can't believe tt i have to take such SHIT on a thursday from him... thought he only like to give SHIT to me during the start of the week... coz i know i wasnt as efficient as i was on Mondays & Tuesdays... he has highlighted that to me... SO I TOOK THE EFFORT TO CHANGE ALREADY... but still... i still cant stop him from giving me SHIT...
I do admit i was in the wrong since i was late for 10 min this morning... i have already apologised... & i have already made the effort to take the earlier bus already.. how am i able to expect that traffic conditions are going to be so bad?!?! I dun have a crystal ball... i cant read into the future...
was super duper sianz when i saw his msg on reuters messenger..
"u r too frequently late for my liking..."
wtf... too frequently late?!?! i was only late today for this week k... it is not as if he was on time everyday k... Monday he was late for 20 min... & it was bright & sunny... no rain... pls la... shouldnt he lead by example before he criticise?
"u should be looking at 845am to reach office daily..."
this is not the first time he told me this le... though my official working time starts at 9am... i toold myself.. okie.. i will try to reach at ard 845am... btw 845am to 9am... I HAVE BEEN DOING THAT FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS ALREADY... what more he wants? I am only late on those days which i am stuck in traffic jams... i cant control that!!! i will nv know which are the days i will meet with traffic jams...
"if it rains in the morning, u should wake up earlier & take the earlier bus since there will likely to be traffic jams..."
hello... do i look like a weather forecast to you? how am i supposed to know which are the mornings tt it will rain?!?! if i can predict the future...i think i wun need to be in sales team le.. i can jolly well join the analysts & predict the financial mkts...
the best thing is... after he told me all these shit on RM... he talked to me as if nothing has happened... asked me to help him buy lunch back since i am going out to buy lunch... make small talks & joked with me during office hours... after hearing tt my cough is back... be nice & ask me to go home to rest early... damn 2-faced la... wth...
i already feel shitty in this job le... dun see any prospects... staying on just for the sake of completing 1 yr so tt my resume wun be too "ugly"... so everyday i keep telling myself the gd things abt working there... great location... nice colleagues... well-equipped pantry... but the SHIT he keeps giving me really made me very discouraged... i wonder how long more i can last... i know i am not a good sales person... coz i lack tt persuasiveness... but i really dun like to force ppl to do things they dun want... neither do i like to disturb them when they are busy with work... a few things he asked me to do.. i really see no point... if the trialists dun log in to our webpage even though i have brought them thru... means they dun find it useful already... if they have no time to read.. they will at least let me know.. but some of them dun even have time to talk to me... it is so obvious they are not interested at all.. & yet i have to keep hounding them.. do this & do that... if they are interested i really dun mind since it is my job... but why force when they already dun show interest even after countless calls from me....
he thinks i stayed back late after 6pm almost daily coz i am slow in my work & i cant finish my stuff? it is becoz most of the trialists are only free after 4pm for me to talk to them & bring them thru our pdt... 2 hrs where got enough.. of course i need to stay back late la.. & he begins to take me for granted... wtf... he gets every wed morning off coz he stayed back late to call India clients... sometimes he even left earlier than me lo... i get nothing but more SHIT from him...
i am so sick & tired... both mentally & physcially... & i haven even worked for a year... after lunch when i keep recalling his words on RM... tears just started to roll in my eyes... i cant seem to stop them.. so i went to the ladies & cry for a while... he really has reached my threshold this time... i have nv been so pissed with him & myself for the past 10 mths... everytime he "nag" at me... i keep apologising... telling him i will take note... then i tell myself... okie... i must change... coz i dun wanna give him a chance to give me shit again... but i realised it is fruitless... what is the use of praising me a few days later after giving LOADS OF SHIT... i nv take his praises seriously... i always feel tt he only said it for the sake of saying...
dreads... still got work tmr... i have always looked forward to Friday... but not this time...
i miss school... =(
