The voice of the accuser

Hi all! =P hahaha how's Malaysia! Long time no see, to be frank I kinda miss you all =( sob sob sob T.T but no one seems to read this blog anymore but who cares haha, I believe people still visit this blog once a the blue moon, and even though it's once in the blue moon! I believe this blog will bless others too!
The purpose of my post today of course is not that but something else. To be frank, after I reached Australia, I was quite down. At first I thought it was the winter blue (darn, it's freaking cold here), then I thought maybe I wasn't able to adapt well (Trying hard to explain to people I'm not from Monash Malaysia! T.T ), today I had found the reason: I have been listening to the wrong voice - the voice of the accuser.
I heard a lot of negativity here, like: Alex you're going to fail if you are so lazy! Alex you're going to fail! and etc etc. And in the mean time, I heard a lot of news of people failing here, like tons of them. Under such circumstances, I somehow buy into the thought that I need to be more hardworking, I need to do this, do that, read this read that, just to get a PASS (yes, I actually thinks that). In the meanwhile, I kept on praying for wisdom and pray that I can get HD (see the contrast?).
While I'm on this thought, I had other thoughts of getting acceptance and friends. I felt that I'm far from God and I even feel that God won't bless me with wisdom because I'm not working hard (haha Aaron must be very happy reading this).
I begin to feel far, aimless in Austria and life seems to meaningless, where until the extend that, I felt like I'm living life for the sake of living. I never felt this way in Malaysia before. I tried to pray and read the Bible, but nothing seems to come out, in my mind I was like: "God shows me! Talk to me! Why aren't you talking back to me! Why?!" I was demanding a verse of a chapter to pop-up from the Bible, but nothing came out.
I lived almost 2 months in this aimless, hopeless, and a bit depress sitaution until I found the answer this morning. I have this thought: 'I have been feeding myself wrongly', and I was prompted to read a book given by Pastor Sally and Pastor Patrick before I left here, and while I was looking through the content to see if I can read anything I want to read. I flipped to the chapter and I found nothing I was looking for. But instead, I actually got a revelation out of it! Hallejah! I was listening to the voice of the accuser!

And really, I want to thank God for the revelation and of course Pastor Sally and Pastor Patrick for the book haha. Imagine, the book was so near to me all this time, and I believed God must had been prompting me to read it, yet I was preoccupied with my thoughts, and the voice of the accuser and I left it out.

Disclaimer: I'm not suggesting you all to buy this book,but just follow the prompting of the spirit. Once again, I really miss you all! Can't wait to go back! haha a fews later =P see yea and God bless my beloved Care Group members!

The law does not give us the power over satan.

Have you wonder that whenever you try to keep the law, you always feel tired, and you may end up feeling condemn? The law is good, holy and just, BUT is was never meant to justify us. It was meant to point out our ungodliness and to show our need for Jesus. As for all the cg members, do you know why you feel restless sometimes or feel stressed?

You might think that "Oh, this sickness or complexity is allowed by God so that He can mold me." No, God doesn't simply allowed it. 
God did not want us to suffer.  Do you want to know why? 
Because there is a deeper root. Manifestation of the curses like poverty, sickness, broken marriages
are caused by stress. But then, stress is caused by fear. By the way, this is not what I thought too.
Everything we talk about must point back to the scriptures. Have you notice after Adam sinned, he sweat and toiled, and then he faced death. So yeah, death is caused by stress. But before that, you go back further to the garden. And you look at Genesis.

In Genesis 3:10, Adam said that I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid ...... Okay, now we know stress is caused by fear. But the deepest root is CONDEMNATION. Why? Because he partook the fruit from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. Do you notice that this tree is not called the tree of sin? I'm sure you all know this. But I'm here to remind all of us including myself, that condemnation is the root problem. When you talk about the knowledge of good and evil, it is a picture of the law. 1 Corinthians 15:56 says that "The sting of death is sin, the power of sin is the law." You remove the law, you remove the strength of sin. When you think of the law think of condemnation. Don't think the law is do right. I know do right is good. But in this situation think of law as condemnation.

And Paul struggles with sin. When you read Romans 7, you notice that he said that the
good I want to do I don't do but the bad I don't wanna do I do. He knew he how sinful he was because he knew the law thoroughly. But after that, we all know Romans 8:1. This is the continuation from the previous chapter. "There is therefore NOW no condemnation in Christ Jesus." We all know this. And how we know that Satan is the one that condemns us?
Satan's name in the greek means the accuser. His weapon is the law!!!

But thanks be to God, Colossians 2:14-15 says that
"Having wiped out the handwriting of requirements that was against us, which was contrary to us. And He has taken it out of the way, having nailed it to the cross.Having disarmed principalities and powers, He made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them in it."
 
The handwriting of requirements is the law. And God nailed it to the cross. You read from the previous verse and until verse 15. 
Satan is disarmed principalities and powers. His power is the law!! That is why his name is called The Accuser. And after I heard Ps. Joseph Prince messages, I figured out that Satan has no other weapon but the law. You notice that Satan go straight to the root. Condemnation is undetected because it is spiritual. NOW we know that Satan is disarmed, we are free to live from sin. We will have victory over sicknesses, stress, diseases and all negativities.

We should remind ourselves by saying, "I am the righteous of God through Christ Jesus!" every day in our lives. If we feel condemned, God is there to bring us up. By giving us His son for our justfication. When we fall, we would walk boldly to God and say, "It is justified!!!!" I am the righteous one through Christ Jesus.

I really hope this encourages everyone in our CG.

God's creation

A different Year

I have a testimonial here, I thank God for a wonderful birthday, when I thought it was going to be, yet another day in my life. won't go into detail here, what I really want to do is testify his goodness in my life and thank Him for all He has done =)

a moment i would like to share

once again.. if you believe in Jesus.. u know u are in for a good journey on this earth..

i've been working.. for the past 9 months.. and yes.. its been fun although the work may come so fast at times that i just scratch my head and think what should i do first..

but i've been unable to face my boss, my managers well.. i only ask questions from a few because i sometimes wanna avoid a scolding of my below par performance..

but yea.. I did what i could.. at work.. although sometimes i try to push harder.. or slack.. but i know i did what i can do.. as i was saying goodbye to the colleagues for the night.. i say good night to my boss and managers, to my surprised.. they are happy.. and they are asking when can i get friends who work like me..

really its weird la.. coz i dont work really hardcore like others.. and i slack alot.. and based on previous working experiences.. i'm always the least committed one.. i usually think that they have negative thoughts of me.. but not anymore..

but yea.. it finally prove me wrong that with Jesus, favor comes automatically.. not with my own efforts.. but by the Grace of our Father in Heaven.. wanna really thank God for that..

Another thing i wanna thank God for.. is my results came in.. and im really happy with it.. although i didnt get all As or Distinctions watsoever.. but i did farely well for my standard.. all again because not of my own effort in studying.. but by God's grace again for the wisdom and understanding of the subjects.. the exams.. the timing.. everything.. God is crucial for those things other than studying...

Lets wait for the next one.. can't wait for it to happen..

(Insert witty title here)- My laptop post

hey hey everyone!
wow, this place has been very quiet lately...

anyways, I have a testimony!! :)

I've been using my dad's laptop for photo editing, my coursework assignments, etc..
but a few weeks ago, my dad's laptop started acting weird. Don't really know how to explain the problem, but it was really irritating..
At first, I didn't pay too much attention to it, but it kept getting worse.
I told my dad about it, and he told me to back up all the important documents in case something happened. So that night i turned on the laptop with the intention of backing up all the data, but I fell asleep for about an hour (it was around 11pm...). When I woke up, the screen was all white, and I couldn't do anything to make it function properly. So I rebooted it, but it became worse- the screen wouldn't even turn on. So chamm... By that time it was already about 12 something (am), so I just prayed and went to sleep hoping that it would be ok the next day.

Next morning, I turned the laptop on, but there was again, no display on the screen.
You can imagine how worried I was. My dad just told me to back up everything, and when I was just about to, the laptop konked out! All the important data hadn't been backed up (including my photos!! and my dad's work!!!). At this point, what else could one do but to faster pray to God right?! Hahah... so I prayed and prayed and prayed. Switched the laptop on a couple more times hoping for a miracle, but nothing happened. Aiyoooh, God!!!
(I was dreading telling my dad when he came home from work)

But I told him anyway, and he said to take the laptop to the HP service center the next day.
(Btw, have any of you been there before? I must say, their after sales service is very good!)
On with the story... The girl at the service center said that it was probably only a problem with the motherboard (and not the hard disk) and it should be fixed by the next day. My dad and I were relieved and went out of the HP service center praising God.

BUT, this is not the end of the testimony, in case you are already clapping your hands and saying "Amen! Amen! PTL!" etc etc...

We were told to call the HP customer service center the next day to check if the laptop was ready to be picked up... So, I called. And the girl said that, nope, it wasn't ready, because the technician had ordered for a few things to be replaced. I asked what those things were anticipating the word "motherboard", but she listed a few things. Can't remember all of them, because all I heard was, "....., ......, hard disk, ....., ....., ......"
"Wait, hard disk, miss?!?!?!" I interrupted.
"Yes, hard disk"
"Errr... so that means... erhmm... my previous hard disk is spoilt???!!??"
"Yes"
"And all my data is gone??"
"Yes", she said so unfeelingly.
"Oh nooooooooooooooooooooo........"
(silence from the lady)
"Erm. well, miss _________. Thank you very much". I said while thinking "No thank you very much..." >.< style="font-weight: bold;">ALL the data from the old hard disk was saved!! Woot!!
All my pictures, my assignments, and ...
especially my dad's work (of which I would feel solely responsible for if it had been lost)!!!

After that my dad told my family that he wasn't anxious at all because he had prayed and God had given him peace. Can't say the same about myself, but I know that God also answered my prayer.

Truly, even when it seems like all hope is gone, all things are possible with God!
And I really thank God for covering my mistake of not backing up the data earlier. :)


There, I'm done!
Now you can all clap your hands and say "Amen, Amen...!!"

Haha :D

Written by the one covered with chilli sauce. Does anyone read this title anyway? Kudos if you did.

... and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and in Samaria, and to the ends of the earth. Acts 1:8

From the way things are going on with some people I know, they tend to just focus on defending their faith, until they forget the message of grace and love, the heart of the gospel. We talk about it, we get excited about it, we pledge to do it. Do we really take a step out of our box to take this message to the people?

Oh yes, I understand how hard it can get. Especially to family members. Especially to those who love to equip themselves with Christian and Jewish war history, so to speak. Oh, and those who love to pinpoint the mistakes we commit.

Really, I think that most of us are rather afraid, afraid to damage our relationship with family and friends. Persecution, condemnation. blah. I am afraid of that too.

But look at it this way. Would you try your best and tell them of God's great love and grace, Jesus' work on the cross even though they reject it, or just keep quiet, hope for the best, never doing anything, and maintain a stable relationship with them.

Witnesses witness. They testify.
Are we not witnesses of the great things He has done?

Nobody said that it would be smooth flowing. Nobody said that to everyone you testify they would belive you.

...and you will be my witnesses..................... to the ends of the earth.

Challenges will come. There may be strong opposition. It may hurt. But it is worthwhile.

Last week's time with Ps. Paul Geerling has indeed spoken right into my heart. The very first phrase he said -the title of the sermon- "Now is the time". Brothers and sisters, there is no later date for salvation. There is no use in waiting until the prayers are enough. There is no use trying to wait for someone else to do it.

" Just do it". Ah, classic.

Do not be afraid, do not be ashamed. Because....

Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

"God with us"
Yea man. : )

No matter what it takes, let us take the message of the gospel to our family, our friends, and to the ends of the earth.

God bless, and have a great week ahead!

We are blessed

I believed we are so blessed that most of the time we didn't notice it. Because most of time those things are so minor even we didn't even take note of it.

Anyway here my testimonial:
My relationship with my friend is going great, getting to know each other better days after days. And I thank God for giving me a chance to serve in Matthew Team and as an Usher. Matthew Team had enabled me to talk boldly with people whom I never met before, unlike less time I'll just pause for a long hour thinking what to talk with new comers, but most of the time now, the flow just kept coming, I believe is God-inspired and also God has taught me how to talk =)

God's love

hmm...

My grandmother had to undergo minor sugery to change the battery in her pacemaker, and praise the Lord, that the surgery went smoothly, and she is well. Hopefully, the presence of my mother who rushed back to PG has encouraged and comforted her.

And of course, that she is moved and really, really believes and confesses that Jesus is Lord.

On another note...

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul:
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil:
for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

Psalm 23:1-6 King James Version Bible

May Jack's friend, Andrew find peace in the Lord

Prayer Request for a friend

Hi all, there seem to be no posts for the recent week or so..

I didn't came church last week for some reason.. but i'm fine here..

This post is for u guys.. our cg mates.. let us show what Jesus can do! what our miracle worker can do!

My high school friend, i knew him since form 1.. although we were never close, never same class.. but he will always be a friend.. will treat him as a friend.. whenever and wherever.. but his whole life came to a standstill.. on friday.. evening..

Basically, he was in the gym, doing his usual routines.. while he was doing chin ups, he suddenly blackout, and let go of the bar, fell towards the floor. His head hit the steps as the bar was quite high and he need to go up a few steps.. but the worse part was.. his back of his head hit so hard on the floor.. that it drew commotion from the whole gym.. His friends were there as well..

The impact was so hard, it cause a severe internal bleeding. We thought he would be fine.. but he went unconscious for 3 days already. this is the fourth day.. the first scan doctors did for his brain, it was fine.. he was still unawake, doctors removed his blood clot.

However after the scan today.. the news wasn't very good.. but Jesus is doing the impossible right? doctors told that he might be on coma for a while, or he may go home to be with the Lord.. or he will awake paralyze or mentally ill as part of his brain cells are dead. So.. doctors told his parents to prepare for the worse...

Alot of his friends overseas are coming home to visit him today, due to his critical situation, he is still in ICU. he is really in pain... and his mother is praying hard for him.. hoping for a real miracle..

So... please pray for him.. although i dont know him well.. He still is a brother in Christ.. your prayers will definitely help.. appreciate it alot..

His name is Andrew, his age is 20 this year.. and he has a life ahead of him.. I believe he will be a living testimony.. thnx.. will update the situation soon...

sry didnt type it in many colors.. but hope u guys read it.. thnx

God is definitely Good

Grace is the power of believing... and yea.. believing what you want it to happen is crucial. without the proper belief system, we won't be able to achieve what God wants us to be...

but thats not the point.. the main point is i didnt believe..

But.. God was gracious.. he knows what i want, he knows what everyone wants.. am i right? He knows us till the number of our hair.

Today, March 24th.. got my results for 1 mid semester paper and 1 assignment.. I was believing, expecting a really disappointed result because i didn't put in effort for my mid semester paper, and my assignment i just did it during the week..

results came in.. Thank God&Jesus&Holy Spirit! i got 11/15 for Management Accounting Mid Semester.. ok.. 11/15, its not an A technically.. but its good.. because...
1st: I studied like the day before exam...
2nd: The highest marks achieved for this paper was only 14.. so (14-11=3 not bad la)
3rd: Of all the friends i know so far, in college, i'm par with one, the rest i got higher than them.. not bragging.. but this is all Jesus' favor on me..

Second, Assignment, thank God again, 13.67/15 for Business Stats. again, last minute work and all, really thank God that i didn't get 12/11 because i am aiming for an A for this. Hopefully i will get it...

So thank God for this! thank those who keep me in prayer, really appreciate it!

i have a prayer request, just a short prayer, that i will do well for my finals.. which is in 3 weeks time.. Thanks alot.. Just believe that Jesus do for you, it will do wonders! and i believe that everyone here will succeed, just by believing.. not my the works of our own hands.. but by believing.. also have to study.. but cant study forever right..

I have a testimony.

My school had sports events in the stadium last friday( Good Friday). & I participated in the 400m race. I prayed to God for his strength and just told myself to enjoy the race. And praise God!, I got first for that event. Not only that, I broke the 400m school record which hasn't been broken for 7 years. Thank you, Jesus! God sure is goood! :D

Um. Hello there.

It's about time I made a sound, I guess.

For those who know me, it's been a while, hasn't it? I've not done much to keep in touch with you, but in all fairness I've not been keeping in touch with anyone, truth be told. Good to see you again, I'm glad to make known that I'm still alive.

For those who don't know me, I'm Tian An. I've been in the U.S. for over half a year now, before that I spent six months living in Holland. But enough about me, I'm pleased to meet you.

So I have established that I am alive. Some of you may see me on MSN rarely, that's because I rarely am on MSN in the first place. My blog will not tell you much either; and I should expect it to, because I find it a place for me to process my thoughts and to unleash any suppressed creativity. Neither am I very drawn to Facebook, as popular as the social networking site has become. I spend less than a minute there on average. So how can you find me? E-mail is your best bet. But that takes the most effort than say, sending a Facebook message, doesn't it?

Let me be the first to admit that I have not spent much energy trying to stay connected with you. Whether it is for the best that we all continue to live our lives where we are and let alone those old ties we've made, our Lord knows. But what I do know is this: all that matters to me is that you are walking with God still, on my part I assure you I am. I have fallen and stumbled, rejoiced and cried, prayed and kept silent, suffered confusion and experienced revelation; you will not see me a perfect saint (so far am I from being one), but with cheer in my heart, I am still walking with Him, as much as He enables me to.

Have no doubt that I miss you all, and have spoken well of you to our brethren here. I don't know how God has been molding me since the last time we met, but I know that He has taught me things I am still trying to learn, and that His grace tastes a little sweeter than before. He is faithful, and He is good.

I remember the excitement among you when this blog started, and I am still excited for you too. This blog's a good thing. Even better if you dare go deeper and share more of your lives. You've got nothing to lose, we're all family here. Serve, love and pray for one another, and "press on to know the Lord" (Hosea 6:3).

Just keep walking.

Peace,
an

Wow.

I can't believe it.
I'm actually 2nd best in my maths class?
No ways.
And the top is the boy who gets AAs.
Like I said,wow.
And guess what is my strongest point in maths?
FRACTIONS.
Wow again.
I guess I've kinda come a loong way (with God's help,ahaha) from std.3 and getting 50-something (nevertheless,a C) for my year-end maths test.

Thanks ,God!
Weird.I never even asked for help and I got it.
LOL.So blessed!


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Wishing you all a...
Happy Easter!*