that same old feeling again

just came back from ec house..

when we were on 188 to cck, i realised how long i havent been on that bus with jason...i remember the times before we enlisted...even up to the time when they enlisted in feb..we still constantly went to meet at ec's house then go home real late almost every single week..thinking back huh, i really cant remember when the last time we went home tgt from ec's house was...its..so damn long.

yesterday i had a flashback to the first few days in aj in j1..omg..its been.so long.and yet i can still vividly remember the first time i went to nyp foodcourt during lunch time.i remember what i had for lunch when jasmine called and told me there was choir pract and i was like..wth..im not going...but i went anyway la..yeahh..

hahah.its..so fast..we're here alr.cant wait for this time next year when i'll be saying omg.4 more months to ord..yeah.

posting day

posting out of eti tmr..just blogging about today so that i'll always remember this day

it was the funniest day ever..didnt expect much out of posting.surprise surprise..whatever..

booking in tmr morning..changing camp again..changing camp all the time.lol

quite sian la.

gotta sleep early.

thinking thinking planning thinking.dont knw what to do

posting out of eti on wednesday..uncertain of my future..realised that this decides the rest of my life related to ns..

i dont know what to think sometimes...but.i've realised that in life, many things rely on fate.some people just aren't meant to be tgt, some ppl just aren't meant to be friends, some ppl just aren't meant to meet at all in the first place.

so..dont ever treat anything as yours until you have it.if you dont possess it, its not yours..and.you'll never lose it.just because it seems like you have hope doesnt mean that it alr belongs to you la..its just like that..

just because we were shortlisted doesnt mean we in, just because we had a chance doesnt mean we were accepted, doesnt mean anything..we could have NOT had the chance in the first place..so....hope is good..hope is bad..hope is jsut so weird..can give you lots of happiness.it could make you feel like shit too..depends...

sometimes..i scroll down the list of numbers i have in my phone, i have alot to say..many things to express.just..alot of emotions to release..and i dont knw who to talk to..

facing the truth, i have so little friends..the only thing im happy about is that i have great friends...the people i know who will never leave me no matter what.sounds so gay.but its so true.

thank god for what i've been through..made me a little less naive, abit more experienced.hahaha.

i truly understand the meaning of 勉强是没有幸福的..cos its so damn true man.hahah

love my life the way it is.

with pride i live man.

读完了依赖，我很快就离开

this is on of the saddest sundays of my life..

roughly 9 more weeks or 10 more to go..1 and a half more to specialisation phase.....still cant wait for ord..as usual.

given up all hope on most things in life..i'll just treat everything shitty which happens as bad luck.if anything good happens..i'll just thank the good luck

sorry if it doesnt matter to me anymore..i like my life the way it is now..

Dedicated to the number 14