thoughtshowerings

As the year draws to a close, swept away by the December cold winds ( fyi, I HATE the weathers now. hate it hate it hate it hate it. bloody cold and turning anaemic from mosquito bites) I start to think about my achievements for this year. And I realized that I am becoming more and more mediocre, its so scary. I ask myself a lot questions, ranging from narcissistic ones to deep, profound ones, questioning my looks, my character as a person, the values I uphold and claim to uphold ( very profoundly different ), my intelligence and my future as a whole. I feel as though my life has sort of plateaued off somewhere. Slowly tarnishing, no longer emitting the shine it used to. Like a tap used for too long, letting calcium build up on the surface. And I tell myself, no, I cannot allow this to carry on, I must strike out as an individual, I simply must not mill around like the other man beside me. I want to do something different, something that distinguishes me from the rest. Wh...

Back from self imposed hiatus. Or rather because I was too lazy. So many things happened in this short period of time. And I leant alot about myself. And of other things. 1) The number of friends you have is really insignificant.yes, granted that it would be useful to have a wide network of people, you never know when you need their help. But I feel that the quality of friends is what is important. Some are ephemeral, temporal; they flitter in and out of your life. Others stay with you till the end, stubbornly at your side no matter what happens. I'm thankful for the stubborn kind who have always been around even when I behave much less than ideally. 2) Sometimes, choices that I make on a whim turns out to be the best choice ever. And choices that I make when I'm informed and very certain turn out to be disappointing. Touch rugby is an example. I signed up because, well, I cannot really remember why I did it on that faithful day, but I'm glad to say that right u...