omg

1 year gone like that..this year really..piang..nvr ba wo anything..like.one year ago i was like...haiz..

sian.reflection time again..i dont feel like reflecting much..this year.pretty much everything i did was wrong..only right thing i did was to wake up and actually study for promos..or else..i'd be retained now....

yeahhh.haiz..nvm la.just enjoy the last day tmr..hahah.

hope for the next year to be better? no way man..you have to work for it to be better...

gosh man..thick skull..now then realise..piang...abit late.....piang

ciao

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one day wasted.wheeee..hopefully tmr will have something to do..i really hope so

i fell asleep today..ewww.the dream was cockster.....seriously...stranded somewhere.but well..kinda familiar isnt it?

okok anyway..school is gonna reopen real soon..lets start thinking about doing homework seriously....zz.

haiz....haizzzzzz.....haizzzzzzzzzzz


我害怕你心碎每人帮你擦眼泪。。

lol..iverson crossovers.my personal favourite is 6..its a nice move..

lol..steve nash when he was still young..omg.i love basketball.

hahaha.how long have i not visited our bball blog.very long alr...zzz.i miss playing as #14..lol.anyway.lakers won against celtics..came as a shock to me..i watched the replay game luh..it was a close game until last quarter..pau turned the game around i guess.yeahh.with his consecutive 7 pts..great game.too bad celtics winning streak was ended lah..nvm.im neutral..

bball bball bball..i shall play bball tmr.yeahhh.i shall.after that..dont knw what to do..

i think it over and over every night..i dont knw.i cant pinpoint whats the problem lehh.i dont knw why..suddenly after i heard sth....i feel so down..gosh..i cant believe it...haiz..

really..i just want that gift..all in one.birthday christmas newyear.its not even a gift...

i did abit of gp hol hw..today's the first day i start hw..anyway.they said.hope is essential to life..haiz.i'm just afraid that i'll be disappointed again..actually i kinda think i will be...i pray really hard..just for that chance..pls pls pls pls pls..

停止狼狈就让错纯粹...

the end of carolling.

yesterday and today..i sang at both hotels..not a bad experience la..but 5 joy to the worlds in one day can be very boring..towards the end of 4 seasons.the last joy to the world.i was alr super fed up with taht song la..

i dont have a plan for tmr..much as i want to do something badly..homework ah..piang

sian la..i dont knw.im still thinking about how im going to survive next year...i dont want to break down in school suddenly and cry..im super weak la.gosh

would it be a sin?

生日，圣诞，新年。。这些非凡的日子，其他的我不求，就求一个重来的机会。。。让我重新度过这一年。让我好好把握的机会。。这是最完美的礼物。金钱无法取代。。突然间，中四时篮球比赛里的失望都似乎是芝麻绿豆的事情。。

好怀念好日子。。好怀念。。。。

心里却知道。。。我只能希望。等待。。一年已过。。怎么可能重来呢？根本不可能。。没办法了。。奇迹请出现。。我在等啊。。奇迹。。

just sleep my life away...i hope i wake up feeling abit happier.i doubt so..i always wake up feeling more sad than before.

ciao.

=(

sian

these few days always at home lahh..watch tv..but not many programmes man..all the movie channels replay replay replay..i alr knw them by heart la

watching lots of bball games these few days.hahaha.mostly college ball la..they dont play nba on weekdays..lol.celtics imba la...lol.all star also coming up soon..next feb.on ec's birthday lol.

dont knw lehh.i kinda hope suns win...its still early in the season..i just like the way they play lahh.although they're really not the favourites now..haha.

damn sad la..hahhaha

sian...dont knw what to do tmr....homework la..my favourite.

haiz..why commit that mistake when i saw it coming anyway? simple answer.im weak..too stupid to think about the consequences.too short sighted, even with my specs...

i have a new lifestyle i have to adapt to..gah...i really dont knw how to pass next year..im still thinking..im still thinking..theres no solution..i cant think of anything..

every morning was just simple..sitting there..waiting for the bell to ring..then go assembly..happy everyday..i had to go screw things up..fk..haiz..how can i be happy then? god..save me pls..

ciao

today was quite a fun day..bball..ec house.hahahah.standard saturday lahh..thanks for inviting us ec.

didnt realise i got cut during bball until i bathed..omg..on my thigh got a cut..quite pain.

sian lahhhhhhhh......dont suddenly flood me with a hell lot of memories lehh..very sian one lehh.thinking about all the screw ups and stuff..soon, school reopen..good game.i really dont knw how to pass next year..im talking about life..not the exams...i predict failure in examinations.

damn sian..damn sad..still want to sad how long..god knows.

i cant believe it..next year..omg..zz.i dont wnt to think.

time and again

all along..you've walked and walked and walked and walked ever so aimlessly..now you've reached somewhere important..the end of the road.

some stuff...just cant be erased, just cant be forgotten..and it's my fault....

ciao

it was real cool though

birthday passed like any other day...hahah.thanks to all who wished me..and thanks for the ice cream at cc..hahaha.and..thanks for the birthday songS..thanks for the movie treat..thanks for ez link recovery..thanks for everything.im 17.wow.

okay..i feel totally....owned..omg.i cant believe it lah..really...you're the strongest.seriously..

sometimes just dont expect too much out of life la..let go of some stuff..feel abit happier.

no more choir..i wanna play more bball.lets train!

ciao..

things swiftly come and go

seriously...when you suffer setback after setback after setback..you tend to hate your life just that little bit..but actually...everyone has to knw..your life is only as fked up as you lived it..make your own choice..and blame nobody else for it..

many a time..people look back, and say..i shouldnt have done this, i shouldnt have done that..if i had made a different choice, walked a different path, maybe things would never turn out like this..maybe things would never have had to change...but..even if you chose the other paths, you may still have ended up at the same place in the end..

seen so much happen this year..so many fked up things..sometimes while you want others to think for you..you have to think for others too..hahah.

算了吧。。有用吗？没有。。你还那么尽力。。找死。。。。

once in awhile..everyone needs a lesson to learn.

ciao

brought tears to my eyes

zzz..i dont remember having this many dreams during school term....seriously..i dont remember having dreams at all actually..these few days..i dream every single night..EVERY single night..and it sucks.its so draining...

i absolutely hate it when i get scary dreams...because i freaking knw its fake..and yet it has to waste my time.but right..thing is im not getting scary dreams..im getting freaking sad dreams..zzz.i hate the feeling i get when i wake up right after a sad dream..its like..it wasnt a dream at all..you knw..

at least when you get a scary dream, you wake up, you sigh..you know.hey hahah.it was fake..but when you dream of things which actually happened, or things which are similiar to things that actually happened, or things you THINK MAY happen because of the things that happened.............when i wake up from dreams like this..i hate it so much.its like..hey.whats the diff man..theres no diff at all.gosh..and i can actually wake up feeling like crying.wth?

shit.

gosh man..just let it go..

ciao

tired

wheee.today was a fine day..played bball..lol.

i think....hahahaha.tmr will be kinda bad..havent found activities yet..have to find activities for tmr.

got problem alr..sian.

ciao

怪谁呢？

i went running this morning.....havent ran or played ball in a long time..i think choir guys should be made to do pt..really..really..really..

maybe its the alcohol? i know drinking weakens your body...i kinda quit alr..havent drank heavily in a long long time..lots of friends went overseas, i bet there'll be lots of duty free vodka brought back from their trips..this is bad..i'll be tempted once again..zzz.confirm one...but i dont want to get too drunk ever again..sucks.

tmr's activities..back to basic.bball at hc, chill at someone's house or walk arnd in town.hahah.

i never thought i'd say this but i'd be kinda bored if theres no choir..yeah...not that i totally enjoy tiring practices..but....if im at home all day, i feel really bored.yeahhhh..

i hope to have fun tmr..

time doesnt heal anything..it simply makes you lose track of stuff, and you forget..and just act like nothing ever happened..pry harder..wounds dont heal with time...i mean it literally and metaphorically..and in every sense of the phrase..two years ago in sec 3 we played bball and i got scratched and theres this wound on my hand..it hasnt healed..okay..it has luh.but the scar is still there..yeahhh.it'll always be there..

ciao

i cant be moved

i didnt play for dnd...call me irresponsible, but at least they weren't dragged to death by me...i swear that if i had played, we would have screwed up every single one of the 3 songs..i swear...im serious..believe me or not...你们的选择..

难过，后悔，想念。。。有够烦的。。

hahaha..

有缘无分，有悔无恨。。天注定。。我相信了。。。我相信了。老天。我相信。。。天注定就是天注定。。跑也跑不掉。。烦的。虽然有点不甘心，可是我有什么办法呢？听天由命。。

can you ask yourself one question? just one will do.....did you actually

well..not much time left..i must do some enriching stuff...

i've been suffering for quite long..but i deserved it luh..just that..im not sure that i will be able to keep up my spirits...

we'll be having caroling quite often after mid december..hope it'll be fruitful.

try?

ciao..

i dont knw what to say

im just in a freaking bad mood..shit it.

i dont feel like playing for dinner and dance tmr..i dont want to play at all..i never even practised those songs before la..sian...truth be told.i never even listened to a moment like this once through before..well.its just my god damned opinion, but i dont like that song alot...i dont feel like playing more than words..not even in the mood for that song la..and i dont even knw what to play for that..broken chords ah? this love..whatever la..i dont even knw how to improvise for that la..

worst thing is..it wastes my day away..

there's choir....meaning i'll have to wake up early..zz

seriously, im in a freaking bad mood after having a freaking lousy day..what the hell man.i cant believe my parents..they'd rather endorse my brothers to play maplestory than let me buy a guitar..WHAT THE HELL?? MAPLESTORY..I REALLY WANT TO SHOUT THE F WORD REALLY LOUD.WHAT THE HELL MAN..MAPLESTORY..WHAT THE HELL..retarded...and the fad will pass, and they'll get sick of the game..as always..the same way they said they wouldnt get tired of the games they dont even play anymore..god damn it man..what the hell..what the freaking hell..freak.wasting their lives away.i hope they fail their exams next year.

havent been sleeping well for so long..no matter what time i sleep.by 7+ i'll sure wake up..and the later i sleep, the less i sleep.god help me..pls..i've been tormented since sec 2..i wanna sleep real late..like when in sec 1...let me sleep till 12pm....not tmr though.

so many birthdays and christmases, i never got presents since after 10 years old i think....this december..i dont hope for much ...really.....

dont expect and dont hope for anything...there'll be no disappointment then...

ciao

Dedicated to the number 14