thoughtshowerings

生，老，病， 死。 并不是每个人都会通过这个程序从诞生到死亡度过他的一生。 每个阶段都会有人离去，“搭一辆直通车”通往天国，跳过莫些阶段。 但死亡这个“终站”， 大家都会到达。我觉得没有所谓的早或晚到终站吧。 I think there is only whether you had any regrets before you left. But by then, it would not have mattered, would it? Since it would have already been physically impossible to correct these regrets. The phrase "live without regrets", is a retarded phrase. If anyone could do that, then there would not be any sorrows left. Think about it. Who can say that they can live fully without ever having a single regret? What if you died tomorrow? All the things you ever wanted to do and dreams you were working towards all gone. But the thing is, you would never have expected death to come so soon and sudden, would you? Always shelving things for "next time", or because you were "busy" with other things. You've really got no one to put the blame on but yourself, isnt it? You fully understand the meaning of the phrase, and of course know how to do tho...

Sometimes I wished that I had super rich parents that spoil me. Letting me indulge in fancy dining, clad myself in brands, sporting the latest gadgets, drive a relatively flashy car, hang out at exclusive places, travel around the world on a whim. Oh, how great life would be~ the only thing worrying would be where to go and what to do. But fortunately, this isnt the case. I am glad things do not come relatively easy. It makes me a happier person actually I think. Not too sure how exactly to explain, but probably the easiest way to term it is that I get contended relatively easily I suppose. No need flashy gadgets or copious amounts of money(although that would be very ideal) to make me feel happy on a day to day basis. Long term happiness? I think ( for now, with the given maturity) is just to indulge in the things I like to do. Basically read fiction all day, bake a little, experiment with cooking and hanging out with friends. Travel a bit when I save up. I really can get q...

Its been a while since I posted anything on here...always post phoning for something else that is deemed "more important", but really, what could be more important than "penning" my thoughts, deepest or not down? I did say that I should buy a physical diary and express some of my more inner thoughts and desires down there, where I can freely talk about issues plaguing me minus the repercussions. And it is proven that handwriting improves the cognitive faculties...I think. But like always, I always cook up excuses for myself to not get it. Perhaps I should put an e-reminder note on the front of my phone to remind myself on a daily basis until I grow sick of the note and get a nice physical diary as opposed to blogging. I cannot believe it, but I really had enough of school. Its really straining on me to work hard but not reap any results, its disheartening. Although I know that this IS the final frontier that determines the (possibly) rest of my future outlook,...

I am so tired of school. That feeling sets in routinely every semester after mid semester. It hits you without warning, like a huge sack of potatoes, WHAM, leaving you rather disorientated and dazed. You saunter into classes, almost mechanically, because you are already so accustomed to where to turn, where to take what stairs, on which floor. Even the tiles look familiar to you, you know when you head to wrong place in school. Suddenly, learning becomes dull and leaves you more sullen than you already are. Results do determine a person's worth...at least for the first half of his life. Disagree? Then find me a credible, reliable, and widely accepted way to quantify a person's abilities during his schooling years. Results are the easiest to quantify and most observable with the least cost. Same goes when you transit out into the working world, quantifiable results, concrete results are the best indicator. Although correlation does not imply causation, but we like to link g...

When expectations and reality do not match. We all have our own sets of expectations of the things that come into our lives. By that I mean expectations of everything. Like when you order a plate of food from a stall you haven't patronised before, you'll definitely have some sort of expectations. When you meet somebody for the first time, you'll have your own set of expectations too, based on his looks or maybe his actions. Or should I say that is your pre-conceived notions. But whatever the case, we all have our own expectations on how things "should" be. And what if reality doesnt fit into your expectations? To accept or deny it? I guess it depends on severity then. How severe is it going to affect your life? Tragically or minor and insignificant. Sometimes when expectations and reality misalign, do you want to keep holding on to it? Hoping that your persistence will pay off and things will go accordingly to what you've expected? Does that mean tha...

Hi, I'm back, after what seems like an eternity. Its a new start to the academic year! I am conflicted. I am not sure whether to look forward to finishing school (at last!) or to feel a sudden emptiness about school ending. (What? Already?) No doubt, school has been kind to me, it has let me learn many things, academically or otherwise. Its great seeing and experimenting with different styles of working with people, I think that's the part I like most about school. Other than that, school feels like a cocoon of warmth and protection, as though nothing really bad could possibly happen. I mean, its a huge playground for youths to connect and try out and experiment with identity, its where you really test out which identity you want to adopt when you finally step out into the world right? But at the same time, I'm really eager to step out and prove my worth, the saying " The world is your Oyster" is not for nothing you know. So I'm feeling increasingly ...