thoughtshowerings

I think I am anti-social to some degree. Sometimes I am extremely anti-social, preferring to spend time holed up in my room, enjoying the solitude, soaking in the quietness. Sometimes I just want to stay out the whole day, not wanting to return home. Maybe I suffer from bipolar or some sort. Sigh....

Oh man, I am about to do something radical next weekend, something I hope I will not regret. It will be done, unless unforeseen circumstances crop up like how you would spend an entire week discussing in earnest to plan your best bud's birthday surprise but it gets foiled on that very day kind of unforeseen circumstances. Damn, I'm hyped up just thinking of what will happen. The feeling is like cheating in some major examinations, trying your best to covertly glance at the adjacent table to peep at whatever is written on someone else's answer sheet. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ On the side note, I have been following intently on the whole "boomz" and "bigini" saga. And just watched the video which she was famous for, and my god, IT WAS EXCRUCIATING TO EVEN LISTEN TO HER. I had a sudden rush of sympathy for English teachers, and feel for the first time...

I hate it when someone close to you just suddenly leaves, taking away with them a small part of you with them. It leaves you with a small, minute but noticeable tear in your heart that just cant really seem to close itself or patch up properly even after a long long time. Just when you feel like its time to get to know him more, poofs, he disappears, melts, vanishes, disapparates,boogies, whatever into thin air to somewhere far far far away. Its kind of frustrating and to some extend, exasperating. Not enough time, or rather quality time has been spent with him. Its like losing a favorite toy. So, its time I started appreciating people more more MORE! Come to me, and I'll spread some love!