Everytime i chance upon old photos or my photo wall, i spend a hell lot of time reminiscing the past. Which also puts me into a somewhat reflective mode. And so while pasting pictures on the wall today, i did an impromptu move to write some thoughts up there too. They are really incoherent words but i think it can count as my 2016 (or even life) resolutions. 

Another year has passed again. I swear it's true that the older you get, the faster time passes? This winter hols is coming to an end and y2s2 is right around the corner like NEXT WK can you believe it. Not dreading the new sem (yet) but hey i would love a few more days of holidays.

2015 was a rather smooth year for me. To sum it all up, it's just school, work and my loved ones. I've pretty much adapted to the university life already and thankfully school has been kind to me so far. Frustrating moments still exist with increasingly difficult projects but at least results are still decent, so it makes the hardwork worth it. Very grateful for ky who has been my best ranting partner especially every morning when we take 96 to school together. It really doesn't seem like we've spent 1.5 years of uni life together already. And the coming sem is probably our last sem where we can take the same mods together; gonna cherish this last half yr with many of my friends who are going exchange in sem 1 cus i'm likely not gonna see them for a year. That said, I'm going to Poland for exchange in y3s2!! Really excited to finally have the chance to travel, but I'm also aware of the challenges ahead. From mapping modules and internships to being super independent and having a one yr ldr.. i guess all these will really push me out of my comfort zone and hopefully I'll be able to take all these in my stride. My only wish for this coming sem is just to stay consistent and get an internship for PTS/ scholarship.

Have worked as a clinic assistant and a tutor.. first time i'm trying both jobs hah although the clinic one doesn't exist anymore. Got a peep into what real life work is probably like with the amount of bitching and complaints.. and i think my experience is considered a mild one already. But made some nice friends so all's good. Tuition has been rather manageable except that i don't know how to get my tutee to improve. Motivating kids isn't really my thing and my patience level is so low sometimes i wonder why i even care whether she understands. What a bad teacher mindset, but i guess i'll try to do better this year. In the midst of finding some event jobs to do but to no avail. So at this rate i don't know how I'm gonna save up for exchange but i still have a year so well. Just calculated my spendings for the year which amounted to 4.5k.. that's near 400 a month on average? For a not v well-off person i think that's alot and i should really cut down my expenditure this year. Maybe less than 200 a month? Or 250 to be more realistic, considering i'm in the year of 21st parties and I'll have to spend money on presents. Just went for one on nye, one on new year and another one is coming up in less than two weeks already? Wow really the year of parties.

I think this decade of being in our 20s is really full of milestones that are probably life changing even. Now is the period of stepping into adulthood and celebrating with 21st parties. Then graduation is gonna come sooner or later, followed by having our first legit full time jobs, then we'll be busy attending weddings and baby showers sooner or later gosh thinking about it is kinda scary.

I don't really have new year resolutions for 2016 because i always don't keep to them. Like really, out of 12 of my resolutions last year i have only accomplished 3? Plus i don't even look at them throughout the year. Perhaps i need to set more tangible goals, and achievable ones that aren't too over ambitious. I really just hope for some personal development this year and the rest is just the usuals (maintain my results/ worklife balance etc.). And hopefully after getting my planner I'll be more active in documenting my thoughts. Saw my senior having a happy memories bottle where she pens down stuff and keeps these pieces of paper inside. Pretty cool eh. Should do something like this too except that it'd be in my planner.

In terms of relationships with people, I'm happy to say that i've spent sufficient time with my family (at least i really treat family as first priority), i still keep in touch with close friends and my r/s with jervis has been pretty stable. I really can't deal with being alone for long and i need these people to keep me sane. So thankful to always have people who support me; I should really be contented and not ask for more. Especially friends whom i can confide my problems or whatever negative thoughts i have, you know who you are. Family goes without saying of course. And the bf who has to deal with my temper at times but is always patient and good to me. This is really the first time i feel serious about a r/s and i truly appreciate your presence in my life.

Here's to a memorable 2016. Hope I'll be able to look back and have no regrets for whatever I've done. Happy new year everyone!