thoughtshowerings

When friendships drift apart........ When it happens, you won’t want to believe it. You’ll take their word for it when they say they’re busy, swamped at work, “just doing me.” You’ll make excuses for them, put your ringer on extra loud in case they call. But you’ll still feel the change, and because you can’t rationalize it, you’ll try to ignore it. It’s a specific kind of loneliness that hits you like a wave of nausea. When the two of you are having a beer and you realize that you have both been staring out the same window for twenty minutes, nothing to say, the opposite of a comfortable silence. When they cancel plans consistently and stall when giving you reasons. When you scroll through your contacts and stop at their name and almost call but don’t, feeling suddenly, inexplicably, abandoned and confused. Sometimes there’s no huge fight that marks the end of a friendship. No falling out, no major disagreement. Sometimes it just falls apart for no good reason. Distance....

Happy V Day! Happy Valentines' Day guys! Best day for an excuse to binge on candies, chocolates, cupcakes (brought for yourself or not) all day long without feeling guilty. Surprisingly, I did not feel the overwhelming urge to hole up and avoid lovey dovey couples, or end up in envious stares at couples walking arms to waist down the doorways. I was just myself, cheerful and collected, albeit mildly irritated at the massive jams along the walkways due to sale of V day goodies, ( my oh my, tempting) going to my lessons. I think I just became asexual. Hahaha. I think this year I shifted my focus away from such things. Love stories, tales of unrequited love, love misplaced or betrayed or even love that wasnt given a chance to grow, be gone! Maybe because it's a case if never had before? And hence I draw such conclusions? Might just be that. But for now, I think I am pretty content with how my life is coming along thus far. There might have already been some silly mi...