A-S-U!

So today is the ASU/UCLA game and my Dad brought out the BIG tv. We're having a Mexican Fiesta!!! Here are some pictures of our morning.

Of course, we had to start with showing how BIG the tv actually is!!!

And here's Will getting his shoes on...Go ASU!
And here is sweet Candace in her ASU shirt and leggings! FASHIONABLE!
And there's mom's backside...haha, just kidding. This is mom making our Mexican Fiesta!!!
*Chop those onions, Momma!*
Mom definitely has ASU Pride!!! GO Devils!And here's Dad and Will having a BLAST outside!!!
And he goes higher...
...and HIGHER!!!!!!!!!!!

...And then Dad had to go back to his yard work. =)

And the next best thing that happened this morning...*drum roll please*...
...Mom and I went and got -much needed- pedicures! It was so fun! And they really went all out with my toes. That lady just kept putting things on there. It really is more of a purplish, fuscia color but it looks hot pink in the picture...musta been the lighting. =)

And now we are onto the ASU game. Only one more hour. Have a great day!!!

~Suzanne Maughan~

A Rainbow

It has been well over a long time since I have written anything in here. My home does not have the internet so it is only when I have time to write at my parents or grandparents house that I can post. So forgive me if you have stopped coming to our blog because there is nothing to read. I keep saying that I will try to do better but life has kept me busy and on my toes so I am not sure how much better it gets.

Tonight was Chinese food night at my parents house. My husband is off at a bachelor party for a friend of ours and I am left feeling very alone...does that seem weird that marriage has done that to me? In some cases, I feel very independent but when it comes down to it, I just don't feel right without Davey. My emotions make it only worse. I literally cried when he left and I feel bad that he had to deal with that and then leave...he is a good husband...But it just seems that the stress and business of life builds me up to break me down every once in a while. Which brings me to my next subject...

Vacation...Next Wednesday, we are going with our family to Hawaii and it just seems that this break came at a good time. I need the relaxation and fun. But seriously, especially what I need is the chance to sleep and then choose when to wake up and start my day, the chance to do something spontaneous/spur of the moment. Its my chance to have a week of adventure and fun. And though this picture is not of Hawaii, it just reminds me of my great family and the wonderful vacations we go on together. And here comes another one!!! YAY!



The next subject I feel I need to get out of system but which seems to be a very hard one to talk about at the moment is Anasazi...Anasazi Kim, my 6 weeks, dawnstar week, missing the dinner, and not being involved. There seems to be A LOT of subjects right there, all relating back to one special word...Anasazi. So Ill start with Kim and how much it bothers me that the one chance I have to see her is during the time I am in Hawaii. Can I tell you that when I learned about that, tears were also noticeable? I cant really explain why I get that way, especially when it is towards someone I haven't seen in a long time anyway, but it seems to happen. And I also cant explain my relationship with Kim or how even though I seem to be getting older, she always has even BETTER advice...Ive never met anyone else that can just do that. So it bothers me(not that she gives good advice but that Im not seeing her.haha)...and maybe thats why I feel out of the Anasazi world...because visits to the office were usually centered around Kim and advice. I havent step foot in that office in over 8 months. And I just don't feel apart of it. But these pictures only show that I will always be a part of it, that Anasazi can mean something to me, even if I don't think about it every day and dream about being there. It just means life has moved on, right? 'sigh'. Sometimes, life moving on can be tough.

So it seems that this message only says I am on to new life adventures, trying to figure out what is going to come next. I don't mean for this message to sound like life is bad because it certainly isnt. Sometimes it is draining, but seriously, I couldnt have hoped for better things in my life to happen. I know I shouldn't focus on the bad things going on or that I miss the way my life was because I wouldn't change it for a billion dollars but finding out about two great things in my life conflicting was just a bummer...thats just what it was! We'll see where it takes me...life's next adventures.
I can only promise to TRY and update you often.
Take care and Happy Thanksgiving!

~Suzanne Maughan~

Waiting

I have decided to post a short note, telling about my life, without ANY pictures...only b/c this isnt the home computer where I haVe pictures. =)

I guess you could say that Im waiting...waiting for life to change, waiting for more news or excitement...just waiting. But as an impossibly impatient person, I'd say this is a step up from a month ago, when waiting meant whining and frusteration. Now it has turned into just simply waiting.

Im sure some adventure will come soon, I can feel it and I need it.

Tonight we are going to the temple and Im going with a friend on Saturday...I love the temple.

Since time is not available right now, Ill end there...But Have a great day!

John Travolta D-I-S-C-O

The most wonderful event of my week...seeing my brother play John Travolta in his 4th grade musical. This picture explains it all. I am sure to be the luckiest big sister in the entire world. In his white tuxedo and purple, silky shirt, this kid is irrestably the cutest young man to ever walk the earth! So the tribute to the boy that saved my life and kept me going even when life was hard. I love You!!!

On another happy note, I got two new pair of jeans today. And Mom is the witness that they fit me perfectly! I don't fit into any of the jeans that I did when we got married (urg!), so it was good to find something that fit and not have it be a huge size difference than my other jeans. It made me feel good. =)




I just found this picture and decided to let you in on a secret. My family is craZy! Will has his mouth wide open, Candace is crying, and Karin is trying to act like everything is normal. haha. But seriously, if my family weren't so craZy. I wouldn't feel so at home around them. I know I'm the most abnormal one out of the bunch.
But Karin is such a good big sister to these littles one AND to me. I love you, Karin!



And since Im on the subject of family, I have realized now more than ever that there are two people I miss...Andrea and Fatty. Davey and I were talking the other day and I turned on some music and starting dancing like a weirdo and suddenly, I ached for my sister to be there because I know she would have danced with me. I can remember Christmas, the year before last, when her and Karin were in the "tiger room"(oh my gosh, Andrea, if you only saw what Mom has done to that room now!) and they were dancing. I think of that moment when I miss my best buddy, Andrea, because she always did look out for me, like any best buddy (yeah!), best friend, and big sister would do. I love You, my big brother and sister and am so proud to have you both serving missions and changing lives!


And then there's my oldest sister, my hero and one of the best mother's I know. I look up to her probably more than she'll ever know. I live my life in her footsteps, wanting to be a great wife and mother as she is. I am getting choked up so, sorry Jamie, Im not writing much more, but I do love you.






And last but certainly not least, there is no way I could finish this family blog and not say anything about the people who brought me into this world. Sometimes, I really butt heads with my parents but isnt it amazing how I can do that my entire life and we still love eachother so much? I think it is. So Mom and Dad, I love you.

Families ARE Forever

My new post brings NEW pictures...aren't we all proud of me?!!

A friend of mine has been pestering me to get NEW pictures from ''The life of David and Suzanne Maughan''. So I did. I officially uploaded pictures from my camera for the first time since we got married. Whoohoo! Here comes the first picture...


These are my nostrils...how cute. I figured that would be the best way to start of this 'picture blog'...with my cute nostrils. It's going to be hard to situate ALL of the pictures I want to share on here...but Im sure I'll have that figured out by the end of this thing. =) This next picture is my new ROCK! It is the best! I get compliments every day at work and it just gives me reason to show my commitment to my husband in an even BIGGER (and yes, I mean BIGGER) way! haha. It is probably the most beautiful thing in the entire world...ok, maybe Im exaggerating a little bit but I am grateful.

The next one is my BIG eyes...and the blondish caramel-ish hair...which has now turn back to dark, dark brown again, compliments of my husband and myself. =)

And number 4, my excitement after realizing there was a bright RED heart next to my head. I guess little things always did make me happy. =)


These next two (hopefully they come out side by side when I actually post this) are of us going to sleepy. I took that picture of Davey when the entire room was pitch black...I know, Im a rude wife...but it WAS funny. =) hahahaha!!! Poor Davey.

This next one...what are we on, number 7 or something?...is of my cute, cute, CUTE husband. He looks like a lil kid in this pictue...just imagine how cute our kids will be if they look anything like this! He was staying up late, working on his paintball gun to go out camping with the Scouts that weekend.


And number 8 (i think)...this is just a good picture...or at least I think so. Davey thinks I have beautiful eyes...and Id have to agree if we were judging me by this picture. =)


Ladies and gentlemen...this is Suzanne Maughan AS IS! I took these ''smart'' pictures, as Davey would call them, tonight! These are my new glasses and my new hair, like I said, compliments of my husband and I. =)

The one on the right is simply how I feel sometimes...like just biting my lip and raising my eyebrows. It's one of my best looks (haha!). One of my friends and former trailwalkers, Miriam, told me that she liked that about me...that when I get nervous or am truly deep-thinking, I bite my bottom lip. Its that considered cute in some cultures...because I need to join that society since mine probably thinks I just look like a weirdo when making this face. =) Oh well, I'll love me just the same.
And let's just end with this last photo...it is the epiphany of this entire blog...Familes ARE Forever.

I Promise

Did I not promise that I would keep this blog up and running at least every other day? And here I am, 2 weeks later, writing only my seventh post on the entire blog. What a slacker.

I have decided that my love for pictures is so great that I am going to include pictures in most every blog.

Life has been treating me more positively...mainly because of my wonderful family. I have woken up every morning of this week saying, "Today is going to be a great day!" (cheesy, i know). Some days it has worked, other days conflict happens...but all in all, it seems to turn out just fine. I have not counted today into the mix because it was an ups-and-downs all over the place day...so we'll call it a mediocre day.

I wrote a resume for the first time today...isnt that sad? Im 19 and had the same job for 2 years. Never have I experienced anything else. My dream is to be the receptionist at Anasazi...maybe someday they'll let me back. =) If I ever finish school, maybe even becoming a shadow is in my future somewhere...but as a team, we decided tonight that our house is too boring and a baby is next on our list of "life-chaning events". Maybe a baby as cute as this one right here...maybe even a cuter baby, though right now that is not even fathomable because this child is the cutest I have ever seen. But a baby we shall hope for and someday she/he will make my belly fat and my mouth curve up into the sky.



Mix these two children and Im SURE you'd get the cutest baby EVER! Davey was 2 and I think I was 3 in this picture.





I told you I was going to fill these blogs with pictures=). They seem to tell stories better than I ever could.

Dear Love:

A dedication to the love of my life: My husband told me that unless I wanted him to send me to therapy, I had to write at least once a day for ten minutes or longer. Does this sound crazy? Do >I< sound crazy? If I do, oh well! Writing puts my thoughts in order...and since it's been a hard few months, I'm taking his orders and trying to heal. So this is my " dedication to my husband" blog. I cannot believe that I got so lucky as to find my forever love at the age of 19. As I'm writing, he is sitting behind me and laughing that I'm even writing about him...and that's why we're married. His laughter is contagious and I believe that without him, I wouldn't be able to make it through this life...that's why I found him so early. Getting married young was not really in my life plans...and then again, when we started dating, it became part of my life plans because there's no one else I'd rather live through eternity with.

Now comes my exciting news...my sister and her family are officially moving back to Arizona in January!!! If I'm not supposed to have a baby right now, at least I can have a few to hold! =) I am completely happy and excited for them to come back. Even without trying to be baised, I believe that my nephew is the cutest baby on the planet...though in this picture, he looks a little bit skitzo! But he is a keeper!!!

A mommy

The last two months have proved my strong attitude wrong. I feel like I am falling apart slowly each day. I would refrain from using the word "baby" often because it puts a pain in my side. Who knew that emotional pain could transfer to be physical pain? I didnt. And I also didn't know that my Creator had more challenges in mind for me.

Today I felt like giving up...I feel no more strength. I feel weakness and failure.

I am at a loss of words, something that doesn't happen often in my life. My husband worries as I continue to blame myself for every hardship I face...he is a great husband.

These pictures show what I want to be someday...a mommy.

Why?

Do you ever wonder why things happen? Why does our Creator give us challenges that we believe we cant bear...or even if we CAN bear the heartache, we still just don't understand why. It all reverts back to the question of “Why?”.

Do you ever feel like every step of your life has been challenge after challenge, heartache after heartache? I often felt like that as a child and teenager, like everyone was 'out to get me'. I guess I thought once I was married, I wouldn't feel like that. I never thought being married would be easy, I just figured my “Big Challenge” stage had passed. I guess the past week just made me think about how much [I feel] I have gone through in the past and how I “don't deserve” this. [Im a whiner, as you can see]. I've faced the biggest challenge of my life, losing a part of me that I was so excited to gain. The joy I had felt, I cannot even begin to explain...and then in the matter of an hour, it was completely gone and there was not a single thing I could do about it. I've felt so helpless this past week. I've tried to blame myself or blame anything because in reality, there was nothing I could do and that bothers me. It bothers me that I was given such happiness, only to have it taken away a month later; Only one month of feeling like something was going to be easy in my life. And now I am faced with bearing the same burden every day, as I watch my sister having her second baby in a month and even a sister-in-law who was actually due the day after I should have been. And then I am reminded from the physical pain. And then there's the reminder of working in a pediatric office and seeing newborns every day. Everything I do feels like a reminder. I feel like I can't escape it.

I just wish it was a horrible dream that I'll wake up from. I want my happiness back.

A Note from the Newlyweds

It has been almost 2 months since we got married and I can honestly say that we are happier now than we ever were...at least I am. (haha).

The only downfall is our work schedules collide and we dont have a lot of down time together...but we deal with what we have and are thankful that we have SO much!

The apartment is fun. New things fall apart every week but that makes it an adventure for us. This last week, Davey realized that the garbage disposal hasn't worked since we moved in (ick!) so he took everything apart and fixed it as best he could!

There are many other exciting things in our life that I will wait to post until next time but I love you all!

-Suzanne-

Riding my Bike!

I rode my bike to and from work today. It was quite fun actually. It's one of the only times I have any peace and thinking time these days (besides at midnight).

My bridal dress fitting is today...hopefully my last one because the wedding is in a week and a half. Wow! A week and a half. That is nothing compared to the four months it's been.

Im only on lunch break at work so I have to go...just felt like writing a bit for the day.

-Suzanne-

April 14th, 2007

April 14th, 2007.
I am officially 19 1/2 yrs old.
School is almost over.
I am moving out for the first time in my life.
I am going through the temple.
And most importantly, my name becomes Suzanne Janette Guthrie Maughan.

It is 11 days away and these days have gone slower and slower. My in-laws come in this Friday and I am very excited to see them...maybe them coming will speed up the next week.

Today we found bridesmaid dresses...it only took us TWO months! =) But I can be grateful that we found them and mark one less thing on my list.

As I am writing this, a cd is burning for the wedding reception and I already finished burning 3 others.

My mother warned me that planning a wedding was not as fun as it sounded...I guess the fun part is being so in love that I cant stop smiling every day.

My random sentences are quite hard to follow...my brain keeps spitting out more wedding details at the blank spaces on this page. Many, many wedding details...
...and it'll all be over soon...
...and then soon we'll be living on our own and growing old together...



...I truly cannot wait.
=)
-Suzanne-