no importa la distancia

omgosh.today was so..shit.that.i totally..dont..wanna think about it.like wth...what the hell.everyday is a shit day la..nothing new.LOL!

siann..siao..guitar rocks...seriously..never thought i'd get to play guitar in choir..siao siao siao siao.

damn tired..damn exhausted now..super super super super tired..omg.play guitar playuntil damn tired man..i injured a finger..zzz..sian.the string so hard..sian..im so gonna buy new strings.all i can say now is that.i am damn freaking tired..like.tired like shit.

zzzz..almost forgot..i still gotta call sh to confirm tmr..AHHH.sian..

siao..suddenly got one more jie jie alr.jessicatan.my er jie...sian..but er jie like to bully ppl =P joking la..er jie so nice still bake us cookies.hahaha.

sian..sian.i must remember to call sh..i MUST REMEMBER TO CALL SH..oh yah..and one more thing..ehh..omg sian..today wanted to cut hair de..then now..haiz...zz.havent cut.i think tmr then cut la..too tired alr..zz.i can barely pick up the phone to call sh..AHH.i must remember.sian.

havent played bball for so long alr..better play some ball tmr..zzzz.or else..later suddenly lose everything..sian..very tired very tired..ahhhh.

sian..da jie..i got so much white hair alr...siao eh..this year suddenly got 4 strands of white hair pop out of nowhere..sian leh.sian leh..you knw my stress?? omg..i think im going to die la...sian leh..sian lehhhhh.kns..

DUA JI!!! I GONNA DIE ALR LA..lol.what i wanna do? i also dont knw..seriously..i havent planned..almost everything i do impromptu de.

on a completely different note..i dont understand how ppl can be so egoistical..please la..not everyone...aiya..sian.forget it.i dont wanna say..

ciao

always knew.

我都险了咯。。老实讲。我都险了。。这样要拖到几时？干纳噻。。我迟早都会精神崩溃。。肯定肯定精神崩溃。。嗨。。。当初是我的疏忽。。现在成为了我的遗憾。。该不该走？是不是缘？有没有份？无从回答，无从追问。。嗨。。

the guitar damn nice..but besides that point..the bass amp was..omg freaking heavy.

choir was fine today..nothing much to say.thanks to jessicatan for baking cookies and waiting for me to go home together.lol.or else on the way home i sure fall down and die.i niao you one la.the cookies really quite nice =)

sian..today pw really..aiya.i just felt like....

aiya..suan le la..anyway i also...haiz..i..aiya..i dont knw what to say.dua ji save me..

ciao

你说你无法释怀

hmm..today was so lame that i totally dont knw what to say abourrit.

it doesnt pay

to be smart.

siao..actually i think its really damn hard to define smart la..

anyway..ive decided to give second chance..i shaved..i shaved.remember what i said about shaving? i said..if i shave..then..i will......

yahh.im not gonna cut my hair..im looking forward to monday..cos monday im going to play guitar..im looking forward to tuesday..cos tuesday damn shuang..no econs..im looking forward to wednesday..cos wednesday..is..WOW..im looking forward to thursday....yahhh.right..sian la..im looking forward to friday..YEAH BABY.SEE YOU IDIOTS!

ciao

run baby run, dont ever look back

theres no turning back for us tonight..

dont sell your heart, dont say we're not meant to be..run baby run, forever will be you and me..

today was gayshit..woke up at 7..felt DAMNED good..went to school to play bball.only mark and jas was there.we sit arnd the court there talk cock.HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. heheheheheh..HAHAHAHAHA.anyway..after that went to join the class for pool..siao.i feel wrong la.when i use the word class.it feels wrong.

sian la..i felt so sian today..depression man..still have to..go through tmr...then monday..haiz.jessicatan better got good cookies.

siannnn...siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.siannnnnnnnnahhhhhhhhhhh!

哭过，却无法掩埋歉疚

ciao

14th post.yeah man

kkk.promos over.then im supposed to go YAY!! OMG PROMOS OVER..shit la..

lol.cos jessicatan so nice bake us cookies, i'll be nice and not post that.....hahahah.video.LOL!

haha..yesterday counted not bad la..i mean.at least i laughed alot alot alot over the drug addiction joke.HAHAHAHH.siao..havent laughed that much since before this year.sian..last time always laugh laugh..sec 1 sec 2..siao..i can totally remember weng's house.hahaha.i laugh until like dont knw what like that..sian la..i wanna laugh again.

siao..what am i gonna do now? seriously.i dont knw what to do...AHHH OMG..I KNOW ALR.HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.ALMOST FORGOT..SA ALSO OVER I THINK..YEAH BABY YEAH BABY YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!

vodka night is tonight..conditions for reaction = SA promos over..oh come on come on pls over..pls.pls..pls..pls.pls.plsss..vodka vodka vodka vodka vodka vodka vodka.

lets go lets go.

screwed life..damn dumb

sian..i screwed gp, econs and math.retain time..actually nvm la.hahaha.math and econs expected de.hahahahhaha.gp..wapiang..really i wanna spell the name of that criminal wrong.OMG.OMG.sian la..confirm kena niao by mrs yim.

dont rush into things..siao..kang you knowledgable old man..

game plan-->
1. chiong chem today..till damn late..sleep quite well..try to own the chem paper tmr.
2. sleep for 3 hours
3. chiong physics ATW to exam time
4. finish alr, adrenaline rush, can push me through till end of friday or even saturday morning..when exams over.you can do anything..

i feel like a piece of shit....i really felt like crying this morning..i mean..for that moment..i really..felt tears coming to my eyes..it was like..alot of emotions rushing at you at the same time..and i really felt..super helpless..like..yahh.super super helpless..so zibei la..still have to call dajie for help..luckily got coffee to save me..wth..i seriously feel so useless..

话也说了，泪也干了。。甜蜜往事，断断回忆。。只有在梦中才能寻找和回味。。。我还有什么话好说呢？没话说了。。怎么说才好呢？哈哈哈。。阿康帮帮忙。

ciao

i can't stand to fly

im so dead..haha.econs was.super screwed for me..hahaha..i had a hunch to study the things that came out today..but i didnt do it.yeah man..i didnt..and i dont really care much now..got much more impt exams ahead..which can determine my fate.

i wont retain one...unless my parents force me to..if i have to retain, i'll just quit school..spend a few months revising j1 work..do home schooling..finish off a lvls next year, go to ns..if my parents force me to stay in school, im so going to fail another year and drop out..cos..i seriously dont wanna retain..i rather fail my a lvls than retain..like who cares..a lvls only.very big meh? a lvls nth one la..say until like so big..scholarship, uni..aiya..who cares..uni? lol.what a joke.

i always believe in one thing..whether you get the job accomplished or not is one thing, but the most impt thing is keep moving..if you let me choose between walking in the crowd slowly and taking 10 mins to reach my destination, or taking a longer way but i have to walk faster to reach at the same time, i'll choose the longer way..i dont like to be stopped or slowed..

what is defined by efficiency? taking the shortest time and shortest effort to get things done..well..i totally believe in effeciency, but i focus more on the "time" concept.if i have to wait, i'd rather do something else...

i'll only do stuff i wanna do..and stuff which dont require me to wait..something that..i can keep moving keep moving i dont have to stop kinda thing..you knw..very hard to describe..its like a kind of adrenaline shot kinda thing..i wanna keep moving..i seriously..seriously dont care if i pass a lvls..SERIOUSLY.not at this pt in time AT LEAST.i dont care..i can safely say..i view promos more than a lvls...cos its a year we're wasting..

yeah yeah..ppl will start the crap about, oh if you fail your a lvls, you waste your life....pls..life is more than going to uni..of course la.duh i will go..cos my mum says.go to uni.yeah sure.i'll go to uni.i'll definitely go..why not? go la..aiyo.but if im going to get retained..i am super sure.i'll be mad forever..mad at myself.

im a fighter..and it happens that..i want to fight now..right now.i want to fight.i want to beat the game..

oh yah..math..lol.math can eat my shit man..i'll get 0% for you all see..first in history of college.know why? efficiency.

ciao

can you see the story? its so omg

lol..little cousin said to me today..go study hard.lol.little little cousin tell me study hard! hahahah.i study hard also fail alr la.thanks lil cousin! good luck for your exams too.sec 2 damn no kick la.

brothers vs girls..who more impt?

yeah..sounds damn childish right? it'll be cliche if i said brothers first..but its true..its freaking true la..i seriously think so..

revelation: yesterday xian asked me to return him the money i owed...i where got money to return? i still have to save the freaking money for my mission..haiz..but what to do? he in need, i in need...last time i in need he lent me money.now i bet he really needs the money lahh..much as i really wanna complete my mission..i have to fork out the money to pay him..

you knw..for guys..normally they always gua4 zai4 zhui3 bian1, say errr..xiong1 di4 first xiong di first..pls..really how many ppl still put xiong di first??

hahaha anyway..hc peeps jiayou..

i fell asleep this afternoon...i dreamt about something, which seriously made me understand something in life..thats why got this post what..siao.im learning something new everyday..

its been a year filled with problems, but now you're here almost as if to solve them..i cant live another day without you now.all my life i've been searching for you, how did i survive in this world before you? lol.i dont knw.

ciao

don't write me off yet

im so touched lahh...when i read ah lu's blog..siao..touching.the rain..i can suddenly remember all our matches..


sec 2 westspring a million times, anderson, naval base, jurong west, unity, yuhua, tanglin, nanhua, fuhua, boon lay, rv, jurong, seniors, jumpers, bpgh, woodlandsring..in sec 2..we lost..we were sad..i could remember damn clearly la.after we lost to rv..i was just sitting at clementi stadium..feeling damn lost..cos..like wth..we were so supposed to win..that year.west zone top 4, we all played before..unity jurong bpgh rv.. we even won bp before.we won rv before.we were supposed to win..we lost.we made coach sad.i was damn sad.i can rmb fking clearly..when i left clementi stadium that day, i told myself.im gonna train hard, next year we're gonna win.we also thrashed nyghs.


sec 3 was a bad year for me..didnt improve much..played like shit.ended up getting kicked by the j1s..lao niu and me.i was damn sad..but i told myself nvm..got next year.i can rmb sec 3 matches..we played alot of teams in sec 3..kranji, jurongville, yuanching, hongkah..so many friendly matches,we played bp also.played rv..then for basketball league.changkat, marist, ang mo kio, yishun ring, rivervale, and alot alot la..hahaha.i kinda forgot..cos really too many.rivervale became champions.we lost to them by 5 points in prelims..we should have won..we disappointed coach again..i remember when we were kicked..coach looked at the bedok north star, he asked me.予靖，你几时可以跟他一样好？i told him..next year.i'll be better than him.


the rest of the year we piaed like some shit..trying to get into nationals..we had the whole china ppl saga..we almost fought with nz's team..remember? even coach was angry..hahaha.i rmb one training..only me, hs, mark, zhou, eddy, daniel went...we played hcis.hahahahaha.i cant rmb the score..abit insignificant.hahah.


sec 4.wow..this year was great.we won all our first round games.we looked set to go to nats as 3rd or 2nd..wow.first round.zhenghua, westspring(our old rivals), bpgh, nanhua, boonlay, bukitview, pioneer..aiya..haiz..my memory failing me.hahaha.i remember when i used to be able to remember every single match i watched or played.anyway.we lost to bpgh, which was nt supposed to happen,we caught up, we could have got it.we lost nanhua.wah please..this one.dont make me rmb...i rmb after that, i cried like shit..cos i knew, no more chances..that was it..the end.


and for the rest of the year, i slacked off till we started training again this year...i love my team.i love my team.seriously..thanks capt..you wan, you better send ppl to visit me soon, next year dont have le..hahaha.i kena sack..hahaha


anyway 十号 really gave me alot of inspiration..omg..i choked when i read his post..


hey look, that's where i came from..hey look, that's where WE came from..we're a team bro..we dont share the same blood, but we shed blood and sweat together..thats what bonds us together..we're a team..hc ball courts.i'll remember forever.all the trainings..everything..we were boys, coach tried to make us men.we became men..or at least, more than boys.


thanks coach, i really love you so much..you saved my life..

they say hc training makes ppl suck in terms of personal skills? well..whatever.as long as we're tgt, we play as a team and we win as a team..we'll do it.come on guys..2 weeks' time..see you guys back where we belong.

oh yah..2nd october when you guys end, i'll be at ecp -.- unless you all wanna build sandcastles with me (sounds damn gay k), or else i suggest you guys go to echouse first..i'll see you guys when i finish everything.ehh.stayover.stayover.stayover echouse..then it wont matter how late i go..then friday we go school TGT.you knw i love the feeling of leaving ec's house early in the morning and going to school...WAH SIAO..I CANT WAIT LA..THE FEELING ROCKS! OH YEAH! FRIDAY WE GO SCHOOL TGT LA..you all ji tao crash pw lectures..4 of you come la..then form one pw team..WAH AI ZAI! own liao like that.then after that we go play bball..wheeee..aiya.if friday yall got school then nvm la.haha.hahahaha..

we're a team..thanks kang..thanks thanks thanks..what a capt man! obs obs..remember obs..i love obs.i love my capt..hahah

okay..go study alr..i love my team..i knw yall wont abandon me lahh..haha.i just miss you guys.haha.lets go lets go lets go.

自强不息，老杨队加油！

ciao

-.-

yeah!! im so proud of you bro! you knw why im proud of you! you knw man! hahah.im so proud of myself also.help you alter blogskin.yeahh man.rocker!! i link you!! siao your class strong.

today was great.i slacked off morning..then left to meet ah kang at kap..ji lame..then on the way to kap i was taking the 157 then pass by hc..I SAW MR LIU..the lab tech.omg.i miss him so much la..i rmb aiyoo..i miss him so much.mr liu.

anyway..saw tom and baba at kap..so qiao la..havent seen them in so long..hahah.anyway...studied abit at kap then went back to school to play bball lah.

hahaha.this time next week i'll be super emo alr..hahah..but today was fun..super fun! thanks to the kang la.siao..siao..ah kang qiang!

sian la..next year have to change class..later change class kena niao by other ppl again..haiz..sian la..sure retain alr this time...kena owned on an hourly basis

you knw..some things i see..it really irks me off..really irks me off..siao ehh..

2 scenarios..different perspectives..practising for gp.

what if ppl know something about you.and you dont knw if they know..and you think they probably dont knw..but they actually know..hahaha.scary.

what happens if others are thinking something about you....but its not actually correct..well..thats not scary..that simply sucks.sucks x 10^9999...

moral of the story..no matter which case it is..when ppl dont say anything, dont assume that they dont know...also.when you think you know something, make sure you got evidence to shove it up others' cas...ohh..probably one last one....

make sure you know when ppl are talking cock or saying what they actually mean.

it can be scary...hor mark? correct or not? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..lol, a few days ago got ppl renewed my vocab by showing me the word hilarious..THIS IS HILARIOUS.HAHAHAHAHAHA.i bet ah kang you laughing away in front of the comp right? well..what can i say? hahahaha.HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA..LAUGH WITH ME MAN!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA.this is great..i cant believe it..its such a joke..it is SUCH A JOKE MAN.

kk..enough..i cannt take it alr..anymore of it and im going to puke.i mean it in every sense of the word..ahahahahahahahahah..mark you get what i mean? PUKE.LOL! puke disgustingly alcoholic.HAHAHAHAHAAH GET THE JOKE?? MARK LOOK CLOSER.EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW....i need a plastic bag..HAHAHAH.paper bags and plastic hearts.THROW IT AWAY! FORGET YESTERDAY!

anyway..i think the best moment of today was when we were on the bridge then we were like talking about ec being in school..AND THE BOTH OF US SANG EC 's NAMETO HEY JUDE'S TUNE.OMG THAT WAS SO CLASSIC..WE BOTH WENT LIKE HAHAHAHAH

aiya...haiz...haiz..

到时候，我也不知道要怎么面对。。好怪懒喔。又怪懒又尴尬。。没办法啦。怪我自己惹祸上身。

haiz..time to die.

ciao.

stand proud.

a few weird things happened..last night was super cool..i was super tired super tired..hahahah.was gonna knock off alr..then i decided to niao tanpt abt something.hahaha.then damn funny she suddenly ganjiong and call me.like wth.hahaha.i was like falling asleep le.then suddenly heard my ringtone next to the bed...then i pick up the phone.one message + a missed call from tpt.LOL..k..actually not very funny when i think about it now.but at that time like really super funny..cos i anyhow send one niao message only.then she so ji2.hahaha..

lol.tanpt better take care of herself..lie to me say her .... okay alr..sian la.niao me -.- every night stay up until 3am in the morning.by promos sure fall sick..not like you superwoman or sth..so weak one little short girl.take care.sure own promos one..get all the A's in contrast to my U's

yq was damn nice to send that..funny funny message about getting all the A's for promos.thanks sister.you jiayou too.omg..sure own promos one la.

lol.and my good friend di xin..sian.i think we now not very good alr..hahahah.nvm nvm.jiayou for your promos.catch up in hols.older than me by 5 days de... sian. -.-

p brothers..jiayou.

teamies.jiayou..

hmm..anyway.this morning i woke up very early..school time.then didnt feel like going to school so early..so stayed home for awhile.then suddenly wth...got this ghost show super nice then i stayed to watch lo..watch until quite late then go school =P but nvm la..chem consultation was quite useful..

hmm..had lots of musical fun in lt4...and a really entertaining lunch at macs.LOL! HAHAHAH!! POWER! POWER! HAHAHHAA..

现在我该怎么办呢？最后一个星期了，老实说，我知道这次混不过去了。。哪里有每年那么容易就混过去的？不读书也能过关，那么那些读书读到吐血的岂不是几冤枉一下。。。算了啦。。

其实，我知道我已经完蛋了。。就算我不被留级，又有什么用呢？我好自卑哦。。不想面对。。被人歧视，也歧视自己。。超没用。。

我还有什么话好说呢？考试过后。。我该怎么办？精神没有寄托。。我在学校会闷死。。

失败啊。。真的好失败。。做人做到这样，失败极了。。

想笑，来伪装掉下的眼泪。。。点点头，曾认自己会怕黑。。我只求，能借一点的时间来陪。。你却连同情都不给。。想哭。。来试探自己麻痹了没。全世界好像只有我疲惫。。无所谓，反正难过就敷衍走一回。。但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰会不会让我忘了你是谁？

ciao

i don't wanna live another day without you now

goshh..we're gonna start practice as soon as promos end..wth...and the first practice, we'll have band prac followed by choir prac..omg..i've alr decided..im going to do the...guitar stunt.lol.

if the guitar was my own one i'd use my teeth to play it luh..like hendrix..

hmm.anyway...its coming real soon.feel the heat..

i always knew..i'd find someone...i never dreamt it'll be like this.
cause you've surpassed all that i hoped for and ever wished..

and i'm trying to hard with all my heart and mind..

cant believe i'd actually be performing a farewell for myself.lol..

to make your life as good as you've made mine.

remember the first training we had this year? on that saturday..hahah.we hadnt played tgt for months..then suddenly, we all came back to train as a team..it was really cool..after promos.we continue the legacy k..

and1 monastery.自强不息

迨.予.庶.士.笃.实.辉.光, 斐.然.已.成.章...膂.力.方.刚.经.营.四.方, 前.途.浩.且.长...

ciao

now im trying so hard, with all my heart and mind..

hahaha.i cant stand it..i really really really cant stand it.i have to laugh it off...



haiz...hahahahahahaha.sorry.i cant stand it...this is a joke..its so jokish..



jessica tan laxing la..dont stress k...i'll be supporting you...lao ban niang leh! i promise from tmr onwards i wont niao you on a daily basis anymore..because i think you're really strong....really really strong..



hahahahaha.whatever you do, just make sure you can face up to yourself..thats the most important thing..i've had enough fun k..really..im gonna be serious alr.which is why i decided not to niao jt and lam anymore..dont worry man..as long as got me as your xiao3 di4..i wont let other ppl niao you two..



i've had enough fun..really..im going to stop..aiya..actually.....you all wont see me next year lah.so..its okay.if ppl wanna start telling me.nahh you wont retain as long as you work hard..yeahh.hahaha.forget it lah.



i alr saw the imptnce of studying alr..its not about whether math is useful or not..its simply about setting goals for yourself and shitting blood to make sure you reach your them..im really dumb to realise it now..16 years down the road..really..gahh.....



actually..the more i think about it...now i dont regret leaving hc alr..i miss it lahh.but leaving hc has taught me alot more about life..really..if i had stayed on in hc..with so many teammates and friends..i dont think...i would have learnt this much..you need to be alone..and feel alone.and feel despised..and unwanted.and ostracized to understand that....to get respect.you SERIOUSLY need to earn it..SERIOUSLY..actually..making friends from sec 1 to 4 wasnt difficult at all luh...because we were all guys..and.it was just....yeahh..simple.



but hahahaha..our guys tend to change when we go to jc dont we? i mean...come on.i can see you ppl..trying to swallow your f's.....stuffing the cb's into your tummy..


hahha.sometimes ppl know..they just dont want to say it..


to my dear teamies..you guys really rock man..when i left hc..venturing into unknown lands..i seriously didnt like it at all..no friends at all...starting your own business kinda thing..and at the end of the day..how many ppl actually know me for who i am and accept me? come on..dont joke...first few days of school in sec 1..esther told me..the school's not gonna change for you..you have to change to suit the school..this is HC..well....im already here..16 years of age..in a jc..studying as a year one...and i feel like a real loser..you all dont knw..when you guys are not around..i feel ALONE..i miss all of you so much..we can be so close..and yet so far.i miss ec house..i miss the times we got super high in ec house and started laughing like dicks..hahaha.we havent been to ec's house like..for almost a month alr..i cannt take it le..lets go after promos man..


eddy.ji.xian.tzin.daniel.mark.ah lu.sh.ricky.purhwa.lao niu.ah gong....lets get together after promos..all must pass.....we play ball as a team.we win as a team.lose as a team..we pass promos as a team.


time to shit blood

-.-

great day...woke up at 9..took light breakfast.slacked arnd..went to tp polyclinic..left home.10.50..reached home 2.10.

gahh..shit man..its been a year filled with problems.. before you go, theres sth you should know.

last wed was ji's birthday..happy birthday bro..teammates for life man..just wish we could go back to sec 2...hahahaha.remember our secret mission "mercedes" chase forever k.i havent bought present yet..why not after promos we go out then you choose lo..hahaha.im damn sure you dont want that ti tao gong shirt =P

last friday was danny's birthday.happy birthday danny!

today is xt's birthday..lol..bunny girl =) although we're not close...and i dont think we've talked since.....after we got into jc..but i remembered..lol..happy birthday xt.

i'll go to school tmr..

i'll go back to before we met..try and erase the past, try harder to forget

ciao

-.-

yeah mann..one whole weekend, math free.MATH FREE..hahaha.like real im gonna touch math for promos..no way man..

run baby run, dont ever look back.they'll tear us apart if you give them the chance..

die..havent started chem revision at all..die alr lo..like that..sure die le lo.

haizz..tmr hand in eom..luckily i've done it alr..haiz..sian lo..die lo..one more week promos alr lo..then retain lo..die lo

haiz..which means i cant play bball in hc for the coming week..i didnt play this week..and i can only play it the week after next..sian lo..i miss bball alr..dont play on saturdays very sian lah.

thought about alot of things today while trying to fall asleep in the afternoon..i think i deserve almost everything which happened to me this year..most of the things which happened were bad..means really die..

i just remembered my dream last night..we were having chem tutorial..problem is..we had chem tutorial in a hc classroom.lol.then right..cos ms chua was going through some funny thing luh.obviously i didnt listen so i dint knw what she was going through..but.you see.anyway it was in my dream.you dream of things you know what..since i dont knw much about chem, i bet i would have dreamt of a blank whiteboard or a board full of crap written on it anyway..thus, its proven that i cant revise in my sleep for chem unlike physics.anyway...the thing was..ms chua was leaving the classroom, then she said.i let you guys listen to some songs, help you relax..then she played some soundtrack..i cant rmb the first few songs le..i only remember that the last one was rylynn..i know it was rylynn..then i asked ms chua what the song was.....and she said..the name of the song was "guilty" by dont knw what band..like wth..abit random..

rylynn..lol.reminds me..once after promos.first song im gonna learn is rylynn.abit hard can..

dont sell your heart, dont say we're not meant to be..

econs..im really dead.

run baby run, forever will be...

tmr the cycle starts again...for 3 days..till it ends..omg.

you and me.

哭过，却无法掩埋歉疚...

ciao

screwed shit

siao ehh.spent today away like a dick la.

woke up..marked my e remedial worksheet.realised my physics was like..totally..ahhh.forget it man..went to church..ok......then met markus in town to mug...yahh..hahah.i managed to do..3 qns of circular motion.gahh.die alr la.this time.SURE die..SURE die..then we slacked arnd, comparing who had a worse life..lol.it totally felt like some competition la."who has the more screwed up life"

sian la..i was reading through the physics notes..now suddenly got alot of things dont knw lehh..piang eh..dont knw what to say le..have to get back to reading notes again..i'll seriously fail physics..and chem.omg.i can see myself.getting the results..then crying..wow.siao..sian la..sure fail alr this time..

haiz..sure fail alr la..dont need say, sure fail..100% no need for permutations and combinations..its absolute 100%..

at the end of the day...life is an equation lahh.really.the pastor mentioned that..men are born to have troubles..we will have troubles at all points in life..in this case..we are troubling ourselves arent we? troubling ourselves to do better in life, to be as good as we can be..to learn new stuff, to find out new things..haiz..society is such that...we live..and work to live.work done is defined as the product of the force and its blah blah blah blah..

god save me please.

到底谁是真正的受害者呢？

给我关怀，为我解忧，也给我平添许多愁。。是不是缘？有没有份？多久才算无怨无恨？为爱狂奔，为情所困。。最怕痴心荒废一生。。有爱武元，有情无份。。难分难舍。。。旧伤心痕，越陷越深。。

我。。。。不知道该说什么才好。。

ciao

sian

感觉上，好像被鸟嘞。。

hmm..today was fine.ba...i think..managed to smoke through gp.wth.i only had 15 articles k..hahaha..whatever la..tired man.

physics remedial..几不是我被鸟到 like a dick liddddat...sian de lorr.

pw consultation abit short..but doesnt matter.hah..feedback was great..oh my god..bball was better..lol.although we lost, but im so happy can..

siao..nth excites me more than playing a good game leh..i think today we played like...siao.super good la.although we lost.

really dont want highlight of the day lahh..siao..i 几 not playing for the choir band worr.shuang!

ciao

i moved again.

zzz...to go through a day like this, i dont mind waiting a lifetime..


everything was usual..ran 四责s during the break..lol.i was doing fine luh..finishing my 10x 2 sets of free throw routine complete with running alr..then out of the corner of my eye i saw ms ... .......siao..scared the shit out of me.cos i realised that if she found out i was wasting time playing bball she'd kill me..i ran into the bushes, trying to hide luh..then once she left i quickly chionged back to class to do physics revision.scary...

the day was quite fine lahh..overall...yeahh.

physics remedial completed...now doing eom..still got the damned articles for gp file..and math..but as we know..im not doing math.i seriously need the E remedial solutions..im gonna die alr

i can see myself being retained..oh.the horror...

well..if it happens..i only gotta say.i deserved it man..

最懂我的人, 谢谢一路默默地陪我..

god please pull me through this..


有时候，越想越觉得，我是自找的。。

我睁开双眼看着空白，忘记你对我的期待，读完了依赖，我很快就离开。。

lol..just after i moved..i realised sth..i took a look at my dashboard.gay shit..i have a super old blog. sec 3 i think..i read the first few posts...wow..super cute okay..i have one sec 1 sec 2 de also, shall read when i have the time omg..the memories.

like.wth was i thinking when i typed those stuff man..i dont know..seriously


ciao.

Dedicated to the number 14