times have changed. the ncc in the past was completely different from the past. i may have no right to say all this, but it can be seen. central, the once "holy" district, the district where the best units ALWAYS come from, is now in such a sorry state. schools that were once strong, now barely made it for a gold award. including zhonghua. zhonghua is a clear example of how ncc changed. how ncc has now been subbed, No Cockup Cannot. how the clts now provide Tender Loving Care. how slack we are. adjusting in the first parade. talking back to the seniors. skipping training on purpose. QUITTING ncc. what has ncc come to. or at least, what has zhncc come to. this is the state of zhonghua ncc now. so what if we had 9 years of gold consecutively. so what. we dont deserve it. we dont even deserve the best unit. thats what i feel. east is catching up. east may very well be the next big thing. and central will just be a legacy. a history.

i bloody hell wish the part Cs are reading this. i dont feel confident passing the unit to the part Cs. i dont see the passion, the burning desire to lead, to excel, to take over the unit and to bring it to greater heights. i dont see anything. so what if you can follow orders clearly, execute it with precise accuracy. i dont give a damn. being a good follower doesnt amount to a great leader. a leader doesnt just follow orders, they GIVE orders, not bark out orders anyhow. they think before they act. which you all dont. this totally defies ncc's aim to train "thinking soldiers". i dont know what to do. we have tried infinite ways to motivate you, to bring out the leadership in you, and yet, we dont see anything. is it true you want to remain as followers? and not leaders? i dont know what to do anymore. the standard is totally not there anymore. the once high expectations the seniors had on us is gone. we lowered the standard for you all, and yet, you still cant match it. lest surpass it. your drills are like crap. shit. or whatever fuck you can think of. at this time, our drills were already at the peak. and yet, you showed us crap. during the ncc day parade rehearsals, all i can see were adjustments, adjustments and more adjustments. the attendance, crap. the uniform, crap. everything i see from you all. downright crap. has ncc now become a click for "cool" people? does everyone now join ncc just to be cool? where is the desire to learn, to excel, to prepare oneself? gone. all gone. the ncc now is downright shit.

enough said. looks like all the hopes of another best unit, all the talks of how i happy i am of another gold award, are all lies i set to deceive myself. i now give up on the unit. no, maybe not now, but later, after we have all passed out, after we have passed the baton to the next "leaders". after i have accomplished what i have to do. i have decided. im not coming back. or at least not back to zhonghua ncc. maybe at this time of next year. when i collect my o level results. i may see a new unit. a new improved unit. a unit worthy of the best unit. or maybe i will see a fallen unit. a unit, whose best unit, whose decade of solid gold, is nothing more, but a lost legacy.