bleah...i am down with flu...actually not very cam lar...just that my parents dun allow me to go for band tml...haiz...

haven really started on my hw...die liao...i am away for the whole week lor...if i dun do den i think i can die liao...cam...budden i really dunno what to do mar...carn blame me rite???

anyway...i am goin kl on the 22nd...goin to ipoh on the 23rd...den comin back home on the 27th...goin to check in hostel on the 28th...den come back home...den go to school on the 31st...den i dunno liao...very luan ar...so i am not goin to attend band pracs...haha...dunno lar...see my mood lor...haha...

i think SC is back in kl liao...she din come for band on tues...haha...oh yar...my section reunited on tuesday...everybody came and we played together...haha...happie...lalala...anyway...tiff gonna use the e flat bass...den only kia ying can use her instru...haiz...realise that our whole section cannot appear at the same time...if not den not enuff instru...haha...tml i am not goin...so kia ying can use my instru...den tiff no need to change...haha...

by the way...i wanna go for the vjc concert ler...i wanna see mabel...long time never see her liao...haiz...and she still owes the section a copy of i recommend...dotx...haha...wan her back to teach tiff...so that tiff can improve faster...she seems to be not putting in any effort to improve herself ler...how ar???i dunno what to do to her ler...in short...we've tried everything that we think of that can help her...haiz...

haha...dunno what to write for the hong lou meng thingy...haha...anyway...was doin lotsa homework yesterday and today...haha...ok...i am trying my best to finish everything by this saturday...so that i can happie happie go and enjoy myself...haha...i must be dreaming lor...how to finish that pile of homework...dot me...

ok...continue bloggin abt the thailand trip...
-Sun Dec 07-
haha...woke up at 0700...actually woke up earlier...just that lazy to et down the bed...haha...brought down my instru before breakfast...haha...very tiring ar...sommor that case dun haf any wheels lor...haiz...den passed to billy...had my breakfast and went off straight to mahidol...

reached mahidol one and a half hour later...i think that is a very ulu place lor...still got banana plantation around the school campus one...anyway...my instru was a burden...carn walk fast with it and its tiring to move it around especially i haf to climb stairs...Ms chong helped me...but it was still heavy...den she asked me to drag it...haha...that din make much difference...doink...

met a string bass cum tuba player...his name is tour...doink...den he play damn zai...had full band rehearsal...the mr conductor was nice...din make me play for a thousand times...i was very very glad...haha...den tour says that i very 'super'...coz he think that i can play all the low notes in the scores and also last for the whole score...he says that if he is the only player...den he might even not participate...haha...actually i did think of not paricipating...but as you noe...there's someone that always asks me to do stuff mar...so you noe...

anyway...had horrible meals at mahidol...so glad that it was only two days...but anyway...din gain much from the sectionals session...practically breathing only...like a lot of instructors oso teached me before lor...haha...had brass quintet at night...realised that i am not up to standard...carn play that few pieces well...doink...gonna work hard...hahaha...if not sure kena scoldings again one...

packed instru and left it in mahidol after the ensemble session...went back to the hotel...haha...very tired...so read hong lou meng for dunno how many words and fell asleep...haha...that ends the day...

ok...think i gonna go liao...my mum is nagging at me...blog again later...buaizzz...muacks...love to everyone that needs it...

arlow the world...had a great morning sitting in front of my tuition teacher trying to stop myself from dreaming...dotx...

haiz...had been thinking about the thailand trip everyday...how i wish time will just rewind and pause there...nvm...still got 2005's holland trip to look forward for...haha...

anyway...i am currently reading some information abt Dr.Mahathir Mohammad...dotx...i must be crazy...anyway...it's for my commonwealth essay...so guess i haf to bear with it...just realised that actually there ain't much homework...just
that every piece of assignment will cost you 100 years to finish it...bleah...guess i am stuck in this pile of homework for the rest of the week till before X'mas...

anyway...citibank just sent my family an invitation to watch LOTR for free on this sunday...gees...that will shorten the time i haf allocated for my homework...argh...die...die...ok...i shall work really hard and try to finish everything before i continue with my ultimate holiday plans...haha...goin to kl on the 22nd...after that goin to Ipoh for X'mas...den my aunties will come to my house and stay till school reopens...haha...shuangz...very nice...den i can enjoy...and enjoy...ok...guess i still hafta bear with my homework first before doin anything else...sigh...

oh yar...forgot to mention that i am goin for band tml...yeah!!! begged my parents for god noes how long...haha...happie...lalala...this is what i call holiday...band, sleep, play and read...haha...

ok...shall continue my trip to thailand...
-Sat Dec 06-
haha...woke up at 0730...went for breakfast in a sleepy mode...carn really open my eyes...haha...totally forgot what was i eatin...doinks...anyway...today gonna city tour bangkok, visit the grand palace, and SHOP!!! hahaha...lalala...happie...

the city tour was basically time for us to see the streets...so nothing much...den went to the grand palace...the buildings were nice and unique...haha...impressive...took quite a lotsa pictures...had a great time there...

lunch was farnie...the waiters keep adding food for us...so it was extremely filling...haha...den shinnie did some live performances to entertain everybody...laughs laughs...haha...den went to mah boon krong...

yay...mbk rox lor...all the stuff they sell were cheap...but the quality was not guranteed...doinks...din buy much...just some souveniers for everybody...and a pair of visor for my brother...doink...haha...why must i treat him so nice ar??? i oso dunno why...probably it's just because i am kind-hearted...haha...

went to the night market after mbk...bought a lotsa atuff here...haha...a dog...it's blue...haha...usual...and saw lotsa nice stuff...haha...very hard to describe everything in details...erm...shall round up with this sentence...SHOPPING ROX!!!

erm...had a short debrief...was told to concentrate on our playing tml...since we're goin to mahidol university of music...haha...doink...hard to sleep...still wanna shop...haha...

ok...think that's abt it for the 2nd day...gotta do work liao...update nxt time...buaizzz...lotsa love to everyone...muacks...

sawadeeka...just came back yesterday...finished unpacking liao...haha...not enough sleep for the past week...just woke up not long ago...hahaha...

ok...still very happy...took lotsa pictures and had a great time...learnt much oso...haha...set a target for myself...i must be much louder and play better...as in improve my skills more...haha...

anyway...shall make up for the past week...

-Fri Dec 05-
went to pan pacific hotel with my uncle to collect his number tag for the singapore marathon thingy...den ate some roast duck and went to changi to assemble...

the stupid SC was in changi that day...she was waiting for her flight to tokyo...den she came to see the band off...actually see her bao off lor...doinks her...den she scold me for not packin my instru and dissappeared...please lor...i did tell the whole world that i was goin home and wun be comin for band lor...and i did ask aud to remind her to pack my instru for me lor...doinks her...den she laugh at me pushing that BIG instru...doink her...i do not haf any other choice mar...if not i wun want to carry tt instru one lor...doink her...i tell you...she's BAD...bleah...

anyway...played x-box at the departure hall...it was fun...haha...but no for long...

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT:
never ever take turkish airways...unless you are forced to...if not you'll regret...
Bao's ears was stuck for one whole day after the flight can...that's why i say nver take it...and the air stewardess' service attitude is BAD!!!

anyway...had a great time carrying my instru in and out...and also in the lift...haha...can train my arms mar...haha...the hotel room is of average before i realise that the phone doesn't haf morning call and it's SPOILT!!! oh man...carn stand it...anyway...the inter-connecting doors that links to Candy's room was cool...had a great time...that room number was 04-45...haha...if i can...i will go back to that room again 10 years later...haha...crazy thoughts...

ok...i shall blog abt other day's stuff on another fine day...gotta go and start work...kaez...buaizzz...muacks...

mwahahaha...10 more hours to go...whee...lalala...

just finished packin laz nite...doinks...siao siao case...so late only pack...gonna bring a huge bag with very little stuff...hahaha...

doinks...sianzzz...still needa wait so long...ar...carn wait that long...haha...i promise that i'll blog a lot abt the trip..haha....

ok lar..tnk i betta go watch tv...ok...buaizzzz...muacks..love and mor loves to everybody...

mwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...i am not goin to haf tuition for ONE AND A HALF week!!!!!!!!!!happie...lalalalala...

anyway...poor yining...had to play my part for grand serenade...whoever that laughed at her shall be tortured to death...at least she dare to play lor...and she always played judy's part...so cannot laugh at her mar...make her feel so sad...haiz...

two more days to thailand trip!!!
happie...haha...lalala...

tuition today was great...i fell asleep!!!haha...luckily for a while only...haha...99% of the time i was thinking of band...band...band...band...it fills my life...

haiz...anyway...carn stay for long...eh...hooi...i goin to that wateva MBK shoppin center oso...sianz...haha...but luckily i not goin to that whateva zoo...haha...

shall stop here...haven start packin yet...haha...shall pack after dinner...mwahahaha...buaizzz...muacks...love to everyone...

mwahahaha...just got to know that i am in 3/12 next year...shud i be happy or not???

anyway...had my worst tuition just now...din have enuff breakfast...so my stomach was growling...bleah...never got so hungry before...haha...had bitter gourd soup for lunch...yummy...haha...dinner last night was excellent too...had crab and lobster...yum yum...haha...gonna haf porridge for dinner tonight...and i will be cooking...haha...

not attending band tml...sad...by the way...i am goin to Thailand on friday...haha...happy...and sad oso...coz nobody is gonna tell me whether i am loud or soft...nobody is goin to catch my rhythm mistakes and take me for 1000 times...*sobs*...quite cam...all alone...the only tuba player lor...bleah...

anyway...my dad gonna gif me very little money for the trip...sad...think i gonna change myself...see first lar...haha...stayin with a bao during the trip...goin to see her every single day...bleah...is that good???

anyway...sorry to yining and kia ying...and tiff...tml if judy is not there den you guys cam liao...haiz...so guess you guys hafta pray hard...yining...you are the pathetic one...i dun go means you hafta be alone...nvm...like this only good mar...den you get to play the solo parts...

that day ms chong pointed at me and ask me to play the to tame the unknown solo...bleah...at first i din wan to play...den yining played with me...gos knows that she will ask me to play alone lor...bleah...budden luckily she din scold me and kiaying for playing the satchmo solo together...haha...that was fun...haha...so glad that kiaying appeared...if not i really feel like dying lor...haha...

tiff...hope you are not goin to be alone tml...hope that yining...or judy...or kiaying can take you some basics and run through the concert pieces with you...hope that you can really play well for concert nxt year...though you are interested in playing the tuba...and you are the only one i've met so far that claims that playing the tuba is cool...you shud still work hard...and please haf positive attitude towards the band...anyway...i hope you can improve...haha...a quote from mabel: the bass is the most important instrument in the band just like the base is very important for a triangle to stand...hope you will understand...haha...

anyway...think i gonna start passin down all the quotes and meaningful words oridi...haha...there will be one day the seniors are gone...dun depend on them always...for they carn always be there...though they've tried very hard to be there...haha...finally i understand this...haha...

just remembered that i will be in the same class with huitian, shisi, yasi nxt year...issit good??? or bad???

anyway...i hope that i can work harder nxt year...though i am not in the best class...i can still be as good...haha...

lastly...2/1'03...i will remember you guys forever...no matter where am i...you guys rawk lor...

<=the people and the friends we have lost...or the dreams that have faded...never forget them...=>

mwahahaha...shall stop here...buaizzz...

haha...at home slackin now...my mum is snooring loudly beside me...haha...my bro is playing FFX...so sian...

had my tuition this mornin...it was horrible...i din absorb much...was tryin to keep myself awake most the time...i think the teacher din realise...he just went on and on tryin to interest me...but i just kept quiet and nodded my head from time to time...haha...doink...i am a very shi bai student...it's good that i realise it lor...haha...

anyway...just saw a horoscope thingy...damn zai lor...it states that i will have good wealth and health nxt year...and asked me not to be proud...doink...my dad's was horrible...my mum's was alright...my bro's one is farnie...it says that rabbits are wise but can be cheated sometimes...haha...

my mum bought me a necklace from korea...the star necklace that appeared in winter sonata...got crystal bits one lor...damn chio...haha...i love it so much...den my mum went to the place where they shoot the movie...bleah...i shud haf gone there lor...bleah...

oh yar...anyway...i very cam ler...hafta wake up damn early on fri...so that i will not be late for band...argh...hate this kinda lifestyle...can torture me to death lor...argh...anyway...i dun like to be late...even if i late oso carn blame me lor...hu noes the causeway traffic on fri morn...doinks...

haha...had korean bbq for dinner laz nite...shiok...haha...my dad says that he will bring us there again nxt time...haha...anyway...made cookies...lotsa cookies...thinking whether shud bring to school or not...haha...gonna make agar-agar tml...haha...so fun at home...den i can do lotsa stuff with my mum...haha...she say we gonna bake butter cookies...one day...haha...

anyway...must remind myself to call yining and tiff tml...haha...must make sure that they are comin so that i can call the instructor...bleah...how i wish dear SL come back...she's in korea now...bleah...she enjoy lar...just dump everythin to me and leave carefreely lor...argh...i really carn believe that i miss her...i really miss her a lot...please...come back...i dun think i can live without her lor...i miss her a lot...i noe i haf been a bad junior...but dun ignore me ler...come back...the section needs you...pplleeaassee......

haiz...still carn accept the fact that i am goin thailand alone...haiz...like what can i do lor...i am only a soft player in the section and i dun think i will benefit much from the trip...sad...moreover the pieces can kill me one...i dun like being alone ler...why must my section be like this...do i really hafta be alone???i dun think that's the way lor...arh...luckily got bass trombone player...if not i think i can die...the whole bass line only got like 3 pple goin...the loud ones are not goin...sad...is that what they haf to do to me???

doink...so sad...by the way...the section is left with me and yining only...i wonder if kiaying and tiff is comin back...i wish they would be back...how will they know that the section needs them desperately ar...if i can i would do anything to let them come back lor...

anyway...tryin to write MD now...using a siao machine...tilt a bit then gone case liao...bringing it to thailand...haha...think that's the only thing that will accompany me lor...oh yar...oso not forgettin the sec 2s...haha...at least not the whole world is tryin to abandone me lar...haha...i siao siao today...

anyway...think this entry is very long...and i realise that i forgot to blog about 2/1 again...haha...i miss you guys...guess you guys had a great time in chalet...haha...by the way...2004 class allocation comin out on friday...haha...wish that can see moz of you nxt year...haha...

anyway...i changin tagboard...changin to chatterbox...gonna get it done real soon...haha...kaez...shall stop here...buaizzz...muacks...

haha...noe sth...i just got to know that i got into comb 3, taking elect english literature and pure history...argh...not satisfied...shall work extremely hard next year...gotta get at least 5 A1s for my 'O's

bleah...tiff cheated my money...she din appear during band!!!so angry...anyway...i still manage to survive the whole band prac...haha...ran trough the concert pieces...haha...quite happy lar...noe sth...i played all the solos...haha...and i am the only player today lor...so i played exceptionally loud lor...at least that's what i think...aa...kae...i need to go...so shall update another time!!!

buaizzz...muacks...

haha...at my uncle's hse again...haha...

so bored...carn stand it...erm...what can i do???when i am like broke like nobody's business lor...anyway...my parents went to korea...so i am stayin here for FIVE days...argh...carn stand it...they get to enjoy while i kena tortured down ere...noe sth...i woke up at 6 plus just to report for band at 9 today...smart rite...haiz...why is my uncle's hse all the way down in PASIR RIS...argh...so frustrating...haha...not gonna blog very long...my bro wanna use the com later...haha...erm...got a very long entry in construction...haha...should be up soon...erm...kae lar...just wanna reply some of ur tags in this entry...haha...

anyway...erm...dunno what to say first...kae i shall blog abt 2/1...haha...noe y i dun wanna blog abt it???b'coz i hate that empty feeling in my heart once i start thinking abt it...so sad kaez...oh yar...by the way...i dun think i can go for the chalet...erm...got band on tues...and my beloved junior not attending...so i must go and ceng1 the section...erm...anyway...my parents also dun allow me to stay overnight...they claim that i haven even spend time with the family...haiz...so so so sorry...anyway...the comb results out that day i will be in sch attending band prac...haha...guess what...i think i probably get into some slackiest class lor...haha...erm...will miss 2/1 a lot...hope to see some of you guys in sch during the hols...eh...to the kong family:remember the family meeting on the first day of sch hor...usual bench...haha...

erm...i am trying as far as possible to update my blog regularly...erm...budden you guys should understand my schedule lar...erm...yar...guess that's abt it...anyway...haha...HAPPIE HOLIDAYS!!!

erm...think i'll stop here...if not later i carn wake up on time for band tml...believe it or not...i hafta wake up at 5:45 tml in order to take the very first shuttle...sad...haha...buaizzz...erm...remember...i still haf a long long entry comin up...haha...muacks...

Ps:eh...i dun like the empty rottin feelin ler...i really dun like it...guess that's what i am experiencing now lor...haha...

haha...erm...just went out with ZJ yesterday...haha...went to coro for dinner...haha...had a great long chat with her...dunno leh...nowadays damn sianz...in skool oso dunno do what lor...the claz watching Lord Of The Rings 2 now...haha...dunno lar...haha...i think i siao siao liao...haha...

anyway...i dun feel like goin to cairns ler...haven pack finish yet...just washed all my clothes...haha...met lisa on the way to laundry yesterday...haiz..she seems to be so sad...got the sad face lar...haha...dunno ler...that's just what i think...anyway...haha...

oh...yesterday we were on our way to coro...den while goin down the bloody bridge...den saw the stoopid SC...haha...she with her baggy pants...damn farnie...haha...think she super lor...can study, take care of band and still haf a cheerful and carefree life...she very zai...haha

erm...not goin for the whole band prac today...goin for only a few minutes...my mum can kill me one lor...haha...anyway...so sorry to tiff...had sth on yesterday...den carn take her junior band song...so sorry to her...erm...hope that she can practise well and not get scoldings from our beloved SL...haha...she scold damn scary lar...so hope you do not get tortured...haha...

erm...think i gonna miss band...haha...anyway...kae lar...shall stop here...if not den this blog very long oridi...haha...anyway...my sch's log-in account is EXPIRED...think it's sth wrong one...i just used yesterday...nvm...kayz...buaizzz...*muacks*

haha...now skool is so boring...dunno lar...skool is no longer nice to me lor...failed my exams like nobody's business...haiz...sometimes quite shi bai...haha...erm...erm...haha...now in the classroom listening to jolin's song...quite nice lar...feeling damn sianz now...

haha...failed my hist and sci...gonna resit for my science lor...i dun care...i must do betta in sci...haha...must work extremely hard...haha...den probably kena kill by my mother 1st lar...if she knows my results...haha...

erm...start to think that band is tiring nowadays...kinda sick of it...very very tired lor...like yesterday...talk on the phone till i sleep...haha...sommor the thing is that i carn really stand it liao...carn take it anymore...it's takin up a lot of my time...den make my studies drop like nobody's business oso....haha...

anyway...had a 2 hr phone talk last night...tt's why suddenly felt enlightened....haha...so weird...den see right...i dunno what's the prob with me lor...just splurt out everything her...haha...den kena talk by her...haha...den got to realise that i have low self-esteem...haha...i think so too...haha...

just now talked to dear ky...haha...started askin her whether i am hungry or not...haha...haha...see rite...sometimes i really think that lotsa pple know me better than i noe myself lor...come to think of it...i really dun understand myself one lor...haha...maybe i really very very shi bai lar...haha...

den last night began to think abt lotsa stuff...argh...realise that i really need to do lotsa stuff...haha...needa pack my bag to go to cairns...haha...gonna pack tonight...haha...den gonna wahs laundry...haha...goin on thursday night...leavin at eight plus...haha...

oh yar...today is busy...haha...wash laundry...iron my clothes...pack the bloody bag...go and take tiff for her score...practise and polish up my skills...haha...oh yar...gotta oil my instru oso...haha...i dun think i am bringing back my scores to practise ler...erm...think my mum wun like it...

anyway...i carn attend band prac tml, sat and mon...sad...not that i dun feel like goin...haha...see...no choice...my mum picking me up at ard five tml...den i only come back on monday night...haha...erm...i think i am a big big slacker lor...haha...oh yar...they say they one 85%attendence for holiday pracs lor...erm...which i think i will be attending for all practises lar...haha...den i goin back home only on the 14th of december...haha...late lor...unlike my roommates...they can go back in november...

*dor says hi*

dotx...haha...also hor...SC tell me to take good care of my studies and scholarship...haha...later i get kicked out...haha...actually i dun mind being kicked out of skool lor...i carn bear to leave band only...haha...also har...Aud leaving nxt year...sad sad sad...aiyo...try imagining someone that knows you inside out leaving lor...haha...erm...guess that's life lar...it goes on...haha...just hafta accept it...haha...

doinx...now the first half havin speech trainin...the claz damn quiet...haha...carn wait for skool to end...den i start my busy schedule...haha...anyway...i think this entry is damn long liao...shall blog again when i come online lar...which is i dunno when...haha...kayz...buaizzz...muacks!

erm...kinda funny to blog twice a day...haha...i like it mar...erm...nothin to say ler...brendon just went out...so lonely in the hse now...haha...saw keng shung and wy yeen just now...so cool...haha...they seem so stress...unlike me that just finish my exams...

still haven go for my swim yet...haha...allowed to go only when brendon comes back...haiz...celine is sleepin now...so nobody to play with...sianz...

thinking of band again...really wanna go for practise now...haha...kinda sad oso lar...my SL is not back yet...haha...bet she's on the way back...haha...think she'll scold me if she gets to know what happened lor...i quite the shi bai lar...haha...

anyway...think i goin to die for concert this year...first song oridi can kill me lor...luckily i am so smart to stagger breath...then can slack a bit...haha...den second song got my solo...erm...a bit only what...third song is saxaphonia...erm...that one dunno what to say abt it lar...still ok lor...forth song got duet...with my dear SL sommor...haiz...can die for first half oridi...haha...

hope that my roommates can see this concert...budden the carn...i noe that...erm...still...hope that lotsa pple will come and support me...even though i think not much pple can see my face during the concert lar...still it's better than laz year where nobody came to see me wat...haha...

i think i siao siao oridi...haha...spent quite a lot nowadays...gotta lock myself up within the sch and my room to prevent me from spending so much...haha...oh yar...band room goin to be opened everyday ler...meaning that i can go and practise everyday...haha...can work harder oridi...

my parents are goin on holiday without me and my brother...unfair right...nvm...i'll make sure that i will enjoy myself during the hols...haha...i can only go home on the 14th of december due to my packed schedule...den 2 weeks later come back...haha...crap lar...nvm...i bet i can haf real fun during the hols...haha...

neways...still thinking abt sth that i thought would never come to me...haiz...shall really go and think carefully liao...haha...erm...once again...i am lost at words...some stuff just clogged up my mind...sianz...haiz...chao liao...buaizzz...muacks...

haiz...erm...quite sian now lar...haha...just blogged laz nigt...den blog today...i think i siao siao oridi...anyway...erm...dunno what to say ler...haiz...blame some pple that cheated me lar...say wanna go escape with me one...den now dun wanna go liao...they siao siao one lar...

anyway...what do you expect me to say har???erm...dunno what to say lar...dun wanna think abt it now...ok lar...i go for a swim liao...buaizzz...muacks!!!

erm...erm...kinda long neva blog oridi...haha...this time i am in my uncles hse...enjoying myself...haha...farnie...hahaha...so farnie...

today i had band prac...haha...budden escaped halfway...coz need to attend to some family matter...just heard from aud that they played satchmo and elvis after i've left...phiu...both oso i wanna die one...luckily i went off...haha...poor YN hafta play solo parts...which i think she din play...haha...nvm lar...anything...those are judy's solo by the way...haha...

the sad thing is that i played persis and to tame the unknown and saxaphonia today...then played judy's solo in to tame the unknown...realizing that how important judy is...haa...coz my playing sucks totally...erm...what to do???i am such a terrible junior lor...haiz...played like shit...haiz...sommor judy leaving next year liao...i can cry one lor...

ouch...got myself sun-burnt...pain lor...haiz...a bit the sad right...went to sentosa for one night...just went back to the hostel yesterday...feeling horrible...sad lar...erm...den very very pain lor...today sommor aud poke my back so hard...can scream one lor...aiyo...extremely pain...even till now...haiz...den during band i said that i got sun-burnt...then some smart pple still dare to laugh one...slap them inside out upside down lor...they really deserve this man...

just gotta know that somebody cheated me...they not goin to play with me liao...so sad...tml gonna swim a lot...den go shopping...haha...den go back to the hostel with my bro accompanying me...haha...haha...haha...i think i am CRAZY...nvm...i like it this way...haha...

erm...now thinkng abt quite a lotsa things...haiz...goin to cairns on thursday...shud be happy one lor...dunno why i dun feel like goin liao...aiya...dunno what am i doin nowadays...haha...probably too much books that clogged up my brain lor...

haha...now can finally concentrate on my studies since it's after exams...haha...happie...wish to put in lotsa effort to make the upcomin concert a good one...wanna show tha i can do it...yay...haha...so gotta buck up...haha...concert is on the 13th of december...haha...straight after comin back from thailand...erm...erm...

dunno what to say ler...haha...hope that i can get good grades for EOY...haha...no fails please...haha...

to nic: just wanna tell you that i dunno what you mean...so i shall think abt it...
haha...tokin kinda much crap...anyways...*yawnx*good night everybody...haha...the stars on the sky is for everyone tonight...sparkling dreams...haha...*siao*...muacks...buaizzz...

erm...i am not abandoning my blog hor...juz restin for a while...i still need to study for exams...haha...4 down...6 to go...haha...bleah...sianz...buaizzz...haha...

aiyo...ITE lesson now...smart gal become dumb gal today...she dunno how to live life properly...

smart gal was smart yesterday...she passed her lit test and needed luck for her maths test today...but i think i am SCREWED...coz smart gal never finish her maths paper...the highest possible mark she can get is 35/50...a bit the sad case...during exams i should really treasure my precious time and not waste any of it...haiz...den during ITE...smart gal realises that her whole folder of digital video files are GONE!!!


You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...

You're warm, and the most approachable. You have that gentle prescence about you. People can relate to you, and find you easy company.However it's likely you've been hurt in the past and it has left you scarred so things can become rather chilly with you at times. Being the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy and loyal to your friends but prone to depression and negative thinking.

Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)


?? Which Season Are You ??
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haha...siao case today...recess liao...update again another day...buaizzz...*muacks*

haha...just finished lesson...haha...tml is thursday...means i can go for sectionals...haha...means i can see my instru...happy :-)...mwahahaha...i failed my science till like nobody's business...so...i gotta go back to study...chaos...buaizzz...*muacks*

haha...design this blog a little...haha...nice rite???...please say that it's nice...in school now...hOOi is suanning eK in claz...haha...haiyo...lotsa pple soy that this blog very bei guan...erm...pls...that's my life mar...anyway...i am goin to redo all these entries one fine day...erm...aiya...dunno what to write...haha...we arguing abt some industrial revolution thingy...haiz...no band today...that's why i am here updating now...haha...erm...kinda miss band...miss my instru...haiz...wish exams can pass faster...then i can concentrate on band...concert coming up on the 6th of december...then got overseas trip to aust...so kewl...nycb rox lor...erm...i think i gotta go liao...buaizzz...*muacks*

haha...first time blogging...had a blog laz time...dunno wat happened to it...decided to create a new one...listening to persis now...not many pple will understand this blog if you dunno me...erm...decided to talk crap in this blog...crap that is in my mind everyday...i dunno...it just keep cloggin up my mind...wonder if my mind has such a big space to store so many things...just understand the fact that SL dun wanna take me becoz she thinks that i can do it... still thinks that she shud haf at least told me... this saves everybody's breath...haha...she says that i disobeyed her and she dun even bother to scold me becoz she thinks that it's no use...erm...dotx lor...i dun care...i think that she shud at least tell me what to drill on...and probably just gimme a test at the end of sectionals lor...like this at least i'll work towards her target mar...haiz...shall suggest to her on monday's national anthem...

went home without a passport today...feel so bad...made daddy u-turn from the custom and went back to the BS...i think i am extreme bad...shall change from today onwards...must change...haiz...so dissapointed...i am totally forgetful these days...got into loads of troubles...carn get my mind workin since after SYF...

trying to get as far from band as possible nowadays...carn afford to waste time anymore...end-of-year paper is coming...if i dun work hard enuff den prob i carn go for band tour or tour with my family even...i think it's quite tough lor...as in i am not the total study kind of person...how can i sit down and study leh???aiya...i was late on thurs...late for band becoz i went to ask my angel to teach me chemistry...i'ld rather do punishment than to fail my chem paper...

ZJ says that i look very down these days...prob becoz i dun think that life is meaningful without band...kinda stressed up by the subject combinations and my studies in particularly...i am not the studying kind lor...i just carn live without band...haiz...budden how to study if I remain that siao in band??? *sobs*why must i choose between my studies and band?*sobs*
i think if i rest less these days shud be able to cover up every single bit of info that is to be examined... [what am i trying to do man??? sleep at 3am everyday probably...] total siaoness... haiz...

carn split myself into two...den one go for band one study...perfect wat...haiz...too bad i carn...haiz...quite troubled these days...thinking and thinking...about lots of stuff...the money that i owe YS...my subject comb tingy...band stuff...ASEAN DANCE...yadda...yadda...

haiz...very hard to spit out everything now... shall stop here... buaizzz...*muacks*

ps: i might not be able to update so often coz i haf loads of things waiting for me to do...