♥ If you could be mine forever,
Wont that be simply wonderful?

-1:28 PM

yest eng paper sucks.
and i totally mean i wun pass.
if i pass i laugh.
then after sch had ssl physics.
i just realize that physics ct got lots of chapters.
gosh.
sure die.
then after sch went val house slack.
then went back.
super tired.
so went to sleep super early.
zzzzzzz

tuition in the morning.
super tired.
and not feeling well.
zzzzz.
went cp with vanessa.
bought little stuffs to eat.
kindda not feeling very well now.
but going out now.
meet lok go buy stuffs.
>_<


-6:26 PM

today is not a good day.
super pissed off for some reasons.
not gonna mention why.
but im just gonna say.
im freaking irritated with you.
regardless of whether you know im talking or not.
IM not a person that you can just come and find whenever you wan or what.
only when you need me,
then you will come and get close to me.
other than that,
treat me as invinsible.
not like im stupid and that i dunno anything that you are thinking of.
HAHA.
this is such a joke that im even wasting time to get piss off.
and im really tired of everything.
today mood was totally bad and went for lunch without talking(except to man) and the whole atmosphere was weird.
im really right.
if im not the clown in the group,
everything will be weird.
and i can say that im sick and tired of being the clown.
i dont care whether anyone starts getting angry or hates me or what.
IM TIRED.
dont expect me to keep quiet reagrdless of all the hatres all around.
if anyone is gonna get pissed with me,
go ahead.
if anyone is gonna get irritated with me,
go ahead.
if anyone is gonna hate me,
go ahead.
wanna get me out of YOUR gang,
be my guest.
i wun pls anyone just to get a place back into the group but rather,
by myself where there is no probs around.

went home and realize i didnt bring keys.
how great.
waited for daddy and listened to music.
i realize there's really quite a no of songs for you to listen while being irritated.
=)
suay-est thing.
daddy go of house,
then short circuit for whole building so he cant get up cause no lift.
read books for bout 45min.
so tired now.
haiz.


-7:44 PM

come sch in the morning and is quite weird suddenly.
didnt wait for givon at the usual bench there.
didnt talk to verna and yvonne in the morning.
>_<
oh great.
im starting to miss morning practice already.
then did some work while waiting for the rest.
lessons etc etc.
after sch went off with von and netty.
went to netty house first and slack a while.
then go SWIMMING!
long time no swim le.
so cooling to be in the pool again.
but then didnt stay for long.
cause it started raining.
super suay.
then go bath and eat prata!
the rain super big la.
the kopitiam was flooded can.
so kua zhang la.
then ate le went off.
getting sleepy now.
zzzzzz

TML is the start of common test!
and it totally dont feel like it's common test!
im still enjoying my time.
and i guess this time my results die.
ESP physics + geog + history.
big HAHA to myself.


-7:25 PM

last morning practice today!
before common test i mean.
but then had difficulties playing today.
cause my tummy hurts.
due to yest's pt crunches.
make me ache like hell then breathe in so pain la.
haiz.
lessons etc etc etc.
after sch went back class after assembly.
and the eng enrichment already start with a super irritating teacher.
say what COUNT TO TEN THOSE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE GET OUT
OR ELSE I LOCK YOU INSIDE.
then she over there annoy people.
make me so pekcek la.
in the end she count so slowly till i freaking irritated.
then keep warn us go out.
ya as expected.
ben xiao jie kl her.
she stand in front of me and continue her VERY FAST counting.
so i went
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 IM SO HAPPY IM LOCKED INSIDE THE CLASS!
I CAN ENJOY FREE ENG LESSON!
then ther teacher look at me and just say ok let me stay.
then obviously i went OK! since can enjoy FREE lesson ma.
then she go just dun be disturbance to the class.
then i reply her OBVIOUSLY I WUN BE, cause i will just be sleeping in the boring class la.
she speechless.
=)
im getting very crazy nowadays.
first is to mdm chow, now to this annoying teacher.
im the best!

after that took cab home since it was raining.
then played majong.
mandy + val crazy during majong.
lok is super attentive on what to throw during majong.
wanlin sleepy during majong!
>_<
maybe going swimming with netty + von tml!
long time no swim!


-1:41 PM

im seriously sick and tired of all the shoutings at home.
all the anger, disappointment.
i wan things to get on smoothly.
but i guess this is a wish that will never come true.
i hope for no more screamings.
yet no one wants to give in to one another.
is this a very diffcult wish to come true?
why other families are always so happy,
yet ours is always filled with shoutings?
this is not the family i want.
this is not the misery i wish to get.
im serioualy tired of quarreling with jie,
asking mummy not to scold jie and daddy,
telling daddy dun get so agitated.
IM TIRED OF IT.

things get even worse now.
why must we have conflicts?
i know there are misunderstandings,
there are hatred and irritated times.
BUT THEN is it that diffcult to cooperate with one another?
im really tired.
im sick of being the clown trying to make everyone laugh at myself.
sick of trying run everywhere just to make things work out.
sick of making myself jump between the places.
sick of keeping everything to myself,
yet trying to make the rest not be so awkward.
has anyone ever thought of my feelings?
im not there for everyone to laugh at.
im not always there to resolve the simplest conflict you guys have.
i can be real tired at times.
and now im really tired.
so i dun wish to get myself into such things anymore.


-7:47 PM

morning practices started this morning!
reached sch super early.
guess this is the ealiest ever i think?
haha.
then had practice.
mrpng and mrlum so good la!
they wake up so early and come for our morning practice which is for bout 30-45 min?
SO GOOD LA!
>_<
then went crazy as usual.
haha.
guess im gonna be like xiao zha bor le.
then lessonsssss.
assembly was stupid la.
mdm chow was unhappy with us for not greeting loudly.
so greeted another time LOUDLY.
and i really mean loudly.
whole sec4s and 5s + me : GOOD MONRING MDM CHOW
left me : AND TEACHERS!
so funny la.
cause i super irritated so i greeted super loudly then i didnt know everyone was not greeting the teachers.
so i happily went AND TEACHERS till the whole hall can hear.
i realize im super loud.
cause i heard a lot of people laughing even before i finish.
and heard from someone that they sit at the back also can hear me.
>_<
make me so malu la.
but then even mdmchow + mspey also laugh.
so WHO CARES.
haha.
conclude : i finally realize my voice is kindda loud.
then talk bout prom night.
I WANT PROM NIGHT.
although i know a lot of people dun wan.
it's like the last day to interact with your batch le la.
guess must see the responses.

after sch had lunch.
lok was just getting out of class when we went back and she was laughing to val.
so val immediately went BU HUI SHI TA BA!?
haha.
in the end it was really fong mei ying.
our last year eng extra program teacher.
and everyone skips her lesson cause is super boring.
and guess what?
this year she is back again!
for 10 weeks to teach the people with better eng.
I WANNA LAUGH.
everyone keep hope is not her and in the end was her.
val totally went WALAO.
heard from lok that huaan even ask the teacher
TEACHER WHY ARE YOU BACK AGAIN!?
haha.
4f totally hates her!
then lok and i went for another eng thing.
the trainer was like rattling on her ESSAY(which was superlong).
but the whole course was alright la.
better than going under that super same teacher again.
she totally makes me bored.
good luck to both jessi + val.
to stay with her for another 8 weeks?
haha.


-2:04 PM

yest was V day!
morning had lessons.
was super slack la.
then had lunch and went back for band.
sessionals whole day cause mrpng never come.
saxo section so cool!
haha.
played for bout 2 hours.
then went running.
came back play again.
anyway,
our saxo section crazy le!
haha.
daphne doreen and yenling crazy over .....
WANLIN offically crazy over LALALA!
so cool la!
my eyes totally become heart-shape one can.
haha.
guess only my all saxophonists and some know who im saying!
I OFFICALLY DECLARE!
im crazy over LALALA!
hahahahaha.
anyway,
thanks everyone that gave me sweets and chocos yest!
love love!
=)
after band went orchard for movies.
bride wars!
super funny!
haha.
fruitful V day with movies + LALALA!
I MI SHANG LE!
>_<


-8:21 PM

feeling super tired today.
didnt have the mood for lessons.
but then still had tests + lessons.
after sch had oral practice.
was kindda stupid for me?
and i hate pronouncing cause i will kou chi.
sians.
then went for band.
sec1s are offically joining for practice today.
start teaching them.
was kindda boring.
but then teach until sorethroat halfway.
=_="
im so stupid la.
then went in for a little audition.
nothing much to elaborate.
anyway,
THANKS JESSI FOR WAITING FOR ME!
more than 2 hours cause of the delay.
thanks girl and sorry for letting you wait so long!
>_<
happy valentines to all!
esp those without valentines!


-8:27 PM

today is valer fool's birthday!
ya happy birthday to this stupid girl,
even though she didnt reply my message that i waited till 12 to send her.
=)
haha.
then was usual day today.
also slacking for today's lessons!
how cool!
i love this life.
and our amath results is super ncie one can.
17 F9s!
and more than half the class failed.
COOL!
after sch went for SAKAE sushi.
with birthday girl, lok, jessi, huaan.
huaan laughter make me laugh.
haha.
make me wanna hide my face la!
so loud somemore so monster-y.
HUAAN CHANGE YOUR LAUGHTER.
=_="
ANYWAY,
VALERFOOL HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
YOU ARE OLD LIAO!


-8:48 PM

my bag offically spoil.
and i took a new bag today.
which is actually not new.
=_="
btu feel very weird taking a new one since that old bag was with me for bout 3years.
got feeling le.
haha.
lessons = boring as usual.
but then started to get crazy after recess.
which was during chinese lesson i think.
started playing with casan's piglets that we bought for her.
with a rose.
dunno why i can play until like siao.
maybe cause i never play soft toys de.
then this is the first?
anyway,
not interested in soft toys.
but was crazy during chinese lesson.
too bad lesson too boring le.
>_<
and then watch the 3f cheerlead that video again,
i wanna laugh man.
is like shit la.
OMG!
anyway.
band was alright today.
lots of laughter.
and didnt had the SL testing.
so i dunno when will test.
scared....

anyway.
just to wish the stupid valer fool a happy early birthday!
happy 16!
dun start watching NC16!
no porn allowed although i know you super interested.


-7:42 PM

monday blues again!
but eng was not that bad today cause reading newaspaper and talking bout teenage sex.
huaan is so enthu bout the topic!
haha.
had 2.4 today.
super sians.
but i just wanted to get over and done with.
but not very tired as compared to last time.
dunno why.
had the stupid chinese and physics test.
hope i wun do badly la.
>_<
lessons lessons lessons.
boring.
then had band and was playing with doreen.
we can actually play together quite alright leh.
=)
but then got devastating news.
wed got audition for SLs.
should be one-by-one.
play with whole band i can.
but then one-by-one i surely scared.
like 2 years ago audition for seventh night of july like this.
SHIT!
i dun wan history to repeat itself.
hope wed wun be that bad!

im tired.
i dunno what im thinking of.
but im just feeling tired.
feeling of giving up.


-6:13 PM

today was a harsh day.
or is it supposed to be a disappointing day.
went to singapore conference hall for our sound check.
actually was quite alright on bus.
gossiping with hweejoo.
but guess nothing went well right today.
NOTHING i mean.
all the mistakes.
all the responsibilities.
all the misunderstandings....
well.
but the most disappointed one is definitely not us.
is mrpng.
everyone saw his disappointed face.
yet what did each one react to it?
especially sec2s?
such a joke.
instructor there asking us to reflect,
yet members there wanting to get out from the whole thing.
keep wanting to go home.
is that how good our band has become?
ignorance to all the comments and just wanting to stay out.
HAHA.
this is the batch of sec2s we have.
thinking back at the days where we could only keep saying YES SIR,
didnt dare to talk or not look at instructor.
and to this batch.
what a great joke.
thanks but no thanks.
but looking at mrpng's disappointed face,
what can we say.
im just reflecting.
should i really express everything to the instructor?
like what happened today.
is kindda my fault for my junior to be involved in the scolding.
YA ME.
i shouldnt have say so much.
guess i should just let things be the way it is now.
and not let my juniors get into more prob.
since im supposed to be the one taking care of them.


-9:21 PM

feeling very sleepy and tired these few days.
didnt really get enough sleep.
zzz.
lessons as usual.
but one thing super cool.
cause our physics had 2 periods : one before, one after recess.
so mr ng was like ask whether we wan put as 2 consecutive periods and lots agreed.
and we had our recess after the normal recess time.
whole canteen to 4f students!
how cool!
haha.
then had chinese test where im sleeping during the test.
and with cassan keep waking me up from my sleep.
zzz.
next was target setting which was boring.
my aim : 6 points for L1R5!
haha.
guess is kindda difficult with my physics like this.
=_="
best thing was we had our chem test during PC.
mrs hay suddenly spot the welfare department teacher (my chinese teacher) walking near.
so not to kana scolded for using PC for test,
the whole class was like I WILL TRY MY BEST TO GET MY AIM!
haha.
mrs hay even went : must work very hard to get the aim!
haha.
so funny test ever!
band was as usual.
didnt get to play much as there was meeting with mrpng.
talk talk talk.
stress stress stress.
>_<
then did a little combine and off.
givon's dad sent me home.
thanks givon and your dad.
=)
home to find that the majong session was still going.
dad asked like dunno how many friends to come majong + talk.
my room become the majong room.
living room become talking place.
i got no where to go!!!
>_<
confirm i wun get enough sleep today!


-9:13 PM

long time no post le.
forgot what happened few days ago.
only rmb these 2 days.
OH YA.
i screwed up my conclusion for both my history test.
and i love my gossiping section with doreen on friday!
we are super fated to be in the same section!
and super fated to be in 1st alto la!
i love gossiping with doreen!
haha.

SAT:
woke up by xinmin's procession of sardar.
kindda nice.
haha.
i like their oboe that part.
=)
then went tuition in the morning.
after tuition went for band.
had the best sectionals ever!
haha.
practice practice practice.
last 30min we started talking.
best saxo section talk ever!
haha.
I FREAKINGLY LOVE MY SAXO SECTION.
me and doreen got new gossiping partners!
haha.
love my saxo section!
guess i would miss my saxo section the most after i leave ba.
>_<

SUN:
morning go tuition.
super irritated cause suddenly tummy pain.
ARGH.
then go painian.
then go tuition again.
sians.
whole day not feeling well.
but then good thing!
after that jiejie treat go eat fish and co!
good good!
=)

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