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Friday, April 04, 2014
12:22 AM

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
I'm only human.

At times, all I need is just some assurance.
I'm only human afterall.

Insecurities kills. 


Wednesday, March 26, 2014
11:17 PM



Smile, the simplest yet the hardest thing to do. 

While everyone is enjoying the simplest happiness they had all along,
I asked myself what happened to my happiness.

I thought I was strong, but I wasn't even close to being strong. 
I thought nothing could crash me down anymore, but I was wrong.

I thought I've been through all sort of things w you and everything that is related to you wouldn't crash me down this much, but well, look what just happened. 
I'm not asking for anything much, or rather not even anything for the past countless of years, I'm just asking you to be fair.  No, I'm not asking, I'm begging.

I hasn't been feeling so lost and hurt in a long time.  It all didn't matters to me before.  
Now everything is just so overpowering.  So much so that I'm defeated by the feelings.
Do you see how much everything kills me now? It's killing me so so slowly. 

It's like unhealed wound being tattooed onto me, it won't hurt every time,
but when it hurt, it hurt like a bitch. 

I need some comfort real badly right now.
But well )):


Sunday, June 24, 2012
10:39 PM

 Basically, I'm back from Vietnam after spending 5d4n with my crazy, yet cool group of SAC mates <3
I'd a blast over there, well, probably.. Will do a proper update on this GEP there soon! :D


So after spending 5 days with them, some of them are going for their Industry Attachment tomorrow ):! And what worst is, big boss is going away also.  Feel pretty insecure for a moment, big boss has always been the one who slow down the impact of things on us, not once, but every single time.  This simply just show how much I rely on big boss ):!  
And not only him, my di, fatty tan, Syafiee, Hassan, Jason, Ruslan and Kyle all going away for IA at the same time.  Tian ah, Glitter and SAC will be extremely different without their presence... 


And teach me how to not miss them when I've just spent five days with them, not as ambassadors, not as friends, but as a family. ):


Its always harder to part with people I've worked with so hard for the past few months (Nearly a year for god's sake!) We fight so hard together as one, laugh, smile, cried, stress together as one!  
Now all the Ambassadors from their class are gone, who are we going to quarrel with? Bicker with? Laugh with? Cry with? And do all sort of things with? My god ):! 


Everyone find it hard to part with them, its just so hard..  No one bare to say goodbye, even though if its only for a short period of three months.  ITS NOT SHORT AT ALL LO! ):

And when I saw the tweet from Big boss, My tears just roll down without me knowing.  Now I'm wondering, what will happened to me when we officially step down.  I'll probably cry a river you know ):! 

Now without bigboss, who can I call shorty?  Who can I disturb without scaring that I'll make him angry?  
hais ):



Friday, April 13, 2012
7:36 PM


Back to days with Bow-Tie & Lanyard.

Phew! I survived the first week of school! *throw confetti" Or rather just Four days since I'm done after my fourth day in school and got MC for Friday *sigh*. I'm effing weak this year, and that doesn't seem good..

Basically, CAs said they are not gonna stress us for the first week and it will be filled with surprises, but who knows, the surprises ended after the 2nd day, probably becos the responds from us, students isn't good. Well, and we got real stressed up on the 3rd day. Sigh. Projects grouping are already killing us, literally. The first proposal have to been passed up on 18 May, that's freaking fast isn't it, like less than a month. And the rest of the reports, proposals & etc datelines are freaking packed, real packed.

The grouping for the three modules nearly destroyed most of the friendships we had in class. Some people decide to forgo Friendship for grades, I just can't seem to do it. Sigh. Or rather, because we've been through all these shyts for last semester Project, and we realize how important it is, to change group..

I thought I'll be able to at least, relax a little bit more this semester, who knows, it will be another tight schedule semester, and probably a killer one. See, I've to put my bad time management skills into action again.. POM proposals & reports, EOP proposals & reports & ETP proposals. Not one or two, but a tuck lots of different proposals and of cause, SAC stuffs, especially after June when some of them are leaving for IAP. Sigh.

I'm pretty afraid things will be the same again, probably a lil' better since there's C around this time round. Ohyes! And I just realized C has been in the same situation as me! Sigh. Srsly, who will appreciate our effort? Simply, they just think they deserved it also.. Okay fine! That's past.

Energy will be drained out really fast when everything start piling up. Meanwhile, I've to learn to relax for the next two week before I'm semi-dead, from school..

On a lighter note,
I'm heading out for a movie date with love tomorrow! :D:D!
And it will be a good one (: <3


Tuesday, April 10, 2012
7:21 PM



"Falling in love is like jumping off a really tall building, your brain tells you it's not a good idea but your heart tells you: you can fly"



"爱有时像二手烟,才刚熄灭已蔓延,就当成过眼云烟,只会熏红了双眼,太容易散开的烟,让人没有勇气点。爱有时像过云雨,才刚瓢泼却静止,就如同一场幻觉,只是打湿了思念,太脆弱凉薄的恨,使人不忍道别离。"

"I'm sad, hurt, angry, mad, and disappointed. But you know what? I'll put on a smile and move on. It will hurt, but I will survive."

"心累到一定的程度,连生气和计较的力气都没有了"

"回忆像杯热咖啡,一想念就会滚烫,有时只是想要取取暖,却被狠狠烫伤。"

"I’m going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like it’s all a dream, and pretend like it’s not hurting me."

"当一个女人提出分手的时候,她其实只是缺了一些东西,有的是缺爱,有的缺关心,有的缺安全感。而一个男人主动提出分手的时候,往往是因为他有不得不分手的原因,有的是有小三,有的是想自由。所以女人说分手,往往是要更好。男人要分手,往往是要再见。——陆琪"


Bye, you're out of my heart, my mind.
It heals faster than what I expect, faster then I thought it will be.
It hurt less than what I'd expected.


Tuesday, April 03, 2012
12:51 AM


Did I mention how overjoyed I was when I saw my results on 29 March? I was jumping up and down with joy till my Grandma thought something was wrong with me! Heh!

I swear I didn't expect to get an A for WTB! It was seriously pure luck, and Calvin said I'm humble because I told him its pure luck! And I actually expect a better grade for HRA :/ Sorry, but I really pin very high hope for HRA. Whatever it is, since its over then I've just got to maintain this GPA~ :D:D! I'm really glad I didn't let those who pin high hope on me down :D

The moment I check my results, I took up my phone, go into Message and typed in "Swe". Paused after that and realized, there's no longer this person in my contact. Hahs.
I was really, really excited to share this good news with him.. But well (:
That's probably because I'm still not used to it.. Hmm.


Still, Congrats to my one and only ahmoo! ♥♥

Congrats in obtaining straight 4 for the four damn stressful semester, congrats in going into the course you want in Poly!
Animal Farm is so proud of you! :D:D! But Ahhui is even more proud of you! :D ♥♥♥♥
Keep maintaining this 4 pointer in Poly alright? ♥♥♥♥

Meanwhile, goodnight world~ :D
xoxo!