sucks

this is not the way to go

i think i have a problem with relationships..i got serious AP

haiz.sian la.im a fked up guy

im going to lose my life if i continue like this

ciao

should never have done that..

im looking at my pitiful self now..im trying to figure out how much money i've spent..how much money i've wasted..how much money i need..i'm a broke man..

i didnt gamble my money away..i wasted it away..theres a difference.when you gamble it away..you have a small chance of getting money back..when you waste it..nothing comes back.gambling your money can lead to wastage..but wastage not equals gambling..i need to stop wasting money..

time to save again i guess..AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.i feel like this is crisis luh

anyway..i really think im a dick...hahaha.i should stop predicting things man..cos.after i predict things.i kinda make them happen..and being a very negative and pessimistic person, i tend to predict bad things..and they happen because, i make them happen.self fufilling prophecy..kind of.

im not worried about mid years..hahah.dont worry everybody..im not going to like..feel hurt or even the least sad about my results..you normally feel sad when you dont achieve something you feel proud of..haha.im not proud about my results.nor do i want to feel proud about it.

im not a competitive person..and i dont normally want to fight for a win unless its for someone impt to me..or i feel really strongly for it..in certain cases, seeing people who think too highly of themselves makes me wanna fight hard to beat them in their game too.but thats rare..

rare..but not impossible..and i have a slight feeling that its here..just a slight feeling.

hahaha.im not sure if i can achieve anything..my studying stamina is probably worse than a p6 kid..but.whatever luh..once i get organised..all the way alr.

basketball seriously rocks..

ciao

lol.

im having fun

yeah right.

everything just strikes me all at once..

how small this world is..how everything links together..how a different choice may have led to an entirely different path.

sometimes, you find out about the personal life of your friends..it seems like they lead 2 entirely different lives..put it this way..when they're with their other friends..and when they're with you...sometimes i wonder how 1 person has so much time to mix with so many groups of friends..and how lucky you are to actually be with a person when he/she has so many other friends to handle at the same time..i cant exactly pinpoint it.....its just a thought luh..

thank god for my teammates.

thank god for my teammates again

thank god for my teammates for the last time tonight.

thank god.

thanks guys for being there..although i only see you guys 1 day a week..i think.....that 1 day really makes me forget any shit that happens in the entire week..theres always some shit happening..

conflicting thoughts..conflict with others..these things happen all the time..

im not too tired..i just cant be bothered to sort out my own thoughts anymore..i cant be bothered to stop things from happening, to make things happen, to change things.i cant be bothered to start afresh...i cant be bothered to put in too much effort to make things go my way..

nature's going to take me down a path i dont like...but i dont care..really..i dont care.

torturing yourself has to end one day..i have to end now..

well..ITS EVIDENT I MADE MY FAIR SHARE OF MISTAKES..AND IM APOLOGETIC FOR IT..SINCE NO ONE NOWADAYS SEEMS TO ACCEPT APOLOGIES AND FORGIVE/FORGET.TOO DAMN BAD

whatever..really.whatever.

i cant feel anything

freaking confused..

results wise...lol.isnt it the same shit..the same cant care less attitude..hahaa.which will kill me someday..

i care about what others think of me..but i cant do much to change what they think of me..

im not the best person around..i dont exactly have a super amiable personality..its okay if ppl cant understand what kind of person i am.its okay.

carefree attitude..so many things you cant change..so many things you want to change..how? dont do anything la..relax.just die lo..its okay one.

im sick of it luh..

bye

Dedicated to the number 14