... now SMSes & personal phone calls... what's next...

i think personal emails are next... think i must be very careful & discreet next time when i reply to personal emails in office next time...

he seems to be in bad mood on thursdays nowadays.. dunno why...

last thu.. he RMed me at ard 5pm.. asking me if i can stay back till half six as he wanna go thru some stuff with me at the conference room... i was having a headache tt day but i couldnt say no... so i replied him in a sacarstic way "dun think i can say no right?"... not sure if he can catch my sacar... anyway... our meeting started at 5.30pm coz he needs to write some notes before tt...

so the meeting took place... with my headache & in a drowsy state... glad tt we finished on time & we finished the discussion by 630pm... cant wait to go home & rest... however... he said this before we leave the conference room...

"Oh... one more thing... can we keep personal calls & smses to a minimum?"

I was pretty stunned by this... but i din react violently due to my headache... i relent again saying okie immediately.. i just cant wait to get home... then he carried on to explain...

"I know R*** (someone from my team who has been with the company for 7 yrs too...) has been making loads of personal calls & smses during office timing but you NEW BIRDS should keep ur personal calls & smses to a low volume k...."

sigh... i just said "okie"... nothing else... i just wanna leave the conference room & go home...

on my way back... i kept thinking abt what he had said... the more i think abt it.. the more angry i get... i hardly make any personal calls during office hours k... not as if i chat with my gal friends or boyfriend (i dun even have one...) during office hrs... as for smses... sometimes i dun even receive a single sms from anyone in a day lo... last thu i do admit i had more sms but that day China, Taiwan & Hong Kong mkts are closed anyway... i dun have any calls to make... but he dun have to even control that right??? not as if he doesnt call his daughter during office hrs or sms...

TOLERATE is all i can do now... 2 more mths... i am counting down...

Great tt i will only see him 2 days next week... will make sure i dun do any mistake.. dun wanna give him any chances again...

... HE.. has reached my threshold this time ...

can't believe tt i have to take such SHIT on a thursday from him... thought he only like to give SHIT to me during the start of the week... coz i know i wasnt as efficient as i was on Mondays & Tuesdays... he has highlighted that to me... SO I TOOK THE EFFORT TO CHANGE ALREADY... but still... i still cant stop him from giving me SHIT...

I do admit i was in the wrong since i was late for 10 min this morning... i have already apologised... & i have already made the effort to take the earlier bus already.. how am i able to expect that traffic conditions are going to be so bad?!?! I dun have a crystal ball... i cant read into the future...

was super duper sianz when i saw his msg on reuters messenger..

"u r too frequently late for my liking..."
wtf... too frequently late?!?! i was only late today for this week k... it is not as if he was on time everyday k... Monday he was late for 20 min... & it was bright & sunny... no rain... pls la... shouldnt he lead by example before he criticise?

"u should be looking at 845am to reach office daily..."
this is not the first time he told me this le... though my official working time starts at 9am... i toold myself.. okie.. i will try to reach at ard 845am... btw 845am to 9am... I HAVE BEEN DOING THAT FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS ALREADY... what more he wants? I am only late on those days which i am stuck in traffic jams... i cant control that!!! i will nv know which are the days i will meet with traffic jams...

"if it rains in the morning, u should wake up earlier & take the earlier bus since there will likely to be traffic jams..."
hello... do i look like a weather forecast to you? how am i supposed to know which are the mornings tt it will rain?!?! if i can predict the future...i think i wun need to be in sales team le.. i can jolly well join the analysts & predict the financial mkts...

the best thing is... after he told me all these shit on RM... he talked to me as if nothing has happened... asked me to help him buy lunch back since i am going out to buy lunch... make small talks & joked with me during office hours... after hearing tt my cough is back... be nice & ask me to go home to rest early... damn 2-faced la... wth...

i already feel shitty in this job le... dun see any prospects... staying on just for the sake of completing 1 yr so tt my resume wun be too "ugly"... so everyday i keep telling myself the gd things abt working there... great location... nice colleagues... well-equipped pantry... but the SHIT he keeps giving me really made me very discouraged... i wonder how long more i can last... i know i am not a good sales person... coz i lack tt persuasiveness... but i really dun like to force ppl to do things they dun want... neither do i like to disturb them when they are busy with work... a few things he asked me to do.. i really see no point... if the trialists dun log in to our webpage even though i have brought them thru... means they dun find it useful already... if they have no time to read.. they will at least let me know.. but some of them dun even have time to talk to me... it is so obvious they are not interested at all.. & yet i have to keep hounding them.. do this & do that... if they are interested i really dun mind since it is my job... but why force when they already dun show interest even after countless calls from me....

he thinks i stayed back late after 6pm almost daily coz i am slow in my work & i cant finish my stuff? it is becoz most of the trialists are only free after 4pm for me to talk to them & bring them thru our pdt... 2 hrs where got enough.. of course i need to stay back late la.. & he begins to take me for granted... wtf... he gets every wed morning off coz he stayed back late to call India clients... sometimes he even left earlier than me lo... i get nothing but more SHIT from him...

i am so sick & tired... both mentally & physcially... & i haven even worked for a year... after lunch when i keep recalling his words on RM... tears just started to roll in my eyes... i cant seem to stop them.. so i went to the ladies & cry for a while... he really has reached my threshold this time... i have nv been so pissed with him & myself for the past 10 mths... everytime he "nag" at me... i keep apologising... telling him i will take note... then i tell myself... okie... i must change... coz i dun wanna give him a chance to give me shit again... but i realised it is fruitless... what is the use of praising me a few days later after giving LOADS OF SHIT... i nv take his praises seriously... i always feel tt he only said it for the sake of saying...

dreads... still got work tmr... i have always looked forward to Friday... but not this time...

i miss school... =(

... oppps... splurged again =p ...

i always have a soft spot for shoes & heels... guess this isnt uncommon among ladies right...

i have been eyeing this pair of heels for sometime le... decided to go buy it... then another pair of heels caught my attention... shit... i just find it so hard to resist... though the discount wasnt fantastic... i decided to buy 2 PAIRS at one go.. LOL....

i am not supposed to spend so much coz i am still paying off my sch debt... guess the irrational side of me just got over me when it comes to shoes & heels... or perhaps i hope to make myself feel better since i have postponed my HK trip...

GSS is coming! Yeah! Really need to revamp my wardrobe man! Looking forward to it! =D

... familiar faces ...

i keep seeing familiar faces recently.. or maybe i should be more specific... i have seen a couple of familiar faces in just one day.. on wednesday...

it has been a long time since i have seen them... not sure if one of them recognised me.. though we stood side by side on the same bus... we din talk... but i think it should be her... coz she hasnt changed much since secondary sch i think... the funny thing is after she alighted.. i saw another familiar face from sec sch... but i dun think it is him... i think the guy i saw just look like him tt's all...

during lunch tt day... i also saw another uni friend whom i haven been talking to for a long time... din go over to say hi also coz he was seated pretty far from me... okie.. i admit.. also partly coz of awkwardness... it is not going to be easy to strike a conversation between us again i feel... i think he will feel the same way too...

... sh*t... 1 confirmed H1N1 case in HK ...

sigh sigh sigh... how suay can things get man... bad things really like to come together sia...

supposed to have already recovered from flu already... so went back office yesterday... but a full day in an air-conditioned room plus a freaking cold bus journey back home just made it worse & my fever came back! Supposed to meet Yuxin.. Iris... Jing & Meizhi for delicious brunch at Riders Cafe this morning... but couldnt make it in the end.. siannnnzzzzzz.....

just watched the news & there is now 1 confirmed H1N1 case in HongKong!!! WTH!!! in super dilemma now la... dunno what to do now... can only wait for more news now i guess...

... hasnt been so sick for so long ...

quite scary to be so sick at times like this... with all news headline all talking abt swine flu... also my first time to see 2 doctors in less than 24 hrs... however... think i was not lucky to meet with good ones...

first doc i saw on mon din even give me lozenges when i already told him i have a sore throat... when i asked his unfriendly clinic assistant... he din even bother to help me ask the doc abt it & just brushed me off by saying "the antibiotics will help in ur sore throat"... omg... cant believe she actually dared to tell me this lo.. coz the doc already told me the antibiotics he had subscribed to me were meant to help me clear my acnes (the doc gave me this coz he saw 1 acne on my forehead... wth...) i chose not to say anything coz the clinic was small & packed with ppl... dun think i will go back there again...

as expected... my sore throat led to high fever so i had to go see another doc the next day... the second doc was better.. but din really bother explain to me what happened to me even though my fever was near 39 degrees... just gave me one day of mc... but i think he is too confident with my body... thought i can recover in just one day... but i still had a slight fever this morning... thought without mc.. i din wanna spread my illness/germs to my colleagues.. so called in to get 1 day urgent leave to rest at home... my mum asked why din i ask the doc for another day of mc yesterday... haha... coz i have nv thought of doubting professional judgement...

finally feeling better now.. returning to work tmr... glad tt friday is a public holiday... so just a 1-day work week for me... haha...

... sadness is contagious ...

super tired now... had very little sleep last night... cant really snuggle in bed now as my hair is still wet...

weekend was occupied so far... chill & sang ktv till wee hrs last night... met 3 different grps of friends today...

some of my bestest gal friends are going thru a very rough patch now... wanna say this to them... though i am sure they have heard countless times from others too... stay strong & move on k... all wounds take time to heal...

*struggling to keep my eye lids open*

going to sleep till damn late later.. looking forward to watching 爱就宅一起later too...

... c***** sisters ...

(i am not trying to imply any vulgarities here or what... those stars are more for fill-in-the-blanks...)

i think my sister & i are cursed... thus.. "cursed sisters"... but my sister thinks tt we are just clumsy...

it was a "bloody" day for me today... fell while walking down the elevator at mrt station.. fell on my left knee & right leg.. so have a swollen knee & cuts on both legs... very coincidentally... my sister fell while walking down stairs yesterday... & to think i was exclaiming to her last night "how did you fall while walking on flats?"... seems tt i speak too much... but she was luckier than me.. only had bruises.. whereas i had cuts... sigh...

ppl who were with me were not spared as well...

went to buy some bites with a colleague during lunch today... saw a cut on his finger with some dried blood.. asked him what happened & he said he was cut by the buckle of his belt........

after work went to meet Lydia at Far East Plaza & we headed to Hob Nob for dinner... she ordered a can of coke... while she is trying to open tt can of coke... the small metal handle broke & cut her finger... omg... din know suayness can spread like tt...

Hopefully the end of today will mark the end of ALL suayness....

... 612 星球 ...

S.H.E - 612星球
作词：徐世珍 / 作曲：郑楠

满园玫瑰 我以为 找到我那一朵
认真爱了 却狠狠 刺伤我的双手
责备什么人也没有用
玫瑰都红 难免看错

望着天空 爱是否 活在童话里头
小王子说 有些事 流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱 会一直寂寞 Oh~

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我 忍著痛 也愿意往下走
不快乐至少 要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
相遇前 我还要 翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快 请你等等我

擦乾眼泪 一个人 漂流在这宇宙
小王子说 爱一定 开在某个角落
路上相爱的人那么多
我会幸福吗 在什么时候 Oh~

我但愿有一个人在等我

在属於我的612星球

好让我 忍著痛 也愿意往下走

不快乐至少 要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我 (等等我)

无条件拥抱着我的所有

相遇前 我还要 翻越多少山丘

花别谢太快 请你等等我

我但愿有一个人在等我

在属於我的612星球

好让我 忍著痛 也愿意往下走

不快乐至少 要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我 (正在等我)
无条件拥抱着我的所有
相遇前 我还要 翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快 请你等等我

(just click on the title & it should bring u to another pg where it will play the song... can only do this for now as i dunno how to insert a media player to play a particular song in a post...)

... my phone is scratched ...

sigh... less than 6-mth old & my handphone is scratched!!! Blame it on my carelessness la... din even realised i dropped it... although it is with the cover... looks like it is a very bad fall... the scratch is realli obvious... haiiii... maybe this is a blessing in disguise... at least i din lose it... coz i dropped it without realising it... luckily when i went back to Shihui's car to search for it.. managed to find it before other ppl does... phew... think i must take extra note on future...

bad things like to come in a string of events too... got a very bad blister from a new pair of shoes yesterday... so bad till bleeding occured... open wound now... my female boss told me i should have bitten my new shoes before i wear them... she always does that & she never get blisters from her new shoes... i find this very very amazing lo.. how can such a thing be true... no logic at all... waxing ur shoes with wax or applying moisturiser are much more convincing & with logic too... how could it be tt u bite ur new shoes before wearing so tt they will nv "bite" u back?!?!?
unbelievable leh...

oh... went PS Cafe @ Demsey with Shihui, Ying & Jing... nice place with nice ambience too i think... but the food there is realli ex sia... guess i will only go there if i feel richer or something... feeling pretty poor now...

!!! I PAINTED MY TOE NAILS DARK RED !!!

cant really believe it myself too... thanks to Jing... wanted to get a colour closer to pink to go with my fingernails... but was persuaded to paint it dark red instead... i know the colour is really nice & mature... but i dun think i can carry it off very well leh... guess i really need lots of time to get used to it...

oh... but the nail colour goes very well with a new pair of heels i just bought... =)

... 1st post for 2009 ...

i know i haven been updating for a quite a while.. but i din know i haven blog even once since 2009 started... lol... i wasnt exactly very busy... but i guess i was just purely lazy.. as usual... wanted to blog quite a no of times... but my laziness just managed to push the thought of blogging away... tsk tsk...

to summarise some of the things i did in the last couple of weeks... met up with 4 grps of ppl which i haven seen for a long time... one is my ex-colleagues from my internship company... another is some from RV Interact Club... not to forget my RV Sec 4 classmates & PJC J1 classmates... i think it is really nice to be able to catch up with friends which you haven met for a long time... finds it great to know how they have been... and it is pretty amazing to see how different they have changed over the years too... (refering to 1 of the Sec 4 classmates here... think Jing & Meizhi should know who...)

also got to know one shocking news from my ex-colleagues abt what happened after i left my internship company... major changes & restructuring were unavoidable... but i din expect something i did in the past will create such a hoo-ha in the company after i ended my internship... i used to write a blog during internship to track what i have done so as to help me in writing my attachment log book... of course i cant help it but added some emotions in... like how sianz i think preparing & updating the new system was since it was mostly admin work... & this actually resulted in my ex-internship managers having a bad impression coz someone in the company found my blog... (wth...)


apparently... this new IT manager, who joined the company after i left, went to search online for the name of the new system & came across my blog.. then he showed it to my ex-managers... which resulted them to interrogate my ex-colleagues... when i heard this... i was super shocked la... din expect anyone to go search la.. they told me my senior ex-manager was pretty upset with this... but i seriously dun mean any harm.. nor was i criticising abt the new system.. i cant even rem what i wrote... & i also cant rem when i deleted tt blog... i should have deleted tt blog right after my internship... then there wun be so much shit le i guess... to think i even asked my ex-manager(the more junior one) to be one of my referals for my resume... 1 big mistake... sigh...