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Day 2

I felt handicapped without you by my side my dear.

I wished we could turn back time and enjoy those laughters, tears and fights again.

All i can say for now is, WISH YOU WERE HERE.

Lotsa Love,

Lynnastro.

See the pic above ? Well , you miss those moments ? Jyeah i do and i know you do miss those tymes too ryte ? Hmm . Currently , you've already posted 2 post about JEPONZLYNN . Well , i must say , i miss you evey single second eventhough im always with my gf's bt i've never forget you. Dont believe , ask them . Hmm . I miss most of the times with you . Are you aware of that ? We spent our tyme more with each other than our very own family and frends ryte ? We're like shaddow . We'll always stick ard together . Where i am , there's you . Where you are , there i am . Agree ? I still can remember the tymes when we sleptover at each other house . Haha. Those late nyte talks , laughters , sadness etc , we've gone thru together . With NOONE ELSE .

Sad to say , things started to change when some people are involve between our relationship . I wont be mentioning names here . You yourself will know who are you K? Im sure you'll drop by my blog sooner or later . Hmm . Whatever it is , i dont care whatever the consequences is after you read this post . All i want is my JEPON SHOWTEK back . Without any barrier . Its up to you to hate me or whatsoever after this k . All i know is that , i've told you whats in my heart all this while . The heart pains and jealousy i must say . I hope you could somehow understand la k . I dont wish to interfere you guys relationship eventhough sometimes i've to stand up for my beloved sister here . You have to understand that we're very close to each other and we're family . Lets not talk about family la k . I think you're getting bored hearing Family here and there till there's no end . Soo , i'll just point out some . Firstly , you have to remember who she comes to when you wasnt with her . When she's down . When she needs someone to talk to . When she's in trouble . Jyeah . She faught with you many tymes . At certain tymes also she doesnt want to tell me because she doesnt want me to get mad over you . I know she's hiding things from me sometimes . I just ignore since , she's the one who choose not to share . Ouhya , im not trying to be soo calculative on this matter . Eventhough , caring is sharing . Hmm . I dont wish to prolong this matter. Let me end it here now and clear off the grudges you have on me . I hope it helps .

As i said , i dont wish to interfere the faughts that you people had but i have too since im involve . When you people faught , sometimes , my name will be mentioned . You see , is it fair for me ? When sometimes its your fault , you blame it on some people first and then yourself . Or the other way round . You had your own reason for not letting my sister meet me . Its not once or twice . Its been done several tymes Or i must say , MANY tymes . Agree ? This is one of the things she's been hiding from me till i gt to figure it out myself . HAH ! Confuse kn ? I know . Jepon didnt even tell me a thing about this but slowly , i gt to figure it out MYSELF without others hinting me . I was dissapointed with you . Because i thot you could go through the ups and downs together with Jepon and Myself as a family but you proove me wrong . With all those helps given all this while . Is it sincere ? If its not , why help ? When i know why all this while Jepon have been absenting herself from my life , im very upset as she ever told me that however , i'll be the first person she'll priortize but at the end of the day , ALL HER WORDS ARE GONE maybe because of you . I dont know . I wudnt want to elaborate more . I think you yourself should know why things happened right ? Things happen for a reason . And the reason lies in YOUR HAND . :) So , you should know it better then others ard you . And let me make things clear aye about my self . Im not trying to put you soo low but please be aware aye ? And im not self-proclaiming to get myself at the winner position . Dont assume things as whatever you like aye the consequences mayb be a though one :) .

Well , i admit my past was a disaster and those disaster made my lyfe a burden . As generation pass by , the surrounding change BUT the bad things you've done wont change and your face will always be remembered . Agree ? I wouldnt want to repeat those mistakes again . Cause i know , as im growing , i'll reflect on the past things that i've done . Dont tell me , you've never fool ard before . I bet you have done it before me ryte ? Soo , you should know it very well since you've completed that stage . Now's my turn . And i guess , im already bored with that game soo , why not leave it ? Jyeah , i've let it all goo far far away from me . For sure you wont be aware cause we're somehow not soo close . But the people who've always been with me everysingle day , they are aware . Not only them , me myself do aware too . I have to say that , im still not satisfied with the way i am now . Soo , im still in the process of upgrading myself . I dont care whatever people say about me . As long , im happy and my beloved ones who's with me everysingle day happy , i'll also be happy . To me , i've done my half of my part to cheerish the people ard me . Soo , now you know where your statements dead ? I hope you know . Thats all about me . Soo you people , dont judge that someone due to her/his past . There's a word saying , PEOPLE CHANGE . :)

Now this paragraph belongs to my ONE AND ONLY SISTER. Taq , im sorry if the contents above hurts you somehow but i have to sort things out since people have been badmouthing me . Senang ckp , Bermuke-muke uhs . Hmm . Im very sure , you're hurt somewhere and somehow and mayb you choose to keep it to yourself AGAIN. Try to keep things from me again k ? -_- And i've already read your post about us . Well , you seems to be very guilty . Why ? As i think it back , it wasnt all your fault . There some parts you're trying to correct things but you cant since there's alort of barrier towards it . Im not siding anyone here . But as i said , you're in the wrong too ryte ? I did tell you the other day . If you're not sure , ask me again . You dont have to be very guilty cause eventhoug how bad our situation is , you'll always be my ONE AND ONLY SISTER . Noone else could replace you in my lyfe . If you could recall back all those conversations we had , you'll feel very bad saying all those werds in the statement at the end of the day , everything was left only for a moment and not forever . Same goes to me . The reason i state all this is because i've thought of it throughly . And i dont wish to see you to lose another cousin of yours which you've gone thru the thick and thin together with em . In the end , you felt hurt . Am i Right ? Do you think i wanna leave you in that condition ? I guess , i could be very meant to outsiders bt not to my own blood . :) I know you felt bad when you left me all alone and enjoying yourself with loved ones . As you said , you're being controlled and you cant have your wish easily . I understand . Till now im still asking myself if you wanna know . The question is , why i have to figure it out myself and not you telling me personally ? Haish . Do you know that i was very dissapointed and felt like leaving you with your love ones . But i choose not too , cause i know i'll regret in the days to come . So as you . Soo , i texted you that way because i was soo angry and fucked up with the problem . Im sorry if it hurts you baby . As i said , i didnt mean to hurt you . We didnt cntcted each other for couple of days . I felt like there's someone missing after couple of days not contacting , soo i decided to msg you on thursday . Actually , i was expecting you to make the first move but since there's no sign of it , why not i make the first move . Soo yah , you told me that you thought i was mad at you and you didnt cntct me because you dont want things to go worst . I've explained to you in the msges i've sent to you . And im glad you've understand and even didnt care less about me after that instead you told me you missed me soo much and wanted to meet as soon as possible .

Yesterday , we met . It wasnt like the tymes before which we've used to go thru every single day . With all those laughters . *Breathe in deeply * I just miss you soo much . Eventhough i wasnt myself yesterday , you wanna know something , i was very happy and eager to meet you and i cried when we went separate ways to make our way home . Remember i signal something to you when you have already walk off ? And when you saw it , you were like figuring it out what was i saying and i said nothing . Let me tell you now , When i was on my way to my bus berth , my tears began to shed and i told myself not to cry BECAUSE if i cry , you'll be crying too . I wanna see you happy soo , i decided to ease my mind with somethings that i could do thru out the day . I decided not to show you that i was very sad when i was with you . I acted as if there's nothing goin on . Do you know how much i love and miss you ? Do you know that i needed you all this while when i was down ? I bet you dont . You missed quite a number of things about me . A minor or a Major probs that i've faced . Hmm . Well , whats the past is past . Let bygones be bygones aye ? I hope you've learn something from this situation aye ? Whatever probs you have , you're always welcome to meet me or even beep me through the phone . No matter how bad the situation is . WE'RE STILL SISTERS , FRIEND , ENEMY , BOYFRIEND , GIRLFRIND AND PARTNER IN CRIME :) Blueq. So people , if you think you wanna mess ard with my sister , you're messing with me too aye ? She's the one whom i love and depend on . Try doing nasty things to her and you'll get something from me even much more NASTIER aye ? Soo , think twice before you lay hands on us :) Ouhya . Look at the picture above . Does it tells you something ? Get me the answer very soon aye ?

I LOVE MY JEPON SHOWTEK VERY MUCH :)

with love , Lynnastro

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MY CLEAN AND FRESH BLOGGER .

I'LL BE BACK WHEN IM BORED.

XOXO.

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Firstly , Happy 3 years 7 monthsary to us (Lynnastro)
May we last forever ! :)
me love baby soo much !
HAHAS . random !

Well , sorry for not updating my blog sincee.... idk when.
I was very busy with stuffs till i abondoned my blog.
Well , i got noting to blog about too . Soo just forget it.

Alright , just to kill the time and not wasting my effort logging in to my blog i shall do a quick update then.
Lately , Ive been caught up with work till i dont have the time to update my blog and stuff.
Ouhya , ive already re-activated my FB account and its a joined account btwn me and my boyfriend.
And i'll only accept request from people whom i know. If i dont its either i ignore or i'll consider. HEHE.
Soo sorry if i ignore your request aye ? Since its a joined account , Ladies and Gentlemen out there , dont you try to be funny with anyone of us alright ? Simply said , Dont play with fire :) Thats a fair warning already i guess. :))))
Other than all this things , Life have been slightly better , i am now an independent girl with a wiser thoughts.
I worked hard for the things i wanted. I shop till i drop when i have the money. HAHAS. Soo , thats what i call a hard earn money :D * Now then i know ! *
Love life have been a superb one. I cant lie that me and babylove dont fight and stuffs but if we did , we try our very best to reconcile.
And that makes us our monthsary today !
Soo , i guess thats all i gotta say then .
When i have the time i'll update again aye ?
Taqare . XOXO.

A very good question though its a tough one to answer . Well , the feeling cant be describe in any words cause its all about YOUR FEELING on how you handle the situation. Its either you be the WATER to the situation or FIRE. Hmm. The feeling is always REVENGE and HURT. soo yah If possible i would reverse the time instead of things that have happened cause at that time the people who were involve were the ones by myside all along thru thck and thin with me soo its like im fighting with an enemy. And that HURTS ALOT ! Hahahas . Soo yah .

Ask me anything ~

The First & the last love .

After this ,

I HATE GUYS AND GUYS HATE ME .

xoxo

As i predicted things are happening right now.

FML . FYL . FOL

all the best & get well soon baby<3

Lastly , i'll remove each and everything thats symbolise you on my various sites aye ?
Including the pictures . Ohya , if you dont mind pls remove mine on yours too alright ?
It wouldnt be nice if people out there saw our memorable pics and kept on asking will then be another issue.
Not to trouble any of us , remove it la ok eventhough it maybe hard for each of us to do so .
We have to in order to respect each other's relationship status .
Well , sorry if i had to post it up here cause i gotta feeling that you'll be bloghopping to mine since i dont find any other alternative useful .
I've said what i wanted to at Facebook's inbox msges.
Im happy for you babylove .
taqare . much missed .

xoxo ;
~~LynnAstro~~
LynnGelinaJolie <3

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Dewibabyg , get well soon k ? imy.

Answer here

Hey . Today's the second of november .

So its LynnAstro's 39th supposed to be monthsary .

Wishing you all the best in life and whoever you are with .

XOXO .

Lastly , I'VE DELETED MY FACEBOOK .

I WILL JUST LOG IN TO MY MSN AND UPDATE MY BLOG RANDOMLY.

I JUST WANNA BRING MY LIFE AROUND WITHOUT ANY DISTURBANCE .

SOO DONT BOTHER LOOKING FOR ME ON CYBER .

HAVE MY NUMBER , BEEP ME .

LYNNASTRO <3

I simply hate people who LIE and that the reason why i dont beLIEve you . Thumbs up for you and your clan . *_*

I would like to confess . This is my confession .

Im still not over the past yet even i look as though i'm over it in fact im not yet .

I wonder when things will end . To be frank im in a dillema now while hearing to my current addiction song which is Saat Terakhir repeatedly on my itunes player. I wonder why its always at the wee hours i'll feel this way and i'll cry all of sudden by browsing the pictures or reminiscent the past . Well , to those out there who happened to read this , its just a random post about my feeling and myself . No intentions to ask for sympathy or stuffs which are related to . By now people will have thinked that ive been a veryvery bad girl all this while . Well i dont mind whatever people will have to think or say about me but please have a limit . Everyone did a mistake in their past . Why not look at the future instead of the past sorrows ? Get what i mean ? Ive been keeping myself calm and keeping these feelings to myself but seriously i cant hold on to it anymore . Alright , i dont think i can take it any longer . I wont update anymore . Will be back for other updates whenever im free . & pls gf's dun interfere my affairs/probs. That will be much appreciated . Thank you .

Much love , Lynnastro .

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I'll always be the Lynn whom you know for all these years.

No other . XOXO .

Hey . sorry for not updating since the last post . My time was occupied and i was lazy to update too .

Well Astro , if you're reading this im sorry but i have to let my feelings out here since i got no one to share with. I hope you dont mind , well if you do . I'll do something about it But If you're ok with it , i wil have to thank you for understanding .Soo , My life has been a lot of changes from Relationship status to Me to everything around me infact .

But i had make up my mind so , Everything have already ended now. Frankly speaking , it hurts alot but i have to firm up myself onto the decisions that i've decided . I didnt want it to happend but i have too . For the sake of , a lesson for him so that he'll change in time to come . Its not for my own good but its for his own good and his future's good too . I mean im happy if he's happy eventhough it hurts and i cried everynight thinking of the past that we used to share with. It maybe a shocking thing to hear that im no longer attached but i have to fight for my right before things got worst . Astro isnt a bad guy for me frankly . He was alright but at certain point of time and attitude , i dislike it and i've already spoke to him but still , ignore . I could do anything but i have to be patience and im not sure if my patience are being paid off or not cause the fact that i could get over him when he already does . I couldnt know was what the major problem we had that day as my mind was all jumbled up like puzzles . I felt wasted though 3 years almost 2 months we're together and everything ended just like that . If i knew this would happen , i will tell him that i'll back off so that things like this wont happen that hurts alot . I know its hard to accept the fact that my loved one have move on and have been enjoying himself thruout the days we're off but i cant blame him though as i know everyone needs a space .

The last occasion i saw him and his family is one the night that we fought . After that i received few calls and text messages from him and after that i saw things like contacts that he've already moved on with someone else . I know its not my business but i have a feeling . A feeling that hurts deep inside my heart and im not sure when its gonna be healed .It hurts alot to see the girl thats he's contacting comenting our picture and saying stuffs like she has just recently took a picture like us a couple of days back or something . I mean why the hell she has to comment that way and grab an attention from astro ? if i say that im not jealous i should be lying to you readers . The reason why im jealous is because im still not over him and still loving him . I heard people seeing him with his ex's and stuffs . I dont know if i should believe or not cause people may just create stories to make the situations worst . Im not posting this up is because i want sympathy from you people or astro but im just letting out my feelings which people dont appreciate all along .

Sorry . i have to stop here . it hurtssss alot and im down . XOXO

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First Day Raya .

Aleesya Arianna <3

Akid the handsome boy .

JeponShowtek <3

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Im some sort of excited of the upcoming raya . Well , its only a few days away .
I got excited eventhough i didnt get my baju raya as i wanted bt still got the simple ones .
Afterall , im very excited . Maybe because i fast all along till last sun due to ...... HEHE .
Its a waste though .However , i'll fast on the last day eventhough its not counted :)
Yang penting NIAT !

As per normal , first day of raya after the seek for forgiveness session , we as a famly will go to relatives houses Bla bla bla . bt only one part i felt fucked up every year which is i dont get to meet my Daddy due to millions and tons of reason *NOT* . Its a whole lot of changes when my brother and myself have grown up , there's lot of changes since we're young till we've grown up . I dont blame parents for their separations . Bt thats all up to the person up there to judge each and every of ours rezeki . Hmm . Maybe the new party in the famly ruins everthing which i totally agree to that statement . Well , i felt soo happy seeing my friends who their parents are seperated , still got to meet their Daddy/Mummy's on the first day of raya and have the chance to seek for forgiveness from their biological parents . However , every year when i got to meet my Daddy was on the second ? Third day ? Hmm . This issss fucking pathetic ! fucked up !

Anw, i still love raya every year ! Cuae i got to meet my family members , cousins and many more. Lastly , i still get collections . Hahas . Im stilol young you see ! Hehee . Alright then , i update my blog when i've got the time and tons pf pic :) taqare.

Slamat hari raya friends !

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