piano and guitars on music lessons

school is back, and i lost a stack of literature holiday homework. i probably love guitars, even now the finger tips still hurts. i bought the yamaha piano pencil case. ok nevermind. i even set targets in mind of what i wanna do/achieve/prove. i want to be the top 7/6 in 2008. i make sure i get my electric guitar when im 16. and i must do well in history. create own band is one of my featured dreams.

i must look for my clone in the first day of school.
i must never be late for school.
i must never forget to biring termometer to school everyday.
i must never hate history.
i must never give up learning guitar.
i must not go out unless theres a CCA, guitar lessons, mug, or waste some time, heeeeeee~
i must not even hate people even hidayah.
i wanna be the best english talker in class.
i wanna be the best of the best out of mylself.
common eh, i know theres more. and ill continue blow bubbles. (:

im naive, i know. im so naive. hahaha.

bubbles pops and ill blow bubbles again.

damn, i dont like the way god set up things for me, his test are too heavy. im a girl, leading not so wonderful life. home, mother said that im useless. father said, something that i found im sentive to. sister said, im stupid because of something that cause the whole family to blame on me. outdoor, im shy to go out, because i aint preety and people will say things. classmates, i only save 2 contact numbers instead of 5. because i know i will never happen to remember all, and its no use too.

im an anti-social kid who stays up online and make friends. its much better. i mean they cant see me, and ill still stay up normal. sigh. i know i dont need things that i wanted, like others do. until my parents set up food on the table for me, from there is enough allready.

only stupid people says that he/she is rich. no one is rich. if someone reading this, and wanna argue, go ahead im just fine as hell. btw, $1.10 bubble bottle is fun. i got two. theres one that i can touch, and one that pops when meet the skin of my fingers.

christmas.

i watched Echanted today. and the last week of holidays are all about free online movies. so today, i watched hooligans. i mean the movie is tittled hooligans. and i just wish i can zap things in a snap because some irritating chinese who probably are not christians are making noises with the bicycle bells like bodo. in the 20's century, negative images is the main criteria. oh shit. and movies are bad. because they are infecting kids young minds faster then bacteria. ok, im done.

i hate hidayah
and love you

i decide to blog.
i went jp with maisarah and my sister today.
suddenly, i remember things, i supose not to.
and i like cry, on my guitar. cause i was searching for tabs.
ok thats all. damn.

hello sunshine

(i chase the dark clouds away)

the sun came out today, finally.
when the sun is shining, some stupid grey clouds are following.
i get frustrated with guitar strings. but since i love them, i sacrificed cutting my left hand nails just for the sake of the guitar. (i cut till like seriously short nails)
school is comming, and i must start mugging.
school, ah yeah, secondary two, were gonna learn how to play guitar, but i want to learn in advanced(: you know what i mean. i got some very cheerful indie songs to cheer. nice laa.
and i wanna look out for the best school bag for 2008. and on the first day of school, im gonna lookout for my clone, sec 1. wahaha. exciting kan.
and liyana, just come for this week stupud religious class. and bring hp, not books. i rule the rules.
and ayie, dont let me describe donuts to you.
and sarah, tabs tabs tabs tabs!
and amani, amani biler free, nak plan untok outing(:
and shahirah, gile korean Xp.
and syuhada, pwwweeeety!
and trademarks, another outing comming up.

firstly, i need to tell you people of trademarks that, i cant upload the pictures because the camera is not with me. ill update it somehow. 5 days without update. i thought of closing this blog down because i dont post much. probabbly depends on my mood. tell me good reasons why i should close this blog down or dont close this blog. (:
christmas is comming in 15 days fast. oh god, christmas mcm best gitu. Xp. and also got to lookout for " go to school material ". and im so excited to see the secondary one pupils. hahaha. gurantee lots of minahs. i ending this post, i told you im not gonna post much. ok? bye.

jealousy takes place whenever i see your msn private message.

i just got back, and now im blogging. the trip was shit. because many things happened, all starts from me. bought some things there. im lazy to post some pictures now. tomorow going out with the trademarks. oh weeeee.
i feel: stupid/angry/jealous/dead.

fuck you people

(look like a teacher, shit)

im off to port dickson for family outing/holidays.

ill not be taking my whatever shit religious oral exams on 3 & 4 december.

ill not be blogging, only tag. tag here and maybe i can reply when im there.

ill be missing my msn buddies/webcam partners/lame assholes/all

im away starting on sunday 2 december. yay~

malaysia is damn holy unsafe. hahaha

):

i saw your clone today.
i didnt smile today
i get scolded for not doing house chores
i watched a korean series
i felt dull today
i played with onions
i get my second letter from NUH.
i got many things to declare in mind.
i tell a friend of mine about this boy pants is currently looking super thight
im not in the mood yet chatting/blogging

ok bye.

why im bored.

i dont find myself active in any activities. im just waiting for my next family outing to port dickson. im bored because, i got nothing to do, i do alot of things to do but those just suit me at all. this holiday just get me outdoor, not indoor. i hate being at home, alone with my cat. because in my family, im in the second and im like an orphnage kid. house chores is given out unfairly. i got to do my stupid religious PSLE today. very shit. i came late and i got to sit just behind the door. cool or what siak sit behind the door. i just rock the house with my music. and i lost my specs twice a year. ahahaha. these olidays, many of my friends who wear contact lens catch an eye infection which is obviously due to the contact lens, scary sia.

im feeling : so potek/bored/mad/unhappy/happy/excited/stupid/go gugugaga

i'll roar right in your face till your skin is gone of your face with just my roar. (laughs)

and "oh! we are watching, animal porn Xp"

redbull for breakfast.

im so bored, i did some change onto my blogskin. people im seriously bored. and oh, about the trademarks outing, there will be 2 different days. one in november, one in december.

November.
avenue: jurong east

December.
avenue: town/bugis/esplanade

the date is not listed down because im in desperate need for your phone numbers, i mean any numbers that i can contact you. thankyou.
& carpark+animals(cat species)+music = me
idk why my nearby carpark have inspired me.
i love cats from the bottom of my heart.
music heals you know, even dangdut. ahahaha.

actually, psle is not a difficult paper. (: when i grow up, i wanna own my own lion/cats/white lion. but lion is dangerous. imagine theres some kids comming to my house for hari raya, and possible the lion is hungry because the lion cannot wait for the ketupat to cook, and decided to eat up some irritating/innocent small kids with baju kurung on. sigh. okay. i need to go bathe. i dont want to be a part of the CK, its actually cine kopet

people. nadd love dinosaurs, that also includes barney the purple dinosaur.
lets use our imagination people!

Albertosaurus = nadd/(timon)

I would like to represent Albertosaurus as myself because it is big and tall like me. big and tall like me oi. Albertosaurus is a canivore. meat eater(: It was a bipedal (walking on two legs) creature, with tiny two-fingered hands, and a massive head containing dozens of large sharp teeth. siakk, dozens siol. The first specimen discovered was a partial skull discovered in 1884. that is way way way way behind.

Maiasaura = sarah/(taugeh)

Currently because of the name. macam name maisarah laaa.

i'll be doing the rest tomorow or tonight. okayy. just wait.

-nadd love dino. dino dino dino wooooo!

im all alone in this room, i wanna run run away very far. very far like six feet under.
i messed up. im condamed. alone in this room, with the same clothes same shit attitude, with nothing to do, i wanna dig my grave. ive sacrificed much, but all those dosent worth. what worth? blood? life? ive tried so hard ive tried so hard to believe. but i dont. why. why. im one unfaithfull girl believe me.

dont trust me, im a liar. -once a liar, allways a liar.
dont be friends with me, im anti-social. -true.
dont follow me, im lost in this. -life
dont.
im now a fish living outside, without water. -im suffering
im like a girl who wake up and found herself in heaven. -wait for my death certificate.
damn.
i just wished i can go back time and delete you. delete. -like i dont know you.
and wished i have you earlier. and tottal it up to a year. - monthsary.
and a thousand needles poke to my eyes, so i can believe what i see
if this is life, i knew i wont live long.

(baby grace)

ok. i got nothing to blog about today. yesterday went to slack with a couple of friends. then went home. the picture above shows a skecth of baby grace, baby grace is not her real name though. my first impression when i saw, i was like. ohhhhh~
the face was quite scary. the fisherman who found this a week ago said that, " we will all pray that someone will identify this girl." find out more in www.msnbc.msn.com and search out for baby grace.
and this post will end with a short conversation.

apit s.w.a.t. : eh, kau tau aku mengirap ah dengan apek semalam.
iyan: ah? (laughs) asal sak?
apit s.w.a.t. : aku tau ar badan aku besar. die boleh tanye aku gini siol, "lu punya baju lu tempah pe?!" tu part aku da mcm, nk dudok atas kepale tu apek je.
iyan: ok baek.(laughing)
apit s.w.a.t. : die tanye aku lagi siol, "lu punya stokin pon lu tempah pa?!"
iyan: pit, da ah, cukop laa. aku da nk terbuang air ni, kau nmye pasal laa!

today.

• i had religious class. seriously boring. i talked with liyana about trademarks outing. funny okay.
• trademarks, bile mau jumpe?
• today i eat breakfast(:
• my neighbour moved.
• is fourth of november.
• i bet i grow shit at 5
• listening to we're coming back - Cock Sparrer
• im really really bored.
• my leg is tired

ok done.

(imy~ )

i went to sentosa today. and all i did, was to get my hands in the sand
like dough. i also did some of the sandy queh. ahaha~ got many non-singaporean.

i caught this little girl with bikini on. very cute. yellow polka dot bikini. then i do sand castle, this and that. and siloso got rocked by me, ahaha. then i go submerged my feet alone!
then decided to go home. get to vivo city by sentosa express. LJS for dinner.

got home by taking bus (bus 30).
on the way home, i and my sister bumped onto our parents. they are like going out, we are

like going home. felt tired.

because today, the planned was cancelled.

(senyuman lebarku)

ok, todays post.

i seriously got to type very fast.

i post because. i want to. Xp

i did nothing today, woke up late. and someone waited, hohoho. sorry.

im happy and sad. that i consider private. no one wanna know. and its over allready.

tomorow, need to cancel some of the thing in my blog. then maybe ill go out. with this stranger.

ahahaha. ni stranger cute oi. aku selalu cair~ heee. ok. maybe. will post again tomorow night.

bile die senyum. ohh ohh ohh. i consider, hottt ar eh. seriously and honestly.

i miss you alot. alot alot!

I don't want this moment
To ever endWhere every thing's nothing, without you
I wait here forever just to,
To see you smile'
Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

Through it all
I've made my mistakes
I'll stumble, and fall
But I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken
Forever, and now
And pieces of memories
Fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so

I won't let this go'
Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

On the streets, where I walked alone
With nowhere to goHave come to an end

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of you're eyes
It falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of you're eyesIt falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find

What you will find
What you will find
What you will find
what you will find

I don't want this moment
To ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

was this the day, i got to remember those times i had.

with you singing under the void deck after school last year. damn~ that means alot. and the song.

(story of how i liked the song)

every night, i wasted batteries. listening to my sick mp3. i fall asleep after a song or two, then i realised, my mp3 beside me, i just grab the ear plug and plug in. i dont know why i plug in. then the time i plug in, this particular song came to the chorus part. then i played the song over again. over and over again, till now.

the song tittled: with me.

i wasnt quite okay with my school surroundings.
i never thought. id will find a friend like you
i never felt like before
i never sing with a friend like i never did with you.
i only see you smile from pictures.
or ill never see you smile like you did. cause we meet rarely.
but.
i remember, that graduation night i walked beside you and said something.
on how we used to, to talk about fathiah.
we use to meet at the usual place after school.
(all of these make me so emotional)
im now playing the song while typing these
i know.
that things have changed since then.

song: Yellow Submarine
by: The Beatles
year published: 1962
influence by: my untie

damn it. i want many things. well, i just found out little bastard is sometimes cute. ill post a video later. (in the video) she get mad when the microphone didnt turn up. and the hand, is my hand. i disturb her.

i'll get an award and im in the top 10. teacher asked whether my parents wanna come. i said no. im not proud on getting top 10 or whatever, im just feeling satisfy with myself. i knew my parents wouldnt come to see 'their' child getting an award walking on the stage. i felt down myself. crying. did my parents work too much and left their child school updates behind? what they wanted more.
im just like a child from the children who grew up with no parents.
mum just got home, and i wanna publish this and close the window, i dont want she to see my personal things without my permission.
bye.

went jalan raye today. did alot of things today. the best house, ashikin. friend put in two asam in my cocktail. i took it and put it back to the big bowl of the cocktail. and laugh. and then.yan, put one strange lime green asam to the kuah soto. style~~ i get inspired by the cat face. its like soooo, perfect. shes lying on my thighs. and i bet she went dizzy as the flash captured her picture. shes my friend cat. and also went to my enemys house today. i was like wooo~ this is your house? i still remember, p.e. we played scoccer street, ten girls.
five vs five : wearing slash vs. not wearing slash. she wanna act terror. kick the small ball like a cripple. i scored one. she scored none. you dont have skills, say it. dont try to act like you have. cause you'll never.

p/s:
chinese-eyes. satu bulan da tak jumpe. upcomming 5 months.
still loving you; nadd.

selamat hari raye maaf zahir dan batin,

kecuali orang itu yang curi telepon bimbitku.

kepada pencuri: langkahlah mayat aku jika engkau hendak mengembalikannya
informasi anda: nadiah khalid ialah cucu nenek yang pertama untuk hasilkan ketupat dibuat sendiri(:
hari 131007: nadiah di malaysia tolong nenek.
untuk, david haziq: 101007, ahaha.
untuk maisawah: last long with zulll.
untuk amani: aku rindu kau maot.
untuk liyana: kau semakin lawa.
untuk syuhada: aku cinte kau.

selamat hari raya dari nadiah, yang maha bising.

does stealing makes you feel good? base on first tought, most of the human minds says yes. but does it get any better? you'll will go around stealing again after stealing once. because you cant get enough. i steal before, and then i want to steal again. its true, it dont get any better until im done. i rather use phone cards then handphones.

using handphones are big disadvantages to me. first, you need to pay. second, if you lost them, you cant get another one. third, its more easier to prank call people using phone cards. (: fourth, you not need to call your parents allways. fifth, you can allways renew (buy) another phone card after another. theres no need to hide, shame.

i wish i could. i wish i could find the one who stole the phone. then slit a pointy sharp 8cm long, radius of 3cm thick to the culprit right and left arm. then use 19 safety pin to pin the mouth. shave the skin. threaten the person like i never before. but im okayy with it.

when any feelings come, or go or anything that made me feel uneasy, i'll just need to sing if i have to, i'll just need to hear and watch a bottle of All The Same - Sick Puppies. the only way to heal by just listening to something that i think really heals my heart. okayy, i dont know what i talking. i'll have the power if i have skill then i'll have the will. no power, no will.
thats is all.

i get angry easily when people steal my money because they have lost theirs and want to blame me taking it. so what if its on my bed with your wallet on top?
you stupid?! then the money lost blame me.
bodo. it wasnt me. it wasnt me. it wasnt me.
you took my $20 last month without permission.
i kept quiet. i kept quiet alot of times. the when i ask you whether you got take my money you said no. you should really know, your'e a disloyal child. i detest you.
father wanna put you in the girls home. but grandmother objected.
you stole $400 from father money box and admit it after 5 months.
you got your stupid boyfriend that dosen't help at all. even though your'e with him for 6 years or whatever, but when comes to marriage, you people only last less than a month.
your 1 year relationship dosent worth la. you think your house is a hotel?
can come home at 3 in the morning?
as a sister, i hated you much. now is the fasting month i cant do much i only can type. im telling you, go away. go stay another house, go far far away. and stop wearing my jeans and clothes. im not over with you ass. dont make up my mind for me to tell your deepest secret.
you fcuking asshole. go away from my parents. you are not a sister to me, a stranger. so if you die, we wont see you.

me and music

today. was the first day of fasting month thats all.
puase, puase.

today. i scolded my indian co-form teacher.
" oi! mrs sammy! drink drink only ar! bodo, dont pity ah?! " -aku slack(:

i felt like eating this afternoon, but he took me out to study.
-a trip to the library.

my mom never work, and she is driving me nuts.
"nadiah! mop the floor! clean your stuff! "

and now, i want hari raya.
aku desperate nak $$

took my cat out from the drain.
meow meow meow~

when music accompany you around the school.
and, i dont get caught.

a total student.
6cm high socks above ankle.

i pulled my hair like going to be bold.( in maths lesson )
because maths do kill you.

so, remember about the times i was crazy about oldies? now no more. so oldies are inthe years like, okayy i dont know how to say. im only telling you that im in love with older song today. omg. whats with me. you know the old old old old years where they create music with guitars all but with a slack voice. for me nice ah. i sot.

if you were to find me swinging my head and move like little mary left to right to left and so on, thats nadd. you know, i cut my hair, if after bathing i look like a butch. if its dried up, i looked like mods. whatt only. and i wanna meet Linda Scott soul. im her fan.

oh linda oh linda. da tada da da da da tada... lets swing people.

the day where i feel in love
( love love love love)
with the year 1962
- with
Linda Scott.

96.8 FM

so. i was just browsing the dictionary that consists of 1,000,000,000GB. also, includes 27 alphabets and 9 single digit numbers. abc 123. you know the letter 'r'. r is for radio. ah okay. that gives me an idea to talk about radio for today. just imagine people dont hear to songs, but they listen to radio. its actually not bad. as for me. theres many to talk about. i dont know what im talking, but let just continue with whats happening around the radio.

Singapore. a multi-cultural country(island) have 12 radio stations. if you dont know what the hell is radio stations, go to somewhere that got sand, then burry your head or separate a connected antenna and poke it in your ear both ear, and from there, you'll be able to read messages(sms) from the president to a girl in geylang or even a message from little miss bodo or miss swan. cool stuff. and i cut the subject and continue. there is 12 radio stations in Singapore.

have you people heard of this 96.8FM? once you get in that radio station, try to follow what they're saying as in, your an echo.
you know i tried that before. i thought it was the coolest thing to do. after following what they're saying, i felt like a dark girl wearing sari, even though i tried very hard to echo.

thats for today, all for one word, radio.

okayy.
i love teachers day. i love, her, her, her, her, her, her and him and meow.
i am tired, lazy, happy, sad, listening to a song.
today is, 4th of september. is three months. no-one birthday.
i wanted, a handphone, another new jeans, more tops, not to be in (TAF).
i went to, ntuc, sheng shiong, a shop nearby.
i did, my house work, kiss my cat, and kiss you.
and now i am offically comparing my, " ( thethethe nadd pose ) " ok. alittle bit difference, but still. very very very original. this is my shortest post this month.

okayy its done.
(sudah habes)

NADD

so, im the happy girl, and whatever happens happy still. i failed history test. i passed my math test. im sick because of bad weather. over the week ends, i've made my own craft for my teacher, the previous year. theres a video below. i really love primary schools. i mean the people there are much better than secondary schools, espcially classmates.

i knew you guys remember how my behaviour is. but not now, im fused. weak. im anti-social. my-oh-my. im just me. 80 more hour(s) to teachers day. and have fun watching the video.

so okayy. i'll be typing out the letter which i dedicated to some of my classmates.
and i'll be very kind enough not to state their full name down there in the letter.
i think this letter explain much eventhough it dosent consists of 360 words.

girl, you, got attitude.
i dont know what else to say.
or perhaps i should give you a tutorial lesson.
theres plans in my palms. i better dont type it out.
it'll be more than 360 words.
so okayy. so you got long hair.
you must remember me all of your lives.
and so, maybe i'll shave your head, wouldn't it'll be unforgetable enough?
its your unforgetable haircut of yours.
i have enough facing the hell of those teeth, hair, name, butt and all.

fuck ( childish ) immatured kids.
they, will never grow.

dedicated to you.

finish, im so bored. gonna have to sleep, please.
please, pity my tired ass.

nestball was sucky ystd.
a ball hits my right part of the cheek, and good thing, my right thumb cant be bent.
yay~ school was shit.
wrote a note to friends. will type it out someday.
got no mood.
okayy.

i went to the library just now, then got this indian girl. she pull my pencilbox to a cetain distance to attract attention then say " shhh.. " wtf la. i was like jaw dropped. you should really see how my reaction was. grr.

sometimes i feel, stupid. maybe a dummy. like a piece of shit perhaps. damn. just like i once said in my previous previous previous post, im feel like im just being fucked. maybe if i got a chance to immigrate to another school, i'll be miles away from my hometown. and to some things, they just dont get it right. damn. i hate my classmates. they suck.

nadiah love stewie griffin.

shop.

so, yes it is, i went to tanjung pinang for a short trip. the market was like a rat house, huge people with small place. omg. get me out of here. came to the hotel and went out. so there was 9 people. one baby. two children. 6 adults. two rooms. two king bed. one bed for male, the other for female. then, that night we went karaoke. i feel small. i was like doing the extra extra voice, so so so out of tune. gee, karaoke was fun.

so the next day, woke up at 9 went to the rat market. i walked straight to a shopping mall, because i knew the money was with me, i scanned the shop and bought 2 things, black jeans and t-shirt. i bargained till the price cant go any further down. yeah! ( after three hour(s) )
the driver picked us up and we went to Ramayana. and bought a jacket, skulls version. the skulls were in pink, the background in white.

that night i went to play pool. 3 rounds. and and and, i knew how to use rupiah notes allready. you know, why must people make such a confuse out of money, like dollars and rupiah. whatt only.

okayy, im done.

on holiday.

i'll be moving to another island. not far not near, but i still need my passport. packed my luggage that is small and ment for 2 persons. hope i enjoy. so, i woke up at 8 in the morning. all because of my excitedness. if not i am gonna wake up at9 or 10, i guess by that time they leave me at home allready. so, its a family trip.

grannnys following and told us ( translated to english )
"make sure tomorow wake up after morning prayer ok?" god, she thinks im nuts.
what to rush, the first boat is at 1230.
i love my blog song. makes me shake legs. and the bass guitar, girls with long skirts, the beach, shades.

okayy, i need to rush, havent bathe. so i got to bathe. they've just called us said come here now. i was like ah?! okok. ok people of the world, i need to go into another island for a short trip. blog will be on a a short hiatus.
love you.

42 years.

Today, the nation is celebrating 42 years of living, Singapore.
Singapore, unique, small, cute, and busy.
Singapore has it, secure security, life, leisure and living.
( i dont know what am i talking )
And also, ASEAN Day, NS40 obviously National Day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE,
YOU JUST TURNED 42!

today tuesday

i am now blogging. hohoho. i feel weak. like im just been fucked. so, i ate hotdog rolls with chilli for breakfast. i came to school today. english teacher didnt come to school today, she is sick. i guess, im getting bad. common test, 13/40. so, now i do feel like typing many many many words. friends suck. im feeling like dead.

so, i just receive a record from the school head department that im a murder. theres many case right now. eventhough after recess, the quadrangle. i kill small ants that is very innocent. what they did was, they walked in front of me and walk around. i use my fingers and took them away from land to my palm. i was like, omg, where your eyes? stupidity. im talking alone.

i enjoyed the sunset today. till 7.03 the sunset was done. so called, like not sunset allready. what if blood vessels burst? eeew~
mrs. bay my principle rocks my mind body soul. ok, so, i till here lah.

the day.

it was wednesday. got netball.
my bag wasn't that heavy. didn't bring my sport shoes.
siti, ruby and ruzana stayed behind and waited. i was different today.
i just experienced my best netball training day out of the other days. best best.
i hate one of the senior. she didn't came today. i hate her. today was freedom.
i hate this pompuan keling. allways give excuse. nanti mati kene bakar, yay!~
i laughed alot today. only bring $3 to school, left $1.50
spent $1.50 for 12 hours in school. i can survive!

i called azielah by her glam father name: muhammad ali.
mine: datok k.
shairah: sameon.
ruzana: ja'afar
ashikin: roslan.
i like the way it is. ((:

i was very happy today. and i dont know why.
it was like yay!~
im clean now, very very.
ok, thats it.
im just very happy today(:

eh keling siak, gi mati la. fatin, its better if you dont exist.

.......... i miss you alot alot alot...........

monday morning.

ok.
its monday morning. youth day(: received some stuffs from school, cool laa.
and damn! primary school student aren't schooling. grrr. teachers day comming soon.
i dont know whether i should bring something or not. nevermind.
i just ate one wafer stick (oreo). nice sei.
this morning i accompany my cat when shes sleeping, she smells good. i bathe for her yesterday. not easy you know!~ she tried to run, but my hands were too good for her.
so, shes hell clean now. can still smell the shampoo.
shes now suntenning her body XD
i got history, malay, english, maths homework not done. yay~
ok, bye.

love.

so this morning wake up, i sing songs with my soul in my bed.
then for breakfast, i skank. i wonder whats up for lunch. okayy people? maybe mosh? wahaha. have you ever wonder that there is some people in this world ate their shit? its like omgomgomg.

avenged sevenfold, my love. wahaha.
here are some of the touching paragraphs from some of their songs.

I can't trust anyone, witness and see it in my eyes
Now I can understand, put faith in you for the last time
It's sorrow that feeds your lies
Falling away, can't buy back time
Burned it down anyways
-Burn It Down.

A good friend once told me you are memory
without them we equal nothing
And all I can see is the place I wanna be,
suddenly my life was so free
Leaves at my feet,
blown to the ground their echoes are reaching my ears
Night's coming fast, suns going down but keep away from me.
-Remenissions.

"Mosh to the rhythm of oi and skank to the rhythm of ska"

pictures.

(nothing remains)


this is how i sit.



row row row your boat.


when theres a tornado.


im stuck in a place, when theres snow in malaysia.

yang belakang tu sebok je. grandfather(:

shadows.

this is all i've got for the rest of my holidays session of june week four.

the night before departing.

today is the night before the departing day. so yeah yesterday i met you and today you. hahas. my big and tall teddy bear. love teddy bear! hahas. and for today gonna use malay language in my post.

TOPIC: orang tue.

jadi kalaw kite diikut kan, mak bapak sekarang makin mepek untuk saye. telefon bimbit saye di tahan hingga mati. ape je eh? lagi pon bapak aku ni tahon da beli tige hp baru. pookey tiang. sampai makcik aku pujok mak aku suro kasi one of the hp utk kite. ape die kesah. jadi bapak aku nie kalaw nak di katekan boleh jadi pelokek bin kedekut. suke hati dorang ah. da tu tkpe. sumenye yang kite dapat tidak adil! bodo(:
nak tahu lebih lanjut kenape tak adil? kalawnyw adil, kakak aku takkan nk curik hp mak aku? rabak la kirekan. nak keluar? keluar due orang mcm tak ade anak. kalaw adek nk ikot pon tak kasi, ni ape nak simpan2 dari kite aku pon tk tau. mcm kes beli 4D je. geram sak. kalaw kluar ngan makcik, macam jadi anak angkat. nak beli bende dier cakap " stock masih ade " otak die. mepek ah sak. klw dapat first in class. ade yang nak puji? kawan, cikgu, makcik. mak bapak jangan harap. dorang nk kene langkah mayat aku dulu. kalaw nak keluar ngan kawan pon tak ade extra money. kite ape kesah tangan panjang pe(: kite kluar ngan kawan jadi boleh beli bende dorang tk nampak . beh klw kluar ngan dorang ep macam boleh beli ke? noo. beli baju? tunggu sale. sale dah ade " baju masih bnyk" puki la sey. harap maaf. tapi, aku tk kesah!

YOU BOTH SUCK!

REALLY REALLY SUCK!

LIFE IS NOT FAIR!

:SUCKER!

i never realise.

you know. holidays drive me mad around singapore and days. i get no idea what day is today. so oh-okay, its thursday.when theres no school, i'll forget the days. today planned going sentosa again. i went to under water world and 4D magix. i touched a stingray, and then shouted. i was scared because i was bodo, and stood hell near the glass. i dont wanna die like how steve irwin died. heh. then, went to eat. all the places in singapore we went far east. there is this food shop in far east, got wantan noodles and sambal wantan goreng. i tell you, i could finish the whole sambal wantan goreng. nice.

and yeah. the menu sheet which the waiter gave us had a bad english, in spelling. wanna know how they spell sprite? they spell, spirit. so there you go. that shop sells air spirit/spirit water for one-dollar and fifty cents. the best time for them to learn is to watch spell cast. pity pity pity. and i never thought holidays made me more nearer in studies too. i miss maths and english lessons, even though the teachers sucks. teachers will be teachers, student will be someone who they aim to be.

going to the library tommorow. hee.

these are the pictures. not many yet. more to come. fun. homework not done, litreature babe. (not mine)


end of the day.


felt high, dont fall.


air ticket.


three hundred and sixty degree of fun.


singer.


thanks for the fire.

baby blues: i wanna see!

on holiday.

on the first week of the holidays, and in one of the days. i went to 3 places in one day.
Plaza Singapura, Far East and Parkway Parade. fifth of june, i went to seven places, including two mosque. from 10:30 in the morning till 8 in the night. i went to, Singapore Expo, Escape Theme Park, DHL hot air ballon, Sentosa Skyride. my energetic makcik have little time at sentosa and decided to go there on the seventh of june. yay. will try to post pictures okayy?

oldies

oldies oldies oldies.
back to old.
enjoy the playlist.

9DAYS.

Hong Kah Talent Show was today. seniors really tought the little ones based on how-to-rock. there was one group who playes the song Seize The Day by Avenged Sevenfold. i was like
" oh-my....". nice laa. i shouted the loudest for them because i was at the front. then a group made rapping which was boring. then an indian girl danced alone on stage moving left to right, which was disgusted by people.released us for recess. it was 10 minutes late. grr. after recess, teacher played the movie space jam 2, bored la sey.

then after 10 minutes of the movie, i went to bed. and woke up and english lesson. english lesson was a piece of bullshit. i've gotten my first litreature homework. must do it when june holidays. june holidays assignment. then went home because i was feeling not okay. didnt attent netball. (netball sucks) later at night i stole my sister makeup. i played with it. fun you know. dapp dapp here dapp dapp there. hahas. dear people another 9DAYS. i dont think you people understand.

happy birthday to you!

Its for you my dear.

Happy birthday!

You must be celebrating in Japan now.

( safety first! )

-emmarrie just shouts happy birthday in the air, hope he can hear in Japan(:

away, one month.

so okayy. today is 14.05.07. the day where i first when to a morning jog. tired. actually i jog about how many meters only. got many people you know. some shouted to wake themself up in the park. nuts. & some really sweat to death. unlike mine, abit only. i went to take photoes of myself yesterday. showed some to maisarah. malu ler. and some really cute small toys. i really got no work to do. gosh.

yes. will be putting some pictures here, to entertain you. im now wearing jacket. actually for my body, there is 3 layer of clothes. ( not including those, okayy. ) black singlet, black t-shirt, think jacket. the thick jacket where i wore them to genting highlands. my degree is 38.3 consider hot or not? (: my body became weak. but im still going to surf the intrenet. im a internet-addict. and going to change the song in my blog yeah?

toy cars; love.

LOVE(; him.

sayang sayang sayang.

okay. today, i tell you, nothing happened today. then after my madrasah i went to play habbo when i added this man in my msn account too. then we talk-talk laa. then i fond it bored and ask him for songs, he gave he his rap version. he is like the Singapore Chris Brown. my first time a friend who likes to rap. nice laa.

at five plus, i stomped to hougang. the man which i went to indonesia get his grandchild after 6 years of waiting.
he the teeth bo-gey laa. but nice man.
i know the tittle has nothing to go with my post, hehes

okayy. im done(:

its the way i am.

so. it has been a very long time i didnt blog. but remember. dosent mean that i didnt blog, i didnt look for comments updates. school is hanging my death. friends? still the same, shitty shitty. i got a friend who like to follow the hairstyle of one of my classmates, but she got one jendol. wahaha. somemore wanted to curse one girl who she called her jendol. she deserve to be called the malay lohan. hahas. im bad laa. well i guess thats who i am.

another one also attempt to copy but her one lepeh, hehe. short summore want to act only.

im so bored. today taking science paper. sucks laa. what teacher thought me really came out of the paper. grr. its cold today. the coldness were like in Genting Highlands. i shiver during my science paper. and slept. nice to sleep.

& i slept yesterday during mother tongue paper2 its like the duration is 1h 30 minutes less than 50 minutes i finished allready. what to do, sleep(: i dream that i was in heaven lying on top of my mother tongue paper. Register number 6 had 3 attempts of waking me up but she failed. im the Sleeping Queen. hahas.

i went through so much in life i wonder when it will end. ish. loving someone dosent worth. i wonder if he/she appericiate it.

alittle story here. (my hair nice? XD)

nie cine suke jeling jeling kat orang melayu. nak tau asal? pasal mate die juleng. ingat cute la tu, skali dgr, dier dalam kumpulan kesihatan orang gemuk. ape la nak jadi. suke carik gadoh pulak tu. bodo tol cine sekarang. hahas.

suke lipat skirt, ingat lawa la u. benci la si Pantat Putih nie. untuk pendapat semue bagi sesiape yang membace ni, klw kenal dier jgn comment name dier panggil dier Pantat Putih.

thats all. hehes.

XD NADD

hello(:

so, i just got bored and decided to blog(:

i was just thinking on what am i. well its difficult as a guess to make change. i have decided to change back to the old me. was trying to bring memories, and new things. do you remember parkour? parkour is the freestyles an act of an animal, as most of it conclude barrier jumpes, cat leap , cat to cat and more. more of it search in youtube.

and yeahh. exams around the corner. dont like laa. have you ever thought your new friends are somehow shitty? that mole ass freak, i hate her. seriously, how can you act when you are writing something on your hand and that 'friend' pushes you. best act: ignore, dont talk , make face(: jeling jeling laa tuu, kan mate kau juleng baru tau.
my friend said " nadiah sux! but shes nice. " god damn ass. whats that meaning

thats all(:

exam):

just receive my exam time-table for sec 1. and exams are comming, i felt like running. hate exams, but still have to take it. being an N(A) student is fun. you know. i love my class(: this year 1N2 Hong Kah Sec, make history. We won the campfire champion and inter-class soccer. PE-head master announced that there will be another game comming. for girls only. the inter-class handball. which is smillar to captains` ball. that game which PE teacher conducted in PE lessons every thursday(:

my group, group 5. we fought with group 6 for friendly class match. the first week, the results are a tie. second week, my group wins, whehee. group 5 - group 6 ; 9 : 5 if not, my group can score better but i allways like to throw the small ball, which im supposed not to throw. grrr.

exams week.

• 3rd May thursday, mother tongue laguage (paper 1 & 2 ; seprately)
• 4th May Friday, science
• 7th May Monday, mathematics 2
• 8th May Tuesday, english language 2
• 9th May Wednesday, mathematics 1 & geography
• 10th May Thursday, i'm currently free(:
• 11th May Friday, had nothing on friday
• 14th May Monday, other level examinations. i'm consider free
• 15th Mat Tuesday, marking day. free(:
• 16th May Wednesday, Netball. body starts to ache again):

so, theres my exam time-table. it sucks but nice. i'm so damn bored now. got nothing to do. well, revision ,revision and revision. uh. hope i score well this time.

&im free on 14 may.

;any early plans?

wheehee

hello(:

morning strikes with my morning prayer. went to sleep back after that. woke up at 8:55am, just nice for my early saturday shows. refreshing. took my unusual breakfast. dont like uh. should i cut my hair? it seems difficult to make decisions. and yesterday, went to causway point with parents and sissy. bought home new stationaries and books. & shoes(: i like it. black in colour. black suits everything. uh. didn't bought home any new clothes wherelse, last week aunt bought me long sleeves white narrow shirt. going to put up my picture based on my style.

didn't use the camera for weeks. quite bored then. moms and dads phone are spoiled. wahaha. both brands are like the same brand. didn't feel good then. got food poisioning for the second time. shitty shitty. grandmoms at johore now. uh. bored bored.

editing pictures, i've got.



If I Had No Other Choice.



LOVING`

comments and rate okayy.

Im` sorry for all.
Before it ends.
& only if I could enjoy; 14 April.
; I had a bad day.

cherry):

it was around five when my friend and i was looking for this candy because cherry wasn't there.

cherry and her two little siblings allways played together but after her religious class, she did seem that the shoe rack was in mess and cherry and one of them wasn'nt there. those who knew about this story, i wonder if only you could understand. is like, so sad. i still remember when i the third time having a kitten for a week and it suddenly lost, for 3 or 4 days. she stayed long in my home.

as a human being, i feel love through her. a love for an animal. when she wasn't there, htere was silence, her voices gone and all.shed sllways did the extra mess, but now there was no mess to clean. if she think she have gave everything for thaat animal, may god bring their way up infront of your feet, looking at you. after 3 or 4 days of looking for her everynight at dirty drains, i've found her.it was a clear tought, someone helped me, but that someone cant come down to earth. whatever scars i've received on my body, i dont have any regrets. shes part of the family allready.

and theres a song for my beloved syabeel(: this is for syabeel, i hope you understand what i felt about you and everything about you. & to my kittie, meow~

thank god i've found you.

sports day.

i reach so early in the morning. around six plus. i get hooked up with my senior that time, he was the house master, after practising one lap at the clementi stadium, he took a break and played the song I won't see you tonight by Avenged Sevenfold.

so, as i told you the day will be hot, even they encouraged us to buy something at the small stall. i see that they are earning more money today. then the race and all. bored laa. then we all went home, it took 4 double decker 198 bus for hongkah people. i tell you the first and second bus was damn full. so it was like a transport bus for us.

oh-i'm soo lazy! bored. the seniors went crazy as, any malay upper sec walk pass Gamma, they'll say something laa. very entertaining uh. & disturbing runners lke " eh kecik! lagi siket tu! cepat argh! ah nanti da sampai finishing line gi sujud ahh." crapp.

im hungry byes!

I hate everything about you!

school drive me nuts.

so yeah. school drive me nuts. having problems here and there. and i'll just ignore. uh. tommorow is my school Annual Track & Field Meet. i'm the viewers. teacher says that we are going to be under the hot sun eventhough there was shlter. must be a hot day. got no Netball today. happy you know. it's been bad at school and i dont bother. friends are like shit.
they suck. seriously, i dont care whether they are reading this or not, the thing is you're the one i hated.

two weeks ago i try to wrote a letter to my friend whom i hate, instead of writing, i draw. i drew it on my notebook. first impression is hate. i just scribble the back page with my heart laa. then the second last page, there is marks of deep torn paper. as in you move your pen forward and backward. that note book has 5 marks. the marks represented on the book is for whom i hate. it has light deep cut, very light circle, 3 very deep cut which has left markings on the first page.
so i hope i didnt do that again.

an incident hapen, i was doing the last mark with my red pen, and when i just ended up, i wanted to cover the pen cap back to the tip of the pen but instead, i accidently poke my left hand index finger. will show the picture tommorow. and it bleeds. i printed the blood and remaining blood in the notebook. strange was, i was doing the mark last one for the person i hate the most and it happen. what is that trying to show?

missing tradeMARKS + Syabeel(:

This is me.

sigh. I still got my homework undone. I'm just bored. Listen to new songs every week. They are all nice laa. so, I took hour(s) to change things on my blog. since i only update my blog once a week. with pictures, sometimes no(: i got no idea why i'm sitting like this, theres a metal round plane underneath my computer, theres where i place my feet. and the keyboard on my thighs. that is about more than 30cm away from the computer.
good for you eyes. so, i just created a new way of laid-back typing for good eyesight(:

well, can you imagine your so called nearest friend in secondary school told your class monitor that you loved him, that when you get annoyed, you turned behind and your so called friend said that you loved him as a firend. but actually in your heart you really liked that monitor. you liked his smile and all. then you remember again that the day before, your so called friend said that she also like that man. then is was geography class.

that monitor was supposed to sit infront of your eyes but instead, he sitted beside the girl that liked him. that girl has a steady and her steady was just a table away from me, you saw him with sad broken hearted full of blood on his face. you looked at the girl who was called your so called friend and you class monitor, they were having fun. in other sense, they have to sit beside eachother and did their work. you got no supprised but, you were more suprised when you saw that girl who was the heart player.

You get it? i not then nevermind. well the message is that


" if this is how you treat boys who are damn
kind to you, you'd better be someone else."
- NADD


thats it for today.

take care;
byebye,

NADD

Chinese New Year.

so that chinese new year, i went back to my father homeland that is malaysia. -batu pahat. the place is nice laa. so went there 3 days 2 night .
slept at two houses, one at my mothers side one on my fathers side.
first night at my mother side and i reach there like 10:+ and im tired to death. i didn't do anything. in fact nothing. just hearing my mp3 in my fathers car till here. yeah, that house was more that 20 years allready.
very old la. and that house was ment to be the second favourite house in me.
yeah. i agree with you. todays post will me short.
heheks.


the painter i sold to be my aunty present.

the eating cat.

hugry cat(: meow~

okayy thats tok penghulu.

crazy as we are. still the same.

the birthday cake. 17th of Febuary~ Little sissy day(:

the girl mcm ape je.

the car that brought me here.

caught red-handed for licking your nose

my cat. scary huh.

take care;

byebye,

NADD

She sleeps away.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I'M 13th(:

So, today, when at my grandmom house, ate my dinner there then, went home, buy something. and felt like crying. seriously. i never felt this way, but it just did cause' im falling on my birthday. then went home , someone knocked the door and he was my uncle!the bought me a puma jacket(: and parents bought me a swensens ice cream birthday cake. with these strange iceings.and friend bought me somthing too. a mini mouse mini hugable pillow.
so now the pictures, not that many laa . okay, enjoy! I'm 13!

Firstly, I introdue to you, my all. Teddy(:

My name carved with chocolate and white-chocolate thin piece.

The half-eaten ice-cream mango flavoured cake(:

C A N D L E S (:

The box.

Horizontal' Back and Front view.

The Mug.

The minieMOUSE.

ALL.

byebye;

takecare,

NADDD(: