thoughtshowerings

I cant be the only one who: 1) Loves diving straight into the middle of a huge pile of freshly done laundry and inhaling all that goodness for at least a minute. 2) Loves stepping on dried leaves just to hear the crunch. 3) Eat Nutella with everything but hates it on bread. 4) Puts bananas in the fridge to eat it super cold 5) Put grapes in the freezer. Oh gosh, they taste like sorbets on hot afternoons 6) Has beer cravings on hot afternoons, but never tried it before. Its has to happen soon! 7) Wants to buy sunglasses so that I can out rightly people-watch without them knowing 8) Wants to buy a Marvel Superheroes bed sheet but cant find it anywhere else

Happy Birthday to myself! ^^ Darn, 22 already. Feels like my life is currently fast forwarding, I keep thinking about my future. 22 isnt very far off to 30 you know...and yet, I dont have much direction. Had an in depth conversation with one of the most matured girls I know recently. She's really good for her age I think, putting girls older than her to shame on her level of maturity. Or maybe because she's as weird as me? Or just that we think along the same lines. Feels quite good to have serious talks that I know will lead me to nowhere. It just feels really good to talk about heavy stuffs light heartedly, toying about my thoughts occasionally. Knowing that I'll probably do nothing about my predicament, but still, like I said, its nice to just ramble them out once in a while. If only birthday wishes came true! Why do people make wishes on birthdays anyway? Is it some sort of tradition? Since when did it start anyway? This year was surprising for me, I didnt r...

This year started off pretty well, until I got injured and my ligament shifted, again. Was running, fuelled by adrenaline and the exhilaration from the game, on a high, running at high speed, with my hair all whipped back, when suddenly "POP!" My knee gave way and I fell. And I knew it was the end. Either ligament tear or shift. Totally no strength to even stand up, had to awkwardly be propped up by my team mates and limp out of the field. Sigh. So yes, no walking, skipping, running for the next 2 weeks. Got acupunctured and ligament shifted by the sinseh. This really sucks. I trained so hard for it, its just not very fair for this to happen. How about the team? How about for myself? I joined a sport, the first time in my life, with team mates, together, on the field and this sort of thing happens. All that training gone down the drain. Now I can only look on from the side. I feel somewhat like a the girl in the story who sells matchsticks on a harsh winter wher...

Recently, I have been toying with the idea of escaping to somewhere far away and starting out my life again as someone completely different, doing something completely opposite of what I am doing now, leading a life that is parallel to the one I am having now. Doesn't it sound enticing and nice to re-begin your life? You have some years before that to explore your life, you already know what you want best, you know what you're good at, what makes you happy at the end of the day, and you can alter your life to suit yourself. Instead of being....I wont say trapped, or conformed to, instead I think I would use the word "guided" by your past actions that rolls into present life and will definitely influence future life. I sound very much like a loser escapist. But, the idea of escaping to somewhere far far away sounds sooooo alluring, soooo enticing. Mmmmmm. Sometimes I am really afraid of crowds, with the throngs of people walking past me, walking towards me. I f...