Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours

Tkgs
Taiwanese
home sick u_u

-8:45 PM

there's a fullstop, not faraway
Right in front of me, and big
I tried to run away, but time is like a travelator.
It brings me closer and closer
I ran, I keep running,
and tears flow behind me
I hide, I cry, I run,
I kneel down and pray, and run,
I run and pray,
but there are people around me, looking.
You beside me, just right beside me,
but you didn't know I'm on the travaelator,
towards the big fullstop
because I smile when I turn
you didn't know I cry
because I smile when I turn
I cry, I run, I hide
the travelator's fast

If I can't stop the travelator,
if You can't stop time for me God
then will you, remove the fullstop?
will You please, remove the fullstop?
It's big and glaring
and hurting
and I'm running and crying and praying
and hurting
will You please remove it?
It's for everyone's good, You know it
Oh Lord, my Father,
I am begging, I am begging
I am running and hiding and crawling
will You please
please remove it


-6:19 PM

when I do silent cries and try to stop myself from doing it
when I do silent cries until my sides hurt
when I can't stop myself the moment I think about it
when I can't help but act in front of you
when I get nauseous thinking of food
when I get headache and try to get the image out of my mind to stop tears from flowing out
when it haunts me, day and night.
Do you know there's only 5 more days left.
I don't know what will happen after that,
let's hope it's good
let's hope God hear my prayers.
let's hope you'll accept Him and it'll be good
I don't even want to think about 8th.
Never have I dragged 8th so much, or any day in my life.
I'm even so tired to type.
Let my prayers come true , Father
Please. Idk what will happen if it didn't.


-10:09 PM

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try so hard to hide
it always failed again

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..

I've want to move on and be who I am
I hate to be lost here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I wanna go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away

I've want to move on and be who I am
I hate to be lost here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I wanna go my own way

What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

What about trust?

you know I never wanted to hurt you

and what about me?

What am I supposed to do?

..... I'll miss you

so
I want to move on and be who I am.
I hate to be stuck here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now

I want me to stay
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am
You've got to move on and be who you are.


-12:26 AM

what do you do when they all cry because of you,
you pat on their heads, say, don't cry, and leave, far far away

I'm sorry Lord for not being strong enough,
but I'm really really really exhausted.
Lord, you know I am
Father, I'm tired, very.
but I'll wait Father,
I'll wait patiently, for you love me
I'm sorry for breaking down again and again,
but I'll wait Father, I'll wait
I'll leave only when you say yes.

But Father,
please be quick
because I'm really tired.
of everything, of existence
here.
my own goals in life are gone,
my beliefs are destroyed
isit meant to be , Father, isit meant to be,
some things will never turn out happy in the end.
isit meant to be, Father, isit meant to be,
but don't you define your own happiness

please hold me from falling.


-11:18 PM

what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you odne to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you donetto him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him
what have you done to him


to make him become like this
look, to make him hurt like this
you stare at your own mistake and you want to run away
you coward


-11:17 PM

Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there

Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see?

You start to wonder why you're here not there
I've become what I can't be
You start to wonder why you're here not there
I've become what I can't be
hurting three all at once
how many have you hurt all at once?
3.
three. three. three.
and here you are enjoying your life
and three of them suffer suffer suffer
didn't you feel guilty? didn't you feel you don't deserve all this?
we're all wearing down thin to the core.
4.
four. four. four of us.
we're all wearing down thin to the core.
aren't we

2
two choices: stay and face this/ leave
at least one will benefit at the end of the day for the latter
but it's a selfish selfish one.
but I've not been me.
because of decisions i've made
you made 3 guys emo,
4 worn out, exhausted,
and only leave yourself with one choice,
one choice for yourself to be yourself.
there's no way for you to redo everything again.
no matter how guilty you are
but I can't stare, and look,
at mistakes, three, I've made and caused

I've become what I can't be
I've become what I don't want to be
I'm confused confused and tired
I've lost the shine, I can feel it now
I'm confused confused and tired
I've become what I can't be
I've become what I don't want to be
and guilt, guilt rubs in hard, hard, hard.

if time can't rewind
I don't know what else I can do

You start to wonder why you're here not there.


-12:09 AM

你的姿態　你的青睞
我存在在你的存在
你已為愛　就是被愛
你揮霍了我的崇拜

我活了　我愛了
我都不管了
心愛到痛了　恨到酸了
就好了

可能的　可以的
真的可惜了
幸福好不容易
怎麼你卻不敢了呢

我還以為我們能　不同於別人
我還以為不可能的　不會不可能

你的姿態　你的青睞
我存在在你的存在
你已為愛　就是被愛
你揮霍了我的崇拜

風箏有風　海豚有海
我存在在我的在
所以明白　所以離開
所以不再為愛而愛
自己存在在你之外

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I tried, really tried, to start conversations for the past month.
It has always been me can't you see.
and It always ended up in nothing.
and still you didn't bother to do anything, or start anything.

I'm sorry for being so slow,
to finally realise that
you aren't interested anymore...

you must've found me annoying all these while
sorry, i won't disturb anymore.

Maybe you're too busy.
(but aren't you always playing games)
you aren't interested anymore...
你已為愛　就是被愛
你揮霍了我的崇拜
enough


-12:26 AM

http://www.xanga.com/nobodiie2

lol, i'm not really shifting to that blog, just that it will be a non-emo one:D
WOO!!
this will still remain though :D
but you will really prefer that one more, trust me ;)



-8:28 PM

It's time to go back,
to the Heart of Worship

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Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside...

Cox I'm tired of waiting,
tired of this ambiguity
I don't know how to categorise this relationship
(cox you never said anything,
after all these months)

cox I never really know
The way you feel inside...






-9:48 PM

她說過: 奶奶一直會在這裡等你回來啊
不要怕　（專心考試　十二月回來也沒有關係）

拜託 你一定要遵守諾言 要等我
拜託
you said you'd wait
please waitplease


I need a miracle,
please please please
a miracle, please
please i beg you please

there are so many if only-s, why do i always live in them
wake up you dumb shit.start making decision with your brain
stop making everyone ...
but what's done's done, long ago.
what's there left to safe the day? who;s there left to save the day?
can the day be saved?
Lord Lord Jesus please please please
wake her up
wake her up now



-8:16 PM

and I nearly


Is that still somewhere I belong?
So many things changed without my knowing
that shop moved, that auntie's gone
that teacher's missing,
and All my beloved
what was once familiar to me
no longer there
no longer exists

You expect to see the same old lovely things
and what welcome you: surprises that are not welcomed

they were never so appealing to me,
maybe grass is always greener on the other side

am I still too slow to adapt to changes?

Almost everyone is gone
Where is everyone?
Where have they all gone?
Can't yall wait?

Not like I can even catch up
I'm losing out
alot


-8:18 PM

Why don't you kiss her (tell her you love her)
Why don't u tell her (tell her you need her)
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside...




-2:26 PM

seriously jo,
"If he doesn't have the guts to confess straight in your face, he's not worth it man."



yeahh we're wwwiiiiissseeee people woo! :P


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我的天啊還要好久..>_<
早知道昨天就跟他們一起回去了


-7:07 PM

那畫面又代表了什麼,
很刺.
那畫面是要告訴我
我該走了嗎?
還選擇和她站在那麼顯眼的地方

我該走了嗎?
一直在許多問號和毫無根據的希望裡
是時候知道答案了吧
才發現, 很多都是自己的推斷和假設

我累了
是時候知道答案了吧?
是時候知道答案了吧?
是時後該走了嗎?


-9:02 PM

為什麼只和你能聊一整夜
為什麼才道別就又想見面
在朋友里面就數你最特別
總讓我覺得很親很貼

為什麼你在意誰陪我逛街
為什麼你擔心誰對我放電
你說你對我,比別人多一些
卻又不說是多哪一些

友達以上戀人未滿
甜蜜心煩,愉悅混亂
我們以後會變怎樣我迫不及待想知道答案

再靠近一點點就讓你牽手
再勇敢一點點我就跟你走
你還等什麼時間已經不多
再下去只好只作朋友

再向前一點點我就會點頭
再沖動一點點我就不閃躲
不過三個字別猶豫這麼久
只要你說出口你就能擁有我

為什麼你寂寞只想要我陪
為什麼我難過只肯讓你安慰
我們心里面明明都有感覺
為什麼不敢面對

我不相信
都動了感情卻到不了愛情
那麼貼心卻進不了心底
你能不能快一點決定
對我說我愛你
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-12:45 AM

How do you know what you know is true? lol xP you didn't even hear it from me.

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