take me away from me

with no one left to save you from yourself
Thursday, November 25

i've MOVED
relink me.

cried alone in the dark 7:04 PM

Tuesday, November 23

mwahahahas.

did i mention that the Os are over
and im partying like madd.

im so busy that i have hardly any time to do normal stuffs.

lol.
if i were to blog everything that i did,
just for the past three days...
i'l die.

hahahh.
and im spending money like cow eating grass.

get wad i mean.

takecares guys.
i wont deny im going crazy
mwahhas... wheeee..

-poof-

cried alone in the dark 4:36 PM

Friday, November 12

my aphrodisiac;




i haffta get lunch myself today la.
wad is this, i'l just starve!
alright, that was exaggerated la..
how do i even starve with a fridge loaded with chocs.
three more papers
and al'of the books and papers will be dumpd away
im so prepared for that day.
and i need not haff to live with my hair which is getting longer each day
just another week, and a brand new me.
but for now thou shall not bother living in this mess.


and here i go... again...

cried alone in the dark 1:46 PM

Thursday, November 11

Happy Fifteen!

+ Shiyan +



May al'your dreams and wishes come true.
al'the best!



cried alone in the dark 1:28 AM

Tuesday, November 9

theres this bee buzzn ard, and the insecticide is outta my sight
and now... its infrontaa me!
-smacks!
mwahahahs.

another heartbreak;
sara is outt. ohhh great. i swear those judges'r blind.
and tyra is like woahhh. hottt.

im sneezn, whos cursing -stares
the Os. so far so good.
i'd just hope to pass my phys
it'l really be quite a task for the scientifically challenged. lol

did i mention anything bout the pervertic guy
hes suchh an ass la kayy, but im not the victim la. obviously -. -
i shall not elaborate on wad he did, appetite will be ruined.
cldnt resist on cute things i see along the way and happily wasted $
went hunting for salons, and comparing which one is the best
we even had plans drawn up. and its hectic schedule after Os. hahaa.
soon, i'l be on a shoppin spree.. ohhh and,
i must credit my levis jeans to the very nice service of m1.

thanks for taggin;
guys outt there, we really do haff loadd catching ups to do
and this Os is draining my energy away, but no worries
i'l recupperate and we'l party al'night long. hahaas.
takecares!

cried alone in the dark 1:52 AM

Friday, November 5

+ Every night i see her cry... +
__My.digital.Story__

ilove thatt advertt. sadly, nobody knows that song.

i'v ought to kill myself.
shut this whole damn thing down w/o saving my entry
-curses

Os aint as scary as i thought it would be.
and questions are fairly do-able and yeahh. its good haha.

those who suggests break ups.
saying that you need to concentrate on studies and the coming Os
you ought to be ashamed of yourself, being freaking insensitive
and hurting those who treasured just being with you.
i swear i'l slapp the hell outta you if i sees you.
its bullshit kayy. take emaths paper1 for example.
i bet the sec3s can even manage it. its sec1 stuffs.
xcept for a few hard qns la.
but stil, suchh acts are being condemned
and i hope you'l probably get killed like the dogg i saw along the road.
lungs, intestines come flying out. bloody scene.
thats wad you get for hurting another. you heartless creeep.
'nuff said.

lol.invigilators can be rather distracting.
and theres this malay female tcher who is so chioo.
and i swear im not the only one who feels this way
imagine this :
as she walks past, ppl'l look at her al' the way til shes outta sight
and that oldman is suchha flirt.
during add maths paper, he was tryin to.. idontnoee? seduce?! hahaa
talking and talking; sitting closer and closer
smackks his face.

i'v tried straightening out my thoughts
i shldnt forgo years of friendship just because of months of eyesorenes
i shall not hate anyone now
and yes. im serious.

a shoutout to those who visits and taggs my blogg:
mwahs! thanks and yupp catch up some time yeahh?
takecares. i love you all.

ohh and, to my very nice angel.lol.
who tries to tolerate my insane-ness everytime
and tho, i did tried to be tolerant to yours as well. hahaha.
anw, you really did motivate me like loads.
you'r so sweet la. thanks alot yupp -huggs
cldnt get thru w/o you . awww, suchh a nice msg to you.
LOL. -loves
and you better love me back. hahha. it must be mutual.

even tho i'v promised not to hate anyone
but this , i must say.
i frreaakking HATE taufiq.
sry to those lovers of his, i'v offended.
everyone is entitled to their own opinion. mwahhas.

cried alone in the dark 1:08 PM

Monday, November 1

i knew it al' along //so predictable


damn. its killing me

holding on.

turn your face to the sun; and the shadows fall behind

cried alone in the dark 11:24 AM

oc.
on the cover of life

and im drooling over mischa barton
-obsessions-

cried alone in the dark 11:15 AM

Hey.im writing to you
Not to tell you
that i stil hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
how we fell apart
how this fell apart

the days i spent
so cold so hungry
were full of hate
i was so angry

Why weren't you there
on the nights that i cried
its not okay.but im alright

Those were just the
long lost memory of mine
i spent so many years
learning how to survive
and now im writing just to
let you know im stil alright

and all i dream is you

Loving you.feel so right
i cant deny it.in my eye
Oh baby.tell me why
why did you.say goodbye

You were the
The last thing on my mind



left to face myself alone
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toh_xuantong@hotmail
i can't abandon everyone

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my words that nobody understands
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Fuck off//Leave
The inside bruises
Stop just whats killing me
And now i see how i bleed for you


The person falling here is me
i can hear you whispering



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but you cant even hear me scream

oh my love please dont cry
i'l wash my bloody hands
and we'l start a new life

i dont know much at all
i dont know wrong from right
all i know is that i love you tonight

Don't you know that
all i really want is you
Gotta know that
all i really need is you

and if i make it through today
will tomorrow be the same
m i just running in pace
and if i stumble and i fall
should i get up and carry on
or will it all just be the same

its me against this world
and i dont care
i dont care
silent screams

the scars run deep down
inside this tattooed body

when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night
do you even wonder for awhile

are you happy out there
in this great wide world

i died in my dreams
wads that supposed to mean
got lost in the fire
i died in my dreams
reaching out for your hand
my fatal desire