In the name of Allah,
Most Gracious, Most Merciful,
Praise be to Allah,
the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds,
and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran
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Tajuk entri ni macam iklan syampu Johnson's baby lak kan. Heh.
Anyways, lately I feel more and more...how should I say this...reluctant to write. I don't feel like writing about my life and my life's pretty much in a stable state right now.
I didn't write about my family cause, oh well, I think it's not necessary anymore. I used to write here to vent but then well, somehow some people, some of my relatives as well, managed to find out about this blog. My previous posts did mention about the details of my life a lot but I've had them reverted to drafts because of that reason. And also because I think it's about time that I moved forward and not look back.
Let's face it. Unfortunate things happen all the time. It's just a matter of who, when and where.
And in my case, I was rejected by my dad when he found out about my reversion and the last time I set foot at my house in Sarawak was two years ago, and I'm not even studying overseas! So imagine the life that I have to face since I become a Muslim.
It was hard, I admit but my dad's starting become better now, though we're still not talking to each other and I have not yet mustered the courage to do so.
I've been sad for a long time now but I didn't make it as an excuse to not try be a good Muslim. I still prayed, I still held on to what I believe, and what I believe is that Allah is my God and Islam is truly the right way.
I'm still learning, and I've learned that all these things that happened to me;
it's actually NOTHING compared to the imaan that Allah gave me.
And plus, when I come to think of it, I think I don't need people to know all those stuffs that I used to write, because it involves my family.
But I'm still having second thoughts on retiring from writing altogether, but the problem is, I don't know what else to write anymore.
Like I said, there's nothing interesting going on my life of current so yeah, I'm out of ideas and I am not really knowledgeable to write about the Deen itself.
I am alright when people ask me things, but when it comes to writing, I have zilch in mind.
Really, I don't know what to do with this blog anymore.
Most Gracious, Most Merciful,
Praise be to Allah,
the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds,
and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran
***
Tajuk entri ni macam iklan syampu Johnson's baby lak kan. Heh.
Anyways, lately I feel more and more...how should I say this...reluctant to write. I don't feel like writing about my life and my life's pretty much in a stable state right now.
I didn't write about my family cause, oh well, I think it's not necessary anymore. I used to write here to vent but then well, somehow some people, some of my relatives as well, managed to find out about this blog. My previous posts did mention about the details of my life a lot but I've had them reverted to drafts because of that reason. And also because I think it's about time that I moved forward and not look back.
Let's face it. Unfortunate things happen all the time. It's just a matter of who, when and where.
And in my case, I was rejected by my dad when he found out about my reversion and the last time I set foot at my house in Sarawak was two years ago, and I'm not even studying overseas! So imagine the life that I have to face since I become a Muslim.
It was hard, I admit but my dad's starting become better now, though we're still not talking to each other and I have not yet mustered the courage to do so.
I've been sad for a long time now but I didn't make it as an excuse to not try be a good Muslim. I still prayed, I still held on to what I believe, and what I believe is that Allah is my God and Islam is truly the right way.
I'm still learning, and I've learned that all these things that happened to me;
it's actually NOTHING compared to the imaan that Allah gave me.
And plus, when I come to think of it, I think I don't need people to know all those stuffs that I used to write, because it involves my family.
But I'm still having second thoughts on retiring from writing altogether, but the problem is, I don't know what else to write anymore.
Like I said, there's nothing interesting going on my life of current so yeah, I'm out of ideas and I am not really knowledgeable to write about the Deen itself.
I am alright when people ask me things, but when it comes to writing, I have zilch in mind.
Really, I don't know what to do with this blog anymore.
"Sometimes we can't just say "Allah has a better plan for us."
We have to believe He does."
dear sis,
ReplyDeletedon't stop writing as writing can somehow be a cure to our pain, at times when we couldnt find a perfect person to listen. putting down what we think in words surely help as we are actually arranging the thoughts. well, sekurang-kurangnya, that's what i feel.
jangan risau, i think i know how u feel right now, dik. people were inspired by your stories (Siapa Tuhan Saya) i am sure. so, it's normal they, i mean, we wanted to know more about you, to know what happen next. but what we missed and forget is : this is your life and not some sort of drama series that we watch in TV. it has no planned ending tapi yang misteri pengakhiran tu ada di tangan Tuhan, Allah.
and as for you, it's normal to suddenly feel 'insecured' or 'too exposed' because walau macam mana pun cerita adik farah (can i call you farah?) bermanfaat untuk kami, your life remain your privacy.
don't stop. slow down if you want, but don't stop. alang-alang, banyak mata yang memandang kita, this is it, this is the chance untuk kita saling menasihati, giving good examples to people who are watching.
sis, bring us to see life in islam's perspective just as how u do. insyaallah. :)
@Sis Ina:
ReplyDelete......(speechless)
InshaAllah... :')
But you still write this post right?
ReplyDeleteMeans that you still have something to write. :p
Dah cuba bagi present kat your dad by pos? Cuba la buat camtu selalu ke, mana tau terbuka hati dia nak terima farah. Just a suggestion.
@People Who Care:
ReplyDeleteWhen I say I don't know what to write anymore, it means that I don't think I'll be able to write articles which I deemed to have quality/benefits like my previous posts anymore.
you are not alone. why do you think i stopped blogging for a year? hahaaha. writer's block happens to everyone.and it's especially hard to write a post yg bermanfaat kan.i know what u mean.
ReplyDelete@kak dzuft:
ReplyDeletethanks for understanding. huhu. but a year? don't think i can stop for that long. aha
Sorry. My bad. :D
ReplyDeleteWell, i get that kind of disease sometimes too.
Maybe if we try thinking too much about posting something beneficial, we might end up with nothing.
I realize that every time I have a 'beneficial' post, I don't think too much about "writing something beneficial".
I just write it. I think we should just act natural.
This thing comes from the heart. Not just the thought.
Thanks for the insight. :)
ReplyDeleteMay Allah guide us to be a good blogger that can give impact to the society. Especially the Muslims.
ReplyDeleteOkay. I think "III" is enough. =D