its been a roller coaster week for me man. i mean maybe people will think that im some super weak guy but i dont think you really know the exact reason for that happening. i dont think its easy for me to let it out but maybe its just cause im sensitive. sometimes i really wonder why people cant keep what they know to themselves, it must be spread out, isit human nature or something more.

i really dont think ill be able to update my blog frequently anymore, maybe its partially cause of school stuff but then sometimes i really dont have the endurance and time to do these stuff. besides ive got other things to attend to. prelims are slowly but surely creeping up on us now, time to put in the effort and keep myself in check for everything. no more foolish things, ive just got to tahan abit more till school ends. JIAYOU







wa facebook and blogger are really pissing me off to the max man. i go to facebook then i see the page i off my browser liao, the page stuff are all white. i cant see anything, dunno whats happening, really good if someone can enlighten me haha(: then when i log in to blogger, i look at the posting page, i dont feel like posting anything at all. i really dont know whats happening in these times.

sometimes when i find out like stuff, i really dont know what my stand should be. at times i am a very neutral person but i dont think that there is really something such as 'im sitting on the fence, i wont take any sides, im a 100% neutral person'. cause there is no one thats truly like that. everyone has already taken sides over time, its just the extensiveness or degree of it. no one really sits on the fence. thats y jkoh once said: 'boys should never sit on the fence'. i guess its pretty true for guys if you say it that way, maybe its just our personality or something, but we tend to think very extreme stuff in such situations. sometimes you just rather that you never found out, cause when you do find out stuff, its really hard for you when things like get really awkward. i dont know how to put it but thats just the way i think.

sometimes i really dont know whether i should trust my own thoughts, or i should trust the thoughts and instincts of others. can someone help me answer this question: should i trust the words of 10 of my friends or should i trust myself in any situation?.. i really dont know, its like when you trust yourself, u kinda think like you are letting your friends down, then become like rather selfish. then when you believe your friends, you like tend to tell yourself, but i went through this before, its my life, shouldnt i trust myself?
question marks running over my head.







omg omg omg! now my facebook got every single problem there can be... wa zzz this is really quite irritating yknow!! allritez nvm, it means that i got more time to concentrate on my studies now :D really good chance to do so, especially when you got 3 mock exams this week *faints*. amath, physics and bio. JY brandon tan!! ok i think im lacking behind in revision for my subject. nvm i've already got my motivation to study liao! everyone should also start finding theirs! together we shall aim for 6points FTW!!

wow i really appreciate today, for the holiday that is... yeah feel its really a great time for me to have a much needed break after such a long time *phew* woke up at 12 today after having slept for 9.5h. wa the feeling is really shiok sia!! haha...



A - Accidents

#1. Have you ever been in a car accident?
er almost a few times haha

#2. Do you have a lot of scars?
yes, alot la! haha

#3. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone?
erm i think have barhx... but i think use like kicks are more painful

#4. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake?
i think so... so sorry T_T

#5. Have you ever had stitches? Where?
yeah

B - Beauty

#6. Do you consider yourself beautiful?
no. i know im a piece of junk

#7. Are you self conscious of how you look?
yeah okay la

#8. Do you put on a lot of makeup?
No!

#9. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery?
na no thx.

#10. What do you think makes a person beautiful?
its all about the personality man!

C - Consequences

#11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for?
i never got grounded before...

#12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion?
no chance

#13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people?
most of the times

#14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you?
Dao me

#15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end?
er a couple of things haha

D - Dealing

#16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them?
i pretend

#17. Name a time when you had to be strong.
erm quite a few times

#18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home?
lol -.0

#19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react?
erm i just shut up and blame myself for it all

#20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it.
almost... the experience was really painful :/

E - Experience

#21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs?
no. yes

#22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all?
no way -.-

#23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far?
alot... life is never meant to be easy

#24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)?
No

#25. How old do you act?
i also dunno haha like 2 years old?

F - Family

#26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why?
No

#27. If you had to choose, family or friends?
er well i'd pick my family and a few friends

#28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything?
not really.. i'll die

#29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them?
yes. no i dont get jealous of them

#30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members?
i try to do it pretty often

G - Growing

#31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were?
172. erm i think 175 would be just nice barhx

#32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that?
i think i have grown alot this like past few months especially.. went through alot

#33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish?
childish

#34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50?
yeah i guess so

#35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn?
yeah because learning is a life long process

H - Hope

#36. Love - real or not?
Real!

#37. Are you a pessimist or an optimist?
erm i think im both haha!

#38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way?
yeah fate

#39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive?
yeah.

#40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying?
family and friends

I - Issues

#41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness?
no! i share my stuff

#42. Do you have any type of disease or disability?
hope not

#43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex?
errr...

#44. Do you think that you are alone in this world?
sometimes barhx.. at least i have a couple of close friends. cause there are some others who just fade away with time

#45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away?
erm not really that often

J - Jokes

#46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke)
erm alexandra road is at ourtram :D

#47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh, or the other way around?
both ways

#48. Do you cry when you laugh hard?\
yeah haha

#49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day!
i have alot of them man haha

#50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class?
yeah got sent out lots of times

K - Knowledge

#51. The purpose of school : to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends?
erm learn but apparently we do all

#52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average?
dumb

#53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever?
a1

#54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher?
erm aim higher la duh

#55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)?
erm actually it depends on who the person is barhx

L - Love

#56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before?
*silence*

#57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)?
no im a freakin noob

#58. Is love worth it?
yeah totally

#59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months?
well it depends

#60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word?
er its tough and you really have to mean it from your heart

M - Money

#61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round?
yeah it does but i hate money to the freakin damn core

#62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money?
poor

#63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to?
university?

#64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with
perfect person and marry and start a family

#65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you?
0 totally. no questions asked

N - Naughty

#66. Are you a virgin?
yeah

#67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with?
no way

#68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that?
yeah.. syakir

#69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more?
yeah

#70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both!
naughty

O - Openness

#71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone?
depends on who the person is.. some can just take a few weeks while some never

#72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone?
erm the type of catefory they belong too haha (doubt many people will get it)

#73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason?
yeah depends

#74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually?
lol marriage

#75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them?
erm like maybe 1 or 2 close friends everything but not parents

P - Positive

#76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times?
keep the good times

#77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all?
Yes totally

#78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be?
both.

#79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything?
yeah

#80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please explain what it was:
yea. omg la so many occurences

Q - Questions

#81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself?
figure out first then ask for help.

#82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation?
erm not really

#83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be?
not really. erm i also dont know

#84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go?
erm depends on the person

#85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to?
erm why would i put it here

R - Respect

#86. How do you show respect?
be nice

#87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them?
erm share my secrets?

#88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures?
Yes

#89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment?
eh i dont know i go hide first!

#90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness?
erm depends haha lol

S - School

#91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into?
goin up to j1 la

#92. When will you graduate high school/college?
few months

#93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do?
go jc

#94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it?
Its victoria school... every reason to hate it

#95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school?
no

T - Temptation

#96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay?
yeah

#97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it?
no... you can try but ill never do it

#98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it?
No

#99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing?
No

#100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed?
erm strong willed?

U - Unique

#102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it?
yeah peer pressure

#103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces?
whatever i want

#104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex?
no way

#105. What makes you different from people your age?
erm i dont know.

V - Value

#106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room?
laptop

#107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people?
the lives of loved ones. yes i would depending on the person

#108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you?
erm my phone?

#109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab?
my handphone + ic and charger. okay lets go

#110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future?
yeah

W - Wishes

#111. If you had three wishes, what would they be?
taller, richer, smarter

#112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones?
loved ones

#113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them?
maybe

#114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish?
yeah

#115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen?
er not really cause it motivates you

Y - You

#121. Are you more independent or social?
social

#122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it?
erm haha

#123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things?
no

#124. What kind of person would you be if you didn’t have guidance from family members, God, teachers, etc.? Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life?
i would be pai kia. and people develop personalities based on experiences

#125. Do you think people are generally good ?
yes

Z - Zest

#126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not?
not really

#128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it?
excited

#129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people?
yes to both

#130. What is the most motivational thing in the world?
erm what lies ahead







today is thursday, feel really good cause that means TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!! yesh imba nice one, another week has just passed so quickly in the blink of an eye.. countdown another 12 more weekends like that and its the o levels already.. dont believe? go check your calendar. haix i really got to put in more effort into my studies, i just cant continue slacking around like that, got to start something. sometimes i really dont get it why people call me a mugger. CMON LA ALL YOU LIARS OUT THERE im so not one la please, i hardly do anything unless its homework or theres a test coming up. i should really change that attitude, but its gonna take time and i dont have much left.

regarding o level results, i honestly people should just put in their best effort to aim for 6 points, truly, i think that should be everyone's goal. dont like just say, oh i wan to go poly so i dont need do so well, i really dont think anyone should think that way because it really does not help in your studying mentality at all. why not say you do your best in o levels then you decide once more whether you really want to go poly anot, cause you never know, circumstances may change. for me its just, i gonna put in my best effort and then pick my route from there, cause in the end it all boils down to how well i do. whatever i hope and think now isnt gonna help me much in the future.

haix, im really in a dilemma now, really regretted making some choices that i made in the past. i was really foolish to do all that and im staying here regretting all of that now, sometimes i wonder if i should just change the way i think and feel but its like kinda bad.. nvm i will just let nature take its course cause i dont know what lies ahead of me, all i know is i will work towards a goal to try and achieve it. because if you aim for the stars and you miss, you will at least fall among the clouds. really true, sometimes you cannot have the best in life. no such thing as having the pie and eating it too because things are just this way. i dont know which to choose because all are just so good, maybe i should pause and ponder and re-evaluate my choices...







omg i think class 4E has a real serious problem that we need to address soon, its 2.5 weeks to prelim2 and 12 more to o levels and i welcome you to come see the state of our class now... it has everything that you can find in a sec1 class now or even more i guess.. play dice, cards, disturb teacher, dont do homework, slack, talk cock and so much more.. i guess im so influenced by the mood as well man. i think its something called peer pressure, maybe someone needs to start the trend for everyone to really begin to get serious and down to work. otw look at prelim2 results and it shouldnt be a shock i guess. rated 3rd best class in level but our performance ranks 5th what to do? and im getting back e math and humans mock exam tomorrow. real scared to find out how well i actually did.

nowadays im feeling really sleepy and tired and all. how i wish i could just continue sleeping for 24h straight in a row. i really need something liddat before my o levels so i can truly refresh myself fully. lethargicness plus me still having cough and flu is hindering my attention span in class and at home. shouldnt have drank cold drinks ytd, cough is really becoming worse. gotta cut down liao.

anw SPAs are coming up this week. wish everyone the best of luck and JY wors.. (: