I realize, nope.. I am never alone, I have people that truly care and understand.

     This morning the song "Who am I" was playing in my head. I got to thinking about that and wondering "just who am I" that I should get all this attention?  I am blessed to know that I have people that care about me, pulling for me and are praying for me.  You guys rock my world. I appreciate and love all of you..

As I Walk This Road

Well, today is day one of post surgery on my tongue. Thankfully I am still able to talk, I just sound like I am a little drunk. My T, D G, H and a few other letters are a little slurred. The Dr. says it will improve with time. But hey, who needs to talk in this digital age?? I can text, I can send emails, I even have a text to speech app for my iTouch. So it's all good, I can be creative. As far as the pain goes, I am managing it pretty well, I have yet to crack open the Hydrocodone liquid from the Rx. As I have mentioned to a few people. I won't take it unless I really need to. I don't like going on trips unless I can drive! I slept ok last night, with the exception of my brain not wanting to turn off. It was concerned about some bills coming due, updating Facebook and food.. I have really been trying to keep this all in God's hands. He is ultimately the one in control. Of course I will do my part and fight this nasty beast called cancer.  LIVESTRONG. I will update people as things go along.. I am hopeing this is the end of the surgeries. Please be praying that all the edges of the piece that he removed are clean. So they don't have to go back in for more..

Love you all and thanks for your thoughts, prayers and concerns.

In His grip always

Mike

I am Really Really Tired of This Snow

Hi,

I am just frustrated with all this snow. I have so many things to be doing and can't because there is snow on the ground. I need to return a rental car and can't because of the snow. The car does not have all season tires on it.. It just has a basic street type tire, with really no tread pattern at all.. I tried going somewhere with just a little snow on the ground and I managed to get stuck at the bottom of my driveway. Fortunately the neighbor heard spinning tires and came out and pushed the car and I to freedom.

Here are a couple pics to show everyone what it is doing outside my back door.

You have a lot of nerve.. Or is it nerves?

Hello my friends,

      I realize that it has been ages since I have posted something. I guess with everything going on in my life, priorities shift and things get either moved farther down the list of things to do. Sometimes things like blogging even get forgotten about until something jogs your memory. What seemed to jog my memory was I was reading Emily's blog and thinking to myself maybe I should do this, and share my thoughts with people.. Then it hit me, that I used to do that already. So after a bit of searching and trying to remember my password, I was able to log into the blog site. So that brings me to now. It is currently 12:33 and I am awake. The reason I am awake is because my nerves or nerve endings actually have gone bonkers and I can't stop itching. So I have taken some meds for the problem and I am waiting for it to kick in.

      I got to thinking the other day, how amazing our nervous system is. Every part of our body is controlled by and or equipped with nerves. They control everything from our heart beating to me typing this blog. It is mind boggling that you could poke yourself with a pin and in the matter of nano seconds you feel the pain. It took a great God.. Our God to create us and to create this nerve super highway. Also the five senses we have are controlled by nerves. God also thought to make the five senses redundant. I mean if you were to lose your sight, your ears and hands step up to try and make up for the loss. The same goes for hearing, the other senses will step up to help. Something interesting I just looked up. The speed of a nerve impulse travels approx 350 meters per second. I did not know that (thanks Google) :-)

      Something regarding nerves that I did not realize. I was watching a program on TV a few months ago and it had to do with nerves and a heart transplant. The story was born around this lady receiving a heart transplant. Several days after the transplant she started having memory flashbacks. Everyone has those, she began to reveal that the flashbacks she was having were unfamiliar to her. She did not know what she was seeing, whether it was a person or a place, it was not something she was personally involved in. So not too long after this, she met with the family of the donor. Then the images that she was seeing in her flashbacks began to make sense. What was happening was, she was "remembering" things, people and places from when the donor was alive. After they showed this segment, they had a Dr discuss what happened. I found it interesting that major organs in your body have the capability to "remember" and actually feel. So if someone were to break your heart, your heart actually can feel the pain and not only that, it can remember.

     So if the organs can feel and remember. I can't imagine how Jesus  felt when He was beaten and nailed to the cross. Because not only were we in His heart when He was crucified we were also on His mind. So i can not imagine the pain He was going through. Not only was it a physical pain but His major organs felt pain. Esp His heart I am sure as it was broken. Now that Jesus resides in my heart, it must be hard for Him to feel my hurt. Because I was on His heart and mind. Does He still feel the nails every time I fail?

Until my next post

In His grip
Mike

Well it has been ages since I have posted something

I was looking over my old blogs, and it has been ages sine my last post. I am hoping to pick it back up again and not let so much time lapse between postings. I will be writing something soon..

Please stay tuned :-)

All We Hear About in The News Lately is Michael Jackson this and that

I think I have heard enough about Michael Jackson. I realize he was a music icon and was admired and loved my many. I think that the media has beaten the story to a pulp. Let him rest in piece. In my opinion I think he was a troubled and lonely person. You could tell by the way he lived. I think when he was younger his childhood was taken from him, because he had to rehearse and record songs and such. I think that is one reason Neverland existed. He wanted to relive his childhood. As well as give other children a chance to live out theirs. I wish that the right people would have seen his problems before now. I know he was trying to make a comeback to pay off some of his debt, then tragedy struck and he is gone. Now look at all the people coming out of the woodwork to get a piece of the pie. It is just sad to see something happen to a musical icon and then the media digs up all sorts of dirt on that person.

There should be a law passed that when an icon passes away for what ever reason, after 5 days there is no mention of that person in the media any longer.

I just feel for the families of all involved.

Till my next post...

Living with Bipolar, depression and ADHD

Hello all and good morning.

Well we are pretty much moved into our new house. I just don't have the energy to do anything. I am thinking it is because of my Bipolar that is causing my lack of wanting to do anything.
For those of you unfamiliar with Bipolar, here is a short description.

Bipolar disorder (also known as manic depression) causes serious shifts in a person’s mood, energy, thinking, and behavior – from the highs of mania on one extreme, to the lows of depression on the other. More than just a fleeting good or bad mood, the cycles of bipolar disorder last for days, weeks, or months. Unlike ordinary mood swings, the mood changes of bipolar disorder are so intense that they interfere with your ability to function.

I have not been able to get into the swing of things. I know there is a lot to get done but can't seem to find the energy to do them. To top it off I have ADHD. So I am thinking of all the things that need to be done. In my mind I am bouncing from project to project. However the Bipolar is stepping in and causing me not to want to do anything. So I am in a state of raw confusion.

Lord,

I come to you now asking for help, my mind is so cluttered with things that need to be done but yet I don't have the energy needed to complete even one task. Please Lord give me the energy and the clear headed-ness to accomplish the things that need to be done.